Title: The Light In Your Eyes - 6/7
Author: tkmaxwell777
Category: Shonen Ai/Yaoi
Pairings: 1+2/1x2x1, 3+4, 5xS (mentioned very, very briefly)
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Nope... not gonna tell ya who owns 'em... well, ok... all those Japanese guys, but that doesn't mean the G-boys don't like to 'play the field' Lyrics to 'This I Promise You' belong to N-Sync
Warnings: Angst, Language, Lemon, NCS (dream only, ?x1), Sap
Archived: Yep! Thanks Lev * www.gwaddiction.com/levlair
Notes: ~~~ denotes a dream *** denotes a real scene
Quatre lay in his bed unable to sleep. He could feel hurt and anger coming from both boys at the moment, and he could have sworn he heard raised voices earlier while he'd been walking up the stairs. He didn't know what could have caused such discord when they had been so warm towards each other downstairs only moments before; it just didn't make sense. Quatre knew Trowa was right about "something more" going on than what they knew.
The blonde's mind turned to thoughts of Trowa, and he smiled. He finally knew how the brown-haired boy felt about him; now he just had to act upon this newfound knowledge in a way that wouldn't scare him off. They had received orders for a mission right before bed, and they'd be leaving in the morning; perhaps they could talk after they returned. Quatre hated to be even one more moment without the boy he loved, but duty called, and as Preventers, they had to answer. Sighing to himself, he tried to focus on falling asleep.
Trowa sat in the middle of his bed with his knees to his chest, arms wrapped around them. He couldn't go to sleep. For some reason, he was all too aware of the sudden tension between Duo and Heero. Trowa smiled sadly to himself; he was becoming more like Quatre everyday. That thought brought to him the memory of his conversation with the blonde earlier that evening. He'd almost told Quatre he wanted more than friendship from him, but Duo and Heero's arrival had cut him off... thankfully. Trowa sighed heavily. It wasn't that he hadn't wanted to say those words to Quatre - he was just so afraid the blonde would be disgusted with him. Quatre was so beautiful. What did he have to offer the blonde?
Trowa pulled his knees closer to him and rested his forehead on them. He had been with mercenaries most of his life and had learned about reality the hard way. Although Quatre had fought as a Gundam pilot along side him, there was still something innocent about the other boy that Trowa couldn't ignore. Quatre's heart was so pure, and Trowa felt like he would be degrading the other boy by even touching him. Quatre probably never even thought about him that way. Trowa moaned out loud as he flopped back onto his bed. If only Quatre could love him. If only...
In a safe house not too far away, Sally lay wrapped in the embrace of her proud Dragon, sated and content.
Heero couldn't go to sleep. Duo's words kept repeating themselves in his mind over and over again viciously. 'You will never be able to love!' Heero's bitter tears had long passed, leaving his face cold and clammy. He didn't understand. What the hell had happened?
"It's what didn't happen," Heero mumbled to himself out loud. "He didn't fall in love with me."
Heero had thought he'd allowed for that possibility, accepting that it could just end up being sex, but he now realized that he had been lying to himself; he'd hoped that Duo would fall like he had. He'd even convinced himself that Duo had. Heero sighed heavily. How could he have been so wrong?
He turned over onto his side, wishing with his traitorous heart and body that the beautiful boy in the room across the hall was laying beside him right now. He was pathetic. Duo had just as well rejected him, yet Heero longed to feel the other boy's warm skin against his, yearned to bury his hands in that incredible chestnut hair, desired to taste those amazing lips... Heero sighed again. He obviously would not be getting any sleep tonight. He asked himself the same question he'd been asking himself since Duo had stormed out of his room: What would he do if Duo didn't want him anymore?
There was the slight possibility that Duo had truly needed to face his nightmares alone, that Duo hadn't really wanted to keep their relationship hidden, and that Heero had hurt him so deeply that Duo had retaliated with his angry words. Heero wasn't an idiot... well, in theory. In practice, Heero knew he could be a bigger baka than Duo sometimes, and it was possible he was being the biggest one he'd ever been right now. Heero could only hope that he hadn't been such a fool as to extinguish the light of passion that had burned so brightly in Duo's eyes; if he had, Heero would never forgive himself.
~~~
Duo found himself running down the street. Something told him that something very bad was getting ready to happen, and that he had to get to his destination to stop it. He arrived at a crumbling building and hurried inside. Walking down a dilapidated hallway, he came to a worn door. He placed his hand on the knob, turning it slowly until it clicked open. Entering the room, he looked around. It reminded him of the places he and the other kids had been forced to live in when he was younger on L2; this was not good.
He heard a voice come from the other room, a surly vulgar voice that he instantly despised. With his heart beating rapidly, he opened the door to the bedroom and froze. He had expected to see one of the faces from his past, begging him to help them, but instead, there on the bed was Heero. Duo couldn't make out the face of the man looming over Heero, but he could see that there wasn't a look of love on it.
"That's right, you little slut," the man slurred, "yer gonna let me take what I want tonight, ain't ya?"
Duo's heart almost stopped. He wanted to rush over to Heero, kill the bastard that was running his hands all over Heero so roughly, and take Heero to safety; instead, he couldn't move. He was only able to stand and watch.
"Oh yeah, you're gonna be good. I can't wait to make you bleed. You'll like that, won't you, you little whore? 'Course you will. Yer all alike, yer kind. Only good for one thing and this is it."
Duo continued to watch helplessly as Heero's clothes were ripped from his body viciously. Duo tried to yell, but no sound came out. The man was hitting Heero, blood trickling from Heero's mouth as the dark-haired boy turned his face towards Duo. The man roughly spread Heero's legs, and Duo felt the panic grip him, but he couldn't help the boy he loved. Heero looked right at Duo, and he heard Heero speak, the other boy's voice tired and full of great sorrow. 'You said I could never love. I'm only proving you right.' The last sound Duo heard was Heero screaming as the man thrust savagely into his unprepared body.
~~~
Duo screamed in response.
The sound brought Heero out of his bed before he even had time to think. He was rushing to the room across the hall in a matter of seconds, throwing open the door to see Duo struggling out of the bed. When Duo's head lifted to see the boy standing in the doorway, he spoke in a husky voice of need that went straight to the dark-haired boy's heart.
"Heero..."
They met in the middle of the room. Heero had Duo in his arms in a heartbeat. "It's okay. I'm here. I'm here." Heero felt relief course through him; Duo wasn't angry with him anymore.
"Heero... I'm so sorry... I... didn't... I didn't mean it... any of it."
Duo had Heero in a death grip. Heero knew the dream had to have been pretty bad. "Shh, it's all right. I know. It's going to be all right, Duo."
"No!" Duo yelled as he pulled away to look into Heero's eyes. "You don't understand," he said shakily, trembling from the intensity of his emotions. "I didn't mean it... when I said I didn't want you to... share my bed all the time. Heero... I want you with me... every night... for as long as you will... I don't care what anyone else says... I was afraid... of you never..." Duo shook his head. "But that doesn't matter... I want you... just you... Heero, please don't leave me."
Heero was stunned as Duo pulled him into another fierce embrace. Duo wanted him to be with him. In spite of how Heero had acted, Duo still wanted him. Heero replayed the words Duo had said and realization suddenly broke through to him. Duo had been afraid... of him never... what? Heero dared to hope. Could it be that Duo loved him but didn't want to admit it? Or maybe he was afraid to admit it because Heero hadn't? Heero knew what he had to do to make sure Duo understood exactly how he felt. Even if Duo didn't love him, Heero could no longer pretend his feelings for the braided boy was anything less than that.
Duo held onto Heero for dear life. He knew that the dream probably wasn't far from the truth of what could have happened to Heero if he had continued to push Heero away. Duo would not allow that to happen. Even if Heero never loved him, he would never allow Heero to be hurt like that... ever. A soft voice suddenly interrupted his thoughts, and it took him a moment to realize that it was Heero's...
"When visions around you, bring tears to your eyes, and all that surrounds you are secrets and lies. I'll be your strength. I'll give you hope, keeping your faith when it's gone. The one you should call was standing here all along. And I will take you in my arms, and hold you right where you belong. Till the day my life is through. This I promise you. This I promise you."
It didn't matter to Heero what the other boy had said before; he'd known in his heart all along that Duo hadn't meant it. Heero didn't have the words to tell Duo how he felt, so he borrowed them from an old Earth song Duo had played while they were on the last mission. They seemed fitting, and when Duo pulled away again to gaze at him in shock, Heero caressed the braided boy's cheek softly as he spoke.
"I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before. And I promise you never will you hurt anymore. I give you my word. I give you my heart. This is a battle we've won. And with this vow, forever has now begun."
Duo was speechless. Heero had just said... he loved him! The American pilot let those words seep into his heart, binding up all the fresh wounds, erasing all of the old scars, and mending the hurts of a lifetime. It was his most cherished dream come true, and he closed his eyes in disbelief. When they opened again, there was nothing but his heart in their depths.
"Just close your eyes each loving day, and know this feeling won't go away. Till the day my life is through. This I promise you. This I promise you."
Heero was amazed when he saw the answering light shining in Duo's eyes. It healed all of the pain of Duo's earlier words, restoring Heero' hope, and giving him the courage to accept what he thought he saw in those incredible pools of violet. He had never felt this free before, never thought he could so easily express what was deep in his heart; but then Duo had entered his life, changing him slowly yet irrevocably.
"Over and over I fall when I hear you call. Without you in my life, baby, I just wouldn't be living at all."
Duo didn't want the moment to end. He felt the joy overwhelm him, and tears threaten, but he pushed the latter away; no tears tonight, even if they were happy ones. He wanted Heero to see how much his words meant to him, to know that his feelings were returned completely. He reached his hand out and brushed Heero's hair out of his eyes as the other boy continued to say what was in his heart.
"And I will take you in my arms, and hold you right where you belong. Till the day my life is through, this I promise you, babe. Just close your eyes each loving day, and know this feeling won't go away. Every word I say is true. This I promise you. Every word I say is true. This I promise you. I promise you."
Heero leaned forward and captured Duo's lips in a gentle kiss, sealing his vows. He felt Duo respond with abandonment, his mouth moving against Heero's with such passion and fire; Heero knew he had found all he could ever want inside the person cradled within his arms.
They remained like that for a few moments until Heero sensed the other two pilots standing at the door. He reluctantly withdrew and turned so he could look at their audience, trying to gauge their reactions. He didn't know how long they'd been standing there, but from what he could see, it had been long enough.
Quatre had a sweet smile on his face, despite the tears running down his cheeks, both encouraging signs. Trowa looked shocked, but there was something in his eyes that told Heero the tall pilot understood, and that was as good as a blessing from him.
Heero felt relieved and gave them a grateful smile in return. "I've got him."
Both boys nodded, Trowa leaving quickly to go back to his room. Quatre hesitated for a moment. "We're leaving in the morning for a mission. We'll see you both when we get back, since I doubt you'll be up that early." He winked knowingly before turning to leave, closing the door behind him.
Heero turned back to Duo, searching his face for signs of how the braided boy felt since their comrades now knew of their involvement. He had feared he'd see regret; he found nothing but a satisfied smile there.
"I love you too, Heero."
The whispered confession caught Heero off guard. He hadn't expected that, at least not yet. He stared at the other boy dumbfounded until Duo leaned forward and brought their mouths back together for another soul-searing kiss. Heero's heart soared. He pulled the other boy closer, letting the feeling of the braided pilot in his arms overwhelm him, along with the words so tenderly offered .
Duo had thought those words would be so difficult to say because of what he'd been through, but when Heero looked at him, the love burning in those blue depths had set free a part of Duo's heart that had been imprisoned for so long. Heero had helped him conquer his fear; now Duo had a love worth living for.
"I'm sorry for not believing you earlier, Duo," Heero breathed when the kiss broke. "I was so stupid..."
"Shhh," Duo interrupted him, placing a finger on his lips. "I shouldn't have said the things I did either. How 'bout we just forget it ever happened, and you just climb into bed with me where you belong?"
Heero smiled. "Sounds like a good idea to me." He pulled off his shirt and shorts eagerly. When Duo began to strip off his boxers, Heero added, "Your hair..."
There was a pleading look on that once-impassive face; Duo knew those days of indifference were over for good. He grinned back at his lover happily. With one motion, he had his hair hanging free once again for his Heero... only for his Heero. They were soon lying in each other's arms, completely naked, Duo's head resting on Heero's chest, their legs entangled. It was the most wonderful feeling either on of them had ever known. Duo felt the love in his heart swell as Heero's hands caressed his chestnut strands, and he knew he wanted more.
"Heero?"
"Yes, love?"
The endearment made Duo's heart beat a little faster. No one had ever called him that before, and he decided he liked it immediately. "I... Heero... will you... I mean... I want you to... um... make love to me."
Heero's breath caught. "You want me to..."
Duo raised his head so he could look at his lover. "Yes. I want to know what it's like to give myself to someone who loves me." Duo blushed slightly. For some reason, he felt like a virgin on his wedding night. 'Maybe that's because I am,' Duo thought to himself. 'I've never had anyone love me before.'
The words were spoken softly, and Heero looked into deep violet eyes that were asking him to do the one thing he'd wanted to do since he realized he loved the boy beside him. He rolled over on top of Duo in one swift motion, causing the other boy to gasp. Smiling warmly, he looked down at his beautiful lover.
"Then let me show you the difference, my life, my love, my light," Heero replied huskily, accentuating each 'my' with a soft kiss.
Duo sighed. Although he had enjoyed everything they'd done up to this point, this... this was entirely new to him with Heero. He felt the dark-haired boy begin to kiss his neck before moving down to suckle one of his nipples, Duo groaning as Heero's tongue swirled around it, stiffening it into a taut peak. Heero's attentions shifted to its mate, lavishing it the same way, making Duo writhe under him.
"Heero..." Duo breathed, the sensations of his lover's mouth on him overwhelming.
Heero smiled to himself. He would have Duo begging him before he was through. He wanted to give his longhaired lover the greatest pleasure the boy had ever had. Even though Heero wasn't exactly experienced, he knew enough about what they were getting ready to do so as to not hurt Duo. He trailed kissed down Duo's chest, stopping to nibble his stomach, causing Duo to snicker lightly.
"That tickles," Duo admonished him, love and desire shining brightly in his eyes.
Heero continued his journey downwards, kissing Duo at the juncture of his hip and thigh before continuing down that soft skin. Duo was panting by the time Heero began the same treatment on the other side. Heero was completely bypassing Duo's arousal, and Duo was so hard it ached.
"Heero, please!" Duo cried as he bucked his hips up, seeking some kind of friction.
Heero laughed, glad he could drive Duo wild. Of course, it was driving him wild too; his erection was throbbing with need. "Please what, love? What is it you want?"
Duo was prepared to give him a tongue-lashing for teasing him, when he looked at the other boy; the words died on his tongue. Poised between his legs was the epitome of every wet dream he'd ever had, and every soft longing his heart had dared to hope for. Heero was incredible. His hair was wild, his eyes bright with passion and humor, his skin flushed with desire; Duo had no words to describe the beauty in front of him. 'And he loves me,' Duo thought breathlessly.
Heero watched the violet-eyed boy in wonder. Duo's hair spread out around him, sensuous and seductive, his face had a blush to it from his excitement, and his arousal was wet with his need; but that wasn't what would forever remain in Heero's memory. It was the way those violet eyes took him in, making him feel like the only person in this world that could give Duo what he wanted - no needed. It made Heero tremble.
"I want you to claim what has always been yours," Duo whispered, suddenly feeling so vulnerable.
Heero's heart nearly broke from how open Duo was being with him. Gone was the brash loud pilot that was the culmination of every sexual fantasy Heero had ever had; in his place was someone softer, needing tender care, wanting to be loved. Duo was more uncertain than Heero had ever seen him, and it made Heero love him even more.
"Duo," he whispered as he claimed the other boy's lips in a tender kiss. When he released them, he gazed down into hazy violet. "I need something to make this easier for you, love."
Duo smiled. "Top drawer. Watch out for all of the, um, toys. And be sure you get the right tube. I keep Icy Hot in there for sprains and that would so NOT feel good in this situation."
Heero chuckled lightly as he reached into the drawer, taking note of those "interesting" toys he decided he would have to investigate at a later date. Checking the writing on the tube just to be sure, he repositioned himself. He knew that Duo was trying to use humor to hide his fear. Sex had always been a physical thing for Duo; this time it would be more than that, and even though Duo wanted it to happen, it was still frightening to let someone get so close to you. Heero intended to make Duo never fear intimacy with him again. Duo was his light; Heero would be his haven.
"Ready, love?" Heero asked as he smeared the lubricant on his fingers.
Duo nodded. "Ready... um, Heero?"
Heero sensed the hesitation and looked at his lover. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," Duo replied quickly. "I just... I mean... love you."
Heero realized that he had not said the words to Duo directly yet. He leaned down and kissed Duo thoroughly. As he pulled away, he gazed deeply into his eyes and smiled. "I love you too."
All of the tension fell away from Duo at those words. He relaxed, smiling as he spread his thighs for his Heero. Heero began tracing his entrance with a lubed finger. Duo's breath hitched as it entered him, but there wasn't any pain, just a little discomfort. When Heero began to move it in and out of Duo's body, Duo moaned. He'd never known it to feel this good before, and they had just begun. He felt Heero add another finger and jolted when said digit brushed his prostate.
"Oh yeah! Do that again, baby," he prompted.
Heero was glad to oblige. Watching Duo's face was incredible. The emotions flashing across his features was something Heero wanted to remember forever, and the fact that it was him, who was giving them to Duo, only made it better. He kept brushing that place inside Duo as his fingers moved in and out of his lover's body. Finally he added a third, stretching Duo even more so as not to hurt him when Heero took him. The idea of making love to the violet-eyed god of death was intoxicating, and Heero felt himself harden even further.
"Heero! Please..."
Heero growled possessively, withdrawing his fingers as he took Duo's mouth in a passionate kiss. "You're mine, Duo. Mine. We belong to each other, and I will be in your bed every damn night from now on. Understood?"
Duo grinned, his lover's tone exciting him further. "Understood. Now, less talk, more action, Yuy."
Duo's taunting worked, for Heero quickly positioned himself, his erection teasing Duo's entrance for a moment before Heero entered him in one smooth thrust. He stilled once fully seated, letting Duo adjust, as well as trying to keep himself from coming. "Incredible... oh, Duo, this is so incredible."
Duo was trying to keep from crying. He'd never felt so complete in his life. "Heero... Heero," was all he could say. He rocked his hips up to signal that he was ready for more.
They began moving together, slow at first, then gradually establishing a steady rhythm. It was languid lovemaking. Heero kissed Duo every time he pulled out and plunged back into him, their groans of pleasure filling the room as they both took and gave to each other.
"I will never leave you, Duo."
"Heero, I'll always love you."
"You don't have to be afraid anymore of being alone."
"No matter what you need, I'll be the one to give it to you."
"I love you."
"Love you so much."
They didn't want it to end, but their passion built to the point of no return. Heero began pumping Duo's arousal in time with his thrusts. It didn't take long before Duo's voice cried out in completion.
"Heeeeerrrrrooooo!" Wave after wave of bliss overtook him as Duo had the most intense climax of his life. He could feel his seed flow out over Heero's hand, and then he felt Heero tense and fill him with his own, claiming Duo as his love... as his light. Duo knew that he would devote his life to being that light for the one who had captured his heart and loved him like no one else ever had.
Heero felt Duo come, his lover tightening around him, until he had no choice but to follow him into release. He yelled out Duo's name and his undying love as his orgasm stripped him of every barrier he'd ever placed around his heart. His passion filled the body of the beautiful boy beneath him, and Heero knew he would never be in the dark again.
They lay in contented silence for a moment until Heero rolled off of Duo only to gather him into his arms. Duo snuggled against his dark-haired lover, sated and happy. He'd never known anything to be so wonderful. Making love was something he would never tire of with Heero; he was safe in the knowledge that his lover would show him the difference between real love and just sex every single time. His thoughts turned to that of their two companions in rooms close by.
"Do you think," Duo began, his voice raspy from use, "that we could... well... maybe do that again... like tonight... in a little while?"
Heero moved to where Duo could see his answering smirk. "I think that could be arranged."
Duo grinned. "Good. I'd like Quatre and Trowa to know without a doubt that we're together. Besides, I think they need a little push with their relationship, and there's nothing like having to listen to someone else make love all night long to kind of send you over the edge of self-control."
Heero's laughter echoed through the room as he pulled his mischievous lover into a warm embrace. They made love again a few more times that night, yelling out their completion, whispering their love. Even when lost in passion, Heero could see the light shining in Duo's eyes... for him alone.
Quatre and Trowa didn't sleep well at all.
End Part 6
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