Author : Whiteangel
Song Fiction : Tears.
Lyrics and Music by : Yoshiki , X - Japan.
Translated by : Keiko Ayanami and Korogi Nagisa,
April 1, 1998
Created in : -
Finished in : -
Revised : 21/02/00
Author's Note:
This is my first song fiction^^ It is written right after my first fan fiction, <To find Love at Last>. It has been revised now, and I hope that you like this modified version. The ending had been changed slightly.
I would like to thank Moonswarth for proofreading for me. She/he had proofread the early version of this fic (which is archived at winglow's site).
~ Where do we go after separation
Now that hanging question has passed
On an endless night, I dreamt of a journey... ~
"Treize, why didn't you explain things to me? Why didn't you discuss with me? Why must you die? ...My heart is aching, aching for you... I find myself longing for your memory, for your presence, for your kisses, your arms.... your everything...." A lone boy stood at a top of a hill overlooking a large abandoned house. He spoke softly to the winds, which was softly caressing his face. It was as if they were consoling him for his loss.
~ I gazed at the odd skies,
and embraced loneliness
Tears flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh...~
The sun had slowly left the blue sky, filling it with darkness. Big fat dark clouds were gathering, making it seemed darker than usual.* What a coincidence... even the sky wants to cry...* Wufei thought as he slowly made his way down towards the old derelict house. It was Treize’s private estate, it was filled with nostalgic memories of them together --Together in each other’s company, walking side by side along the pavement in the garden filled with Treize’s favorite flowers... red roses. Together in each other's arms, lying side by side on the large king sized bed in Treize bedroom....... Wufei sighed as all those memories came flooding into his mind. Finally, he had reached the house. He entered gingerly, and saw the now dilapidated garden. Suddenly, all past memories came to him in gushes......
( Flash back..)
"Wufei..."
"Hn?"
"Do you know why I love these red roses?"
"Why?" Wufei asked in curiosity. He stopped and turned to look at Treize. They were taking a scroll along Treize's prized garden, one he held with pride. Treize had personally planted them during his off duty.
Treize smiled as he turned around to wrap his arm around Wufei’s waist and replied mischievously, "It is because they remind me of your lips... so red, and full..."
Wufei blushed at the unexpected compliment. He repartee back, "I am not a woman.. I do not need your--"
Treize silenced him with a chaste kiss on the lips and whispered softly, "It is not a flowery statement."
~ DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE~
( Back to the present..)
Indeed.... those times were gone, those wonderful times with Treize were gone....* What had I done?* He looked at his hands, the hands that were stained with the blood of his one true love, the very hands that destroyed his own happiness as he pulled the trigger.. *What had I done...*
~ Loneliness..
your silence whispers
Fills a river of tears through the night.....
Memory, you never let me cry
And you, you never say goodbye ~
Wufei glanced around the garden one more time, trying to memorize the image of this once exquisite garden tended by a pair of loving hands that he once had loved so much.
*Its all my fault.. I should not had pushed that trigger...I brought this to myself... This is justice served.* He thought to himself, as he made himself to turn away from the garden, the garden that had brought so much joy, the garden that had given him the love of his life, the love that once was his to keep but failed to treasure it.
~ Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lose our dreams along the way.
But I never thought you trade your soul to the fates
Never thought you'll leave me alone....~
As Wufei wandered quietly throughout the estate now in ruins, he felt that it was an irony. The estate was once magnificent in all its glory, tall white pillars supporting the house, just like their love were. But now, the estate was in ruins, like their love now. He walked aimlessly around the ruined castle when he had unwittingly came to the bedroom where he had spent some of his most unforgettable nights with Treize.. He stopped in his tracks,
*That room.. Treize..* He thought reminiscently to himself. His hands reached out to touch the wooden door lightly. His heart felt a searing pain.
*I regretted not listening to my teacher....... not obeying her words......
~'Wufei , never let your heart rule your mind......'~
"Why am I so foolish? I could have not put myself through so much misery. You... Must you hurt me time and time again? Are you happy now?" He cried out to no one in particular. His body shook violently with the emotions raging inside him.
'No, I do not wish for you to hurt, my dragon.... I wish for you to be happy..'
Wufei was shocked. *Had I gone mad? Who's that speaking ..... Has he come? Was it his voice comforting me?*
"Treize, is that you? ...Could it be you?" He cried out to the empty room.
Again, the voice came to him, 'Do you remember that last night we've spent in this room?'
Wufei nodded and smiled at that reminder...
( Flash back)
"Treize, why did you bring me here? We are not supposed to me-"
Treize cut him off with a kiss, a passionate kiss, one that always bring fire into his body, send electrifying shivers down his spine, one that always make him weak in his knees......
"Dear little one, do you like that?" Treize called out sultrily in a tone he had always used when he whispered into the young gundam pilot's ear...... His tantalizing, deep voice had a mesmerizing effect on the chinese boy. He would always be drawn to the young Oz general, like a moth to a flame. Dangerous yet irresistible.... Deadly, yet so stimulating.
He reminisced the way Treize would stroke his neck.... Slow, teasingly .... Sometimes he would massage the back of his nape in a slow manner and sometimes , he would traced the outline of his spinal cord located at the base of his neck. Wufei would arched his back in pleasure, resulting in a closer, more intimate contact with Treize. Their hips would brushed against each other. Treize would always take this opportunity to slip his arm around his waist . The other would travel at a leisurely pace to his pants' drawstrings and languidly unties them . He would then slowly releases them , letting them collect themselves on the floor . At this stage, Treize would deepened his kiss , almost setting on fire . The force and that desire in that one kiss is enough to blow his sanity away . Treize can be such a teaser, a provocateur in bed.... He would carry Wufei to the bed, while his hands would trail along Wufei's inner thighs. Wufei knows Treize likes foreplay .
( Back to the present....)
*Treize , Treize.... my once in a lifetime love.... Why did you leave me?* A tear seeped out quietly from his almond - shaped eye .
" Don't cry, little one...... don't cry..... I do not wish to see this......"
"TREIZE!! Where are you?"
Wufei looked around, he saw nothing .... Nothing. No Treize in sight. "Was it really his voice I've heard, or just a figment of my imagination?"
~ Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory.
Love everlasting fades away....
alive within your beat less heart....~
*Why have I not treasured him when he was still alive? Why?* Wufei thought to himself sadly as he took a step forward into the room. He glanced around at the once familiar place . The red, velvet curtains draping from the curtain still. The elegant 16th century windowpanes.. had brought back fond memories.
( Flash back)
"Wufei?"
Wufei did not heard the little voice calling his name tenderly. He was engrossed with the book Treize had lent to him. The book entitled < Hamlet > a 18th century play written by William Shakespeare. He was sitting beside the window, when suddenly his book was taken away.
"Hey!!" he lashed out annoyingly, thinking it was Duo who was up to his usual mischief when a deep, rich baritone voice called out again, "Is Shakespeare more important than me?"
Wufei seeing the chagrined expression on the Oz general's face, chuckled softly and replied mischievously, "Yes, indeed."
Treize lifted his eyebrow up and responded. "Oh, really?"
Wufei nodded his head, and stretched out his hand, "Treize , can I have the book back, please?"
Treize shook his head, "Nope. I do not like the fact that Shakespeare had your attention. I want you to belong to me and no one else. You can only pay attention to me, your mind only has me and nothing else. Or else.." He grabbed Wufei’s outstretched hand, causing Wufei to fall into his embrace and continued, "I will destroy anyone or thing that has your fullest attention.."
Wufei frowned at that but yet he felt a bizarre sense of happiness. Treize took a glance at this little creature and there was an irresistible urge to take him and branded him as his...
"Oh... Wufei..." he carried Wufei in his arms and brought him to the bedside, surprising Wufei .
"What do you think you are doi--"
Treize silenced Wufei with a kiss as he proceeded to push Wufei downwards.
~ DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE... ~
*How long has he been gone?...* Wufei thought quietly to himself at one corner with his knees raised to his chest. He hugged them closer when the memory of Treize flashed across his mind again......
(Flashback)
On the big king - sized bed, Wufei laid in Treize's arms, naked. He liked spending the rest of the night listening to Treize's heartbeat after the strenuous activity they had engaged earlier. He had no idea why he liked hearing Treize's slow and steady heartbeat, he supposed it was because moments of being together with were rare and few. To be able to lay like this beside the older man was a place in heaven. Treize would then start stroking his back as they laid like this aftermath. He liked the way his legs being tangled with Treize's, his arms circling Treize's waist, his ear on Treize's chest ..... But this time was different..... Treize seemed distracted.... just then, he called out Wufei's name.
"Wufei....."
"Hm..."
"I have something to tell you....." Treize's voice sounded serious, solemn. Wufei got up and looked at Treize. Treize took this opportunity to admire Wufei's physique.
"Nani?" Wufei asked as he gazed into Treize's cornflower blue eyes. Oh how he loved that pair of eyes, filled with so much intelligence, so much wisdom, and so much passion.....
"I'll be present for the final showdown tomorrow..."
"NANI!?"
Treize winced at that harsh tone. He knew Wufei is not looking forward to this day... He knew Wufei had tried very hard to reconcile the very fact that they were lovers as well as enemies. The very fact that they had lasted for so long was because they had tried to evade the issue and not talk about it. It was an unspoken agreement. Treize got up and start picking up his strewn clothes. While he was getting dressed, he continued,
"Wufei, I have to be there..... I cannot run away from it . My supporters do not allow it, neither would my pride...... You know that better than anyone else......" He looked at Wufei squarely in the eyes.
Wufei looked away, the inevitable has come...
~ Tears flow with the winds of time
Never ending sadness changes to a blue flower...~
( Back to the present......)
Wufei raised his head up, tears in his eyes........ This night, he had cried, the first time he had ever cried since his death... He had never cried, not even when she had died.. but when he had gone, the hurt, the anguish was too much for him to bear.
~ Tears flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh...~
"Treize......." Wufei got up, hands raised to swipe away the tears , " TREIZE!!"
"Ai... shiteru..." He whispered brokenly... He took one last look at this room, where he and Treize spent all their romantic rendezvous here, where he would writhe helplessly to Treize's wicked ministrations. Where he would beg for favor, where Treize would always whispered gently his vows.. Now, all these were gone, all gone when Treize decided to pit himself against Justice, against me......
*Why did you do that ??*
'My Pride will not let me........ my pride will not let me.......' Treize’s voice kept on repeating those last words .
"Shut up!! Shut Up!!....." Wufei screamed. He covered his ears, he did not wish to listen... to listen to his deep timbre voice repeating the very last words that had sent him to his doom, the voice which whispers sweet nothings into his ears, the voice he had loved very much...
~ DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE~
"TREIZE!! AI SHITERU!!" He screamed, the force of his words had reverberated throughout the whole house.
'Wufei, love you too.... Let... go...'
On hearing that, Wufei was stunned. * Why?* He did not know what to say, did not know what to think. All he could think of now at this moment was that he did not want to let go, to let go the memory of Treize.
"Why?? Treize, doshite?"
'Wufei, let ...go... For your sake... and mine.... let go...' the voice continued, 'Stop....... tormenting yourself.......'
"NOOOOOOO" the room was filled with a deathly silence. Wufei's tears flow quietly down his cheeks, the cheeks Treize loved to stroke, loved to rain kisses lightly....
*Why?? Treize, why??* But he knew instanteously. He had to let go... Otherwise, Treize would never go in peace....(1)
"Treize??"
The room was so quiet that one could hear a pin drop .
"Treize, where are you?"
There was no sound. He took a last look at this room before leaving. Hoping that Treize would showed up, but to no avail.... He then left sadly, dragging his feet with him .
Suddenly, a figure appeared out of nowhere, it looked at Wufei's back profile sadly. It stretched out its hands as if to pull the now retreating Wufei back to the room. But it did not do so. Its hands went up to its mouth and touched its lips as it whispered,
'Sayonara.... My love.....'
~ If you could have told me everything
You would have found what love is
If you could have told me what was on your mind
I would have shown you the way
Someday I'm gonna be older than you
I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
For now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live with love, with dreams,
and forever with Tears....
~Owari~
Explanation:
(1) In chinese custom, it was believed that should when someone dies, his soul will linger as someone still misses them, not wanting to let go. Thus the deceased could not be reborn. I'm not sure whether I have interpreted it correctly but heck, this is a story, right?? ^^;;
~~ The Lyrics used in this Song fiction~~
Tears
Music and Lyric By: Yoshiki
Doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete
Ima wa sugisatta toki ni toi kakete
Nagasugita yuru ni tobi dachi o yume mita
Ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoko o dakishimete
Nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
Owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite
Dry your tears with love
Dry your tears with love
Loneliness..
your silence whispers
Fills a river of tears through the night.....
Memory , you never let me cry
And you , you never say goodbye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lose our dreams along the way .
But I never thought you trade your soul to the fates
Never thought you'll leave me alone...
Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory.
Love everlasting fades away....
alive within your beat less heart...
Dry your tears with love
Dry your tears with love
Nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
Owaranai kanashimi o aoi-bara ni kaete
Dry your tears with love
Dry your tears with love
Nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete
Owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite
Dry your tears with love (4x)
Whiteangel
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