17-Aug-2000
God Must Have Spent A Little More Time
Warning: 5+2, shounen ai, sap, waff, anything that denotes a toothache.
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys, and N'SYNC owns the song.
AN: The first real sap I've written. Gah! I don't like sap... give me back my angst muse!!!!
Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete. I thought I was whole.
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I turns and looked at the sleeping Duo laying next to him. My heart warms, it fills. Like a hot air balloon rising in the sky at sunrise. The shining of the day starting. When did this happen? When did Duo become the most important person in my life? Sometimes it is hard to imagine that Duo was *mine*. Duo's heart and soul belonging to me, and me alone. It had to be the most wonderful feeling in the world. Nothing could compare to it. Now if only I could tell Duo exactly how much he meant to me. 'I love you', just wasn't enough. There was more than just love. There was contentment, belonging, pain, happiness, in short everything that makes the world spin. There were emotions, and feelings that I had never have known even existed if it wasn't for this sweet angel laying next to me. He breath warms everything it touches. Bringing to life, things which I thought had been long dead. It is frightening on one level, my ordered life has been thrown on spin cycle. But I wouldn't trade this for the world... because he is my world.
I never thought that love could be like this
And you changed my world with just kiss
How can it be?
That right here with me
There's an angel
It's miracle
He is the most perfect angel in the world. I believe that he fell down from heaven, just to make my life complete. I remember the first time he ever told me he loved me. It was right after we had escaped from Barge. He looked at me with those shining violet eyes, that seemed to hold the whole world in them. The hopes and dreams of all the innocent children, trapped in those beautiful eyes of his. He thanked me for keeping him company. He said that he would have died if I had not been there, a strong steady beat, to help pull him through our dark hour. I told him that I did no such thing. That he was imagining it. He walked over to me and kissed me. It was like a new world opened before my eyes. I had never been kissed with such passion... with such love in my entire life. He smiled at me, saying that loving me kept him alive. Knowing that if he left, I would never get to know him. I had to agree with him. I might not known what it was that I was losing, but I would have known that I had lost something very precious and dear to me. I would have lost my Duo.
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time on you
I smile at the memory. Glancing down I watch as he smiles in his sleep. He must be dreaming of happy times. I remember our happy times. The time he took me to an amusement park was one of them. I was able to let go of my outer mask, and let the child in me shine through. Like he does everyday in his life. I had never been able to just 'let go' until I met him. His eyes smiling at, opening a hole into my soul, letting the real me shine through. He must be an angel to open someone like me up. I have spent my life hiding. I hid behind my justice, and my ranting, hoping that it would make me unapproachable. But this being of light from heaven, broke through all those barriers, letting the true me escape.
In all of creation all things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
You're more precious than any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold when you came in this world
He is the most special thing in the world. Everything that he touches seems to shine with renewed life. Nothing can withstand his charm and his love. He managed to bring Heero out of his shell, finally getting the 'Perfect Soldier' to live, to not take his life in vain. He helped Quatre control some of the demons that plagued him from his father's death. He made Trowa smile. Only my perfect angel could have done something like this. Nothing can escape the touch of his presence. Everything is healed with the love that he carries in his heart. All of us Gundam pilots owe him so much, but he will never try to collect the debts. He is the greatest thing in the world. He does not need the compensation for helping us with our demons. Yet we try to give it to him anyway. I know that I could not have lived long hiding behind my justice. He saved my life, and I will send mine doing my best to make him feel special... he is the most precious thing in this world to me. I could not survive without him.
I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
That leaves me purified
When we walk down the street, people stare at the brilliant light that he radiates. There is nothing in the world that can compare. Just like the little children that he plays with in the park. Or reading hour at the library. Sometimes he acts like he is still a child, even though we are all older than we should be. But that is what makes him special. That is what cleansed my tarnished soul. His innocence and love.
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time on you
He is awake now. Staring at me with those beautiful eyes. Eyes that can see into my very soul. Eyes that leave me bared to the world. I will never figure out what exactly about him, draws me to him, but I suspect that it is everything that he is. He wouldn't be the Duo without the good and the bad. That is what makes him the perfect soul.
He is taking the cross off of his neck... what is he doing? He tells me to close my eyes. I do so, I would do anything that he asks. I feel the of the cold chain encircle my neck. It clashed sharply with the warm cross that now lay on my chest. The warmth that radiated from his body... touching this very treasure just moments ago... Tears are leaking from my eyes. I am so happy, yet I can not figure out why. It is just a necklace. My breath catches in my throat as I realize exactly what this necklace means. Means to him and to me. To him, it is his entire life. All the good and bad, wrapped up in one ornamental object. To me, it is Duo. I hold him close knowing that I will always have a part of my Duo with me.
I never thought that love could be like this
And you changed my world with just kiss
How can it be?
That right here with me
There's an angel
It's miracle
I can't stop crying these tears of happiness. I feel the need to something equally meaningful in return, but I can not fathom, what could mean more to me than him. If I could find that something I would give it to him... to show him how much I feel. How much more I feel than just love.
My sweet angel. My eyes stray over to the last scrap of metal from my Nataku. It is the last link to my former life, my former existence. I smile as I realize how to show him what he means. To show him that he is my life.
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time on you
I hand him the box. He opens it and stares at it with wide eyes. He knows what it is... he knows that it is gundanium alloy. To both of us it will signify the indestructibility of our love... of our feelings. This is how I will show him how I feel... by giving up all that I was, so that I can be all that I am now... for him. He looks at me and holds out his hand, so that I can place the ring onto another one of his perfect part... his finger. He smiles as the ring goes on and envelopes in a hug.
"Wufei... where did you find gundanium?"
"I used the last of my Nataku for you... you mean more to me than anything, and it was something that had to be done."
"God must have spent a little more time on you"
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