14-Jan-2001
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing nor any of it's characters, it is only my
wish that they should get as much nookie with each other as possible. I don't
own the song, "Hold Me" Savage Garden does.
Warnings: as always, OOC, possibly AU, but that never stops me, some angst,
excessive sap at the end, 2 LEMONS!!!!!!, Ummm... yaoi of course
Pairings: 1x5, 1x2x5
AN: Took me long enough. Ummm.... I hope you all enjoy, and please, please,
please give me feedback! This is the first 1x2x5 I have ever written and only
my second threesome. This is also a repost for the contest.
Please tell me what you think ^_^
// thoughts // ~ lyrics~
~Hey~
Chang Wufei glared at Heero Yui, who was sitting across the room from him. He eyed his prey and sent Yui a silent message saying "mine". Heero caught the message and sent back a death look. Turning his eyes back to the object of his earlier watchful gaze.
Duo could feel the tension in the room around him. He self-consciously turned his head from Heero to Wufei. // Did they have a fight? //
Finally Wufei stood and left the room with a, "I'm going to fix Nataku." His posture radiated anger and hurt. He was never going to get the violet-eyed angel that had found its way into his heart. He was never going to be given the love that he so desperately craved, but didn't deserve.
Heero felt a pang in his heart as he watched Wufei leave. Oh he knew that they were after the same prize and he accepted the challenge. Somewhere along the way however, he had started to love both Duo and Wufei. He attributed this excessive feeling of love to the new emotions that he was experiencing. He had been able to hide his new emotions from all those around him, except Quatre, but he knew that Quatre would never tell. His thoughts were interrupted by a beautiful voice... that was filled with worry.
"Heero? Did you and Wufei have a fight or something?"
Heero blinked. "No."
"Oh... then why is he so upset? Do you know what's wrong with him?"
// Yeah the fact that he loves you and you never pay attention to either of us. // "No Duo. I have no idea. Now leave me alone, I'm working."
Duo sighed and went back to watching the television. There was nothing he could do. He loved them both so much, but they were in love with each other. There was no place for him in the equation. // Two's company, three's a crowd. //
Wufei stared up at his gundam somehow hoping that the large machine would give some kind of answer to his dilemma. He had never thought he could love again, not after Meiran... but now he was in love with Duo. It was rather unfortunate that he Wufei, the denouncer of all cowards was too cowardly to tell Duo how he felt.
He rested his head against the cool metal of his gundam. // Oh Meiran, what should I do? How should I approach this situation? I know I love Duo, but now I feel something for Heero too. It's not quite the same feeling that I have for Duo... but it's close. I wish I knew what to do. //
He banged his head against the gundam's exterior, giving into the urge of self-hatred. He truly was a coward of the worst kind, not to mention a greedy coward also. He wasn't good enough to hold two burning candles, let alone one.
// After all... wouldn't I just let them down in the end? That's all I have ever done. My home, my colony, my clan... and my Meiran. All of them depended on me and I let them down. I am worthless. //
He didn't realize when he started crying.
~If we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this~
"Wufei? We need to talk... please?"
Wufei whirled around and faced the person of his love and desire. He quickly wiped the small track of tears that had fallen down his cheek. "What do you want, Maxwell?"
"Why are you sad Wufei? What happened to you and Heero? You shouldn't fight with each other." // I don't want to see you fight... I want you to be happy together, since you can't be happy with me. //
"Nothing happened between us. I don't understand what you are talking about."
"Wufei... you need to talk about it... if you don't then it will eat away at your soul, your heart, and it will eventually destroy you. I don't want that to happen. You are my friend." // I wish you were more... //
"Stop worrying about me Maxwell. I am fine." Said Wufei and climbed into his gundam closing the hatch.Duo sighed, // Maybe Heero will be able to do something... before it's too late. //
Wufei watched Duo leave and flipped the view screen in his gundam on. He had a camera hidden in the living room, so that he could at least look at Duo to his heart's content. His breath caught in his throat at what he saw...
Heero and Duo in a seemingly deep conversation, their heads bent together in a seemingly comfortable position. For the first time Wufei was glad that he didn't have the audio installed. He had a feeling that his heart would break if he heard the conversation. Shit. His heart was breaking anyway. Sighing, he turned off the visual and crept out of his gundam and to his sanctuary.
~Standing face to face Enemies at war we build defenses And secret hiding places~
Wufei stood staring out of the top branch of the Sycamore tree. // If I jumped or lost my balance, I could die... why doesn't that fact upset me? Why does it fill me with calm assurance? //
Wufei looked under him as he heard a rustle in the tree below him. He squinting and was almost shocked off his perch. He waited for the intruder to reach the branch below his and then asked his question. "What are you doing here, Yui?"
"We need to talk."
"Oh really? I don't believe we have anything to talk about. After all, we are enemies. Two individuals that are after the same thing. What could we possibly have to talk about?"
"You."
Wufei turned away from Heero, his posture indicating ‘audience over'. "There is no reason to talk about me. Please leave."
Heero shook his head. "I can't do that. Duo is worried about you. He's worrying himself sick. I don't want him to be sick. You need to talk. So talk."
"I said go away Yui..."
"No."
Wufei whirled and lost his footing on the branch. He felt the weightlessness of being in the air, and closed his eyes, waiting for the fall that would kill him. He did not want to die.... // I'm sorry Duo... //
Heero saw Wufei whirl on the branch and lose his footing. // Nooo!!!! // His reflexes reacted instantly, his hand reaching out to grab Wufei. He was not going to lose anyone else.
Wufei felt his body jerk in mid air as he stopped falling. // What? // He looked up to see himself being held in the air by the precarious grip of Heero's hand. He glanced up into Heero's eyes and saw ... fear and something else... something that shouldn't be in Heero's eyes, at least not directed towards him. // What does he have to fear? Does he even know fear? //
"Wufei... I'm going to pull you up to the branch below me. Hold onto it."
That was the only warning Wufei got as he felt himself being lifted into the air.
His free hand reached out and grasped the branch and he pulled himself up as he let go of Heero's hand. "Why did you save me? You would have gotten Duo." Wufei began climbing down the tree at a fast pace. He shouldn't have asked that question. He shouldn't have butted in.
As he reached the ground he was surprised to see Heero there, standing before him.
~I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright~
He gripped Wufei's shoulders and shook him hard. "Why did I save you? What kind of stupid question is that? You are important Wufei! Important to the mission, important to all those around you! You are important to Duo, and you are important to *me*!" Heero pulled Wufei's face to his own and gave him a bruising kiss. He pulled away and looked at Wufei. "Do you really think that I am such a bastard that I would wish for your death just so I could have Duo?"
He looked into Wufei's eyes and noticed the shock that the Chinese pilot seemed to be experiencing. // Shit. It was too much all at once. // Heero knew that if he released his hold on Wufei that he would fall on the ground. He wasn't responding to anything. Sighing he picked the stunned pilot up and took him to the house.
There were things that they needed to discuss.
~I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man~
Once they were safely back at the house Heero carried Wufei up to his room and waited for the emotional storm that was sure to come. He set Wufei down onto the bed and waited in a chair in the corner of the room, his own thoughts in turmoil. He shouldn't have put Wufei through that, it wasn't right, it wasn't fair.
// Why was I stupid enough to tell him that after he almost died? It's not as if his emotions weren't in enough turmoil already. Should I just let him have Duo? No. I won't give up. I won't give up on either of them. It wouldn't be fair to any of us. // Heero sighed and buried his head into his hands sometimes life just wasn't fair.
Wufei woke out of his shocked state to find himself on his bed in his room. // How did I get here? //
He glanced around the room and saw Heero sitting in the chair. His mind automatically went to the previous events and filled with cold, hard fury. // He's trying to use me! He's trying to confuse me! I won't let him!!!! // He jumped off the bed and headed over to where Heero calmly regarded him. "What the fuck do you think you are doing Yui?! Trying to confuse me? What?"
"I'm sorry if I put pressure on you Wufei... I just wanted you to know how I felt."
"Don't give me that crap Yui! You love Duo! I know that!"
"Yes I do love Duo... but I love you too."
Wufei stepped back in shock. "You can't love both of us!"
"Why not?" Heero stood and walked the short distance to Wufei. He put a hand on Wufei's cheek and caressed it lightly. "You mean just as much to me as Duo does. I didn't realize it for a long time, but now I know it."
Wufei jerked his face away from Heero's touch as if it stung. "I don't want or need your sympathy Yui. Please get out of my room. Now."
"As you wish Wufei." Heero turned and left the room without looking back at Wufei.
Wufei stared at the retreating figure of Heero, his thoughts going in a multitude of directions. Mentally he tried to latch onto one thought, one thing, so that he would come out of his confusion.
// Was he lying? How can he possibly love the both of us? Why... why does knowing that he thinks he loves me, make me happy and confused at the same time? //
Wufei dropped to the floor and sobbed into his hands. // When did everything become so confusing? //
~Hey
More than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud~
Duo stared in to the main room where Heero and Wufei were. // Those two haven't spoken in days. I wonder what happened? I wonder what went wrong... // Duo sighed.
// This isn't right. Those two should not fight! They love each other; even I can see that. They are always in the same room, always looking at each other. I wish they wouldn't fight! I love them both so much! I gave up on both of them so that they could have each other! I sacrificed my happiness for theirs, so that they could have each other! And now they're not happy! //
Duo watched as Heero approached Wufei only to get sneered at. Heero backed away and said something quietly and Wufei flipped him off.
// Those two need help... //
~Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe~
Wufei stared at Heero. It was becoming too much to bear. The constant doubt in his mind, the constant echo of what could be if he only accepted it. On some level he knew he was deceiving himself. He knew he loved Heero... but Duo had been so much a part of his every waking thought. Hell... Duo had been a part of his every sleeping thought too. Was he really ready to share his daydreams? Why focus on two people, when there was already one?
Heero approached him and asked him if he would take a walk with him, so that they could talk. Wufei didn't want to think about any of it. He was going to run away... it was the only option left to him. He flipped Heero off and told him to get lost.
~So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart~
Duo approached Heero; he was going to find a way to help those he loved. Even if it tore his heart in two, or three... oh hell... a million pieces. "Heero? What's going on between you and Wufei?"
"Nothing."
"Heero! Please tell me! I don't like having my friends hurting! I don't like seeing you two in pain!" Duo placed a hand on Heero's shoulder. "Please Heero... tell me... "
"Take your hand off my shoulder Duo... before I do something that I'll regret."
Duo blinked but did not remove his hand. "What would you regret Heero?"
Heero spun and grasped Duo's hand. "I would regret hurting you."
Duo's eyes widened. "How could you hurt me Heero?"
"Like this." Heero kissed Duo softly, slipping his tongue inside the warm mouth. Heero kissed Duo tenderly, lovingly... just like Duo had only dreamed about.
Duo sighed and kissed back. // If Wufei were only here.... Oh SHIT!!!!! //
Duo pulled away so abruptly that he fell onto the ground. "What the FUCK Heero! What about Wufei? You just going to leave him hanging out to dry?!?" Duo whispered. Duo was pissed. Heero was abandoning Wufei... for him! It was the one thing he had always feared and never wanted. He would never hurt Wufei like that... never!
~I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe ~
Wufei walked out of the house and right into view of Heero and Duo's very public kiss. // It's all over now... // Wufei straightened his shoulders and marched towards them. He saw Duo pull away and land on the ground, saying something to Heero.
He walked up to the two and almost smirked at their surprised faces. "Congratulations."
He spun on one foot and marched in another direction, swearing silently that no one would see him cry. As soon as he was out of sight of the other pilots he broke into a run, the tears making tracts down his face. There was no longer anything left for him. Nothing. It had all officially just been taken away. He climbed to the top of his tree, the top of his sanctuary; his mind was awhirl with depressed thoughts and emotions.
// It shouldn't be like this. Nothing worked out for me... why Nataku why? Am I destined to suffer my whole life? Wallowing in pity and self-hatred? Why Gods why? Do you hate me that much? Am I not good enough? //
Wufei paused on that thought and examined it. // No... no I'm not worthy enough. I never have been. I've only been a useless vessel, a useless waste of karma. I shouldn't be here... I should never have been born. //
Wufei stepped as far out on the tree branch as possible, daring Mother Nature to take his life. She complied, as a sharp wind knocked his footing out from under him, the tree branch breaking with a loud snap.
// Finally... it's over. //
~I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man~
"NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!"
Wufei heard the scream of terror reach his ears. //What does it matter anyway? // Wufei kept his eyes closed enjoying the weightless feeling in the freefall.
Something jerked his body roughly and he opened his eyed to see Heero's body clutching his.
"What are you doing Yui!"
"Saving your life."
"The impact will kill you, you idiot!"
Heero smirked. "No it won't. I've had worse."
Wufei tried to struggle out of Heero's grasp. Heero wasn't going to take this away from him! It was his right! It was his chosen path!
Heero held Wufei tighter, making sure to keep his own body below Wufei's. This was going to hurt like a bitch, but at least he'd survive.
There was no way Wufei was going to let someone else die for him. That had already happened too many times already. // Never again... never. //
He pulled the sturdy belt off his waist and threw it at a tree branch. His arm gave a sharp jerk and a pop as they came to a sudden stop, less than three meters to the ground. The sudden pain forced Wufei to let go of his belt, falling the rest of the way to the ground. This all happened in the space of mere seconds, time seemingly slowing down for the two.
They impacted with a great amount of force, but not enough to cause more than bruising. Heero pushed himself out from under Wufei and ripped off Wufei's shirt. Even he had heard the distinct sound of a muscle popping out of place.
Wufei almost howled in pain as his shirt was forcefully removed. His arm hurt so badly. He knew that it was dislocated in at least two places. He didn't think that he broke anything, but still... it hurt.
Heero grasped Wufei's arm and prepared to pop the joints into place. "It's ok to yell."
"Never."
"Famous last words." Heero pulled on the arm sharply, not once, but twice. Wufei bit his lip but did not cry out. He would not be that cowardly.
Satisfied with his job, Heero released Wufei's arm. He enveloped him in a warm embrace.
"Why are you here, Heero? Why aren't you with Duo? Why did you stop me?" Wufei's voice cracked, his emotions once again getting the better of him.
"I already told you Wufei. I love you. I won't let you destroy yourself. When are you going to realize that? When are you going to accept it?" Heero sighed. "When I saw you walk away, Duo got angry with me, saying that I broke your heart. I realized that he was probably true. I also realized that you walking away would mean that I would break my heart as well. I do love you Wufei, just as much as I love Duo."
Wufei looked up, the words finally reaching his heart and his mind, releasing him from his demons. // He was willing to die for me... // "Honto ni?" he asked in a scared voice.
Heero smiled and brushed his hand across Wufei's face. "Hai. Ai shiteru, Wufei."
He leaned down and cupped Wufei's chin kissing him softly, waiting for a response. To his extreme pleasure Wufei started kissing him back. Then they broke the kiss and headed for the house. Going into Heero's room they moved into kiss each other again, their flames of passion igniting, burning each other with its touch.
Wufei was finally going to accept what his Gods had given him. He knew that Heero would just continue to go after him. // Hell! He had almost sacrificed his life just for me! And... and I know that I would do the same for him. I know that now... I have lied to myself for far too long. I love Heero Yui, just like I love Duo. I need this... I want this. //
Wufei kissed Heero more aggressively, putting all his heat into the kiss. He rubbed his body against Heero's his movements demonstrating his need, his desire.
Heero groaned and pulled Wufei tightly against him, throwing off his shirt in the process. The contact of their bare chests sent shudders through both pilots. Their bodies had known all along what they felt. It had just taken their minds' a little longer to comprehend.
Heero picked Wufei up and carried him over to the bed. He kissed small patterns along Wufei's jawbone, and down his neck. He lavished Wufei's neck with gentle nips, stopping to suck on the tender flesh for a few moments. His hands drifted down Wufei's chest caressing... loving. His hand moved lower, finally resting on the top of his pants. He stopped and looked into Wufei's eyes.
Wufei looked back at him with clear eyes. He had finally sorted out his confusion; his problems and he wanted Heero. Wufei pulled Heero back down for an intense kiss, his own hand sliding down guiding Heero's.
That was all the incentive Heero needed as he once again took control of the situation. He slipped his hands underneath the rim of Wufei's pants and boxers and tugged them down. Wufei lifted his hips to allow them to slide off more easily. Wufei made grasping motions at Heero's pants and Heero shucked them, understanding the silent plea. Wufei pulled their bodies together, grounding every inch of their flesh together, trying to mold them into one. The intense feelings of passion were burning him down to the root of his soul.
"I didn't realize Heero... I didn't realize how much you meant. I was lying to myself this whole time. I do love you as well."
"I know."
Heero moved off of Wufei and reached into the dresser drawer and pulled out a tube. Laying it carefully on the bed next to him, his mouth moved down to Wufei's erection, engulfing him.
Wufei moaned and squirmed as Heero made sweet love to him with his mouth. It was so intense... so erotic. He knew he wouldn't be able to take too much of this sweet torture, so he pulled Heero up against him, grinding their erections together.
"Take me Heero... onegai?"
"Hai."
Heero moved and grabbed the tube from beside him. He flipped the lid off and was about to apply it to himself when a hand stopped him.
"Let me, please?"
Heero relinquished the tube to Wufei. Wufei squirted on of the lube onto his hand and gently stroked Heero's erection, coating it in the slippery substance.
Heero groaned at Wufei's touch. The gentle stroking motions sending shudders through out his body. He pushed Wufei back onto the bed and positioned himself. A Wufei's nod he entered him swiftly, and Wufei cried out at the pain. Heero stilled his motions, allowing time for Wufei to adjust.
Once Wufei nodded again Heero pushed himself slowly in and out of the tight sheath, the tip of his penis brushing against the cluster of nerves within Wufei, causing him to cry out. The friction between them was slowly starting to drive Heero mad, as he instinctively quickened his pace. He knew he was losing control, he knew he needed to slow down or he would hurt Wufei.
Wufei pushed his hips up to meet Heero's thrusts, moaning with the contact. He shook his head back and forth murmuring little noises. He felt Heero begin to slow his movements. He gripped Heero's ass hard, pulling him in as far as he could go.
"NO! Don't slow down... please."
Heero was no longer listening, the grip that Wufei had on his ass made him lose all coherent thought. He buried his head into the crevice of Wufei's neck sucking hard while pounding into him for all he was worth. He reached a hand down and stroked Wufei in time with his thrusts.
Wufei shuddered at the touch. It was all too much for him all the passion within him was released in one violent shudder.
Heero felt Wufei clench around him and he lost his composure, spilling his seed into the warm hole that housed him. Heero collapsed on top of Wufei kissing him tenderly. Wufei pulled him close and held him tightly, not wanting to lose the feeling of having Heero in his arms. He closed his eyes and sighed. It was almost perfect. The only thing left was Duo. He fell asleep with that thought in his head.
Heero woke before Wufei did and went to grab some painkillers. He knew that Wufei would really be feeling the pain in his arm. He came back to the room and waited for Wufei to wake.
First there was the groaning... which turned quickly into very colorful swearing. Heero blinked. He didn't know it was possible to cuss fluently in six different languages. Wufei's eyes slowly crept open and the pain clouded his eyes. He clutched at his hurt arm. Heero passed the pain pills to Wufei, who swallowed them eagerly.
"Remind me not to do that again with a hurt arm."
Heero smirked and nodded.
Wufei's eyes gleamed at Heero before taking on a pained look. "With you it's good Heero, but still..."
"I know Wufei. We'll work it out."
~Do you remember not long ago?
When we used to live for the nighttime
Cherish each moment~
Duo sighed in relief as the noises in the next room died out. As glad as he was that Wufei and Heero had finally worked out whatever problem they were having... // Still... // He sighed. He was honestly happy for them, after all, shouldn't he be? Two people who he loved were happy. They were enjoying what life had given them. // So why does my heart feel like it's breaking? // Duo sniffled as he rolled onto his side and curled into a ball. // I will not cry. I will not cry. //
And Duo cried.
He cried for all that he would never have, all that he would never be and all that he had to give, but would never be taken. He cried for his heart that was no longer full of happiness. He cried because he had finally realized that just because they were happy, did not mean that he was happy. The one thought echoing through his head. // Two's company, three's a crowd. //
He remembered the time before Heero and Wufei had starting going out. Oh he knew they thought nobody knew... but he could see it.
They constant glared they would give each other in the rooms, glares that seemed to hold heated emotion for the both of them. Emotion that Duo knew was love. He remembered the nightly board games and drinking contests. Oh he remembered. He remembered looking at both Heero and Wufei and just wishing that there was room enough for him. But that equation did not compute, and that was what Duo had just realized.
Always, somewhere in his heart, he held a small amount of hope that maybe... just maybe they would allow him in. Let him be a part of something, if only for a moment. But after watching those two gazing at each other with love filled eyes... he knew that it was a hopeless wish.
A wish that would never be.
He smiled through his tears... never... never would he allow his unhappiness affect those he loved. He was the master of masks. He swore that they would never find out how much he loved them. After all... it might ruin what they had.
~Now we don't live we exist
We just run through our lives
So alone~
Wufei and Heero both watched Duo. There was something off about him. It probably wasn't noticeable to anyone but themselves, but they had a lot of expertise in Duo watching. They could tell all his nuances and smiles, his anger and hurt, just by a subtle change in his posture.
Duo smile seemed a little too wide, a little too bright... fake.
They tried to include him in their activities, swimming, playing catch, they even brought out the board games, but to no avail. Duo was just not acting normal. Wufei conferred with Heero and then he approached Duo quietly, doing his best to sneak up on him.
What he saw almost broke his heart. Duo was sitting with his head resting on his arms with an incredibly sad look on his face. A look that had no place being there.
He crept up behind Duo and placed a hand on his shoulder. "Duo... what's wrong?"
Immediately the look on Duo's face transformed into happiness, but Wufei could tell that it was a false happiness.
"Nothing's wrong Wu-man! I'm just bored, that's all."
"You're not fooling anyone, Maxwell, least of all yourself. You know how you told me things eat at you if you don't fix them? Look at yourself! It's been at least a week since I truly saw you smile for anything! You are only hurting yourself!" Wufei was indignant.
There was something wrong with Duo and it was eating away at his soul, making him less whole with each passing day. There was no way that Wufei was going to let that happen to Duo. Duo was too important.
Duo turned and smiled a pain-filled smile at Wufei. "Hai. I am hurting myself for the greater cause. I'd rather have myself hurting if it will keep other people happy. I would gladly give up my happiness if it would keep other people from hurting. It's my decision, Wufei, and I have chosen."
The smile and the words tore at Wufei heart. "You have chosen nothing. You just don't want to go after what is attainable... your happiness. Are you a masochist, Maxwell? Because you are behaving like one."
"I didn't talk to you to be insulted, Wufei. I am not a masochist and never have been."
"Then why would you willing torture yourself?" Wufei yelled.
Duo shook his head. "It isn't a matter of torture, it's a matter of strength and honor. You of all people should know about that Wufei."
"Killing your soul is not honorable, Duo. Quite the opposite in fact." Wufei grabbed Duo's face and tilted it so that Duo looked into his eyes. "Now tell me, what is so important to you that you feel the need to do all this? To slowly kill yourself from the inside out?"
Duo gazed into the compassion filled eyes and his heart fluttered. He had always dreamed of staring into those onyx orbs and having them gaze back with affection as they were doing now. // If I tell him I'll hurt him. // "I am sorry Wufei, but I can't tell you. To tell you would hurt you."
"How can you be the judge of what will hurt me? Now please, tell me what is troubling you Duo. It... it hurts me to see you this way.
That one sentence had more of an impact on Duo than any other one would. // I am hurting him? //
Duo's eyes remained locked with Wufei's. "You and Heero have each other and I have nothing. I deserve nothing. That's the way things should be."
~That's why you've got to hold me ~
Wufei's breath caught in his throat. His angel was sad because of him? That shouldn't be right.
He pulled Duo into his arms, and gave him a strong hug. "I wish you would have told me sooner Duo. I can only wish."
Wufei pulled away slightly and kissed Duo on the lips tenderly, trying to convey his love.
Duo trembled at all he felt in the kiss. The love, the passion, and the understanding... // But what about Heero? // "What about Heero?"
Wufei stopped the kiss and glanced over Duo's shoulder at his other love, indicating with his eyes that his presence was needed.
Then Wufei looked back into Duo's troubled eyes. "Why don't you ask him yourself?"
Duo whirled in Wufei's grasp to see Heero standing there behind him.
~Hey
If we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this~
"Oh Gods Heero I'm so sorry!" wailed Duo.
Heero blinked. "Why?"
"What... what do you mean why?!? Because I was kissing your boyfriend!"
Heero stared at Duo impassively. "And why is that a problem? You both looked like you were enjoying yourselves."
"But.... But I don't want to come between you two! You've been with each other for so long!" Duo was horrified. This was his worst nightmare ever.
Wufei pulled away from Duo and motioned Heero over to them. Once Heero was in position Wufei looked at Duo. "What do you mean, ‘so long?' We've only been together for the last couple of weeks. Never before that."
Duo blinked. "But you were always looking at each other... always staring at each other..." Duo trailed off... // Have I been wrong? //
Wufei and Heero each placed a hand on Duo's shoulder. "Duo..." said Heero, "I wouldn't call what we were doing just staring... it was more like glaring with an intent to kill."
Wufei chuckled. "It was that alright. For a long time we hated each other with an intense passion. We were the deepest of enemies, reaching for the same goal."
Heero picked up the conversation here. "But during the silent battles we fought, I began to fall in love with Wufei. I knew it was that, but Wufei... "
"I had no idea what I was feeling. I didn't believe it was love... I didn't think it was possible to love two people." completed Wufei while running his fingers along the back of Duo's neck.
~Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defenses
And secret hiding places~
Duo's mind was reeling. // Wufei and Heero weren't with each other? They were enemies? Wufei was in love with two people? Both of them were fighting to obtain the same thing? What could that be...? Oh My God! Could... could it be... me? //
Duo's heart started hammering inside his rib cage; it's beat increasing in strength as well as speed. The implications of these revelations were running through his system. //Please... oh please God... let me be right. For once in my life.... Grant me happiness. //
Duo forced his heart beat to slow down and he managed to squeak out, "Is that so? And the affects me how?" // I will not hope. I will not hope. I will... //
Heero chuckled low in his throat. He knew that Duo had figured it out and was just feigning ignorance. He leaned in close his breath tickling Duo's ear almost causing him to shiver. "You know how..."
Wufei also put his mouth against Duo's ear his lips brushing against it with every word he spoke. "We were in love with you."
Duo's breath caught in his throat, and he struggled to force the next few works through his suddenly dry mouth. "Were?"
Wufei moved around to face Duo. He looked him right in the eye. "Hai we were..." he moved closer, his lips brushing against Duo's, " and we still are." He moved in and kissed Duo deeply, hoping for the right response.
As Wufei kissed Duo, Heero began to suckle Duo's ear. His tongue running gentle over the rim, nipping at the bottom of the lobe, and then repeating the motions.
Duo shivered. // This is all I have ever wanted... my wish come true... how could I not accept? //
~I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright~
With that thought planted firmly in his mind, Duo began to respond. He titled his head to the side, allowing Heero better access, while he parted his lips for Wufei. This was something he wanted.... Something he needed. He sighed in pleasure as his and Wufei's tongues mingled with each other. One darting forward for a quick caress then the motion being mimicked by the other.
Wufei was intent on tasting as much of Duo's mouth as possible. The taste of him was intoxicating, just as sweet as Wufei had imagined and he wanted more. His tongue explored every crevice, running over the ridge of Duo's mouth, twining with his tongue... every possible spot.
Duo felt his knees go weak; luckily Heero was there, supporting him from the side. They moved away from Duo and Heero picked him up, and carried him into the room.
Without his hormones assailing him, Duo regained control of his mind and blurted out the first thing he thought of. "Why are we here? What's going on?"
Wufei brushed a hand against Duo's check. "Duo do you love us?"
Duo sighed. He couldn't lie. "Yes, I've always loved both of you."
"And we love you too, you baka. We want to show you how much... if you'll let us."
Duo blushed. "But... what about Wufei's arm? I mean wouldn't it hurt?"
Wufei grinned. "Normally yes, but for you... I'm willing bear pain to make you feel pleasure. Let us love you Duo, let us show you our love... please." Wufei whispered this last part, his grin fading into a serious look.
~I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man~
"But three's a crowd..."
Heero moved behind Duo. "For some people three might be a crowd, but for us? I would say that three is a thrill. We love each other... all of us... evenly, giving and taking and receiving. A reason for us to believe... a reason for us to go on. A reason to never be alone. A reason to live."
Duo sighed then grinned. "Well who could ask for more than that?" He shook his head. "Naw... who would be stupid enough to pass that up? I love you both... so very much."
Wufei grinned as he brushed his lips against Duo's. "Equality. We love equally. So we love you with just as much pain, just as much passion, and just as much emotion. Equality." Finishing his speech, Wufei moved in to once again claim Duo's mouth.
Duo surrendered to the onslaught of Wufei's mouth. He kissed Wufei back with equal passion, as their tongues warred with each other. He let out a groan as Heero began kissing the back of his neck.
Heero reached an arm around Duo and began undoing the buttons on his shirt. (1)
He took his time, the front of his fingers working on the buttons, but taking the time to brush against Dou's chest, the back of his hand brushed against Wufei's chest. Once that annoying obstacle was out of the way he began to caress the braided pilot's chest, his fingers making tantalizing patterns on the golden skin, while he kissed the back of Duo's neck, lovingly.
Duo felt like he was going to drown in his desire. What Heero and Wufei were doing to him was playing havoc on his already befuddled mind. The feel of Heero's lips and fingers felt as though they were searing his skin, almost as if imprinting their mark upon him. Then there was Wufei.... Wufei's tongue was doing it's best to drive any thoughts out of his mind. Wufei's presence alone was heating up his body in way he had always dreamed, and in ways he had never imagined.
His own fingers worked clumsily on Wufei shirt buttons (2), wanting and needing to touch the perfect skin that he knew lay beneath the offending garment. Once the obstruction was unbuttoned, Duo pushed it roughly back over Wufei's shoulders revealing the olive tanned skin of Wufei's surprisingly muscled chest. Duo stroked his hand lovingly over the muscled, yet delicate looking chest and intensified his kiss with Wufei. He wanted Wufei to have as much pleasure as, he, himself was getting. He was rewarded with a gentle his that escaped through Wufei's mouth, only to be captured in his own.
Heero began working on Duo's pants and boxers, letting him step out of them, at the same time Duo did the same with Wufei. Heero removed his own garments in the process of leading the others to the bed. Heero took Duo's mouth briefly kissing his passionately while rolling him onto his side. He lay sideways over Duo in an awkward position his lips sideways over Duo's.
At the same time, Wufei took Duo's erection into his mouth and began to lick his way down its length. Once he reached the bottom he glided his mouth back up the length putting tremendous suction into his actions.
Duo was on fire. That was the only way he could think of to describe it. He felt like he was being burned from the inside out, and yet he wanted more. He had to consciously keep from thrusting his hips into Wufei's mouth as he felt himself touch the back of Wufei's throat. His cries of passion were being enveloped by Heero's mouth. He unconsciously wiggled his hips, pushing back against Heero's legs, wanting, and needing to have more.
Heero understood the silent plea and stopped kissing Duo, while he stood up and moved to the nightstand to get the lube that he would need.
In that small bit of time Duo had moved to take Wufei into his mouth as well. Although the position was awkward, both were enjoying themselves, thrusting into each other's mouth, sucking and licking like there was no tomorrow.
Wufei felt as though he would burst as he felt himself being taken into Duo's mouth. He intensified his own movements, giving Duo as much pleasure as he knew how. Loving the taste of the other boy in his mouth.
Duo and Wufei moaned into each other, there bodies already shuddering, wanting release, release that neither one would give yet.
Heero quickly lubricated himself and moved into position behind Duo. He worked slowly, so that Duo wouldn't be too hurt by his actions. The slow torture of moving inside Duo was killing him. He wanted nothing more than to thrust into that tight, hot sheath and bury himself to the hilt. It took all his concentration and will power to move slowly and not startle Duo.
Duo felt Heero slowly moving into him. He braced himself for the pain even as he pushed himself back against Heero demanding more. At the same time he moved one of his own hands to Wufei ass and pushed him fully into his mouth, not allowing him to retreat or to move forward. Instead Duo concentrated on swirling his tongue along Wufei's length as his finger circled Wufei's ring of puckered flesh.
Wufei cried out as he felt Duo hold him close, wanting more than anything to push into that warmth that was surrounding him. He felt Duo's finger circle his entrance and tried to push back against it, only to find that he was still held firmly in place. He panted with desire, knowing that he wouldn't last long at this rate.
Heero pushed fully into Duo, no longer able to withstand the sweet torture. Once he was buried completely, he started kissing Duo's neck, all the while thrusting for all he was worth into that tight sheath.
Duo panted with Heero's thrusts and at the same time inserted a finger into Wufei, wiggling it around before pushing it in. He gasped and shuddered almost violently as he felt Heero strike against the cluster of nerves within him, intensifying his pleasure tenfold.
Wufei gasped and arched as Duo placed the finger into him, and he drew Duo fully into his own mouth before finally giving his own release.
Duo felt Wufei arch and then he swallowed Wufei's release, knowing that his own was coming.
Heero felt Duo tighten around him so he increased his pace, increasing his own pleasure as he felt himself being squeezed impossibly tight by Duo. He gasped as he came, his body shuddering with its release.
Duo felt Heero come, and finally gave in with a groan as he spilled his seed within Wufei's mouth. Wufei lapped at the warm liquid greedily before pulling away from Duo and turning around to once again capture Duo's mouth with his in a searing kiss. As he pulled away he looked into Duo's passion filled gaze.
"I love you Duo."
Heero pulled himself up again to kiss Duo's ear. "I love you also, Duo."
Duo couldn't take it. He was so filled with the love from the others and his own love for them, that it broke the last barrier that he had. He started crying.
"Duo, why are you crying?"
Duo smiled before snuggling back against Heero and pulling Wufei close against himself. "Because I am happy."
He closed his eyes and let the warmth that surrounded him lull him into a blissful contentment."I love you both, more than anything." He whispered, before he fell asleep.
Wufei looked at Duo lovingly and then he glanced at Heero over Duo's shoulder. "I love you too, you know."
Heero smiled, one of the first true smiles that he ever had. "I know. And that's why this will work. Nothing will break our love. Nothing at all." He blew a kiss at Wufei before closing his eyes and burying his face in Duo's hair.
Wufei listened as Heero's breathing slowly evened out and he fell asleep. The he looked at the two people he loved more than anything in the universe and smiled. "Love conquers all."
He closed his eyes and whispered a silent prayer into the heavens. // I love you Nataku, goodbye... and thank you. //
End
Notes:
(1) So many buttons... so little time ^_^
(2) Damn those buttons
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