Author : Whiteangel
Fan fiction : Silence
Poem By : Katsu
Story By : Puck
Created in : 13/07/99
Finished in : 13/07/99
Author's Note :
This poem is written by katsu . I do not stake claims on it . I've already asked for Katsu's permission to use it for my new fic . Katsu , I do hope that I had interpreted the lines correctly and had brought out the meaning of this poem..... Hope that you all like it!!! This Fanfic was set just after the final war . They had finally won Oz and a new Era was established .
I hope you all like this story . ^_^
~Silence;
I fill my silence with words
Cheerful expressions
Unending laughter
Outpourings of happiness
That no one understands.
In my silence is fear, in my silence is craving
In my silence , desperation.~
Duo :
I look around, seeing all these burning debris on my visuals . Fatigue suddenly came upon me as I slumped upon my seat.
*Will this going to last?* I thought wearily to myself. *I really had enough of this fighting , this killing , this mass destruction... I suppose that there is no one else who think the same way as I do ?? Always smiling, cracking jokes just to make myself to forget this.... The lives I had taken. I am truly God of Death . *
*What a joke,* I thought to myself, taking in the scenes of death , of blood , of war.. *I'm so tired.... Can I ever get out of this ??? *
"Ha!!" I gave a shout of cynical laughter, knowing that there is no one who thinks the same way as I do. Except Quatre , that is........... Quatre, such a sweet boy, I wonder what makes him decided to join this plunder...
~Silence;
I fill my silence with more silence
Layer upon layer
Deeper, deeper
Until I am buried and
I became the silence
In my silence is stillness, in my silence is sadness
In my silence , hopelessness.~
Heero :
I glanced around, looking at all these ruins , never allowing these images to register in my mind . I am so afraid that I will be weaken... Duo..... How is he holding up under so much despair and destruction ?? How can he remain so cheerful in spite of all ... this ???? Why has it come to this ? Ah.... it’s all because of me .... Its because my trigger-happy fingers had pressed the button that kills those feds who wanted peace.... It’s all because of me ....... I try to hide myself under the guise of silence . I try to run away from guilt by trying very hard to self - detonate myself , but alas , it was unsuccessful . Am I meant to live ?? But why ? This puzzled me greatly.... sadness and hopelessness seemed to follow me wherever I go ...
~Silence;
I fill my silence with anger
Cold like frozen steel
Sharp and cutting
Chilling to the bone
In my silence , loneliness.~
Trowa :
The laughing faded away with the passing breeze, bringing along the scent of blood.* All of them are tired....* He understood, even though their gundams had stood tall and regal amidst the scene of bloodshed and death. Emptiness, pain, suffering and the loss of innocence after this ravage of war.
*When can we be free from all this??* He thought as he saw the scene of death. Suddenly he saw a mobile suit losing bearings and fall, crashing onto the ground. *Quatre!!* He dashed forward without thinking, worry filled his senses as he rushed towards the golden angel's Sand Rock .
"Are you all right??" He asked in a worried tone as he got out of his gundam , Heavyarms. He nimbly jumped to the ground and hopped up to the fallen mobile suit. He soon reached the hatchet of Sand Rock and forcibly opened it.
Suddenly, the hatchet opened to reveal a golden hair boy sitting on the seat, curled up like a ball. Trowa's heart leapt at the sight, "Quatre?"
Quatre seemed not to hear his voice, so he went forward and gently shook Quatre's shoulders and repeated his name softly, "Quatre?"
Quatre raised his head slowly, his unfocused eyes took in the sight of Trowa and he instinctively stretched his arms towards Trowa, seemingly to think that this figure standing before him will protect him from any harm or danger.
~Silence;
I fill my silence with smiles
Kind words
Caring touches
Reaching out until
I have nothing more to give , but still I do
In my silence is sympathy , in my silence is innocence
In my silence , I speak alone.~
Quatre :
War..... when will it end ?? Hasn't it taken too many lives already ?? How many of these soldiers had left their families to fight in this war ? How many of them had this wish to end this war ?? Why does those high-ranking officials understand this? I had enough... I had sacrificed too much, my relationship with my father, my naivety , innocence and a chance to lead a normal life. My father's life was taken away too.... Yet , despite all these, he felt happy and gratified . he had this chance to meet Trowa... * Trowa... strong and yet so gentle... Trowa...* He then suddenly collapsed.
His mind was empty, he felt so tired and curled up in his seat. Just as sudden of his fall, he had suddenly heard a voice calling his name. He looked up and saw a faceless figure reaching out to him. He stretched out his arms, knowing instinctively that this faceless creature meant no harm.
Trowa :
He saw Quatre's arms stretched out, seemed to be begging for protection. He knew that Quatre was feeling tired of this fighting and wanted warmth.... He too then stretched his arms out to carry Quatre out of Sand Rock. *He felt so light, so thin.........* He glanced at the tired face presented before him. Quatre snuggled in his embrace, his little face lit up with tender expression, like a baby that had found warm and security in his mother's arms.
" So sweet, so trusting ......* He thought to himself, and at the same time was surprised at his thoughts. He carried Quatre to his hatch and placed him gently on his lap, putting his head to rest on his shoulder after he had settled in his Heavyarms. He felt at peace at Quatre's body upon his body and he also felt this strange feeling of being whole once again. Its as if with Quatre by his side, in his arms, he had found the other missing half.
~Silence;
I fill my silence with honor
Words of Justice
Phrases of Judgement
Sitting blind on a throne
With a crown of swords upon my brow
In my silence is wrath , in my silence is mourning
In my silence, captivity. ~
Wufei :
He saw the whole action, Quatre's mobile suit falling down and Trowa rushing forward towards Sand Rock. He felt a sense of jealousy... He knew why he felt that. He once had this loving care but he threw it away... in the name of Justice. He threw away his only chance of having true happiness..... when he had blasted Treize's mobile suit to smithereens. He now had deeply regretted his actions, had mourned his death as he slashed almost half of Oz's mobile suits that were lying there. With each stroke, he was venting out his frustrations and sorrow . Justice, all in the name of Justice... Was it worth it? He had no answer to that question. Perhaps, he will never have the answer...
~Five of us stand in the silence
Made brothers , lovers , friends by its soul destroying nothingness
One sees , with eyes clear of death surrounding us
One speaks , while four stand locked away
The silence would die forever
If only they could hear.~
Indeed , no one will ever the outrage , the pain , the suffering and the keen loss of their loved ones as they buried those feelings deep down in their hearts in silence . Only they will understand one
another , as they had fought beside each other . Only they will know of the silence they had kept . Finally , the war has ended . But they will not regain their normal lives... This is the price they had to pay... They had to keep silent about it.................
~Owari~
Whiteangel
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