02-Sep-2003
Title: Fallout
Author: Christine
e-mail: Devilkitty@speakeasy.net
Pairing:Rashidx02, mentioned 5x3
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Graphic Sexual activity, NCS, OCCness. Quatre Caligiliazation/bastardization. Author was suffering from OD of alcohol and a marathon of I, Claudius from the first day of her vacation, when she started this series back in 01/01. Just plain weirdness. Fifth part of the series.
Duo walked out of the front door of the townhouse that he was sharing with the other three pilots. They had all moved in together after the war, figuring out that while they were really dysfunctional apart, together they might be able to pretend that they were sane. It wasn't a bad life, since he and Heero shared a bed and occasionally went a little further then a good night kiss. They were more friends then anything else and Duo was pretty sure that Heero was still making up his mind if he liked boys, girls or computers, if he liked anything that way. He knew that he had fallen in love with Heero gradually. The trust and odd friendship that had begun after that Quatre's capturing both of them had deepen into something else over all the time that they had spent together. After the war, they both decided that no matter what else happened that they would always be together. G's death hadn't changed that for them, just where they had ended up.
That he had died just as the war was over was something that made Duo imagine that God was real ass at times. He had been rushing to get them all out of the Libra when G had fallen behind the group to help J keep up with them. A soldier had seen the group trying to leave and had shot the two of them. The only thing that comforted Duo was G never knew what hit him. Duo had turned around to see what was keeping him and then suddenly there was a gaping hole in G's spacesuit. G had looked puzzled, like he was trying to figure out why there were all these red droplets of blood hanging in the air around him before he collapsed. Neither one of them had a chance to say goodbye to each other.
Wufei and Trowa were still a couple. Raphael had disappeared back into space, after grudgingly having to dealing with all of them during the war. He was very uncomfortable with the fact that they had all been sleeping together. None of them minded if any of the others ended up in bed with any of the other pilots if they had had a nightmare and wanted to sleep with someone because of that nightmare.
Now his life was comfortable and sweet and he wouldn't trade it right now for anything. He went to the local college, studied hard and was trying to find out what a normal life was. They all were. The latest crisis for them now consisted of what was for dinner and whose turn was it to clean up afterward This was what life should be like.
While he didn't have the excitement of his relationship with G and Howard with Heero, he also was more in control about the sex part of it. Sex wasn't the mind numbing drug that he had used it for to forget some of the worst aspects of pilot training or the general shitiness that had been his life on that dying colony that he had barely escaped. He never wanted to worry about scaring Heero with what he wanted during sex, given some of the more bizarre things that he had enjoyed with G and Howard. Now sex was just part of his small part of his life and not the part that was controlling him, like it had before. He didn't even want to remember the entire incident with Rashid when the man held him 'prisoner' during the war. Rashid was dead and he could be pretend to be normal now. Mostly or as normal as a former terrorist street rat could be, given his problems with some things, like relationships, sex and life. Duo was concentrating on being 'normal' that he forgot most of his training. He forgot to worry about someone shadowing him on the way to his finals, because he was more worried about them then anything else right now. He wasn't worried about the someone that had been following him for a couple of days.
Rashid smiled. He had found his little Atryatd again. He was still as beautiful and still as desirable as he remembered him. He couldn't understand why Duo was living like this though. Duo was made for cool desert nights filled with delight, the leisurely life of the seraglio and satisfying the passion of his lover. He was not being all that he could be with this attempt at living as a 'normal' person and worrying about a job, money and school. Duo was meant to be a pampered by him and treated like the beautiful, rare find that he was. Duo had not taken the trouble to try and find him after the war, since he thought he was dead, so he went looking for Duo. It took a while, but he had managed to find his little gift from Allah. His connections had found out where his gift had disappeared to after the war. He was happy that he could find his Duo again, so that they could continue the relationship that they were meant to have. He decided to take Duo after he finished his classes, since that would give him time to take his little gift back and not have people worry about him until he had left with him. He knew of a place in the desert that he was going to take Duo and it was isolated enough so that they would be able to get to know one another again. Their relationship would be the way that Allah had willed it.
Duo woke up and groaned. The last thing that he remembered was bending over his bike, putting his books in the saddlebag when he felt a like something was biting his leg and then he just collapsed. He had parked in one of the more isolated lots. He liked walking around campus, seeing all that green growing stuff that had popped out when Spring arrived because it was so very different from the colony that he grew up on. Green and growing had never really been part of his life until he settled down after the war on Earth and wanted to enjoy it.
But where was he now? He looked around, confused. He was on a soft bed and his hands were tied to the headboard, tight enough that he couldn't escape, but loose so that he could move around a little, if his legs hadn't been tied also. The cloth around his wrists and ankles felt like silk or really soft cotton and the sheets under his naked body seemed to be made of the same material. He was gagged as well as tied up and there was nothing else in the room but the bed. The only light was from some high slit windows and the walls were a plain white. Why was he here? Why was he tied up? What was going on? How the hell was he getting home?
Duo tried to figure it out, eliminating the people that he knew one by one. Was Wufei playing with him? He immediately dismissed that thought. Not Mr. Vanilla, besides he was devoted to Trowa. They had done nothing strange on the few occasions that they had been together during the war. It had been mostly cuddling after a nightmare then anything else. Sex hadn't happened after that one time that had happened after they had found out that Quatre was bug fuck and stalking pilots as a hobby. They didn't even do the cuddling thing anymore now that Heero was around all the time. With Trowa it was the same thing, cuddling during the war and nothing much beyond that. Now that Heero was around, Duo shared his bed for cuddling and the occasional session of heavy petting.
Trowa and Heero did so not do the restraints thing, too many bad memories for both of them, so they wouldn't be pulling this with him, even as a joke. He didn't think that anyone in that house was into the silk sheets, the only one that he knew that slept in between silk sheets had been Rashid, but he was dead. So who had him? Why wasn't he a little more worried about waking up like this? Most people would freak a little if they woke up in a strange room and tied to the bed. He thought it was a game for the first second or so, but he was worried now since the room reminded him of the one that Rashid had kept him in during the war. That was what freaked him, not anything else. Rashid was dead and he was never going back to being the person that Rashid played with again!
Duo felt his mouth go dry when he heard the door open and he lifted his head to take a good look at his captor. He felt his stomach twist when he recognized Abdul. Shit! He had thought that he had seen the last of those goons when nothing happened to him or Heero after they escaped from that place after Heero had killed Quatre. He guessed that they were just waiting for the right time to get to him. They managed to pick a time when he was stupid and let all his defenses down, because he was worrying about other things, like finals. No wonder the room looked familiar, most of Quatre's places looked like they were built to be in the desert, no matter where they had been on Earth. He wondered if Heero was here with him or any of the others. He hoped not, Heero still had nightmares about Abdul and the other Manganacs. Nightmares in which he had never had gotten away from them abusing him like they had.
Was this something that Abdul was doing on his own or did he have support for his scheme in the form of Winner Industries? Jade Winner might not have been too happy that he helped take out her demented little brother and had finally decided to kill him. But if that were true, wouldn't they have grabbed Heero also? He didn't see him, but that didn't mean anything, they hadn't been kept together the last time they had been captured by these nuts. That had been what led to the sexual problems that the two of them had now, since his captivity had been decent compared to Heero's. They had abused Heero since day one. He had been Rashid's treasured little fuck pet.
Abdul crossed the room to stare down at Duo. He wasn't pleased about the fact that they had not taken any of the others when they snatched this one. Qahbad had been interesting when he was with them, and he wouldn't mind another go round with the Japanese pilot, since he hadn't been broken like they had thought since he had killed Sahibd Quatre. The haughty Chinese boy would have been fun to break, since he was the one that ruled that house. Abdul had noted that fact from all the spying that he had done with Rashid. Wufei was the rooster that strutted about that henhouse, even though he seemed to be only sleeping with Trowa. That was remarkable. He hadn't thought that Trowa would interest anyone in bed, since he had been like a corpse when they had had him. He wanted to see what the change was in Trowa to make someone want him. It wasn't like Rashid was going to share Duo with any of them; he still wanted to treat the little slut like he was something special. Sâhiba d Jade had allowed him to take back his little pet when Rashid had finally found him. It was amazing that she still trusted Rashid even after the death of her brother because of Rashid's whore. He reached out and stoked the loose hair that was spread about the boy. He was beautiful and Abdul was frustrated that he couldn't have a little taste of him, but he could get to scare Duo at least. Abdul smiled evilly and was about to touch Duo again when he heard Rashid open the door and he just said one word quietly, "Out."
Rashid went in to check on Duo. Sâhiba Jade had allowed him to take some time off to reacquaint himself with the boy, or as she had put it, 'Screw themselves blind for a while'. She expected him back at her side as soon as possible, even if any of the others could handle matters for her until then. He had been going over some things with the other Manganacs when he noticed that Abdul had slipped out of the room. Rashid had noted the interest that the other had had in his little one, and had decided to wrap things up quickly in case Abdul's envy outweighed his instincts for self-preservation and do something to hurt his Duo. He had been a fool to include his second in his scouting attempts. He should have known that the man would let his lust outweigh his good sense, since he expressed the desire that he wanted to have taken all the pilots back to play with, the idiot. Did Abdul not understand that he was only taking back what he knew was his? Rashid was glad that nothing had progressed further then he liked, so he could ignore Abdul's stupidity and get on with enjoying his little Duo and letting him get reacquainted with his body. Once he realized that it was Rashid that had him would be wonderful for the two of them.
Abdul sarcastically bowed to him and left, annoyed that he did not get to scare Duo a little more. He had seen the fear in his eyes, the touched one had been wondering what was going to happen to him. About what was going on and who was involved in his kidnapping. All those questions had flashed through those beautiful eyes in a second when Duo had seen him, along with the fear that he had seen there, the fear that he had caused him to feel. That was wonderful for him, why did you need love when your partner feared you? Rashid was an idiot about the slut and he should know that treating him kindly was not going to get him anywhere. The boy had tried to kill him before, why did he think that he wouldn't do the same now?
Duo just wondered what happened, who had just walked in and scared Abdul away. Jade Winner? Whoever took over the Manganacs after Rashid's death? If they were going to hurt him... why put him in the nice room? He tried to collect his thoughts as whoever it was walked closer and he finally lifted his head to take a good look at him. He gasped in shock when he saw that it was Rashid. He had thought that he had killed the man all those years ago, during that disastrous mission to rescue Heero. He had tried to, but stupidly he hadn't checked like he had been trained to, he just wanted to get the hell out of that place, since he didn't want to have to finish the job if he hadn't.
Rashid was sad that he saw fear in his little one's eyes. He didn't want him to be afraid of him. He wanted Duo like it had been, the pleasure that he had taken with Rashid's body, the lack of fear that he had with him. The playfulness that he had with him in the beginning before Duo tried to escape from him, fighting him until he finally succeeded in freeing his friend and then having to try and kill him.
"I am not angry little one." Rashid smiled slyly and added in a playful tone, "Not much."
Duo continued to stare at him, his body starting to shake. He couldn't believe it. Rashid. Alive. He was with him again. What... shit... ? He didn't have to think about what was going to happen. Memories of that long ago time still haunted him at odd moments and he was still weak enough to wish that his captivity had never ended. He had wanted to be Rashid's little toy forever, if it hadn't been for his other obligations. He had to get Heero out of that place and then there was his fighting for the colonies, so being Rashid's pet hadn't in the plans for him. There had also been the small matter of the relationship that he had been involved in at that time. Did he still want that now, being a slutty pet, now that he had tried to cut that part of him out of his life? Now that he really had no obligations anymore? G was dead and Howard, as much as they loved each other, couldn't be together. Howard couldn't give him what he needed anymore and there had been the small problem of Heero dealing with the rest of the crew. He had never gotten over his fear of crowds of men; especially since he and Duo had never really grown any bigger then they had been while they were pilots.
Rashid leaned over and untied the gag, than sat on the bed, looking down at Duo. He had grown a little, but was still slender though. He was still the graceful, delicate boy that he was when they first meet. He had added a few inches, but Duo would always be petite, if he hadn't grown any taller by now.
Duo licked his lips and whispered hoarsely, "I thought that I killed you."
"I know," Rashid said, lifting to Duo's lips a glass of water that just seemed to appear out of nowhere to him. Duo sipped at it gratefully, his mouth and throat were parched from the drugs and the gag. "I thought that you had feared that. However, I was willing to wait. I knew that I couldn't have all of you while the war was on, that you were needed to fight."
"But why now?" Duo asked curiously. It had been a while since they resurfaced in that town. Had they managed to hide that well that the resources of Winner Industries couldn't find them? They had been terrorists, but Jade had power that few men or women ever managed to amass with the part that Winner Industries had played during the end of the war in the fight against White Fang and then all the rebuilding that was being done on the colonies and the Earth that they were financing.
"I just found you. You all hid very well," Rashid explained. "Are you happy with your normal life?"
Duo nodded dumbly, just drinking in the sight of his former captor. Rashid hadn't changed over the years. He was still the giant that he lusted after. Thankfully his English had improved, so they might be able to talk a bit more, not just screw like rabbits. Screwing like rabbits was appealing but he did want more out life then that. He had the time now for one, so he wanted a relationship with this man. He just didn't know what kind of relationship though, pet or partner? Could he let Rashid know how much he needed to be controlled by his lover? How sick a person that he really was because he needed that? How he needed to be abused and punished by his lover, that he craved pain as much as kisses on occasion?
"Do they make you happy, Heero and the others? Can they give you what we had?" Rashid asked him gently. #Do you let them? Has Heero or one of the others claimed you like you need? Do they even know that little fact about you, that something was broken in you by life that you want to, no need to be protected... to be owned by your lover?#
"They're my friends," Duo said softly.
Could Rashid be his friend as well as his lover? What did they have in common? Should he trust someone that did all those terrible things for that shit Quatre? The person that just snatched him out of the normal life that he was building for himself, even if it wasn't what he wanted? He wasn't the same kid that Rashid had become fascinated with all those years ago. He had found out a lot about himself at the end of the war when he realized that he was going to live through that mess. He was more willing to try and fix the problems that he had instead of just ignoring them. He wanted to make something of his life, since he now had plans beyond surviving the next battle. He was in college and was doing very well there. While at times he craved the wild, dangerous, abusive sex that he had with G and Howard, like a junkie wanted a fix, but he controlled that craving with the willpower that he had used to learn to pilot DeathScythe. Seeing Rashid though made him want to throw that all away and beg the man to spank his ass raw and fuck him into next week. The ecstasy that he felt with him was something that he wanted badly. He wanted the man to make him forget all the plans that he had for his future and just chain him to his bed to be used for his pleasure.
Rashid had been very good at making him forget a lot of things with the way that he had given him pleasure, but did he still want that kind of relationship? Or did he want something that was less passionate and more intellectual? Did he want the kind of relationship that he had with Heero and the others; friendship, love and occasionally cuddling. If he stayed with Rashid he didn't know what it would be like, besides the wonderful sex and he didn't know if he wanted that uncertainty now. Or would he be just be a toy to play with for the older man, until he was bored and passed him on to the Manganacs? He hadn't really forgotten how Rashid had played with him in front of his men when he had him strung out on whatever junk he had been giving him so that he wouldn't bolt and take Heero with him. He had hated it on one level, but loved it a lot more then he hated it, that Rashid had declared to his men that he was his 'property' with his actions, showing off what he 'owned' to them when he had done that with him. Did Rashid even know how much he had enjoyed that? How much it meant to him that he was being claimed as someone's 'property'?
"That house had only two very big beds in either bedroom. Do you all sleep together? Are you all that close?"
Duo blushed. How long had Rashid been stalking him to know the sleeping arrangements? This was beginning to make him... uneasy. Like waking up tied to the bed hadn't in the first place. Man, he was still so screwed if that hadn't worried him until now, that he had enjoyed being helpless with Rashid still on some level. "Sometimes... I... we need another body... and sometimes... I don't have to explain this to you!" he ended in an angered rush.
"No you don't, but... can they give you what you crave? What I gave you... " Rashid's voice softened to a deep growl, "...what you enjoyed immensely with me... what you need."
Duo closed his eyes, fighting to control himself, to ignore his body's reactions to Rashid's presence, how he ached to feel his hands all over his body again. "I... I think that it's better that they don't."
Rashid leaned over and kissed Duo gently on the forehead, "But do you want it?" # I see it in your eyes, Atryat, you want me to use you, to treat you like a pet, that something deep inside of you still wants me to control you, no matter what else has changed in you life. I will control you, not because I want to, but because you still need me to. I love you and I will take care of you and give you what you need. Just show me that I have done the right thing by kidnapping you.#
Duo sobbed slightly, knowing that this was a losing battle and that he had nowhere else to retreat to now that he couldn't lie to himself any more. "I... I... dream of it...sometimes... still. Of us. And I hate myself. For wanting you... for wanting it never to have ended," he whispered brokenly.
He wanted Rashid, couldn't he see that! As soon as he started realizing that Rashid had him tied up, his traitorous body had reacted, his cock stiffening immediately, not caring about anything but the euphoria that he had experienced with Rashid, even though part of his mind rebelled against becoming a mindless pet, even if it was with Rashid. He had had learned to control himself and now he was over melting at another man's touch, he thought Not just another man, but one that had done terrible things to his friends. He was willing to ignore what had happened just feel Rashid deep inside him and that was distressing to him on some level. Maybe he was still the skank that he thought he was at times.
"I want you... and I don't want you to hate yourself because of that. Pleasure... that's all you were made for, all that you deserve from me," Rashid murmured as he lightly ran his fingertips down Duo's sternum, feeling him arch into his touch with an unconscious purr deep in his throat. He enjoyed the small sounds of frustration that Duo made as he ignored his weeping member as he started to stroke his body, running his fingertips over his chest and stomach, ignoring any place that would send him over the edge too soon. Rashid wanted to savor his first time again with Duo as long as possible.
"No... " Duo whimpered, knowing that he was lost when Rashid touched him. Rashid... he could do such things to him when he touched him, things that were so wonderful. Why was he fighting it? There was no war, no one to protect, really nothing that would stop him from exploring a relationship with the other man and letting those hard hands wring every possible shade of pleasure out of his body. Control him, which Heero was unwilling to do in bed with him and he was unwilling to ask for out of his damaged love. Hurt him if he wanted that and to use him roughly or gently, because that was what Rashid wanted to do with him and because he trusted Rashid to know his limits, to know what he really wanted. Make him scream until he was hoarse... experience all the things that he hadn't done in years with the others because he wouldn't let himself feel that way anymore, because he had lost control on a mission and Heero had suffered because of that loss of control.
"Fuck me... take me... " Duo whispered in defeat, "... use me... mark me... show me paradise... "
Rashid smiled and kissed Duo gently on the lips. This was the Atryat that he wanted. Devoted to the pleasures of his bed, willing to let Rashid do anything to him, showing that he trusted him that much to let him control him completely, that he had the strength of will to give into Rashid's desire for him. He had done the right thing reclaiming his little gift. "I am angry that you left me... but I understand."
Duo whimpered, his hips instinctively thrusting upwards, longing for his touch. He was beyond speech right now; all he wanted to do was feel. Heero was sweet, but Rashid did things to him that Heero never tried to, that Heero was afraid to do to him and he wanted those things done to him. He liked... no loved being fucked and used by his lover, something that Heero could never understand and so he never made Heero try to do that with him. He was sick and Rashid was willing to cater to his sickness by loving him the way that he needed to be loved even if he really didn't know how much of a head case he was. Rashid was about the only other person that he was wiling to have him treat him that way. He still trusted the man not to hurt him even with the reputation that he had had when he worked for Quatre.
Rashid quickly stripped, he wasn't going to wait. He want to taste Duo's body, bury himself deeply in it and remind Duo that he was made for Rashid to enjoy and that he was not leaving him again!
Duo stared hungrily at him. Rashid hadn't changed. He was still built and Duo shivered, wanting to feel the older man inside him again. God he had felt better then good back then, Rashid had been fantastic. Duo flexed his fingers, wanting to reach out and touch the other man, to feel his body under his hands, stoke his hardened length and taste the sweetness of his essence. He moaned slightly when he couldn't, while straining against the silk, trying to touch him even though he knew that he couldn't. Duo responded to his attentions hungrily sucking on his lower lip when they kissed, trying to taste as much of him as possible. Rashid groaned into his mouth and realized that he couldn't wait any longer. He wanted his atryat, his Duo. He wanted to feel him around his member again and listen to the sounds that he made when he took him, enjoy the ecstasy that Duo had felt with him.
Rashid blindly reached for the ties on Duo's legs, he would free that much of him. Duo gasped as he felt the bindings on his legs loosen and scrambled to his knees, not breaking the kiss. Rashid growled and grabbed Duo around the waist, holding him still, when Duo moved to impale himself on him. He wanted Duo just as much, but he retained enough presence of mind to know that Duo would hurt himself if he wasn't prepared for him.
"Not yet little one," he murmured onto his mouth, "I have to... "
"Hurry," Duo replied feverishly, "Or...or I will just explode on you!"
"And I want to be in you for that," Rashid replied, tearing himself away from Duo long enough to reach for the oil that he had on the floor. Rashid arranged for Duo face the headboard and adjusted his restraints so they didn't bite too deeply into his flesh, since he wanted Duo to be comfortable. He was going to take his atryat from behind, like he had the first time and possess him fully, to remind him that they were meant for each other, because he could give him what he wanted. Rashid opened the stopper and dribbled a little on his fingers and then slowly poured a bit of oil in the cleft of Duo's buttocks, letting it slowly slide down to his opening, teasing it a little before starting to stretch his him.
Duo whimpered when he felt the oil slowly sliding down him and the Rashid's calloused finger starting to slickly working its way into him, preparing him for his cock. He thrust backwards and whined, wordlessly demanding that Rashid hurry, he wanted him and he wanted him now! Rashid slipped another oiled finger into him and slowly stretched him as he scissored the fingers that were in him, working carefully even though his own body was screaming at him to just take Duo hard and fast.
Duo was griping the headboard tightly, bracing himself against it and thrusting into the fingers that were stretching him, rocking on those wonderful fingers filling him and begging incoherently for Rashid's cock to replace them by the time that Rashid decided that he was loose enough for him. Duo had a sneaking suspicion that he wasn't, but he didn't care. He wanted Rashid pounding him into the bed RIGHT NOW! He almost came when he felt Rashid's fingers leaving him and his oiled cock started to slowly slide into him.
Duo started whimpering at the pain, knowing that it had been too long since he had been with someone this way and it would have hurt no matter how well Rashid prepared him, but it was a good pain and one that he had missed. Rashid was cursing under his breath as he steadily pushed his way into that slender opening and groaned in relief when he was finally all the way in, after Duo's body had fought taking him. Duo was tighter then he had the first time that they were together and Rashid wondered if he had been the last one to pleasure his atryat this way, even if he was sleeping with the other pilots. He held still for a moment, knowing that Duo needed to adjust to him even if he didn't want that moment. It was difficult to hold still, but he knew that if he moved too soon he might end up hurting his lover.
Duo gasped when he felt Rashid finally stop moving. Taking him had been painful, stretched or not. He was grateful that he was letting him adjust to that wonderful member even though both of them were so hard that even the pain hadn't softened him that much. He thrust back, signaling to Rashid that he was ready, that he could stop acting like he was a fragile piece of china and fuck him blind. He half screamed when that movement caused Rashid to hit that spot inside him and was glad that he was clutching the headboard so hard because Rashid withdrew and slammed his spot again before falling into an abrupt, punishing rhythm, that had him spilling himself onto the pillows after a minute or two, Rashid holding his hips so hard that he couldn't move, shuddering in his grip as they came together from the shout that he heard Rashid make, blending with his own scream of completion.
Duo sagged against Rashid when they were through, gasping for breath. He was surprised when he felt Rashid shift, moving closer so that Duo was resting most of his weight on his lap, letting him take Rashid deeper in his body. "Niiicccce," Duo hissed, unable to say more.
Rashid moved his hair to kiss the back of his sweaty neck and chuckled at his comment. "I wanted to tease you more," he said, "but I couldn't."
Duo laughed, tightening his muscles in a very intimate squeeze on Rashid's cock. "I'm just resting. Nothing says that you have to leave right now."
"I couldn't even if I wanted to, Atryat," Rashid replied, slowly caressing his body, stroking Duo's erect nipples with his fingers, tickling his ribs to feel his laughter again.
Duo kept up the massage that he was doing with his internal muscles, not letting Rashid soften. He also started laughing helplessly as Rashid tickled him, leaning back as for as he could to feel all of the other man. Rashid stopped tickling him and started kissing his neck and shoulders, noting that the scar from the bite that he had given him years ago was still visible. That more then anything showed that he was meant to have Duo.
Duo arched into his kisses, whimpering when Rashid started to play with his balls and giving him teasing touches on his cock, getting him hard again. Duo squirmed under the attention and then shifted so that he could fuck Rashid. He leaned forward to lean on the headboard again for support and started to ride him steadily, long stokes that were just fast and deep enough to keep him on the edge. Rashid growled, but let Duo 'play' with him a little. He was still in control, but it felt delicious to have Duo work him like this. After a few minutes of Duo's teasing, Rashid grabbed him and started to move his body like he was a doll, rapidly pistoning his body, hitting that spot every time, making him moan and whine, a constant stream of noise mixed with incoherent pleas that quickly ended with Duo screaming his name and triggering his climax at the sound of Duo's pleasure, the feel of Duo tightening around him again to much for him to resist.
Duo leaned against the older man, dazed. He was barely aware of his surroundings and thankful when Rashid lowered his body to the bed, he felt that even with his support he couldn't keep himself upright any more, because all his muscles felt like jelly. Without leaving his body, Rashid arranged Duo so that he was on his side and then placed Duo's top leg on his shoulder, marveling that he was still so flexible after all this time Rashid started to rock gently, wanting more of Duo, knowing that this was most likely too much for his lover, but unable to stop himself. He had waited for two years to find Duo, now that he had him, he couldn't get enough of him. Duo was so hot and slick and he wanted to fill him again and again with his essence. No one had ever reacted to him like this and that was the best aphrodisiac that there was for him. Duo still was eager for him, even with him as dazed as he was from his earlier climaxes. His cock started to harden again under his touch, since Duo was as responsive as ever to Rashid's need to bury himself in his enchanting body.
Duo arched and mewled involuntarily as Rashid started to plunge into him again. He wasn't surprised to see that he was hard still or again, all he knew was that this felt good, was rapidly getting to better and then onward to euphoric for him. He twisted his torso so that he could lean back to kiss any part of Rashid that he could reach, wanting to taste all of him. He groaned when Rashid grabbed his stiff cock, stroking him in time with his thrusts and whispering endearments to him in Arabic. Duo floated, his world was limited to two things, the hand that was circling his cock and the cock that was up his ass. It was a lovely world and he was sorry that it ended in the burst of light as every cell in his body sang as he came for the third time, his voice hoarse from all the screaming that he had done earlier and was still doing, feeling Rashid fill him again with his seed.
Rashid slumped over Duo, satisfied at last... for this time. He reluctantly stirred long enough to untie Duo. He went to move to clean them up when Duo's hoarse whisper stopped him, "Stay... in me."
Rashid smiled at that plea and cuddled Duo, not even trying to withdraw from that lithe body. Duo wanted him in him even now. That was worth more then anything else in the world to him He fell asleep listening to Duo's breathing, knowing that there would be nothing that separate them now. Duo would be with him until the end of time.
Wufei came home late, wondering what was wrong. Heero and Trowa were in the kitchen, staring at the vidphone, apparently trying to will it to ring. Wufei cleared his throat softly, causing the other two to look over at him.
"Duo's not home. His last final was at noon, he wasn't planning anything else and he doesn't have to work today," Heero reported, as Trowa got up to kiss him hello.
Wufei glanced at the clock when they broke for air. It was past seven. Duo should have been home by now, since he had been planning a big dinner for them all, so he should be setting the table right about this time. Wufei knew that he was late, but they expected that of him by now, he usually was lost in one of the libraries at school, tracking down an obscure reference from a minor historical text. Actually he hadn't seen Duo at all today, if he had stayed to do something on campus Wufei would have seen him sometime during the day as he trekked from building to building talking to his professors and handing in his projects that were due today, before he retreated to the library to read and study.
"He would have called. He's good about that," Trowa told him softly.
Duo was. He understood Heero's need to know where Duo was most of the time. It wasn't like the former pilot treated any of them any different, because he kept tabs on all of them. If he could insert a tracking device on any of them, he would. Heero was terrified of any of them going missing and that they would undergo what had happened to him at Quatre's hands. That obsession and the fact that Heero stayed in the house most of the time instead enrolling in college with them was the only sign that what had happened to him still troubled him. That and the fact that large groups of men still frightened him and he never went out on his own, if he could help it. That was the reason that Heero and Duo were living with them instead of with Howard and one of his Sweeper crews.
Duo had mentioned therapy to Heero, but he was also smart enough not to bother him about it. The rest of the pilots knew that there was a lot wrong with Heero and there would be a good chance that he ended up institutionalized if he ever talked to anyone about everything that was wrong with him, patient confidently with his doctor be damned. Heero could function for the most part and that was all that mattered to them, it wasn't like any of them were shining examples of sanity. Wufei suspected that Duo was only hanging on to things by a thread himself. He worried about the two of them and was constantly amazed that Trowa and he had managed to survive the war, still a couple and mostly sane. A few nightmares, some lingering paranoia but they both had adjusted to their new, peaceful life. He really couldn't say the same about Heero and Duo and their relationship. They both seemed lost at times, clinging to each other because they didn't have anyone else and didn't want to impose on either of them for help. G had warned him about this, but he never really believed the man until he had seen the other two acting this way. He knew that Heero might be lost without a cause to fight for, but Duo's lost expression surprised him at times. Duo really needed someone to take control of his life it seemed.
"Did he make it to his finals?" Wufei asked.
"I'll start calling, but I didn't want to tie up the line in case... ." Heero said.
"He's got all our cell numbers, so if the houseline is busy he'll call one of them," Wufei reassured Heero.
Heero nodded and went over to the refrigerator where Duo's schedule was posted, along with the home phone numbers of most of his professors. He grabbed it and started dialing, not noticing that Trowa and Wufei had left the room to talk quietly.
Wufei kissed Trowa hello again, wanting to get another kiss in before they started to worry. Duo out alone when he wasn't on a mission was something to worry about. He had tried to hide it from them, but they all knew that Duo wasn't content with his life here. Heero was the only one that made him stay with them. "Heero panicking over nothing?" he asked softly.
Trowa shook his head, "You know Duo; you can set your watch by him. He doesn't deviate from his schedule without telling someone. He needs something that structured to function at times it seems. He also knows that we worry, that Heero will worry and because of that he calls to check in and tell Heero about any change in his schedule, we all do that You may lose track of time, but we know that happens during research. You will call if you are going to be too late, when you realize that time has gotten away from you, but Duo hasn't called and he told us that he was going to make supper."
"You're worried," Wufei stated.
"I am worried, because none of us have a past that we can just forget. If anyone figures out who we were... "
"It would be a media circus, with the bereaved families and death threats. No chance for a 'normal' life," Wufei said grimly.
That had been the main reason that he had them disappear together after the war was over. Once the rest of the population had found out who they were, they would never have a moment's peace. Also, he was not going to let any of them be sucked into whatever scheme had been planned for them by the authorities. He was certain that crazed woman Une had wanted them to work for her Preventers. He also knew that if they had refused, it would have become very uncomfortable for all of them. Hiding was the best solution that he had for the problem. Once they were through with their own plans, they could deal with the rest of the world and its schemes.
Heero slammed the phone down and snarled, "He was in all his finals. Last time any one saw him was six hours ago."
"Why are you angry?" Wufei asked
"Because this professor implied that I was a worrywart boyfriend and maybe he's just trying to get some 'quality' alone time," Heero growled.
"Now we check to see if his bike is still in campus," Trowa said. "Then report this to the campus security, they might have a clue. After that... it's another eighteen hours before we can file a missing person's report with the police."
"Kuso¥!" Heero cursed. Too much time would have passed by then and too many things could have gone wrong.
"We can call Howard. Duo might have gone to him," Wufei offered. It was a long shot. He hadn't mentioned Howard to him since the war ended, but it was a place to start.
"They still talk, but he hasn't seen him since G's memorial service," Heero replied quietly. "Howard respects Duo's choice about not to get back together, even if he thinks it's for the wrong reasons on Duo's part. He was willing to take me too and I do like Howard, so that wasn't the problem." #The problem was having Howard deal with two very messed up kids, one of whom couldn't deal with that many men being near him, which was going to happen if we stayed with him and the Sweepers. The other one was going through some very odd mental readjustments and both of us being generally psycho for a couple of months when he was trying to deal with his own grief. So you two ended up as our keepers.#
"Do not make yourself out to be a lost puppy Yui!" Wufei growled. "Howard likes you and knows that you are a damned good mechanic and programmer, he would have loved to have you with him, even if you weren't sleeping with Duo." #Howard couldn't cope with helping Duo with what he needed and dealing with his own sorrow He had hoped that the two of you might be able to be on your own, but you ended up with us. I don't mind, I'd rather keep an eye on the two of you then worry about you both out there alone. You both need something that we can't give you, even if we knew what it was. Trowa and I are just too monogamous and 'normal' to be what Duo needs. And you... I doubt if that is something that you have even thought of because of Quatre's abuse.#
Heero shrugged, uncomfortably aware that sleeping was the main activity that happened in their bed. Sex was sporadic at best between the two of them and limited to blow or hand jobs. He hadn't seen Duo 'let go' sexually in years and he had never seen him act the way that he did with Rashid. Heero wondered if he decided to cut himself off from everything that he had enjoyed sexually before as punishment for that screwed up mission. He was afraid to ask, because part of him wanted Duo to act like that with him, to act like he had with Rashid. He wanted to make Duo scream incoherently as Rashid had and hear his partner beg for his touch. He wanted to do things with Duo that he had never wanted to do before or had even thought of doing with another person. He didn't though, because he didn't want to remind Duo of what he thought of as his 'failure' to him. He wanted to make love to Duo like that because he wanted it, not because Duo felt guilty and gave into Heero's desires, not his own. Heero was willing to settle for the small part of Duo that he got and he enjoyed the cuddling as much, if not more then the sex part of their relationship.
"You two check out campus security," Wufei continued, taking charge like he always did. Heero and Trowa still thought of him as the leader of this group, quite frankly he always thought that Duo was better for that position, even with what Duo referred to as his 'weakness', since he was much better with dealing with people and the unexpected problem when it showed up. He hated being in charge. "I'll call Howard. Duo might have gone to him for advice on something that he didn't want to bother us with."
Trowa nodded and went with Heero to check out the campus. He knew were Duo parked his bike. He had become a creature of habit, like they all had. If the bike weren't in that lot, they would get in touch with security and hope that they didn't come off as a pair of nuts. If the bike was still parked in its lot, they just had a better case with security then 'something' was wrong because their roommate was late.
Wufei was frowning at the phone when they had gotten back. He looked up, annoyed beyond belief. He knew that Duo was a former terrorist that had been trained to disappear without a trace, since had survived the war because of that skill. It was annoying and frightening when he did it to his friends, either voluntarily or involuntarily. "Howard hadn't seen or heard from him and he will keep Duo with him if he shows up and then call us. How did it go with Campus Security?"
"Security thinks that we are over reacting and that Duo went out for a drink after his last final and lost track of time. Never mind that his bike and his books are still in the parking lot and that it had been six hours since that final. We were told to bug them with a real problem next time," Heero reported in disgust. "But we have his bike. It was too dark to see if there was any problem, but the parking area is paved, so there would be no prints or any sign of a struggle."
Trowa added quietly, "If they were any good... we aren't going to see anything."
Wufei nodded, saying softly, "Heero... if you want... you can sleep with Trowa and me. You look exhausted."
Heero shrugged, "I just need to know... to know where he is. I'll poke around later to see if I can find anything."
He didn't mention the fact that he wasn't planning on sleeping just yet. He had to find Duo. He was worried about him; they had been together for a long time. He had thought that Duo was happy here, that he wanted to settle down with them all and be part of a family. He wouldn't have left without telling him if there was a problem, even if Heero was the problem for him. He knew that their relationship wasn't perfect. Hell it wasn't even romantic, even though they loved each other. That they were in love with each other he was pretty certain.
Heero sighed, Duo was someone that helped make the monsters go way for him and it was funny in a way, a former terrorist that had to sleep with a nightlight on and a human teddy bear so that he wouldn't have that many nightmares. It would be sad except Duo was the same way and neither one of them was willing to go beyond that in bed, too afraid of screwing up what they had with each other and both of them were the way that they were because of what had happened to them with Quatre. That little bastard managed to spoil things for them even when he was dead.
Duo stirred, not wanting to wake up. He thought he was still dreaming, that same treacherous dream that had Rashid in bed with him, not Heero or even any of the others. But Heero wasn't this big and he didn't wake him up in the morning with a kiss that was probing for his tonsils. Duo returned the kiss, groaning softly when he moved, because he felt that he had been through the wringer. He opened his eyes, hoping from the way that he felt that this wasn't just another dream and that last night had been real.
"Atryat," Rashid murmured, kissing him passionately. Duo dueled with his tongue, rubbing against his body and feeling wanton and depraved for needing him this much again. They kissed for several minutes, before starting to exploring each other's bodies with their lips and hands, the urgency of last night gone for now. Rashid smiled at Duo when they broke off their tactile exploration, enjoying the sight of each other in the early morning light.
Duo looked beautiful, with the bruises from last night's passionate session and his loose hair that was plastered to his body from the dried sweat and semen from the two of them. His lips were swollen still and there were marks on his wrists where he had mindlessly pulled at his bindings in his passion. He looked like he should, well used by Rashid. He had woken up still within his little gift and reluctantly withdrew from him; he didn't want to be separated from Duo again, but he didn't want to hurt him by being careless about his health.
Duo studied Rashid as closely as the older man was examining him. He hadn't changed really. A few more scars adorned his body, probably from the various battles that he had been involved in. His hair was still a wild mane, just starting to grey. Duo still didn't know how old he was, but he pegged his age to be in the mid-thirties, still in his prime as fighter. But the eyes that were staring at him with such a possessive lust were hard as they ever had been and they were eyes of a killer. He wondered whatever possessed him to let Rashid fuck him unconscious last night. He should have screamed at him and protested at the gall of the man that had just kidnapped him wanting to nail him to the bed. Or at least tell him that he wanted to call his friends first, to tell them that he was fine before letting Rashid fuck him unconscious, but no he just opened his legs and screamed for Rashid, interested in nothing but getting his cock up his ass as soon as possible for as long as possible. He had woken up several times in the middle of the night, comforted by the fact that Rashid was still in him. He was sorry that he hadn't taken advantage of the fact, but he wanted cuddling more then sex after the intense session that they had had the night before.
Rashid leaned over to kiss Duo again. Duo put his finger to his lips, stopping him. "I think that I should e-mail or phone Heero or Wufei or Trowa. They must be going nuts by now. You kinda didn't let me leave them a note and they do worry about me."
"They won't worry," Rashid assured him. He was disturbed that Duo wanted to talk to Heero. How close were they? Were they lovers? He hadn't seen anything that showed that they did anything more then sleep in the same bed, but he hadn't been spying on Duo for that long before he took him.
Duo frowned, nibbling his lip, wondering about where the hell he was and what kind of idiot he was not to be worried until now about the others. Heero especially, this was his worst nightmare, Duo walking out on him without a word. He must be frantic by now. "If you arranged for another accidental 'death', they aren't going to buy it. Not after the first one."
"No... nothing like that," Rashid assured him.
Duo sat up in alarm. "You didn't... "
He didn't even know what he was afraid that Rashid had done, but he knew that Rashid had no morals at times. Duo was worried that he might have done something permanent to harm them, just so that they wouldn't look for him. Shit they were his family and Rashid shouldn't think of them as a threat. He had had sex with Trowa and Wufei and sort of Heero, but it wasn't anything more then a friendly cuddle, he wasn't attracted to them like he was Rashid. Heero was the only one that he had really naughty thoughts about, but he didn't want to push him and lose what little they had. He didn't think that Heero would react well to him asking to be spanked or tied to the bed and fucked by him. Not with what Quatre had put him through.
"Your friends are safe, Duo." Rashid softened his tone, explaining slowly to his companion, trying to reassure him, understanding even what Duo was worried about. Duo had a gentle heart, but he also knew him well enough to think that worst of him. He didn't blame Duo. He shouldn't have done this to him, even if he hadn't argued about it with him in the beginning, mainly because he didn't give him a chance to. "They will get a note from me, explaining that you are going to be with me for a while. That you are safe and you will eventually get in touch with them."
Duo stared at him suspiciously, and then slowly relaxed. "Rashid," he began slowly, "I like you. The sex is really, really incredible and you are nice to me, even if I was a shit to you in the past, with trying to kill you because we had to escape from Quatre. But... I fought with them for two years. Heero is a mess because of that little shit Quatre. I'm a mess because of him too. Don't lie to me on this point. I don't know if we have anything in common besides sex, but I am willing to get to know you, like I couldn't before. I don't want my friends to worry, so don't lie to me about that note. Just because I want to tell them that I am safe, does not and I emphasize the not part, mean that I want to leave, do you understand that? I'll stay the summer with you, but I do have a life outside getting fucked blind by you. I want to back to that, no matter how good you are between the sheets."
Rashid laughed. Heero wasn't his lover; no one talked about his lover in that tone of voice. Just friends? Was Heero just another warm body in bed for company against the dark? But he wasn't someone that he had to worry about because Duo was not leaving him again, even if he didn't believe it now. He felt good that Duo had said that sex was incredible, because he felt the same way. He was happy that Duo wasn't angry with him, because right now he had every right to be. An angry Duo was someone to worry about. He hadn't forgotten that the man that was so submissive to him in all things it seemed was just as much as a killer as he was. He never, ever forgot that Duo could hurt him badly if he wanted to. Duo was a trained killer and that was something that made his submission to him sweeter in a way.
Duo scowled at him. "It isn't funny. They are my family. You must have had a family at one time or another. Or were you always a bandit?"
"Family... most of us were test tube children, like the Winners, but we were raised in crèches. Family means little to me or to the rest of the Manganacs. But, I do understand if you need to tell them that you are fine. I sent them that message last night, before I came to you. They should get it sometime today. I know that you wouldn't want to worry them, so I did that for you."
Duo smiled. "Thank you. I didn't mean to get pissy." His tone took on a warning note, hardening slightly because he was trying to convince Rashid he was serious about this part. He was now that he could think. Rashid wasn't touching him so his brain was working like it should. "But Rashid, if you lied to me... I will walk. I don't care where we are. I'll leave you. This isn't like the first time. Heero isn't a prisoner and you haven't captured me because I was sneaking into this place. I have this thing call free will and you don't treat me right, I'm history."
Rashid nodded. He hadn't lied, that message would arrive. By time that they managed to trace Duo, they would have left this place and Duo Maxwell would have ceased to exist. Only his atryat would remain and they would be very happy together, since he would not leave him again. He knew that he should be able to share Duo with his friends, but he really didn't want to. He was too uncertain about the hold he had on this quicksilver little creature. What did Duo want or need from him? Was he just using him for his body or did he want more then that? Did Duo want something that he was wasn't ready to admit yet to him, that he wanted to be 'owned' by him, that the words he had whispered last night in his passion to him were true?
Duo crawled up his body, kissing a line up to Rashid's beard and capturing his lips for a final kiss before tucking his head underneath his chin, cuddling with him. Rashid stoked his back, amused at the fierceness that Duo had just shown. He did have a kind heart to worry about his friends like that. But that heart was only going to be filled with him in the future, like it should be. Heero would be forgotten, since Heero was the only threat that he had for Duo's heart. It was these quiet times that he remembered from before with Duo, the cuddling and just touching him. Granted Duo had been drugged to the gills most of that time, but the drugs did nothing to hamper Duo's joy in being touched and played with by him. He would drug him again if he had to, just to keep Duo. He acknowledged that the boy, no man now, was an obsession with him, but he knew that Duo needed someone that would take care of him like he was willing to do.
Rashid let his fingers drift down that slender back and rested them lightly over Duo's opening, feeling his seed and the oil that he had used smeared there. He had filled the boy three times last night and he wasn't too surprised that it was there hours later since he had slept in him. Duo squirmed, he was a little sore, but it felt good having him touch him there and he wanted more of it.
"Tender?" Rashid asked in concerned tone. He had been less then considerate when he had made love to him. He shouldn't have been so rough with him, but he hadn't been able to resist him.
"A little," Duo admitted, flushing slightly. "Three times... I don't think that I can walk straight."
"How you are walking is not what I was interested in," Rashid told him, sliding a finger into that slick opening. He did want to hear Duo moan some more.
Duo moaned for him and wiggled, working more of Rashid's finger into him. Rashid laughed and stroked his inner wall lightly, listening to Duo mew in delight as he started to rock on his finger. Duo couldn't believe that he wanted to again. Not being sore the way that he was, but that finger felt good and he wanted more, to hell with being sore, he'd deal with it later.
"A fourth?" Rashid asked in amusement.
"A fifth too... I always thought that walking was overrated," Duo replied as he was finger fucked, eyes half closed with the pleasure of it. He was very willing to stay in bed with Rashid for the next day or two or a week or two. Anything that Rashid wanted, he was willing to try. He had talked tough to make to sure that they got the ground rules established and so that he knew where he stood, but he was very willing to be used and abused by Rashid for the rest of the summer and then the rest of his life. God he was such a sick fuck for wanting that and he was never going to tell Rashid that because he shouldn't know how sick he was, because he wouldn't love him then.
Rashid laughed and slowly withdrew his finger. He was ecstatic that Duo wanted him again, but he didn't want him to over do it either. Now that he had him, he could wait to explore Duo again. He always wanted to see his reaction to pain when he wasn't punishing himself. Duo's reactions to had always been interesting to him and he knew that Duo had a taste for painful sex, since he enjoyed getting 'punished' too much when they were together earlier. He wondered how far Duo would go in that direction, what his limits were for pain and when it stopped being pleasure for him. He knew that Duo had always enjoyed what he had done to him when he was rough with him. He had wondered once in a while how much did Duo need the pain, like he needed to be mastered. He was going to have to find out. He was also going to have to figure out how he wanted to deal with it. He was uneasy about hurting Duo because he didn't like hurting him, since he had done that too often in the past with other people.
Duo whimpered when he felt Rashid pull his finger out of him and then glared at him, "I said yes."
"And I know that, but I don't want to hurt you... yet," Rashid smiled evilly. "But since you are so appealing in your passion, show me it." #I have to know your limits because you trust me enough to know them. As much as I want to take you again, I will let you rest a little. You were so tight and so hot last night I don't want to spoil things between us by taking you when you are tender. I will not abuse the trust that you have in me. I am afraid of really hurting you and of you finding out that I can't be what you need, that I can't 'hurt' you like you want to be hurt and then you will leave me.#
Duo blinked, confused and said, "Huh?"
That '... yet' sounded promising too, he never let any of the others know how much he liked painful foreplay at times. Heero suspected, but he was afraid to hurt Duo, scared that he would cross the line between playing around and force by accident. He also didn't want to hurt Duo like had been hurt by Quatre and the Manganacs. Trowa and Wufei, well he didn't want to shock them. Not that either one would be shocked by that little fact, it just came under the heading of too much information about his personal life. He actually didn't want them to know how much of a freak he was, that pain turned him on as much as gentleness. He had seen how badly G and Howard had reacted to that little element of his psyche. That finding that out about him disturbed them more then they had let on and he didn't want to lose Heero or the others by letting them find out how much of head case he was. That Rashid knew about and still came after him was a hopeful sign, but he wasn't going to count on it. Rashid might not like how much pain he was into.
"Play with yourself I believe is the common phrase," Rashid said with a smile and then sharpened his tone into an order. "Do it."
Duo smiled slowly and started to suck the finger that had been in him, cleaning it for Rashid. Rashid groaned and let him, knowing that Duo was being playful before obeying his order, showing him that he obeyed him because he wanted to. After he finished that task, Duo slipped off his lap and laid back on the bed, hands lightly pinching his nipples, teasing them to erect little nubs, harder then Rashid had gotten them with his earlier attention.
"I'm not very fancy about this," Duo informed him, slipping a hand down to slide over the head of his shaft, smearing the head, tracing a circle with his thumb, panting slightly at the sensations that he was causing with his own touch.
"Show me," Rashid repeated. He just wanted to see Duo lose himself in his passion again. Watching was almost as fun as taking with Duo he had found out when he had had held him captive earlier.
Duo arched his back as he started to roughly stroke his shaft, playing his balls with his other hand, slipping down to gather some of the fluid that was leaking from him, to lubricate his cock some more. He switched hands, feeling his strokes get easier with the additional fluid. He sighed with pleasure as he felt Rashid watching him. He had done this quite a few times in the past with G and Howard and he had forgotten how much of a turn on an audience was. He moaned again, concentrating on the head of his cock, and he went back to pinching his nipples with his other hand. He was close and he didn't think that it had been that long that he had been playing with himself. What Rashid could do to him and after everything last night!
"Can I come? I can't... close... " he pleaded.
That was part of the pleasure for him; asking if he could come and being punished if came without permission. Duo moaned, thinking about Rashid spanking him and wanted that to happen. He just had to figure how to ask for that without freaking him out. Rashid seemed like a pretty normal guy in the sack, just into some mild kinks, not the hardcore stuff that Duo had done in the past with G and Howard. Actually it had been mostly G with the weird stuff, Howard was pretty tame too. That had been one of the reasons that he didn't take him in after the war was over. Howard didn't have the heart to play like that again without G. Duo just wondered if Rashid had ever gotten to, besides with him.
Rashid was startled at this request, had Duo had played this game in the past? He was ready to say yes, when he took in the flushed face and the pleading that he heard in his voice. He had wanted to hear that for the last two years from Duo. He watched for a little while longer, noting that Duo was arching more and more off the bed, tightening his body, straining not to come until he had his permission. Rashid was enchanted by the sight of him that way, the power that he had over him. He would give his permission since the boy had begged him, since Duo had made him almost come by the sound of his voice alone when he asked that of him. That had he had asked made him not want to punish Duo quite yet. Rashid didn't want to tell him that he had no idea what to do as a punishment.
"I want to hear you scream again... " Rashid told him. "Scream when you come for me."
Duo nodded and stroked down hard on his shaft... once, twice... and then he exploded, covering his hand as he pumped furiously, screaming as he bowed up again before collapsing when he finished, sweaty and panting. It had been a while since even masturbation had felt like that, wonderfully exciting and forbidden.
Rashid leaned over and kissed him, trailing his fingers through the mess on his chest before he rubbed them on Duo's lips, getting harder as he felt Duo's tongue lick his fingers again, tasting himself on Rashid. Duo rolled over when he was done and licked the head of his cock, tracing some pattern on the top of it as he licked the bitter sweet fluid off the top of it. Duo grinned and took him smoothly into his mouth, sucking gently on the tip before taking as much as he could in his mouth and then going back to nursing on the head again. Rashid groaned and leaned back, letting Duo lick his cock like it was a lollipop, playing with his sac and, stoking him gently, rubbing some of his essence from his chest on the shaft so that it was slick and wet.
Duo pumped Rashid a few more times before nibbling down his shaft to his balls. Rashid had had his fun, now he wanted some of his own. He was going to lick the man all over, get to know his taste again. He took one ball in his mouth, grinning a little at the gasp that he heard, sucking on it gently before switching off to the other one. Duo mouthed his Rashid's balls for a while, sucking on them and nipping at them gently before deciding to explore more of Rashid's body.
Rashid groaned throatily, amazed that Duo taking as much of him in his mouth, he had forgotten how talented his atryat was. He spread his legs to allow Duo more access to his jewels and he wasn't surprised to feel the boy's tongue eventually leave his balls and start tracing patterns on his thighs before working back to the area between his legs, back to the sensitive area behind his balls that Duo was exploring with his tongue. He teased him there for a little while before Duo lifted his head and hoarsely order him, "Roll over and kneel."
Rashid stared down at him for a dazed moment before complying. He wondered what had made Duo so bold... had his little gift changed in the time that they had been apart? He groaned when he felt Duo nip him lightly on his left thigh before he parted his buttocks and licked his way slowly up to his opening. Rashid held his breath and then started to squirm as Duo tickled his opening with his tongue.
"Want to taste all of you," Duo murmured, licking his cleft in long, smooth strokes before starting to lap in smaller and smaller sections, at last just concentrating on his opening and wetting the area thoroughly before working his tongue into him
Rashid clutched at the bedcovers and rocked into Duo's tongue, moaning steadily. It felt so good that he was fucking him with his tongue and he didn't know what to do. No one had ever done this with him before, had given him orders and then touched him there. He nearly jackknifed off the bed when Duo's tongue found what it was looking for in him, that nerve cluster that was so good to touch and tease. He involuntarily whimpered when Duo wrapped his hair around his cock, the silky stands caressing his shaft endlessly while all he could do was rock into Duo's hand, groaning as he was brought to the edge over and over again before Duo would let him come.
Duo muttered something soothing and incoherent while he wrapped some of his hair around Rashid's cock and started to pump slowly, letting his hair slide of the sensitive skin there, teasing the head a little before stopping when he felt Rashid tense up. He did that a few times, bringing his lover to the edge and not letting him over. He loved listening to Rashid whimper and he knew that he wasn't going to hear this again soon, because the older man was not going to let him do this again with him. He was about to come himself, just listening to Rashid and rubbing against his body before he let the older man climax, tightening his grip so that his hair was binding more then anything when Rashid shuddered and spilled into his hand and all over his hair. Duo came with a drawn out moan. He couldn't believe that Rashid let him do this with him and that alone was such a turn-on for him. Duo licked him clean of his everything that had been spilled on him, before curling up to snooze with his head on Rashid's hip.
"I'm ready for a nap... " Duo mumbled. He was, he didn't know how long he had been here, but he was exhausted.
Rashid smiled and lifted Duo so that he was curled in his chest, he liked feeling him sleep with him. Duo mumbled and snuggled closer, unconcerned that they were hot and sticky from all this activity. Rashid didn't have the heart to move him. Duo could clean up later; right now they both needed sleep some more.
"You are an imp, you know that," Rashid told him. He couldn't believe that Duo had done that to him, teased and tortured him to the edge climax over and over again before he could come. He was awed that Duo had done that to him and knew that he had done the right thing in reclaiming his little one. No one had ever dared suggest anything to him before and Duo had blithely ordered him to kneel so that he could tease him like he did. Duo was full of surprises and he wanted to find out all of them.
"I like doing that," Duo murmured sleepily, "but I understand if it isn't your thing." G loved rimming him, usually after he and Howard had fucked him a few times. He liked doing it that way too, tasting everything that he could but Howard hadn't been into rimming, he just liked being rimmed. He understood if Rashid didn't want to do that to him, it was an acquired taste for a lot of people.
"It would be interesting to try." Rashid admitted to him and he smiled at Duo's almost incoherent, "We've got time... " before he fell asleep with him.
Rashid woke up and shifted Duo onto the bed, he didn't know how long that they had been asleep but he was starting to get hungry for something besides Duo. Duo must be starved, he hadn't eaten longer then he had. He smiled when Duo murmured something and wrapped himself in the blankets, burrowing into the bed for warmth. Rashid got out of bed and grabbed a snack for the two of them, since he had stored food and drink in his room for this occasion, because he didn't want to leave Duo for a moment longer then he had to. He would get something hot later, but for now he could have fun feeding Duo. Or Duo could feed him, since he was delighted to find out that his lover also had a demanding and inventive side to his personality. They would have many delightful years together as they discovered new facets to each other's soul. He knew that he really didn't know his lover, since their brief interlude had been too short for that. He wanted to though, to see what made him happy, find out his favorite foods and discovering all sorts of fun things about him.
Duo woke up a little more when Rashid started rubbing honey on his lips with his finger. Duo smiled and licked his lips, then started sucking on his finger. "You know how to wake up a guy right you know that?" Duo mumbled before he started sucking hard on his finger to clean it.
"Only you zauja¿," Rashid told him.
Duo frowned at the tone of his voice and made a mental note that he had to learn Arabic real soon now. He had to find out all the little names that Rashid was calling him. While he didn't understand the words, the tone was enough for him, since it was filled with love and possession. It made him feel safe for some reason.
"I think that unless I feed you, my imp, you will blow away in the next sand storm." Rashid said.
"I see what I like for dinner," Duo teased, "Something meaty and very full of protein," He rolled over and kissed the tip of Rashid's hardening cock softly before he started licking and nibbling on that thick shaft. He reached up and stroked Rashid's ribs and hard nipples, amazed at all the hard muscles that he felt there. Rashid moaned and leaned back, giving in to whatever Duo wanted to do to him. He wouldn't fight the fact that someone wanted to pleasure him. Duo left off nibbling on Rashid's shaft to work his way up his body to kiss him, he wanted to go slow right now.
Rashid didn't know how long they had spent just kissing each other, before Duo started to work his way down his body again, teasing his nipples and licking him all over before he reached the point that he had started out at. Rashid just caressed his lover and played with his hair as Duo teased him with his tongue and his body.
Rashid looked down at Duo sucking on his cock. He had mentioned eating to him and Duo had just started playing with him instead, teasing him about being all that he wanted. Fool that he was, he let Duo play with him and instead of eating, they started kissing and touching each other. Duo had slid down his body until his head rested near his thighs, then started licking him with short strokes of his tongue until he gradually worked up to the head of his cock and now knelt before him, just suckling him almost, nursing on him as he writhed in pleasure. He thought that after the way that Duo played with him earlier that he couldn't get it up again, but Duo proved him wrong.
Duo knelt before Rashid and fed off of him. He loved the taste and feel of his lover. Rashid had mentioned food, but he decided to go for his dessert before anything else. He felt Rashid caressing his body as he took more and more of him in his mouth, wondering if he was good enough to swallow all of him and take that wonderful cock deep enough inside his throat for its entire length. He hadn't had a gag reflex in a while, but Rashid's girth and length was a challenge to his talent.
"Don't force yourself," Rashid whispered. His fingers danced over Duo's back as he groaned in amazement Duo had swallowed as much of him as he did. Was his lover breathing through his ears?
Duo hummed, forcing another groan from him and Rashid started to tease Duo back. Gentle fingertips worked their way down Duo's crack and started to caress the flesh there. Duo moaned and wiggled, trying to get more pressure there, wanting to feel those thick fingers fucking him.
"Relax," Rashid told him as he carefully started to move Duo so that his thighs were resting on his shoulders. It took a few minutes and he thought that Duo was going to choke before he reluctantly withdrew his cock from his mouth, just sucking on the more sensitive head until Rashid had him the way that he wanted him, Duo's weight resting mostly on his thighs and shoulders, with his face buried in his crack, licking furiously.
Duo moaned around his cock and then let gravity do some of his work, relaxing his throat and mouth so that he took almost all of Rashid's cock down his throat. He was barely breathing it was so thick. Duo's mouth just became an opening for Rashid to fuck, the man's hips making little jerks until Duo had buried his nose into his balls, moaning wildly as Rashid's tongue fucked him. He didn't know how long he was going to be able to stay like this, all he knew was that he was drowning in the ecstasy that he felt as Rashid worked him from both ends. He moaned and went still as he came, afraid to move and hurt Rashid, as he felt a hot wetness splash the two of them while Rashid spasmed in his throat, his cock so deep in him that he tasted nothing, he just felt him come.
Rashid was delighted that Duo was willing to go along with this strange mating. His cock was surrounded by Duo's mouth and throat. It felt better then when he was buried balls deep in him, the teeth that he felt adding spice to his sucking him. It had been strange to taste himself in Duo, along with the oil that he had used on him and musky taste of Duo's ass, but so good. He wanted to posses his little one thoroughly and this was just one more way to do so. He was worried for a second when he felt his lover stiffen on him. He worried that he had pushed him too hard and was hurting him when he felt Duo mark him with his seed. He came after that, marveling at the way that he had made love with his lover.
Rashid carefully lifted Duo off his cock and laid him down on the bed before rolling on top of him to smear him with his own essence and kiss him deeply. "Love you," he muttered.
Duo blinked and looked at him with dazed eyes. He was drained again, since his orgasm had been so intense because he couldn't move. That and his throat was really sore. He wasn't going to be doing that again soon!
"Thank you," he whispered hoarsely. "Think that we can skip eating for a little while longer?"
Rashid kissed him deeply before letting Duo drift off into sleep. He was willing to wait, because they had all the time in the world. He rolled off of the bed, sensing that there was someone else in the room with them. He had left orders that they weren't to be disturbed, but emergencies did happen. He stood up and covered Duo with a blanket as he fell asleep again, before he checked the outer room of his apartment. No one was going to gawk at Duo again. He had realized that showing him off to his men like he had when he was with him before hadn't been one of his better ideas, but then he had been overwhelmed at the thought that someone that looked like Duo had actually desired him he that had had acted foolishly.
Abdul stood in the doorway, stroking his cock through his pants and biting his lips to keep silent He knew if he made a sound Rashid would discover that he was watching him with that slut pilot and hit him. He liked watching his leader fuck the little whore, ever since he had watched the two of them together when Duo was first captured and brought to Quatre. He had jerked off while had had watched the two of them passing the little slut back and forth and then fucked Heero hard and long because he still ached from watching the slut take Rashid's cock like it was made for him. He had wanted Duo then and time had dulled none of the lust that he felt. Shit watching Rashid play with him had been torture, the shameless way that Duo had responded to Rashid's touch during those meetings had gotten more then one of them that were present at the meeting hard, but only he had wanted to fuck the Kalba& then and there in front of everyone. He had hurt Qahba many times after those meetings because he wasn't the slut that he wanted to fuck.
Abdul wanted to feel Duo's mouth sucking on him, to fuck his tight body and listen to him moan his name as he took him. He knew that the opportunity slipped through his fingers the first time, he wasn't going to lose his second chance. What in the name of Allah did that freak Rashid have that attracted the boy to him? When would Rashid realize that kindness was wasted on one like him, because sluts only understood power and fear and that was the way to control Duo, not the kindness that he was showing him. Once he got his hands on the boy, he would make the slut fear him, like he should. For now, he would continue to watch and wait.
He shifted and drew out his hand, he could finish this later or maybe Rashid would be foolish enough to leave Duo unguarded. He tried to remain calm as Rashid walked into the room that he was in, his horse cock still hard from fucking that slut. Abdul shifted and stood out of reach of his captain. He knew that Rashid was not going to be happy that he was in his rooms again.
"Sahiba Jade desires to talk with you," he told him stiffly.
"Inform our Mistress that I will be with her as soon as I am decent," Rashid growled at him. He knew that it had to be an emergency if she was calling him.
Abdul bowed and left the room, hiding his annoyance that he wouldn't get a chance to try out Duo. Rashid stared after him, frowning and wondering how long Abdul had been there and how long he had been watching them. He had noticed that Abdul was hard, so he must have been watching them. He really had to do something about the man's challenge to his authority, since he had left orders not to disturbed. He also knew that those orders did not mean that he and Duo were to be watched like a sideshow attraction until they were done before Abdul would tell him that he was wanted by Sahiba Jade. When was Abdul going to tell him that Sahiba Jade had wanted to talk to him? Would he have waited and watched if they had decided to make love yet again? He also didn't like that way that he had been watching Duo and that earlier he had tried to do something to him when the boy was alone. Rashid ran a wet towel over him to get most of the sweat off and quickly pulled on a shirt and pants. He gave a deeply asleep Duo a kiss before he left and went off to see what had blown up to ruin his time with his lover. He was thankful that Duo didn't know that Abdul had been watching them. He knew that the older man had frightened his zanja before he had let Duo know who had kidnapped him. He would watch his perfidious second in command so the man did not foolishly challenge him again over his Duo. He was also going to repeat to the Manganacs his orders about Duo, so that they knew how important he was to him.
Duo woke up later and blinked. He was alone in that big bed, for the first time in what seemed to be a very long time. Rashid wasn't around and Duo decided that a shower would be a good idea. He was very messy and desperately needed to clean up. He hopped out of bed and was pleased that he could walk straight. Maybe Rashid had been right not to have another go with him since he wasn't that sore now, besides that fact that he felt that he had a gallon of Rashid's seed in his body still and he swore he was sloshing when he walked. His throat felt better also, but it had been too long since he had done something that crazy during sex. He was happy that there was a bathroom attached to this room so he didn't have to walk through wherever he was to get a shower. He didn't want to bump into that weirdo Abdul again or any of the others. They might be still peeved that he had killed Quatre and take out their frustrations on him, even if Rashid had brought him here. He managed to figure out the controls in the bathroom and took a long, hot shower while he waited for Rashid to come back to feed him or fuck him senseless again, he'd welcome both. He was drying off his hair with a towel when Rashid came back in the room.
Rashid was pleased that Duo was awake and had cleaned up. He wondered if he would remember the trick that he had pulled with the figs before and refuse to eat. He wanted to move Duo to another location and it would be easier if he were asleep when it happened, since he had been upset about Rashid's abduction of him the first time. Sahiba Jade unfortunately needed him to be with her sooner then he has planned. Duo would be moved to Sahiba Jade's main base of operations on Earth, since he would be better protected and it would be harder for the other pilots for find him if they managed to trace that message at all. His atryat would be comfortable in Rashid's rooms at Jade's estate. They were large and airy and near the women's quarters so that Duo could visit Jade's sisters safely, since it would give him something to do during his free time until Rashid found him some work that he was interested in doing for Winner Enterprises. Rashid knew that Duo wouldn't be happy with just sitting around waiting for his man. He just was reluctant to give him any work that would let him out of his sight at this moment in time.
Duo smiled and got up to give Rashid a kiss, after he had put the tray that he was carrying down. They kissed for a while, Duo unashamed that he was naked with him, worming his hands underneath his shirt just to feel Rashid some more. Rashid reluctantly broke off kissing Duo, he was one tiny step from throwing him down taking him again, plans or not. Duo smiled and sighed, apparently reading his mind.
"Okay, no naughty stuff, just food," he said with gleam in his eyes. This was turning out okay. Rashid was acting nice and if it wasn't for the fact that he had been kidnapped, he would be happy. He was worried though, what was Rashid afraid of if he had stalked him like Relena used to do with Heero? That he'd turn him down? That he might not want to come back? If he was afraid of that... shit he was not going to complete that thought. Thinking about it might make it come true.
Rashid smiled back, Duo was as playful and relaxed around him as he remembered. He gestured for him to sit down and they ate in companionable silence. Duo didn't want to disturb Rashid by asking the wrong questions and Rashid didn't want to let any information slip to Duo where he was or what he was going to do to him, because he didn't want to upset Duo. They were finished when Duo looked up shyly, feeling odd asking this question, but he had to know.
"I know that Abdul's still around, but the others... they still with you? Are you all still working for Winner Industries?"
Rashid nodded, "Most of the others are either dead or scattered about. There are only about ten of us that still are with Sahiba Jade."
Duo shuddered, how far would Abdul have gone if Rashid hadn't been there to stop him? "I just want to know if it would be like the last time."
Rashid frowned. Did Duo know that he was going to drug him again? Or had he known that Abdul had been watching them? "Last time?" he repeated, trying to figure out what Duo was talking about.
"Them all wandering in and out of your rooms, all times of the day and night and you playing with me in front of them... showing off to them that you had me," Duo said quietly.
He hadn't minded then, he had been too stoned to realize what was going on and Rashid's prisoner, but now he wasn't going to be naked if front of any of them again if he had any say in the matter. This wasn't like last time, given that he could walk if something pissed him off. Rashid screwed up on how he got in touch with him, but he was willing to cut him some slack on that, but he wasn't going to be treated like he was the flavor of the month anymore. He wanted something a little closer to his relationship with Heero, then what had happened the first time around. Mutual respect and something besides sex in common. His pet days were over no matter how much he had enjoyed it... wanted to return them... needed that treatment in some part of his soul. He wanted the security of someone talking care of him, even if he could take care of himself and the need to know that someone cared enough to 'own' him and to protect him, even if he didn't need that now in his life. He didn't know if Rashid understood that though. The man had been sending him mixed signals about that with some of the things that he had done during his captivity with him and the way that he acted now. It was something that they were going to have to work on later once he figured out how to talk to Rashid about this kind of stuff.
Rashid nodded, "We still live as a group, so privacy is something that is not always respected. But I will be a little more discreet this time, if you want." #After all the screaming last night and today, everyone in this wing knows that I have reclaimed you. The grins and the teasing that I endured about that this morning after I gave them Sahiba Jade's orders to relocate. Too bad none of them realize that you are as dangerous as you are beautiful, then they would know what a prize you are. All they remember is that you let me play with you like a pet kitten, never realizing that I knew that you were a leopard in disguise. Abdul is the only one that I worry about. The rest of them should have enough common sense not argue about your presence here with me or are foolish enough to try and take you from me. #
"Are you going to share me with them?" he asked bluntly, he hadn't forgotten Quatre's comment about servicing all forty of them, there might not be that many anymore, but he wasn't going to be passed around like that, he'd kill the first man that touched him without his permission. It was frightening that Rashid was willing to find him after the war, just because he thought that he was good in bed. Or was there another reason? Did he want to punish him and was going to turn on him when he least expected it? Or decide that he was going to hand Duo around because he had left him the last time? There were too many unknowns in this scenario and he didn't like it. He hated doubting what was happening with them, but he couldn't think that it would be this easy to have them pick up were they had left off.
Rashid looked upset at his question and quickly denied it. What was Duo thinking? He was his and his alone! "No. You are off limits. Abdul should have never been in here with you. I have informed the others that you are my guest and to treat you with respect." #Abdul sniggered at that, but after I backhanded him into the wall, the rest of them knew enough not to say anything. In fact they were nervous about the teasing that they had done earlier, but I knew that they were teasing me more then you. If they do not understand that you are dangerous and not to be trifled with, it will be as Allah wills it when you kill them for their stupidity if they ignore my warnings. I doubt that they would be so foolish as to bother you. Abdul is the only one that I have to worry about. I shouldn't have hit him so hard, but he has been under estimating the amount of patience that I have and I want him to understand that I am NOT amused by his earlier actions. #
Duo relaxed, he thought that was what was going on, but he just wanted to be sure, since things were starting to weird him out. It couldn't be this easy to have Rashid get in touch with him again. To start and try and have a relationship with him without the guilt or the obligations that he had before. "Then if I have trouble with any of them, I can defend myself?"
Rashid laughed. "Artyat, no one would be fool enough to harm you." #Not if they want to live. You are mine! Abdul is the only one that I would worry about, but he also might egg the others on, just to see you hurt if they would be foolish enough to listen to him, since I angered him earlier. He did not hide the hate I his eyes fast enough. He wants you also and he doesn't care what condition you would be in when he finally gets you.#
Duo shrugged, "I can take care of myself. Just because for some reason you touch me and I start to roll over like a bitch in heat to be fucked, doesn't mean that I will do it for everyone. And I didn't get to be a Gundam pilot because I had a great ass, I can fight. I'm not helpless!" #Just a slut for you.#
"You aren't helpless," Rashid agreed. #A pity that Abdul never will realize that until you gut him.# Duo was dangerous, just tiny. That would work for anyone that tried to hurt him. No reach and having no weapon gave Duo a disadvantage in any fight that he might get into here. He didn't have to worry about that happening, since Rashid would protect him from Abdul and the rest of his men. Not because he thought that Duo was helpless, but he was responsible for Duo being here.
"Just want to make sure. If I have to kill someone I want to know that I warned you," Duo replied grimly, and then was embarrassed that he started yawning suddenly. "God... I'm tired. I need to work on my stamina... " He yawned some more before mumbling shyly, "Could you stay with me until I'm asleep?"
"Of course," Rashid assured him, he didn't want him to worry. "I might take a nap myself."
"If you wake me the way that you did earlier... nice... " Duo's voice trailed off as the drugs that were in his food kicked in and he fell asleep.
Duo blinked sleepily, wondering how long he had slept. He felt that it had been a while. Could he have slept the clock around? He knew that he was now in a different room, even though it looked like the last one, but it was a big, cool room so he didn't mind. This room had a desk that Rashid was sitting at, working on something and he was wonderfully naked so Duo could ogle him. He wasn't on a bed, but had been snoozing on a bunch of oversized throw pillows. He could get to like this almost, except for the fact that Rashid had pulled a fast one on him again by knocking him out by drugging the food. He shouldn't have fallen asleep that fast after eating unless the food had been doctored.
"Rashid?" he mumbled, "How long... ?"
Rashid got up and cuddled Duo, letting him snuggle against him. "... a while."
"You put something in the food?" Duo asked suspiciously, waking up a little more and having his brain kick in. He'd keep it a question for now, because it might be that he just was overtired earlier.
He hadn't really forgotten about the fruit incident, but he wanted to trust Rashid a little now. It was dirty pool if he did do something to the food again. Rashid wasn't winning any points in the trust department right now. Shit he was treating him like he was a prisoner all of a sudden. The stalking part should have tipped him off that he was in deep trouble with Rashid. But no, he had to be thinking with his cock again! He was now in another location that he really didn't know where he was, not that he had known before. More importantly, Heero and the others couldn't find him if there was an emergency, because they might have been able to trace that message. Now this had turned into a really bad situation for him and he was beginning to get worried. Sure Rashid wasn't going to hurt him, but he also wouldn't let him walk away if he wanted to, not if he did this to him He had always known that he could walk away from Howard and G, he just never had wanted to. Not even after all the nastiness of training, did he want to leave them. Now Rashid wasn't giving him that option and it was scaring him a little and turning him on a little more, much to his disgust. Rashid really wanted him if he went through all this trouble to make sure that no one could find him, but it was bad because he was really dependent on the older man since he was cut off from everyone that knew him and he hadn't seen anything of his since he woke up. He was in the middle of nowhere with no ID, no clothes and without a clue.
"Just a little something so that you slept. I fear I have taken some liberties with your body and wanted you asleep for it," Rashid soothed him, seeing the worry in his eyes. #And moved you to another location, so no one will find you. I should keep up the drugs for a while to make you ... compliant is a cruel word to use, but that is what you need with me. You need to be my sexy, submissive pet that will think only of my needs... you need me to master you. They can offer you so much more then I can, even if they won't treat you the way that you want to be treated. You are mine, I claimed you long ago! I just need to convince you of that. You are too worried still to take what I am offering you. I don't want any of the others taking you away from me, those pilots that you are so close to.# He knew that he was scaring Duo a little with what he was doing and that was not good. Allah, he wanted Duo so much and wanted him just to be his, too.
Duo almost giggled, it sounded so odd. What did he do, fuck him while he was asleep? He didn't feel like that happened, so what was the problem? Aside from doing it to him in the first place and he did apologize for that, but he was leaving if Rashid weirded out on him again, even if he had no idea where he was. Rashid had used up all his brownie points with the stupidity that he had shown so far. "What?"
"I removed all of the hair on your body."
Duo tried to be upset, but he knew that he still had the hair on his head, so he wasn't that angry. Sounded intriguing... and he should be pissed, but he couldn't be. Leftover reaction from whatever had been slipped in to his food? Sign that he was a skank? "Ask next time ... I might have said yes. I might have wanted to watch also."
"Custom actually," Rashid explained, fibbing a little. It was custom... for the women. He had wanted to remove what little hair that Duo had, see what he felt like when he was as smooth as a boy-child, no hair under his arms or on his jewels and his opening, hairless from the neck down. It had been exciting to remove all of it carefully, leaving behind inches of baby smooth skin for him to caress. He had been hard the entire time and had restrained himself with great difficulty from using Duo when he was done. Awake he would have given into the temptation and taken Duo again and again, until they both couldn't move.
"Then why do you have some still?" Duo questioned, frowning at him. He examined his body, feeling naked because he had nothing but his eyelashes and eyebrows left, besides his braid. And Rashid wasn't that hairy, but he still had a light dusting of dark hair on his arms and legs and a lot of other appealing places.
Rashid gently fondled his jewels, running a finger over the now hairless area, feeling the shiver that Duo made at his touch. He ignored Duo's question, now that he was awake he could see how he felt, see his reactions to what he was doing to him. "You are so smooth with nothing between us."
Duo moaned, it felt weird but was a turn on for him. He realized that his cock was rubbing against that hand and he whimpered with need, as he got hard. Rashid smiled, leaning over to whisper in his ear as he played with his body, "You said mark you... use you. You carry the scar of my bite still, this is just something more to show the power that I have over you."
Duo moaned again, hearing that explanation and the echo of his words. He had given every shred of independence that he had to Rashid with that plea, and suddenly he regretted none of it, even if he had told himself earlier that he didn't want to be a pet again. Now he just wanted to remember what it felt to be fucked when he was smooth as a child down there. This was a relationship that needed to be more then sex, but the sex was what was running it now and Rashid's hands on his body were making him forget any fears that he was having about this whole arrangement. "Take me... " he whispered.
Rashid smiled at his plea and leaned over to kiss Duo, devouring his mouth eagerly. Duo kissed back, pressing himself into the length of Rashid's body, rubbing against him and running his hands all over his body. Duo started scratching Rashid's back with his nails, wanting to be fucked hard, to feel Rashid drive his shaft into him again and again, until they both screamed out in pleasure. Rashid moaned. Duo must be excited about what he did to his body as he was. His entire body felt hard and hot against him, not just his cock and the slight pain that he was inflicting on him was driving him insane with lust. He suddenly didn't want this to be gentle and loving anymore, he was going to hurt Duo as much as Duo seemed to want to hurt him and to be hurt by him.
He lifted Duo his lap, rubbing their cocks against each other. Duo gasped, the hairs on Rashid's body tickling his own now smooth one. He lifted himself up and closer to Rashid, wanting to melt into that wonderful body, wanting to feel the burning sensation of his cock in his ass. Duo wanted it fast and furious, wanted Rashid slamming into him to show Duo who was in control, who owned him. Rashid teased Duo's nipples erect, pinching them hard and twisting them slightly. Duo arched his back, whining at the pain, but not complaining because it felt so good and he wanted it to hurt that way. He thought that Rashid was going for fast and hard sex, just thinking of Rashid inside him made him shudder with desire, wanting to dance with the man on the edge of painful pleasure or pleasurable pain. Rashid knew what he wanted and thankfully was willing to give it to him -hard, fast and rough.
Duo broke off their kiss and whispered hoarsely, "Fuck me."
He couldn't wait and he knew that Rashid was about explode himself, he felt so hot against his body and who needed a bed with this nice pile of pillows. What was happening that they did this to each other? What was about the two of them that made the sex so good and anything else pale and uninteresting? He didn't care about right or wrong anymore, he just wanted Rashid to throw him down and fuck him, show him how much he owned him.
"Lay back," Rashid ordered him breathlessly.
Duo scrambled off his lap and sprawled on the pillows, smiling slightly, his eyes glazed with passion. Rashid fumbled for the cream that was in that he had left by the pillows, he knew that he wouldn't be able to take Duo without it. His hands were shaking when he finally found it, and opened the jar. He carefully worked the cream into that inviting ass, marveling at how smooth he felt and how eager Duo was as he rocked back on forth on the fingers that were filling him, panting slightly as Rashid finger fucked him. When he couldn't stand it any longer Rashid smeared some more cream on his shaft and head, positioning himself at Duo's opening before slowly sliding in, watching in amazement as he disappeared in to that slender form, he was always amazed that Duo wanted him and willing let him into his body. It felt like a miracle every time and he was never giving that feeling up. He wrapped Duo's legs around his waist, thrusting deep.
Duo arched and thrust back, taking Rashid as far as he could, wriggling like a hooked fish as he was opened up by that wonderful piece of flesh and gasping when Rashid bottomed out in him, "Yess," was all he could say Rashid started moving rapidly, not letting his body adjust, not caring about the stinging discomfort he was feeling from muscles that hadn't gotten used to Rashid's cock stretching them. Duo just wanted to have Rashid fuck him a half a dozen times until they were both finally satiated with each other's bodies before starting all over again.
Rashid groaned and pinned Duo's hands to down over his head with one hand, forcing him to hold still, as he supported most of his weight on the other. Duo whined in protest, until Rashid started to snap his hips with short powerful strokes that took him over the edge, fast and hard, liked he wanted it now. Duo rocked with him, letting Rashid set the pace, the pain becoming pleasure as Rashid rubbed that special spot in him with every stroke, until he spasmed helplessly underneath him, screaming as he came in.
Rashid groaned as Duo's hot passage tightened its hold on him as he climaxed, then shout in his pleasure as he went over the edge. He thrust deeply one last time, emptying himself in Duo, filling him with his seed, showing Duo that this was what he meant for, the pleasures of their bed. He panted, carefully letting go of Duo's hands and shifting so that most of his weight was not on Duo, even though he wanted to collapse in bonelessly on him.
Duo lifted his head to look at Rashid. "That was... " was all he could say.
Rashid smiled and rolled off of him, hearing a slight sigh from Duo when he did that. Duo then rolled over on top of him and started burrowing into his chest, snuggling into him, shivering a little because he felt sort of cold as the sweat and semen dried on them. This wasn't over, he was just resting and Rashid would pin him down again and fuck him like he wanted... no needed him to and warm him up again.
"Rashid... " Duo said, nuzzling his chest a little in his contentment, "next time ask me if you want something ... strange. I like to have that much input."
Rashid chuckled at his complaint, he agreed after it had been done. He would do so again, even if he didn't ask. But he would ask him next time and let him feel that he had that much say in what happened to him even if he didn't want it half the time. All he knew that it was a fine line with Duo where control ended and abuse began. He just didn't know where that line was, even if Duo knew what he wanted from him in their relationship. Sex certainly, but what else? How much control did he want? How much of a master did he need him to be? What were the boundaries in this hormone driven relationship? He was so lost about all this. Duo hadn't protested anything that had happened to him yet, but should he be treating him like he had no say in what he was going to do to him? That he was a pet just there for his pleasure? He didn't know if he could even ask Duo about his limits, because he didn't know if Duo knew what he wanted from him.
"Then... will you let the women henna you? And arrange your hair?" Rashid asked quietly. Duo was androgynous enough to pass as a woman with his slender build and long hair. He wondered if he would dress like one for him.
Duo frowned, wondering where the hell this was leading. He had thought that it was just going to be a summer of recreational fooling around and then going back to college, just seeing each other when they could after that, not really making any plans, just going with the flow. Rashid sounded really serious, like he wasn't going to leave here ever. Or was it just some sort of odd possessiveness that Wufei had showed sometimes with any of them during the war when they had shared his bed because they needed a shoulder to cry on?
"I know that I am the girl in this relationship, but that's carrying it a bit far, shoving me in with the women. Did you ever think that they might not want me? But yeah I don't mind henna because it's not something permanent, like a tattoo. And the hair ... nothing too weird, I liked the braids that you did before." He had like the braids, Rashid had spent hours playing with his hair he vaguely remembered, including tying him up with it once. He wanted to try that again before the summer was over.
"And how do you know about the henna parties that the women do?" Rashid asked in mock seriousness. #Sahiba Jade's sisters would adore you. I can't think of any of them that wouldn't want to treat you like one of them. They don't like many men, but I know that they would never think of you as a threat. #
Duo shrugged, "Soc 101, it's a cultural requirement for a freshman at that college. It was covered in one of the sections. And we had a big international flavor to the place, made all of us blend in better which is why we chose it, and I overheard some of the girls talking about having one. Remember that place you nabbed me at? The one with all the nice buildings, I was finishing off my first year of college there and I am going to go back to finish my education."
"I know Atryat," Rashid tried to calm him down. He would let Duo lie to himself a little while longer, but eventually he would know that he wasn't going to leave him. He knew that much about his enchanting little daemon. Duo wouldn't leave him once they had discovered the boundaries of their relationship. Discovering them would be the hard part for the both of them.
Duo wiggled about to stare in his eyes for a second and then frowned at him, deciding to change the subject. This was dangerous for the two of them and maybe they should just fuck each other some more before they talked about it? He joked with his lover, trying to ignore his instincts, the ones that were telling him to leave this man NOW before he was unable or unwilling to return to his life and be something besides Rashid's little pet, as appealing as the darker side him thought that was. As much as he needed Rashid to say that he owned him, he wasn't ready to go that far yet. He still hoped that a miracle would occur and he would turn into what most of society considered to be 'normal' and find the strength to walk away from Rashid's very seductive offer. "You don't have a yean for kids now, do you?" Duo asked playfully. "Now that you tried out this little kink with me."
Rashid shook his head, "Zauja, you are all I want is you. You in my life, my bed... you will exist only for my pleasure. As Allah meant it to be when I found you sneaking in to rescue Heero, I was only out there on a hunch and you fell into my life. I praise Allah daily for that."
Duo froze. He didn't think that Rashid had had it that bad for him and this was really serious for the older man. He thought it they just had to work out things, find out the limits of this relationship. Not that the man was obsessing over him worse then Relena had done with Heero during the war. Shit he hated when his instincts were right. Hopefully he could still save this, tell Rashid what he was doing wrong, save both of them from doing something that was so very right, but so very wrong for them. Did Rashid know what he was getting into, not just the sex but everything else... the pain that he still craved like an addict and need for Rashid to tell him what to do at times, ordering him about like a dog or a slave so that he would be secure and happy with the man? The darker side of sex that he was certain that Rashid would want no part of, the beatings that he got pleasure from and the degradation that he wallowed in when his lovers would let him indulge in it with them. If Rashid thought that he was a gift from Allah he should never find out how flawed he was and shatter such a simple faith that the man had.
"I have a say in this," he protested quietly, trying to save something before he fell and took Rashid with him. "You may turn my brains to mush with your touch, but I have a life. I want to go back to it eventually. I'm not a whore."
"I never thought that you were," Rashid protested. He had had whores before and none of them showed the life that Duo did. Duo was no whore. He was an ifritd that was there to love him.
"But you never thought that I was going to anything else but fuck you... did you?" Duo hotly demanded. He maybe sick in the head to want to be a pet at times, but he wanted it to be his choice, not something that Rashid decided to do to him because of a weird obsession. Something that man decided before he fully knew what problems he was getting. He loved Rashid too much to not disappoint him when he found out how sick he was. "You think that I'm gonna stay here forever, as your little fuck pet. I have a life, I would like you in it, but I know that it might not happen, not with all the shit that went down before. But... something could be worked out... not if you start this shit. I left that colony so I wouldn't be a whore and dead by the time that I was twenty. I don't need this. I'm walking. I told you I would and I am!"
Duo shifted to get out off of Rashid, furious that he had even been tempted by the older man to become his boy toy. He didn't get off of that colony and fight for an education to spend the rest of his days as a kept boy, even if that was how he got off that deathtrap of a colony, by peddling his ass. Howard understood the word 'no' and would have helped him without fucking him, the fucking part was something that he wanted even then, bad as that was. No twelve year old should want that! He was walking out of here now, though because Rashid didn't seem to understand that he had a life and he wasn't his fuck boy, even though if the man asked him to be that he would. He must have been insane to think that this would work, that Rashid would be able to deal with his problems and still love him He'd find out where they were and then get to the nearest city, if he had to steal a car, a plane or a camel to get out of this place. Then he was going to get help about this sex problem even if it meant getting a frontal lobotomy, this was so wrong! No normal person wanted to be controlled or owned like part of him... all of him... needed to be with Rashid. He was going to return to his life and forget all about Rashid's seductive and dangerous offer. He was going to work things out with Heero and maybe he could help him with his problems and get both of them some help, have them settle down into a normal relationship like Wufei and Trowa had.
Rashid grabbed his arm and Duo twisted away from him, kicking at his arm, trying to break the hold that he had on it. Rashid shifted grabbed that leg with his other hand and they stared at each other. Duo knew that he was trapped, but he wasn't going down without a fight. His free arm shot up to hit Rashid's nose, but it never connected.
Rashid was sad that his ifrit was not happy. He wanted Duo to be happy here, live with him and love him, like he should, but he was angry now and wanted to leave. If that happened, he knew that Duo would be lost to him. He had hoped that Duo would understand that he knew what he needed and that he could give it to him. Unfortunately Duo wasn't ready to admit what he wanted with him, so he would have to be a little more forceful with Duo, since he was upset that he had voiced the feelings that were in his heart. He had to show Duo that he shouldn't fight this and that he wanted this as much as Duo did. There was nothing wrong in wanting to submit utterly to another person and Duo was a man that could do so without losing himself, because he was strong enough to submit to another's will and let himself be controlled. It might be something wrong with his soul to want that, but he would give that to Duo because he loved him. The problem was just getting this whole confusing mess straightened out for the both of them
As Duo struck out again, trying to knock him out, he let go of the arm and leg that he was holding and intercepted the arm that was trying to hit him, moving to twist it behind Duo's back and pinned him to the bed. Duo struggled against that hold, but Rashid could make three of him and it was futile. Rashid rode out the storm of a squirming, kicking and hitting Duo, until he lay panting on the bed, trapped underneath Rashid's body.
"I let you go once," Rashid told him in sorrowful tone, "but not again. I want you Duo Maxwell, because Allah gave you to me. I protected you from Quatre and my men... so that you would never know the pain that would ruin your innocent pleasure of me if they forced you and hurt you." He gently stoked Duo's hair with his free hand, his voice dropping into a pained whisper. "You are the only person that has taken pleasure with me. You scream ... and it is with bliss, not that pain that I usually inflicted upon my partners. I knew then that you could never leave me, not with the playfulness that you showed that first morning and the wantonness of out first time. I tried to hurt you and still you enjoyed me, you liked me... I understand what you want and I can give that to you, don't be ashamed of what you want."
Duo thrashed about, trying again to buck Rashid off of him. He felt like DeathScythe was pinning him down. "Damn it! Let me go! I... I can't... "
"There is nothing that holds you now... let go of the outside world and their rules. Stay with me atryat ... zauja ... Duo, I will care for you, you are a treasure that few men will ever possess... you are so rare and precious, so sensual..." Rashid pleaded with Duo. "You... you gave yourself willingly to me, no matter what before. Can you not continue that?"
"I always thought that it would end... " Duo whispered, becoming still. Rashid was too big for him to fight. Why did he want to fight this? Why didn't give into the voice in his soul that told him to let Rashid play with him for the rest of eternity. Wasn't that what he wanted? "I wanted those memories... for the bad times... I can't... I don't trust you now... I need to be more then a pet... " Because Rashid shouldn't find out how damaged he was.
"Zauja, you are a gift that I will always treasure, because of the joy you had with my body and you are not leaving me again. I never thought of you as a pet. You are a gift that that I want to cherish." Rashid replied, before he carefully knocked Duo out with a jab to one of his pressure points in his neck. He would be sore and angry when he awoke, but this was the best way. Duo was confused now and he just needed time to think things over, to realize that Rashid's way was the best for them.
Duo woke up, his head aching and he blindly reached out to the warmth that was beside him. "I feel bad... " he mumbled, nuzzling the bare chest that he was sleeping on. It felt so good and safe, even if it wasn't supposed to, something was telling him this was bad for him, so he just had to figure out why this warmth was bad.
"Shh-shh," Rashid soothed him. "Just drink this, you'll feel better."
"What?" Duo asked muzzily, before sipping at the drink that Rashid held to his lips. He frowned at the odd taste, but curled up again after he was finished the whole glass. He thought that it was probably drugged, but he wasn't in any condition to argue about it. He felt very weak and fuzzy, so it was probably drugged.
"You were ill." Rashid lied easily to him about why Duo felt the way that he did. He was not going to lose him and he would if he told him the truth. Duo was too confused right now to make the correct decision and he would leave him and try to be 'normal'. He would not give in to the need that he had to be owned by his lover and was willing to live only half alive to deny that need. Duo was not going to kill all the passion that he had inside him out what he thought was the right thing to do, given the times that they lived in.
Duo sighed and uncurled, stretching out to give Rashid a quick kiss on the cheek, "Thank you for looking after me then."
He knew that there weren't too many people in his life that would take care of him and that someone cared enough to watch out for him made him feel loved. There was someone else that would do this too... why couldn't he be here too? Where was he? Where was that half remembered other person or was he just a dream? He remembered snuggling with a smaller body... what was that man's name? It was so hard to think about things now, since he just wanted to cuddle and play with whoever this was.
"My pleasure zauja," Rashid informed him. #I hate doing this, but I don't want you to leave me for all those beautiful men. Heero... I saw how he looked at you. He wants you too and I know that if you chose between the two of us I would lose... even if he can't give you what you want. I don't know if I can either, but I will try so that I won't lose you again.#
Duo frowned, tying to think, everything was so fuzzy. Why was it fuzzy? There was something that wasn't right even if he couldn't remember it. "Is that my name?"
"That is what I call you."
Duo was silent for a moment, before asking. "How do I know you?"
"We are lovers," Rashid said softly. #Is it wrong to want you this badly? To want to possess you because you are so sensual and wanton in your pleasures with me that you are addictive, beyond hashish or any other drug that I could name. Your essence is like ambrosia and I could worship you forever.#
"Why... " Duo trailed off when he thought it was better if he didn't ask that question, the why of this could be what was wrong.
"You have been ill, that is why you feel bad and can't remember anything," Rashid explained to him. "You had a high fever for a few days and the doctor was worried." # I have kept you drugged for the last few days, to make you forget... keep you quiet until you come to your senses. You are not leaving me again, not until we are able to talk to each other!# "He said that there might be temporary memory loss, if there was it was from the fever." #He knew better then to argue with me about doing this to you. Since the good doctor was still wanted in a few areas for some of his actions during the war, no one likes a doctor that had been sedating out his patients and molesting them. The dreaminess that you have now... I want to stay with you forever, feeling you cuddle with me is better then sex with you, my love... my wife.#
Duo snuggled in his chest and fell back to sleep, he wasn't going to argue with anyone, he was woozy still. He knew that he hadn't been sick and that he was being lied to, his instincts told him that. He could escape later, now he needed to get better.
He fought to keep his body relaxed when he suddenly remembered all too clearly Rashid telling him that he was going to keep him like a bird in a cage, which is why he freaked on him. He loved Rashid and didn't want the man to ever figure out what a sicko skank he was. Duo wondered what was going to happen now and hoped that he could get away from Rashid when he got the chance to. Shit Heero must be frantic by now and he hoped that he didn't think that he had walked out on him. He'd never do that to him, he loved him too much. Their relationship wasn't perfect, but they loved each other and maybe someday he had hoped that he'd get better and Heero would learn to be a bit more assertive with him in bed.
Rashid smiled when Duo placidly accepted his explanation, since that acceptance would make things so much easier if he went along with his plans for him. He should have known that Duo would get over his protests easily, when he realized that deep down he wanted this just as much as Rashid did, that his protests were something that he felt that he had to make, not something that were serious and would ruin what they had. Poor Duo was fighting to the end his fate. What was he so afraid of? He understood the need that the man had to be controlled. He has seen just the opposite in Quatre. But Duo... his love was gentle and good, unlike that sick bastard Quatre. That he needed things beyond what people thought was normal, which was something that they would both have to deal with. Rashid hoped that the ifrit that he was in love with would soon surrender to him and then tell him what to do with him after that.
Duo woke up again alone in the bed and looked around. He felt a little better, now he just had to get out of this place. He searched for his clothes, but didn't find them. He didn't expect to, since he had been naked since he woke up as Rashid's prisoner. He stole one Rashid's shirts and tied his hair back. It wasn't much, but it was better then nothing, he could steal more clothes later. He just had to get out of here. He was sneaking down the corridor when he heard a shout and he started running in panic, someone had seen him or noticed that he was gone. He'd talk to Rashid again only on a vidphone. There was no way that he was going to be able to tell him goodbye in person. Duo wasn't looking where he was going and ran right into Abdul, who smirked at him and then threw him against the wall, knocking the breath out of him.
"Looking for more, kalbad?" he asked, shoving the shirt up and running his hands over his body.
Duo struggled with him, earning another shove against the wall, striking his head and stunning him. He started to sag, kept up only by the hand on his chest that was pinning him to the wall Abdul fumbled with his pants, ripping them open and exposing himself. Duo feebly struck at the hands that were holding him, feeling up his body before turning him around and shoving him face first into the wall.
"Rashid shaved you, like the woman that you are." Abdul commented as he searched for Duo's opening. He found it and then gleefully shoved a finger into him, ignoring the involuntary cry of pain that Duo made when Abdul's finger penetrated him. "This is going to be fun," he gloated. He was going to be getting a taste of the little slut right under Rashid's nose practically. Stupid of the boy to have tried to run from Rashid, too many of them wanted a go with him just to see what their leader thought was so special about the slut. He had made sure to encourage the rest of the Manganacs' curiosity over the last week. Rashid hadn't helped his cause either, since he was acting like a lovesick schoolboy over the bitch.
"I will kill you if you don't let him go," Rashid's deep voice informed Abdul from behind him. Duo sagged in relief at the sound of his voice, unexpectedly relieved that Rashid had found him, since he could deal with the problems that he was having with Rashid, he just had to show him what a skank he was. With Abdul's nastiness or the other Manganacs brutality, he could see why Rashid wanted to keep him isolated from his men because they still played rough with their toys. If he was in better shape he wouldn't worry about it, but right now he still felt like crap from whatever Rashid was giving him to keep him docile.
Abdul snarled, annoyed at being caught and trying to defend his actions. "He was running away. This would have taught him that he's here for good and what he is here for. Being nice isn't going to bind him to you. Show him who his master is. Or turn him over to the rest of us for a week or so if you do not want to teach your catamite his place. He won't run after we are through with him." He tossed Duo at Rashid and fixed his pants before stalking away.
Rashid looked down at a semiconscious Duo and sighed. He was going to have to disciple Duo for his own good, hurt him now to protect him later. If he got caught by any of the others, they would use him cruelly and he didn't deserve that. No matter what they did to his atryat, Rashid would love him, but he wasn't going to let Duo get hurt by those people even by his own foolishness. Duo wasn't one of them and he wasn't big enough to fight back if more then one of them cornered him. His men for some reason still thought that Duo was someone to hurt, to fuck instead of cherish, even if he had explained it to them very carefully in the beginning that he was an honored guest, not someone he had taken to use from the surrounding area as they sometimes did He had a sneaking suspicion that Abdul was behind that, a not so subtle challenge to his authority. Rashid picked Duo up gently and carried him back to their rooms, he didn't want to do this, but it had to be done for Duo's own good and for his safety.
Duo woke up and started struggling to get free. He was tied face down on the bed, naked and he didn't want to be there. He had hoped... he stopped moving when he heard Rashid's voice.
"The desert is all around us, a week's journey on foot. You wouldn't have survived."
"And so you are going to do what with me now? Duo asked quietly.
"I am leaving you tied to that bed. I don't want to hurt you, but I need to show you that we were meant to be." #I need to explain to my men again that you are not to be hurt, that you are to be treated as one of Winner daughters, untouchable! If Abdul persists in his foolishness, I will hurt him badly and drop him in the desert. I know that you can defend yourself, but this matter has gone too far for me to let you handle it. Abdul is challenging me over you, thinking that if he takes you from me, you would show him the same joy. It would be wasted on him if you did, if you didn't kill him for his insolence. Abdul is too much like Sahib Quatre in his tastes of sex. He likes to hurt and not give his partner any kind of pleasure. #
Duo felt Rashid's thick fingers greasing up his opening and begged. "Please... "
He didn't want Rashid now, because it had gone over the line, because he wouldn't let him go. Abdul was honest about what he wanted even if he was violent, because broken flesh would heal faster then a broken mind. Rashid had played these hurtful mind games with him and had told him that he loved him. Duo would be a lot happier if Rashid was treating him like Abdul had, that he was just someone to fuck. None of this crap about cherishing and loving him, since it appeared to be a lie, since he was ignoring his protests about what he as doing to him.
"I am not going to take you now," Rashid reassured him, he knew that his little one was upset about his treatment, he wasn't too happy with it either, this brought back too many memories of the times that he had hurt people out of frustration or on orders. Duo deserved better treatment then this. "However, this will keep you ready for me and remind you why I want you. Why you are so good for me. Why I am good for you." #Am I doing the right thing or I am sadistic as Abdul and just hurting you for my own pleasure?#
As he was talking Rashid was carefully working a large phallus into Duo, listening to the sounds that he made with it in him, the small involuntary, whimpering noises that showed he was enjoying the being filled, even if he was crying because of the reason it was happening. Allah, he sounded delicious even if this was breaking his heart!
"You will wear this until I say otherwise. The only time that it will leave your body is when I am in you," he informed Duo, buckling a strap around his waist to keep it in place. #Can't we just enjoy ourselves like we did that first day? Why are you worrying about the others and about what you think you want? I love you so much I don't want to let you go, is that bad? Or are you frightened that I will think less of you because you want me to take care of you? That I understand what you want, what you need from me, that it isn't weak that you want to utterly submit to your lover... your husband, so why do you think that? Why do you fight against that so much if it is so right for us... for you?#
"Rashid... please... don't... " Duo cried, starting to breakdown, "... this... this isn't right. I... "
"Atryat," Rashid murmured as he kissed his neck, ignoring his tears and fighting his own that stung his eyes. "This is for your own good."
As he walked out of the room, he was sad to hear the helpless sobs that Duo made into the pillow. He didn't want to hurt him, but it had been too close this morning. Abdul could have done terrible things to his little one if he hadn't caught him in time. Duo had to be made to understand that he was to stay with Rashid. It would be the best thing for him, not that other 'normal' life that he craved. As soon as he stopped trying to run away, he would have the freedom of the mansion and the grounds. Duo would be happy here with him when they figured out this entire mess.
When Rashid came back later, Duo was asleep and he didn't stir when Rashid sat down in the bed. He stripped and crawled into bed with him, they could talk later, and he would explain to Duo all the terrible things that could happen to him if Abdul got to him. Duo's tearstained face made him feel guilty, but he would forget about this unpleasantness soon and let himself enjoy the love that they had. He carefully untied Duo from the bed and cradled him in his arms, wanting him to be comfortable while he was with him. He was lost on how he should treat Duo. He was confused about the limits that Duo needed from him. He knew that Duo was just as confused about those limits, but he had no way of figuring out what Duo wanted from him. This had turned bad for both of them so fast and he hated what he was doing, because he knew that it was wrong, but he didn't know what else to do.
Duo woke up the next morning he wasn't surprised that Rashid's arms tightened around him when he shifted position, moving so that Rashid's erection wasn't pressing into his stomach. The dildo stuck in him made him squirm, because he didn't like the way that it felt and what it represented to him. He had worn them in the past, but then it had been part of a game and he had agreed to it. None of them had been shoved up his ass as punishment; they had been inside him for his pleasure. Rashid was scaring him spitless and he wanted to go home, so that he could figure out what he wanted to do. "I want to get up."
"You will not run?" Rashid asked. #Don't leave me! I'll beg you if that what you want... but I think the problem is that you don't know what you want.#
"No... not right now." Duo said, "I just want to move around." #This is wrong... can't you feel that? I know that I shouldn't want this with you, is that why it feels bad?#
Rashid was silent, running his hands over Duo's body, kissing him deeply, enjoying the sounds that he made when Rashid touched the dildo, wiggling it in his body while he slowly stroked his cock, feeling him harden at the touch of his hand. Duo's mind may want to leave him, but his body was enjoying every touch that he gave him.
"Later," Rashid whispered, "now... I want you." He unbuckled the belt and slowly drew out the phallus that he had inserted into his little one. He would see how Duo reacted to this one before he had to think of other things to use on him. They might learn each other's limits quickly and then other toys then could be used to enhance their pleasure with each other. He was trying to understand what else Duo might be interested in with him, even if he liked using such things as this. There was so much that he didn't understand or know about his love.
Duo sobbed and then lay still as he felt that uncomfortable thing being drawn out of him. He felt Rashid spreading more oil on his opening and he assumed that he oiled himself. He didn't care anymore. Rashid lifted him up like he was a doll and slowly slid him down on his staff, taking care with Duo even though that thing that had been in him should have loosened him for his use. Duo buried his head in Rashid's chest and waited, he felt good... a little sore, but Rashid's cock was filling him like he had dreamt about and he knew that it should be good, he liked taking him this deep and feeling this open to his partner. So why were tears running down his face? He hadn't been this upset at Quatre's treatment of him, that brutal semi-rape that he had done to him, so why was he crying now? Was it because he had liked Rashid and didn't expect him to be crazy and hurt him? He stopped trying to figure out what was wrong and just feel, like he used to with Rashid, but it didn't seem to work. He couldn't enjoy this and he couldn't stop him from fucking him because he wasn't enjoying it, because Rashid wasn't paying any attention to what he wanted to tell him. Duo just bit his lip and let Rashid do whatever he wanted with him, letting Rashid wrap his arms around his neck, feeling the kisses that were being rained upon his shoulders and arms as Rashid entered him, then tilting his head back to kiss him when he came inside of Duo.
Rashid was confused. Duo had softened almost as soon as Rashid had entered him and started crying silently, upset for some reason. Duo was limp in his arms, not fighting him, but not being the active partner that he wanted in their lovemaking, like he had been before. Rashid held back as long as he could, but he gave into his joy, kissing Duo deeply and wondering was the wrong. He let go of Duo and wasn't surprised that he drew himself carefully off Rashid's staff, moving like an old man, before curling up on the bed, not wanting to cuddle with him for once. Rashid felt that he was looking at one of the whores that he had used in the past. Duo had never been like that with him, which was why he had wanted him to stay with him forever. Had he hurt him by accident? He hadn't cried out in pain. #Or pleasure,# a soft voice in the back of his head told him, #He just was there and waited for you to get through with him... like so many people had done in the past with you.#
"Duo... atryat, what is wrong?" Rashid asked in hurt puzzlement. #What did Duo want? What did he need from him? What would make this better? What was he doing wrong? He was so confused about this all and hated it!#
Duo looked at him in disbelief before, rolling off the bed, "If you have to ask... " he started before laughing cynically. "But... " he couldn't say anything else. Rashid wouldn't or couldn't understand why he wanted to leave him and that was why he had to leave, before Rashid did something to him that would really hurt him. Or hurt himself. Duo knew that Rashid wasn't enjoying what he was doing to him, but he didn't know what to do really with him, so he fell back on what he knew. Rashid had thought that sex would make it all better, but it hadn't helped either one of them. He had seen that in Heero too, when he tried to figure out what was happening with them. At least Heero could call Howard for advice, should he tell that to Rashid? Did he really want Howard to know how bad he had gotten?
Rashid watched in confusion as Duo walked away from him, suddenly grabbing the shirt that he had discarded earlier and bolting out the door, trying to escape again. He was stunned that Duo would do that... had he learned nothing from his punishment earlier? That unless he was with him, Duo was considered a toy to be used by Abdul, who was plotting something, all he knew was that it involved hurting Duo. He second hadn't done anything that he could punish him for yet and he didn't want Duo to be hurt by that bastard, even if he was fucking up their relationship because he didn't know what he needed to do for Duo.
He leaped out of bed and didn't even bother with his pants, because he needed to catch Duo before he got away and he wasn't able to find him. Allah knows what would happen to him naked in the desert, since too many people would hurt Duo if they found him like that, not just Abdul. Had he ruined this relationship by overstepping boundaries that he didn't even know were there? Rashid caught up with Duo halfway down the corridor, running as fast as he could, caring only about getting away from Rashid. He grabbed Duo, ignoring his kicking and swung him over his shoulder, intent on getting him back to his room before he got into trouble. He was silent until they got back to his room, where he threw Duo on the bed.
"Duo! Are you insane? What were you thinking? There is no place for you to run!" Rashid scolded him.
"I told you... I'm leaving. I'm not staying here. I got a life and I want to keep it." Duo screamed back at him, bouncing off the bed to run again. "I'm not a whore!"
"Don't fight me on this," Rashid told him, "you never won before when you fought me, and you aren't going to this time. I don't want to hurt you, but I will not let you leave!"
Duo ignored him, darting around the giant to try to run out the door again. Rashid tackled him as he went by, wincing when they both slammed on the floor, Duo taking the brunt of the fall.
"Atryat... " he asked, worried that Duo had been injured.
Duo scrambled to get out from underneath him, kicking furiously. Rashid winced at the near miss to his groin and picked Duo up to throw on the bed. He managed to retie Duo to the bed, while was Duo fighting him even half stunned by the fall and getting the wind knocked out of him. He didn't want to restrain Duo, but if he left this room without him Abdul would consider him fair game and he would hurt him more then anything that he was doing to him now. Abdul would rape him, use him and break his spirit, and that should never happen to his Duo!
"This is for your own good," Rashid attempted to sooth him.
Duo glared at him, being tied to the bed wasn't what he wanted. He wanted to get out of here so he could figure out things. Being treated like Rashid's pet wasn't going to let him decide if this was what he wanted, because he enjoyed it too much. If he could just get out of here and then send and email or a letter to Rashid telling him what a sick person he was, telling him how fucked he was about things then it would be good. Then Rashid wouldn't find out in person and he wouldn't see the look disgust on his face when he threw him out or worse. Then they could both get on with their lives. Rashid could find a good kid to spoil and take care of and he could check himself into the funny farm.
"No... " he whimpered involuntarily, shrinking back a little. Rashid had crossed the line and he just wanted to get out of here! His dream had turned into a nightmare and he wanted to be as far away as possible from this monster. He had thought that Rashid would understand and that he wouldn't want him to stay if he wasn't happy here. Why was Rashid tying him up like this? What about Abdul? If that bastard showed up again he wanted to be able to fight back. He couldn't if he was tied up.
"Shh... " Rashid murmured, as he stroked back his bangs, trying to ignore the look of hurt and anger in his little one's eyes. He hated doing this to him, but he was not going to let him go.
Rashid murmured something before leaning over to kiss Duo, who promptly tried to bite him on his lip. Rashid ignored his hostility and moved his mouth down, kissing the side of his neck, biting it gently when he came down to his shoulder, worrying it a little so there was a mark there.
"Atryat... you were made just for my pleasure... let me show you that pleasure... " he muttered, licking the mark that he made.
Duo sobbed and tried to wiggle away from Rashid, not wanting the older man to touch him. "No... " he repeated, even as Rashid was kissing his way down his chest to his cock. Rashid took the semi-flaccid piece of flesh in his mouth and nursed on it softly, teasing Duo and giving him an erection even as he started crying and fighting his bonds. Rashid ignored his tearful protests and skillfully brought him to a climax, swallowing all of his essence. Duo turned his face away from Rashid when the older man kissed him again and left, sad that his Duo was fighting him again about his proper place in his life. He would have to be a little more forceful in persuading him that this was the best thing for him. He allowed him the freedom that he wanted to fight in that pointless war, now Duo's place was with him. He would enjoy that and he would have his freedom again when he learned his lesson and admitted that he wanted to be his pet as much as he wanted to take care of Duo.
End Part 1
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