15-Jan-2001
Apparently Em-san's manga is going to take longer than I thought. I hope I'll be able to finish it this winter. Until then, I hope you all will be entertained with my horrible fics. ^_^;;;
C&Cs are very welcomed.
It's dark out here. Drops of water fall down from the sky. They aren't so much to soak you up, but enough to make you feel the chill. The fog has appeared since a few hours ago. I can't see my way father than a couple of meters. But it doesn't make me lost. I'm familiar with this place already. All I have to do is go straight for a few minutes and I will arrive at the dorm without any worse trouble. But meanwhile, I'm stuck with nobody but my mind in the middle of this thick white mist.
I ignore the drop that rolls on my face. I ignore the wind that is blowing as if it was trying to blow me away with its strength. I ignore the coldness of the autumn that bites my skin. I just want to go back to my warm room.
And escape from this loneliness.
I hate rains, especially when I don't carry any umbrella with me. Being wet and cold, it bites me not only physically, but also mentally. Being wet, cold, _and_ alone, that is the worst I can get.
I shouldn't have feared it. After all, I was alone all my life. Ask me who was the last person to embrace me warmly and I'll answer, I don't remember. I don't remember anyone ever treated me with warmth and care.
Well, somebody does care. Duo did at least showing me that he cares. But was it really care or he just worried that I would be an obstacle for his mission? After all, we've just met, and I don't actually trust him.
Why is it so hard to trust? Should I blame Dr. J for training this way? But is there a place for trust in this war? How do I know that the person I trust will not stab me from the back?
I tighten my arms around me. It's getting very cold. I shouldn't feel this cold. Why? I've faced a lot worse situation and complained nothing at all. So why do I feel so... cold.
I hate this rain. I hate this wind. I hate this wetness. I want to run, carrying myself back to my room as soon as possible, but I can't. I don't know why.
The rain is getting worse. Not only my jacket, but also my tanktop starts to soak. I feel colder and colder. Whimpering, I cross the bridge and enter the elevator that will take me to the lower ground, ignoring the other passenger that is already there before me. It is warmer here instead of taking the stairs. It's so far. Why do they have to build the dorm down the hill?
After what seems like an eternity, the elevator stopped. I walk out, bracing myself to face the rain again. Come on, Heero, I said to myself. It's only another fifty meters. It can't be that bad.
But the rain never hits me again, I realize in confusion. I turn my head around and see the girl who was with me in the elevator is holding her umbrella, sheltering both of us from the rain. She smiles at me and offers, "Issho ni?"[1]
I stares back at her. Unconsciously, I nod, receiving her invitation.
We walk back to the dorm together. None of us says anything. However, the feeling of having somebody on my side, who help me when I didn't ask, is somehow... strange. I don't know who she is and I am as sure as Hell that she doesn't know who I am. Why is she helping me?
We finally reach the dorm. Without any word, she draws back her umbrella and enters the building. "Arigatou,"[2] I whisper to her loud enough for her to hear. She smiles again at me and says, "Dou itashimashite."[3] With that she walks away and disappears on a corner.
Taking a last glance toward the direction she went, I turn away and go to my own room. But not before stopping in front of Duo's. I still have my laptop in his room and need to get it back.
Before I even manage to knock on the door, it swings open to reveal the braided boy who looks very worried.
"I want to take my-" But my words are cut by his exclaimation.
"Heero, you are all wet!" Before I manage to say anything, he pulls me into his room. "You can get sick if you keep yourself wet. Here!" He brings a towel and ruffles it to my hair like trying to dry a wet dog. "Oh shit, you're shaking! Take off your clothes! Here's another towel. Now sit down on the bed. Let me make you some chocolate milk. Oh Heero, I'd swear one of these days-" He continues to lecture me about my ignorance of my health. But I don't listen to him anymore. I don't look at him anymore. I just close my eyes and let my body relax.
Somehow, I don't feel cold any longer...
The End
Translation:
[1] Issho ni? = Together?
[2] Arigatou = Thank you (if any of didn't know this already...
-_-;;;;)
[3] Dou itashimashite = You're welcome/No problem/It's nothing.
Hime D.
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