Category: Yaoi, Lime, Lemon (some parts), kinda of rape (?), Sap, Angst, almost all others
Rating: NC-17 (in some parts)
Pairings: 1+3, 4+2, 1+2, 4+3...
Notes: [song by Vertical Horizon]
~ He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time but
He means nothing to you
And you don't know why ~
Trowa scuttled up the walk. His mind flashed back to the night before.
'Heero, show him your love... He needs you and I am sure you mean something to _him_...'
He'd seen the Japanese boy make the trek here. His heartached, but he was glad. Glad that that was not going to be on his mind. Glad that he could now figure out his own feelings.
'Heero, I dearly hope that you two are happy...'
He almost turned from the path, instead he stopped and looked up at the second floor. He knew what -- who he was hoping to see.
'Quatre...' he thought, willing the little blonde hear him and come to the window.
To his surprise, and utter delight -- 'Odd that...' -- the boy turned up making the trek to the house himself.
The boy, seeming to sense his presence, looked up, and started.
"Trowa? Is that you?" He queried.
The taller boy nodded.
"Ah, silent as ever I see..." Quatre mumbled, his tone wistful -- and sad.
"Quatre, what's wrong?"
"Hmm? Oh, nothing...nothing really," he said, smiling that endearing smile that seemed to melt the Heavyarms' pilot's heart.
'I fell something for _him_ that I never felt for Heero...What could it be?'
"No, there's something wrong...could it be about Duo and Heero?" Trowa tentitively ventured his guess.
To his amazement, Quatre's eyes widened and he slowly nodded.
"Yes...I-I don't know...that and I feel really bad about something..." As the boy spoke, Trowa noticed the shame in the boy's face.
"..." Trowa silently waited for him to continue, placing a comforting hand on the blonde boy's shoulder.
Quatre looked up at him, shame still there -- but something else also shown in that face that could light up any room he entered and graced with his presence.
"I-I really need to talk to _someone_ about it..." he paused, "Before it eats me alive with guilt."
"Ok, lets go in and talk..." Trowa guided the reluctant boy up the stairs and into the house.
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"...and that why I feel so bad, Trowa...I really feel bad that I took advantage of him...I just couldn't help myself..." He sniffed, "I knew he wasn't mine, but I did it anyway..."
Trowa was shocked. Quatre and _Duo_! But Duo didn't know, had been drunk out of his wits at the time and Quatre out of shear despiration and need -- 'Well, that's sweetening it to make it sound better, now isn't it?' -- had taken advantage of this.
This was so unlike Quatre that Trowa was at a loss for words (1).
"I'm sorry, Trowa...I--I didn't know who I wanted...I don't think I know even now...I thought I wanted Duo...Maybe it was just that I was coveting something that wasn't mine for the shear thrill of it...but I couldn't stop and I know that that isn't an exscuse and doesn't make it any better..." Quatre took a shaking breath.
"Quatre --"
The Arabian looked up at him, terror and shame in his eyes.
"I won't say that what you did is ok, or right, but I won't rebuke you...but I do think you should tell him..."
Quatre recoiled in fear, "No, I can't! No! He'd hate me! I don't want him to hate me! I love him too much to bear it! No! I-I --!" He broke and tears flowed down his cheeks.
Trowa made his decision. He leaned forward and gathered the boy in his arms.
'I care for you, Quatre...I only now realized it...I thought I loved Heero...but I found I was wrong...plus that he loved someone else also...so I left...' He pulled the boy's chin up to where there were looking into each other's eyes, "I came here...to tell you, I l-lo--"
Quatre blinked at him grasping what he couldn't say.
'He loves me? D-do I love him?' Quatre thought, 'Yes, that must be it...my uchuu no kokoro was trying to tell me this all along...the is why I have anguished -- even more than I should have -- over what I did to Duo...'
"I love you, too..." He hugged Trowa close to him, "Yes, that is it...that is why this hurt so much...what I did to him..."
Owari 6, TBC
End Part Six
(1) I know that Trowa is often silent, but the reason he is silent here is because he cannot think of a single thing to say...I know that this is stupid sounding...this wrote itself...damn muses on a wacko spree!
(:./willow/eve6)
