20-Jan-2001
Category: Songfic, mild angst, dark humor, POV
Rating: R (language)
Pairings: None really (quasi 1+H/2+R)
Warnings: Language, non-yaoi
Feedback: C&C
Notes: KwyckSylver wanted me to make a songfic out of this particular Pink Floyd song from The Division Bell cd. I hope it's even mildly close to what she thought it would be. This is sort of a sequel to: The Things We Do.
'--denotes thoughts--'
[song lyrics]
Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters belongs to Bandai, Sunrise and Sotsu Agency and are only being used for non profit entertainment purposes.
[I was spending my time in the doldrums
I was caught in a cauldron of hate
I felt persecuted and paralyzed
I thought that everything else would just wait]
Three months has passed since ... what did Duo call it again? Oh yeah. "Hilde & Heero's big adventure." Three months since I kissed her and suggested we do that again sometime. She looked up at me with something I couldn't described. She wasn't horrified by the idea at all. It seemed like something we both wanted. So why did I run?
She called me a few times, I slid back into my comfortable skin of indifference. I know she was trying to break through, but I can be rather obstinate. She stopped calling. I really didn't expect that. I figured she was made from the same cloth as Duo and Relena, that she would be equally relentless in the pursuit. Of course, Duo and Relena gave up on me and found each other but their pursuit of me lasted for years, Hilde gave up after only four conversations.
[While you are wasting your time on your enemies
Engulfed in a fever of spite
Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades
Like shadows into the night]
The real war may be over but a new one begins. I hate my neighbor. He is an idiot who decided his rottweiler didn't need to be on a leash. That damn dog was always crapping on my front lawn. I went to the offender's house to complain.
"Dogs are meant to run free, Mr. Yuy. I don't see the problem," the skinny, pale baka said while his dog was sniffing my crotch with great interest.
"If that were the case Mr. Chapman, then man should never have domesticated them and you shouldn't own one," I remarked as I quickly batted the huge dog's nose away from my crotch. "If I see your dog on my lawn again, I'm calling the dogcatcher."
"You're not a very friendly person are you, Mr. Yuy?" Mr. Chapman sneered.
"No. I'm not."
[To martyr yourself to caution
Is not going to help at all
Because there'll be no safety in numbers
When the right one walks out of the door]
Duo drove up one day while I was doing 'lawn maintenance'.
"Heero?" he asked, looking at me quizzically.
I looked up as I scooped the offending fecal matter from my front lawn. "Hello, Duo. What brings you here?"
"Well I just wanted to ... where are you going?" Duo asked puzzled.
Holding the loaded shovel, I dumped its contents into the red convertible parked across the street from my house. Duo stood wide-eyed.
"What did you do that for?" Duo asked.
"His dog, his responsibility," was all I would say on the matter. "Why are you here?" I asked again as I lead Duo to the house.
"I was wondering how things were with you and Hilde," Duo said.
I shrugged. "There is no me and Hilde."
"Why not? She's crazy about you. I was hoping you'd treat her a little better than you did Relena or ..."
"You?" I said. "Hilde told me that you were in love with me once."
Duo looked nervous for a second. "So? What of it? You clearly weren't interested so I stopped."
"And moved on to Relena?" I asked.
"Well, let's just say the transition wasn't quite that smooth. We had unresolved problems before it did become the way it is now," Duo said.
[Can you see your days blighted by darkness?
Is it true you beat your fists on the floor?
Stuck in a world of isolation
While the ivy grows over the door]
He never told me what the 'unresolved problems' were, but I could guess.
I could also guess that the invite Duo sent me recently meant he wanted to play matchmaker. He didn't come right out and say it, but I suspect Hilde will be there. I don't know if what I'm feeling is excitement or fear.
After flinging Samson's little gift to me on the front door step of his owner, Chapman, I headed to L2. Duo met me at the space port and drove us over to Hilde's.
"Hilde, look who I found wandering around," Duo said, as he did his level best not to look like he had to drag me inside the house. I knew it was a set-up, but there's no reason why I should make it easier for Duo.
Hilde was in another room, but walked to the living room to see us. She wouldn't look into my eyes. "Duo, what the hell do you think you're playing at?" Hilde asked angrily. "Why did you force Heero to come here? He doesn't want anything to do with us."
Duo stared surprised by Hilde's anger. "Hil, I'm just trying to..."
"Butt in as usual," Hilde finished. "Heero," she said looking into my eyes briefly. I saw the storm still brewing along with a little sadness, "I'm sorry you were inconvenienced. The next flight out of here isn't for a few hours. If you want to go somewhere else, my feelings won't be hurt."
I blinked. I also wondered why that last statement hurt. "I can stay here, it's fine. How have you been?"
"You know keeping busy. Working. The usual," she said dismissively.
"Can you two play nice for a moment? I need to run an errand really quick," Duo said backing out of the room. "I'll be back in plenty of time to take you back Heero."
"Off to find soft music and enough booze to get us drunk?" Hilde said with less venom and a little spark of humor.
"You know me too well, Hil," Duo laughed. "Later." Then he closed the door.
"I wish I knew you as well," Hilde said to me before leaving the room.
There was no soft music, but she did return with liquor and two glasses. We got drunk and talked about our times together and what they meant. I even told her about my war with my neighbor. We laughed. We hugged. We kissed.
I didn't make the flight back until the next morning. Duo hadn't bothered to return that night. Hilde drove me to the space port. We kissed some more. Neither of us having had any sleep. Staying up all night talking is something I wouldn't do on a regular basis, but it was nice.
[So I open my door to my enemies
And I ask could we wipe the slate clean
But they tell me to please go fuck myself
You know you just can't win]
As I sidestepped the pile left by Samson, I decided I didn't really spend years fighting a war just so I could get into another about dog shit. I walked over to Chapman's house and knocked.
Chapman's eyes narrowed aa he got in a defensive position.
"What do you want Yuy?"
We had dropped the honorifics probably around the time I started aiming Samson's gifts at the windows of his house.
"Life is too short. I don't want to fight with you anymore," I said. "It would make my life happier if your dog didn't use my lawn as a toilet, but I'm not going to fight you about it anymore. Can we stop this? Can we start again?"
Chapman looked at me with scepticism. "You want to start over huh?"
"Yes," I said.
"How can I say this? I know, Fuck off, Yuy!" he snarled as he slammed the door in my face.
Well, you can't say I didn't try.
I returned home in time to catch whomever was trying to call me. Hilde's face appeared on the video screen.
"I just wanted to know if last night wasn't just a drunken illusion," she said without preamble.
"What part of it felt like an illusion?" I asked.
"You wanting to let me in your life some. You kissing me," she said with a blush, "Reality or illusion?"
I smiled at her image, while she looked nervously back at me. "Reality."
OWARI
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