6 June 2001
Author's notes: Song SHOWERHEAD by Eve 6 (told ya)
off their Self-Titled CD (EVE 6). This is the version
where you can tell who is who with obvious ease.
Warnings: If you wanna get picky cause of a
semi-descriptive (but not really) scene then it is R,
but otherwise I think it is about PG-16...
Category: Sap, lime, romance, POV
Pairings: 1x2, 5
~~Cheap shot hocked straight to the ear drum
Is it some sick sign of affection~~
I watch, feeling defeat as I see you with him. I can tell that my love is unheard, unrequited, the way you look at him. The smile, the way your braid swings as you turn to look at him. I know it for sure when I hear you... the love you confess. Why could I not be offered the same chance? Why can you not love me? I know that you love him with more than your entire being... and it hurts. It hurts so very much.
"I love you," I hear you say to him, your sweet voice
carries even when you speak softly. I frown...
listening for him to return the sentiment.
My frown deepens after a while, after he doesn't say 'I love you' back... does he love you like I do? Could he ever? He's an unemotional brick, how could he love you? He tugs on your braid, drawing you into his arms to place a passionate... rough kiss to your sweet lips. I remember the kiss I placed on them... you were so startled... you ran away... like if he found out he'd hurt you... or me... Which would he hurt first? Would that make you love me? If you found he doesn't love you? Would it? Would you love me then? If Heero didn't love you?
~~Violated and singed with deceit
Disgust from my head to my hands to my feet yeah~~
The way he treats you... like a token possession to show off to your friends. I see the bruises... but they are patterned to the likes of a seat strap... are they? Are they from some car accident that occurred while I was away on a mission? Or are they carefully planned abuse? I know I am letting my emotions get the better of me... my mind running wild with accusations against your lover. But it hurts to watch the interplay between you... especially when I am this deeply in love with you.
I curl my hands into fists, looking down at my feet to keep from lashing out at him as he manhandles you out the kitchen door. He shouldn't be treating you like that, you should fight back. It's unjust how you just let him do with you as he pleases.
~~Your face it gives foul taste
Whether smiling crying or denying~~
I've found you crying on a number of occasions. You always deny my accusations against him, but are you just hiding the truth? I thought you never lied? You usually cry when he's gone on a mission... is that pain for something he's done to you, pain that you can finally let yourself express now that he's away?... or the fact that he is not with you and could die on the mission? Either way, you are crying and I hate to see you cry... like that time I kissed you... I won't say I'm sorry for it. I meant to do it, actually wanted it to go further... I wanted to pull you into my arms and bury myself deep in you, hopefully willing, body... I wanted to show you that I love you...
~~I see your motives and you're charged with fraud by me
So take the hint and leave~~
I talk to Heero about what he does to you... I call him false... say he is using you... I tell him to leave you, stop hurting you... I think I misjudged his actions towards you because he became furious... not that I had told him to leave, but that I had called his feelings toward you a farce... I'm kinda glad, even though now I have a black eye and a fat lip... but I it was worth it... at least I know he loves you... maybe I can be content with that... that you love and you are loved...
I still don't like the way he treats you.
~~I loved you while he was in you in the shower
Did (in joy and ecstasy) your eyes begin to water...
yeah... oh...~~
I walked in on you once... while you were... preoccupied... in the showers... the sounds of running water did nothing to hush your moans as he thrust into you... Man, was that an erotic sight... your loose hair, wet and plastered to your bodies... I did my best to ignore the grunts and moans on the other side of the tile wall where I hid, but that still did not alleviate the raging hard-on that I'd gotten from that glimpse of you, your naked bodies pressed firmly together...
I knew I loved you then... okay knew for sure I lusted you, but could lust cause this feeling of being complete when I am around you? I remember the line of an old song I heard you play... 'I loved you while he was in you in the shower... Did (in joy and ecstasy) your eyes begin to water?' Well? Did they? I can see the tears -- tears of love and joy? -- streaming down your face as he thrusts... I still love you... I still want you as my own...
~~And if I may stop by when you're living in the next
town ten years down the road
A good time for a dime and a crushed cigarette making
bets with your body on the avenue
Look into my eyes you say and you'll see nothing but
sincerity~~
I love you... but after seeing what I saw, I must forego my chase... I must let you live your lives together unabated. If you look on my eyes, you'll see that I am telling the truth... Maybe, sometime down the line, if it doesn't work out between you and he, we'll meet up again... then maybe you can love /me/... but... until then...
~~Almost as if you've got some hope that you'll enlighten me
You're a head case story
I loved you while he was in you in the shower
Did (in joy and ecstasy) your eyes begin to water
I loved you while he was in you in the shower
Did (in joy and ecstasy) Did (in joy and ecstasy)!!!!
Just trust me you said
Just trust me you said
Just trust me you said
Just trust me you said
I say NO!
I loved you while he was in you in the shower
Did (in joy and ecstasy) your eyes begin to water
I loved you while he was in you in the shower
Did (in joy and ecstasy) Did you enjoy!!!!!!!~~
I will still love you, but I shall not interfere... All love has a place and time... mine just hasn't come.... someday, though... someday...
OWARI
(:./willow/showerhd2)
