28 Dec 2000
Type : songfic, dark, torture, rape, death, AU
Spoilers : set around episode 19
Warnings : dark, torture, rape, death, Duo-centric, tissue warning?
Pairings : none
Rating : R
Disclaimer : I don't own anything. I am poor... want a nickle?
Feedback : C&C is much appreciated.
A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
[The guard opened the heavy metal door and shoved the unresisting body forward to collapsed into a heap of limbs just inside. The door shut and red-rimmed violet eyes cracked open to stare at the small window. Sighing, Duo closed his eyes once more; resigned to his fate.
My fault, my screw up.... my punishment, he thought as the darkness claimed him.]
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
[Duo lay on his back looking up at the cold steel ceiling. He moved to sit up, groaning a little as the movement aggravated broken ribs. A passing guard looked in through the barred window and chuckled a little.
"Looks like pretty boy's awake," he jibed, turning back to his rounds.]
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
[Another telecast, another beating; Duo was becoming accustomed to this routine. Somewhere down the hall, another prisoner screamed as his captures tortured him for information. Duo shook his head. Poor guy, he thought.
Climbing to his knees, with minimal trouble, Duo clasped his hands and bowed his head.
"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned...."]
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
[Duo screamed as his instigator probed him for information. He cried out again as another jolt of electricity raced through his body and along his nerves. Eventually, they decided they would get nothing from him today and tossed him back in his cell.
He lay there in a tattered heap, his breathing the only sound filling the oppressive silence.]
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
[Duo hung slack from the guards' arms as the press conference. His eyes were dead and gave no sign of life. His face was as blank as any mask Heero Yuy had ever worn and every bit as perfect. No one would know the pain or demons hiding behind flat violet eyes.]
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn
[*flashback*Duo hung from his wrists, his hands and feet shackled. He wore not a stitch of clothing and every inch of his once milky white form was visible and covered in blood and bruises. A burly officer marched around his lithe form, examining. He brought his riding crop down on a fairly undamaged spot with a resounding smack. Duo bit his lip till it bled.
Scowling at his prisoner's incooperation, the officer resorted to other tactics. Grinning evilly he unbuckled his white pants and proceeded to rape the fey youth.
Silent tears slipped down Duo's pale cheeks, but not a sound did he utter as the man brutally thrust in and out, satisfying his own lust for pain.
Pulling out, the man grunted, pulling his pants up. "Hmmm, koishita," he chuckled. (1) He patted Duo's abused rear before directing the guards to remove him.
*end flashback*]
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels there selfish pride
[Duo looked up at the camera, eyes blank and mirrored. No one would see his pain. No one would know of his hatred.... not until it was too late.
The officer concluded his speach and left the lecturn taking with him his prisoner and guards.
Heero watched the TV with glowering eyes as Duo lifted his bruise laden face to stare dead-like at the camera. His blood boiled and his eyes blazed fury. Whether it was the fact that Duo'd gotten himself captured or that they dare destroy such a vivacious soul that was a vital part of his life.... he did not know. All he knew was the anger making acid of his blood and the adrenaline pumping through his veins, call ing him to take action.]
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
[No light. Nothing. Just blackness and silence all around him. But Duo didn't care.... he'd been denied the sun long long ago. Sinners didn't deserve God's devine light, therefore Duo craved the dark.
The sun's only for those God's chosen, Duo thought, He didn't chose me.... he protects his chosen.]
We the meek are all in one
[Duo cowered before his 'master'. The officer grinned with satisfaction as he tormented his pet with anything and everything from whips and chains to flesh-eating acids.]
I hear a thunder in the distance
[Suddenly the door blasted open and Heero Yuy popped a few caps into the brutish man's thick skull.
Duo looked up at his rescuer just before his vision blackened and consciousness was no more.]
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
[Sometime later, Heero lay a bouquet of freesia at the foot of the small stone cross that marked Duo Maxwell's final resting place. His heart ached with the loss of his best friend and the thought of the gruesome injuries that had led to the young American's premature passing. A tear made its way down Heero's cheek as he turned and walked away from the small plot.]
A lion roars in the darkness
Only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally
[*flashback*The roar of an engine. Strong and constant. Duo gathered his scattered thoughts and homed on this one constant in a rapidly fading reality. Try as he might, the roar kept fading with his world and soon all he could grasp was a warm light of nothingness. The light would free him from the pain of life, release him from his own personal hell.]
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
[*forward*
The grey sky promised rain and a cleansing as the small group gathered. It had been only a matter of days since his passing, but to his friends it seemed like forever. Four days, with the of more to come, without the warming chatter of the bubbly Shinigami. Four days, and now they lay him to rest. A proper American funeral, at least that was what Quatre had hoped to give. A moody Sunday morning with grey skys and an all around dreary atmosphere.
"Ashes to ashes, dust to dust...." the priest read, his voice as monotone as Heero's and even less caring.
Soon enough the service was over and the casket was lowered and laid beneath the dirt.]
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time
[No sooner did the pilots return than they had a mission. Setting his jaw, Heero and the others prepared to take on the OZie bastards that had killed their beloved friend. Mourning could wait, vengance could not.]
So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels there selfish pride
[Four heads held high. Four pairs of eyes blazed with a fire that couldn't be sated. Four hearts drummer for battle and revenge. None would let OZ live, none would forgive, and none would ever forget.]
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
[Gasoline fueled clouds blotted out the sun. The OZ base blazing the Gundam's victory for all to see.
"For Duo," Trowa said, his visible green eye glassy with unshed tears.
"Our battle was nothing compared to his," Wufei said, his head hung to hide his own tears, "He gave his life to protect us."
"We are nothing compared to him," Quatre said, meekly.
Heero just watched the black clouds rising into the sky as the base continued to burn.]
I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
[For him, Heero thought, for Him I will continue.... for Him I will defeat OZ.... for Him I will live, creating my own prison with lost chances and unspoken feelings.... For you, Duo. Only for you.]
End
Notes:
(1) koishita - roughly: I'm in love.
Ok, that was shitty, that sucked.... damn it's not what I wanted to happen!!!!! And yes, Gods Damnit!!! I had to go and torture Duo s'more. That's the way I am, gomen, but my first fic I killed 'em all! So there! I just wanted Duo to die in the cell that's all, but would Grim and Lucien let me write it like that? Noooo~oooo! They had to go and make it something of a nice could it be shounen ai? Or couldn't it? Oh, let's make a memorial. Baka muses!!!!! *runs off mad as hell at her muses*
(:./willow/myprison)
