31 May 2001
Pairs: 1x2
Warnings: Heero-bastardization, Duo-torture, abuse, death
Rating: R
Notes:
Band: Orgy
CD: Candyass
Song: Blue Monday
[how does it feel to treat me like you do?]
Duo stared at the mirror, at his reflection. The beaten and bruised boy in the mirror looked back at him through sunken, dark-ringed eyes. He reached a shaking hand up to touch the ugly bruise that covered the left side of his face. Running his fingers over the damaged flesh he winced as the slight pressure of his thin fingers sent jolts of pain across his face and laced his vision with sparks.
::flashback::[when you've laid your hands upon me
and told me who you are]Heero ran his hands up the chilled flesh of the boy beneath him. If Duo hadn't been breathing he would have sworn the boy was dead. He smirked as he looked savagely up into the boy's fear filled eyes. He loved that look, it made the braided American look innocent and alluring.
He knew that Duo loved him and that was why he didn't resist Heero. It was an amazing feeling to know that you held such power over a being; that they would do anything for you.
Heero's tongue snaked out to run a warm, wet trail up the boy's torso, pausing to bite into a nipple.
Duo cried out in pain and arched up off the bed. Heero pushed him back down roughly, the strong hands on the thin hips pressing with brusing force. When Heero released one hand to prop himself up for entry, Duo began to fight.
The crack of flesh against flesh resounded in the small, wood-floored room.
::end flashback::
Duo leaned back against the wall of the bathroom and slid to the floor, memories gripping him in their painful grasp.
[I thought I was mistaken
I thought I heard your words]
" 'I'll never hurt you...' "
::flashback:: Crack. Pain flared through the left side of Duo's face. He looked up from the floor as his vision cleared. ::end flashback::
" 'I love you....' "
::flashback:: "Hn," Heero grunted as he pulled on his pants. "Say a word and omae o korosu..." He glared at the quivering form on the bed. ::end flashback::
[tell me, how do I feel
tell me now, how do I feel]
Duo shivered as he laid his head back against the tile wall. He hurt, emotionally as well as physically.
[those who came before me
lived through their vocations]
He knew heero'd had other lovers... Who hadn't? They were soldiers... Stress relief was almost a requirment for them to perform at peak.
Had Heero treated them as he did Duo? He suppsed he might have, but who was to say? Duo sure as hell wasn't about to ask.
[from the past until completion
they'll turn away no more
and I still find it so hard
to say what I need to say]
Duo knew that he had to get out of the relationship.... before it killed him. He loved Heero... loved him with all his heart... And as much as it would hurt to leave, it would hurt worst in the long run to stay.
[but I'm quite sure that you'll tell me]
But would Heero let him leave?
[just how I should feel today
I see a ship in the harbor
I can and shall obey]
Duo looked up as the door to the bathroom opened. He cowered as Heero glared down at him.
"Up, now," he commanded in that cold mission voice.
Duo did as bidden. He stood, ignoring his muscles protest, and followed Heero into their room.
[but if it wasn't for your misfortune
I'd be a heavenly person today]
He moved over to stand next to the dresser, as far away from Heero as possible without seeming like he was trying to be away from him.
Suddenly, Heero turned on him with a predatory gleam in his eyes, advancing. Before Duo knew it he had a gun in his hands and Heero's body was falling to the floor. As the body hit the floor Duo gasped and dropped the gun.
[and I thought I was mistaken
and I thought I heard you speak]
Duo watched the blood spread from the body outward. He felt himself collapsing, vision diming. As he blacked out he thought he heard Heero says something....
His last waking thought, before shock sent him unconscious, was, 'What did he say?....'
[tell me how do I feel
tell me now, how should I feel
now I stand here waiting...
I thought I told you to leave me]
Sometime later, Duo stood on the bluff over looking the beach with the 3 other Gundam pilots. Quatre held the jar containing Heero's ashes and was spreading them out over the ocean. He wasn't doing it fast enough for Duo's liking, but Duo made himself be patient... Soon he'd be rid of his love forever.
He wanted to laugh at the irony... He loved the man with all his heart, but wanted him out of his life, completely and utterly.
[while I walked down to the beach
tell me how does it feel
when your heart grows cold]
After the ashes were spread, Duo walked down to the beach to watch the sunrise. He watched as the sky lit in pink and orange hues, sending warmth coursing over the Earth. He watched as the buring fire touched the bottoms of the clouds, splashing them with color.
And as he watched, the waves crashing over his bare feet, he wondered how it felt.... when the heart stops and grows cold....
Owari
Now question is did he walk out into the ocean or not? ::grins::
(:./willow/bluemond)
