Author : Whiteangel
Song fiction : Till The End Of Time
Lyrics By : Isabella Dante
Music By : Brett Raymond
Created in : 13/07/99
Finished in : 13/07/99
Revised : 14/03/00
Author's Note : The Song was taken from the soundtrack <<Silent Mobus>> The international version. The lyrics is beautiful^^ When I first bought this album and heard this song, The idea of using it as a backdrop for Heero and Duo just came into my mind instantly^^ I hope that after the revision, the story will flow smoother.
~ You turned the light on
So I could see all the love deep inside of me
You hush my sorrow , close my eyes
And I'll be yours
'Till the end of time... ~
"Heero..."
I called out softly to him, but I knew he did not heard my voice. He was just sitting at the corner of the room, where the computer was. The back profile, always give me a sense of aloofness, a loner and an independent individual. He was busy gathering information for a mission that came in last night. Pain filled my heart, knowing I could never get past the 'security system' installed in his heart. Anger reigned, knowing I could never be the number one in his heart and mind... What was I then?? What was I to him?? I sighed softly to myself, resigned to my fate. Who asked me to fall in love with this workaholic, this self destructive manic?? Sometimes, I even wonder to myself, did he worth all this pining?? This love I am offering to him?? Why have I fallen in love with someone who cannot reciprocate my love?? Why must I torture myself by staying with him?
"Heero...."
That voice which calls my name so softly , which had so much sorrow in that word... which made my heart ached. I knew I was hurting him with my aloofness, but it was necessary... It was necessary to keep a distance from him, otherwise I could not concentrate on my mission, he too would be distracted. we could not afford to be distracted... We could pay a heavy price should we got distracted on the battlefield... We were soldiers, trained to kill. Soldiers could not afford to have feelings. But I am having those foreign sentiments. I stared hard at the computer screen, though not registering the information displayed there in my mind. My thoughts were filled with this creature's laughter, smiles and that particular pair of amethyst eyes ... So large, so... expressive .
*What is it about him? Why do I always think of him constantly?*
Was he mine from the very beginning? Why do I feel that he had never been mine? I got up from the king - sized bed and got dressed, I am so disappointed with him. He never understood how I felt, never took the time to get to know me better. What am I to him? He only invited me to his room when he felt like it. Why do I always obey his commands, his indulgences? Am I just a convenient relief to him?
'That is because you love him, with all your soul, with all your might, with all your heart...'
*Huh?* A voice inside me spoke.....
'He is yours 'till the end of time...'
*Really?* I thought to myself.
'You already has the answer in your heart...'
~This kind of love
You can't deny
There's no excuse , there's no decline
When two hearts as one you find ,
I'll be yours
'Till the end of time...~
I could feel his apprehension, his confusion. I heard a rustling noise and I knew he was getting out of the bed. I knew too that this would be the last time we will get together. I could tell, by his behavior. He was getting tired of waiting for my affirmation.
'No!! Ask him not to go!!' A voice cried out...
*What?* I thought to myself.
'You fool!! he is leaving!!'
*Shut up!!* I thought angrily to myself, trying to quell that little nagging voice somewhere in my heart, my mind...*Let him leave!! Nothing lasts, anyway...*
'No, you are wrong, absolutely wrong... He loves you!! you know that?!'
*NO!!* I mentally shook that thought off my head. I have to concentrate, this is a very important assignment.
'More important than Duo?'
*Yes.* I answered to that little voice inside my head.
'Are you sure?'
*Yes!!* I screeched to that voice, exasperated.
~You were standing there
Without a word .
And then I knew love was real
If each tomorrow , I find your smile
Yes , I'll follow
'Till the end of time...~
*Is he really mine?* I glanced at him for the last time and then opened the door.
"Duo!!"
I froze at that sound, at that word, at that voice. I could not bring myself to turn around. I did not wish to be disappointed again. He had to say those words I wanted to hear. I need to know my placing, what I am to him, that I'm not a convenient sex relief for him. I wanted so much to walk out through that door but I could not find the strength...
'Could not, or would not??' a voice inside my head asked mischievously. I winced at the rising hope inside my heart, the joy that he had called out my name in a bid to stop me from leaving. *No, I am not going to be deceived by it...
"Duo!!"
I could not bear the thought of him leaving me I panicked and called out his name unwittingly. Instantly, I had regretted it. Am I that weak to call out for him?? I slapped myself mentally, as a punishment for my weakness. But as I stared at his silent profile, so unnatural for him to be this quiet...... Something unfathomable began to thug at my heart. I got up from where I was standing, had this irrepressible urge to run towards him...
"Duo..." I repeated his name, softly this time. I began to realize how much I like the way his name rolled off my tongue. I tried to think of other things to say but the only thing that came to my mind was his name. He still did not moved. Why?? why had he not ran towards me and hugged me with so much enthusiasm like he usually did... What had happen? But... but he still loves me... He is still standing there, isn't it obvious??
*Why has he not come up to me yet? No way, man !! This time I am not giving in.. It's his turn...*
Suddenly, I heard footsteps coming towards me from the back.
*Is he giving in?? Is he coming for me? Is he begging me not to leave..* My heart soared at the thought of Heero making the first move. For the first time, I am not making the move... But my heart thumped erratically at the prospect of him approaching me, telling me how much he needed me, yet at the same time, I was afraid that he had called me just to return some personal items I had purposely left unpacked so as to create an excuse to visit him again.
I could not stand it any longer. I decided to make the first move. I walked up to him, deliberately making my footsteps sound louder.
" Duo..." I called out as I wrapped my arms around him. I had realized something... He was indeed more important to me than anything else in this world... not even my missions. All it took for me to realize that was the threat of him leaving me for good. That seemed to knock me in the head, telling me that opportunity only knocks once, I shouldn't gave him up, just like that...
~And I'll be yours 'Till the end of time........~
*Do I really have his heart now? Is he mine forever, until the end of time?* I turned in his arms and looked at him. His beautiful blue cobalt eyes staring back at me wordlessly.
"Heero," I opened my mouth and took a deep breath before continuing, "Are you going to be mine?"
I thought hard at this question he had imposed on me . I could not answer because I did not know how to commit myself . This relationship demanded too much of me.. My first priority should be my mission though he took the first place in my heart. I looked into his eyes, his large, angelic amethyst eyes intently and saw the questions in his eyes, I could not bear to see that...
"I'll be yours..'til the end of time..." I answered resolutely. I was rewarded a radiant smile, the one I loved so much...
I could not take this, my heart was going to give way under all this suspension. What reply was he giving me ?? I was so afraid to know.. I stared at him so hard that I thought for one moment, my eyes were going to pop out. What if he still decided his mission was more important than me, or what if he felt that maybe all this was a big mistake and he decided not to want me... What if... When I saw him opening his mouth, when I saw him looking at me with his blue sapphire eyes , I almost forgot to breathe.. almost..
" I'll be yours... 'till the end of time..."
What? What have I heard? Can this be true? I cannot believe this... This can't be happening. I smiled, gave him my most brilliant smile... I was filled with so much joy, so much blissfulness that I could not believe this is true!!
~Until the end of time
That's how long this love is
'Till the end of time
I'll be yours.......~
~Owari~
Whiteangel
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