Forgive me if you get this twice! Yes, the first song is for the most part rap, but it's good and it fits! I LOVE IT! *glomps song* Ok, here's the fic. Get the joke in the title? If not you are bogus and blind! *sticks out tongue*
Category: songfic-ish (sungfic? *snickers*), angst, sap, shounen ai
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: 1+2/2+1
Warnings: none other than shounen ai
Spoilers: none
Disclaimer: *imitates Yoda* Own do I not, for my own
enjoyment is this. Yes.
Feedback: Jesus, won't you fucking whistle, something
but the past and done?
NOTES: Song 'In The End' & 'With You' by Linkin Park, off Hybrid Theory. I love them! This is my fave of their songs! It just works so well for my fave couple. Yes, the title is a pun on the song names.
Key:
"lyrics" - 'In The End'
[lyrics] - 'With You'
(POV) - From Heero's POV
Heero and Duo both took the stage at the same time, but Duo stood in the back ground, his mic off and down at his side. They'd chosen an odd duet and the others were waiting to see what the pair had in store for them.
Heero put the mic to his mouth as the music began. His gaze kept sliding back to the braided pilot, who was looking anywhere but at him. The audience, consisting of the other three pilots, could very nearly feel the tension in the air. Heero began singing, the entire time, looking over at the braided boy.
"It starts with
one thing/I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on/but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried/it all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be a memory/of a time when."
Heero's gaze was imploring, begging the other boy to look at him.
"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter."
As Heero's part ended, Duo looked up, indigo eyes gleaming bitterly. He lifted the mic and sang.
"One thing/I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind/I designed this rhyme
to remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me/I'm surprised
It got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried/it all fell apart
What it meant to me/will eventually/be a memory/of a time when I."
Duo's face was sad as he continued.
"I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter."
Instead of ending there as Heero's part had, Duo's continued.
"I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know....
I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know....
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter."
Duo's eyes were downcast, staring at the floor, as the final cords died out. Then, he rushed off the stage and out of the room.
"What was that all about?" Wufei asked, looking slightly puzzled by Duo's abrupt departure.
The tension was almost palpable. Heero, what was that, as Wufei put it, all about?" Quatre asked.
"Nothing," Heero grunted, eyeing the door with an almost imperceptible sadness.
"If that was nothing," Trowa said quietly, "Then I'm a monkey's uncle."
"Well, unck--" Heero began, but Trowa silenced him.
"Don't try to lie and hide it, Heero. You really suck at lying."
"Gee, thanks," Heero replied sarcastically.
"Go talk to him," Quatre said. "That song meant more than we were supposed to get, but you were and now go talk to him, or I'll skin ya! He's upset and, damnit, if it isn't making me irritable!"
Heero backed off, when Quatre was getting upset by a friend's "leakage" he could be VERY dangerous. The leak needed to be plugged, and quick. [1]
[I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static, and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake/slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant/and I can't bring you back
It's true/The way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you]
"Duo?" Heero said, entering the bedroom they shared. The boy wasn't there. Heero sat down on the bed, thinking. He remembered when he and Duo had tried to work out being together, they both loved one another, but there'd been.... complications. In fact, Heero conceded, all the problems revolved around Heero's inability to open up to his koi, let alone anyone else.
[You/Now I see/Keeping everything inside
You/Now I see/Even when I close my eyes]
Heero lay back on the unkempt bed and closed his eyes, remembering the day it all fell apart.
[I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor/the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake, slow to react
Even though you're close to me
You're still so distant/and I can't bring you back](POV)
I hit him. I yelled at him and hit him. Hard. He swung back, but his didn't pack much force. I think I hurt him. I don't even know why I did it, I was just so mad.... He'd only been trying to help and bring me to open up. I didn't mean it, I can't believe I lost control like that! And that lapse in control caused me to hurt the one I love. It'dve been alright if it'd been Relena, but it wasn't. I'd gotten mad and hit my koi, my Duo.
Instead of hurrying to his side where he sat on the floor, back to the bed, I just turned and walked out of the room. When I came back he was laying on the bed, curled up facing the wall. Nursing his wound, I suspected. I felt so bad, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything to right my fuck up. Big mistake, one that would cost me greatly.
Weeks passed and he was quiet and sullen, yes he was still rooming with me {I guess he decided against bothering Quatre, there weren't any other rooms anyway.... and he can't stand to sleep on the couch, gets too cold and he always ends up with a terrible back ache the next day} but he wasn't really there. You know, so close and yet so far away. I found myself trying to talk to him, get *him* to open to me. What an ironic switch in roles. I think I half expected him to turn the tables on me and knock me out, but he didn't.... he just remained distant and I couldn't bring him back to me.
(end POV)
[No
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you]
Heero sat up, it had gotten dark while he was reminicing. He got up and decided to find his beloved. He found to boy sitting in the gazebo. The last rays of the sun has long since vanished from the sky, leaving the night air chill and biting. Duo was curled up on one of the benches, asleep.
Heero smiled slightly and shook his head. Duo, Duo,Duo, he thought wistfully. Silly-baka.
"Duo?" he whispered, shaking the boy's shoulder. When Duo didn't stir Heero picked the small bundle up and carried it back into the house.
"Duo?" Heero said, trying again to wake the slumbering boy. This time he was rewarded with the lazy blinking of indigo eyes as Duo tried to get a grasp on reality. "Awake?" Duo nodded. "Wanna eat? Everyone else went into town to some asian restaurant to placate an irritated Quatre."
Duo just nodded.
They went into the kitchen to scrounge. Heero spoke, "Duo, I'm really sorry.... for everything... I screwed up and thus lost something really important to me. I shant ask you to take me back, but i would like your forgiveness."
Duo just stared at him for a moment, then looked down. Heero saw they glittery droplets fall from the downturned face and rushed over to apologize. He need not have worried, for the moment he placed his hands on the small shoulders Duo lifted his head and surged up to press his lips to Heero's. He pulled the boy to him as they broke.
"I take it, you're forgiving me...."
"You already had my forgiveness.... I was just afraid you'd not accept it...." Duo said, snuggling against the strong shoulder.
"I'm sorry for everything, Duo. I almost lost everything worth living for. I'm looking forward to seeing tomorrow, every one of them, with you."
"I love you, Heero Yuy," Duo said quietly.
"I love you, too, Duo Maxwell." Heero smiled warmly as Duo sighed in happiness. "Good, now that that's settled...."
Duo only had time to utter a small 'eep' before he found him self hoisted and carried off to be placated himself....
Soft utterings and whispers of 'forever' along with mentionings of 'with you in the end' filled the night.
Owari.
Notes:
[1] Um, bad phrasing? *snickers*
[2] My only fic with more than one song in the fic.....
[3] Have I mentioned that/how much I love Linkin Park and these songs? Well I LOVE THEM!!!!! VRAIMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[4] Sap and trite, yep. Gotta have it when playing with deathfics all the time.
(:./willow/withyou)
