Relena in the year AC 200. A serious Relena fic actually
Relena Peacecraft walked out of the opera house with the support of her personal aide.
"Relena-sama, are you all right?"
"I feel a little ill. Your kindness is appreciated."
"Shall I drive you home?"
"No, Sherman. Simply call my driver."
Relena watched as her personal aide took out his cellular phone and began talking to the driver. What a good assistant, she thought. She looked back at the opera house. What was it that made me ill? I left right when Madame Butterfly was singing her aria about her hope that her love would return.
A wry smile crossed her face. I know the reason why. She reminds me of myself, the way I used to be. She looked up at the sky. The girl I was five years ago . . . Everyone must've thought I was stupid even if they didn't say anything. Picking up a bomb, running after a boy who swore he'd kill me, letting my kingdom go without a fight, holding on to ideals without doing anything for them. So many things...
Right now, I'm a minister not because of what I did, but because of my family name Peacecraft. I thought it was my words and my ideas that moved people, but it was really my legacy built on the shoulders of generations of my ancestors. Also the fact that, through Heero, I became associated with Gundam, the true saviors of this world. What I have is because of other people's efforts and not my own.
"Madam."
Relena looked down to see her limousine parked near the curb. Sherman opened the door for her and asked, "Would you like me to accompany you?"
"No, please enjoy the rest of the opera. I insist." She got into her limousine. Ah, Heero, she thought. How I must've driven you mad.
Constantly following you around, getting your way, commanding you to do things, and expecting you to do as I said. I have nothing to say in my defense, except that ever since I was small, my father treated me like the princess he knew me to be. Then after he died, I latched unto the closest thing I could find.
I had a fantasy where you were the prince and I was the princess. It was only later that I knew we were simply pawns. But the thing is you knew it then but I didn't. I thought all I had to do was figure out the right words to say and everything could be reasoned out like some puzzle. It was only after Mariemeia nearly succeeded in destroying the peace I hoped for that I finally understood, if only a little. It was a long time in coming. How arrogant I was.
I wish I had someone to talk to about these things, but everyone I know from those days have gone far away from me. Milliardo, my brother, I wonder how you are? Noin is with you, I'm sure she's taking good care of you. I'd like to see you again, but as things stand... it wouldn't be a good idea considering all that's happened. I see Quatre and Trowa occasionally since they're both working on terraforming Mars. With that Winner fortune and their drive, it's simply a matter of time. I received a picture from Wufei and Sally from their honeymoon in China. They were standing together on the Great Wall. Sally is smiling while Wufei looks both bashful and proud at the same time.
Heero, I heard you were working on your own farm with the help of your friend Duo. I wonder if you ever found someone or if you're alone like I am. You must be happy making things grow rather than destroying them. Sometimes, my chef makes pies from the apples you grow. Apples from Yuimax farms, she says, are the best. It's just like you to be good at everything.
Thinking back, I now see that you protected me not because you loved me but because you hoped that I could help end a situation that had ruined most of your life, and that of many others. The expression on your fact that day was relief and happiness that you finally had a chance to stop being a soldier, to stop killing and destroying. I was just proof that you didn't have to kill, that if you really put your mind to it you could be more than just some marionette in some hideous puppet show.
The girl I used to be, it's hard not to laugh at her from where I am. Madame Butterfly, how I look at you and shake my head. It must be the way everyone around me had shaken their head at me. Hopefully, people don't shake their heads at me anymore since I learned that everybody must do what they can, and not expect everything to fall into place just because you want it so.
"We're home madam."
"Thank you very much." Relena got out and walked into her mansion.
The End
(:./mk/ennui)
