Title: Feel Like I'm Fallin'
Author: tkmaxwell777
Category: Shonen Ai/Yaoi
Pairings: ?x2, 1+2
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Bandai, Sotsu, Sunrise, and the original creators own these characters... I'm just borrowing them to make my life more interesting ;)
Warnings: Angst, Language, Lemon, Slight Bondage... yeah, you read that right.
Archived: Yep! Thanks Lev :)
Duo moved with the wild beat, his lithe body undulating in time to the music, drawing hungry eyes to him. He couldn't help but smile. It was the thing he loved most about dancing at a club; feeling others want him, even if it was only physical. He couldn't blame them though; he was wearing a pair of skin-tight black leather pants that hugged his hips, and a violet silk shirt that buttoned down the front. In other words, he was damn hot to look at, and if that wasn't enough, he was one hell of a dancer too. On the floor, he was free - free of responsibility, free of conscience, free of himself. Almost every Friday night found him at the "Rocket Trip". It was a techno club that also played old Earth hard rock. It was perfect for what Duo needed; he could escape into his own little world for a while and forget the real one outside, while receiving admiring looks and teasing touches.
He had been coming to this club for about three months now, and all the regulars knew him. Sometimes they would dance with him, but they seemed to understand that Duo needed his space; most of the time, they would just watch him lose himself in the music. For that reason, Duo was a little surprised when he felt a pair of hands settle on his hips from behind him. He almost turned to tell the person to back off when he felt a body press against him that began moving in time with his motions. To his great chagrin, he realized that it felt good... damn good. He decided to ignore his initial discomfort and let the guy have his fun. Oh yeah, it was definitely a guy, because Duo could feel his lean muscled chest against his back, not to mention the beginnings of an arousal rubbing his ass provocatively. Duo felt himself harden just from the contact and smiled mischievously as he leaned back; he was going to let himself enjoy this.
They continued to grind for the next four songs, their bodies moving against each other's in a sensuality that made Duo almost breathless. The guy was good; there was no doubt about it. Just when Duo was about to turn around to take a look at the person he'd been virtually having sex with on the dance floor, he felt hot breath on his ear as the guy whispered to him. It was a low seductive voice that had a slight accent to it; it made shivers go up and down Duo's spine as he listened intently.
"You deserve more than what they have to offer you, kirei. Let me show you what you were truly made for. Meet me in room seven when this song ends. I want to give you something you'll never forget."
Duo's mind reeled from the guy's words. Could this be real? He stood there in shock until he noticed the guy was no longer dancing with him. He quickly turned to search, but then realized he had no idea what the guy even looked like. Duo felt his curiosity piqued. He couldn't very well ignore the sexy stranger's instructions, now could he? Before he could talk himself out of it, Duo was walking to where the back rooms were located. He'd been in more than one of them since he'd been coming to the club. Even though Duo was selective, he still enjoyed a night of pure sex like the next guy. Of course, that was all it ever was... sex. He had a feeling the guy in room seven had something more in mind. It intrigued him and frightened him at the same time, but as he knocked on the door, he shoved his reservations away; he always got what he wanted in the end, and this time would be no different.
"Come in," came a muted reply from the other side.
Duo swallowed before opening the door. As it swung open he was immediately hit with the realization that it was dark inside. Even the light from the hallway didn't serve to illuminate the room within. Duo reached for a light switch, but couldn't find one.
"There is no light in this room. It's part of the accommodations."
Duo shivered. This was not something he was comfortable with. He didn't know if he wanted to be alone with this guy in the dark or not. "Look, man, I don't know what your game is, but don't let the braid fool you. I was in the war, and if you're smart, you won't mess with me. I can clean your clock any day, and I don't recommend you try to find out."
A soft laugh filled the room before that silken voice replied calmly, "I believe you, but you don't have to fear, kirei. I'm all about pleasure, no pain. If you want to take what I offer you, step inside and close the door. Otherwise, walk away and always wonder."
Duo knew he should just step back, close the door, and leave, but there was some part of him that screamed out to trust the guy hidden in the shadows. The stranger didn't sound any older than Duo was. He didn't know why, but he found himself walking inside and shutting the door behind him before he could doubt that voice in his head that promised him everything would be all right.
"I'm glad you decided to stay. Come over here."
Duo managed to find the bed in the dark. He felt gentle yet strong hands help him onto it. Before he knew what was happening, he was lying on his back, his head on soft pillows. His heart was beating rapidly, and he felt like jumping up and running for his life, but a soft touch on his cheek calmed him.
"So used to those who take from you, aren't you, kirei? Tonight, tonight you will not be used, but rewarded for what makes you so special."
Duo flinched slightly as a light kiss was placed on his cheek. He could feel the guy on his left side, reclining beside him. A gentle hand cupped his face as it turned it towards the voice that was trying to break down the barriers of fear. Duo gasped as supple lips met his, tenderly moving over his mouth, promising him even more than those words had. He felt himself wanting to give in, to let himself fall into the feeling this guy was offering him. What could be so wrong in that? He'd had a lot of guys who were rough and tumble when it came to sex, so why shouldn't he let this guy be gentle and soft with him? Duo responded to his own question by placing his arms around the guy's neck and meeting his kiss. Their tongues intertwined passionately, but never harshly. There was always a sense of tenderness there.
Before long, Duo began to believe what the guy had told him. As the stranger began removing Duo's clothes, oh so slowly, Duo sighed. Fingertips ran over his skin as it was revealed in the shadows. He had to admit that not being able to see was even more arousing. The guy's scent was so heady, a mixture of sweat and crisp cologne. Duo heard the rustle of clothing as the stranger undressed as well; then there was skin on skin. Duo moaned as the stranger lowered himself on top of him. The guy's body felt incredible. It was lean and muscular, and Duo felt his desire grow even more. Mouths met again, and Duo groaned as the stranger's mouth moved to his neck. It lingered there for a moment before traveling to each one of Duo's nipples, where it nipped and licked until Duo was panting and moaning in response. Duo felt that wonderful mouth as it moved further down, licking his stomach, dipping into his bellybutton, nipping at the skin where his abdomen and hip met. Without warning, he felt wet heat on his arousal as his tormentor licked it; he seemed to savor the passion that was seeping from the tip, for Duo could hear contented sounds emanating from him. Duo cried out as that tongue began licking underneath his shaft, slowly mapping each inch of velvety skin before taking the length into his mouth.
"Oh, yes!" Duo yelled out as his member was engulfed. Light sucking and long strokes of tongue began to take him into a mind-numbing pleasure that Duo had never felt before. He'd had incredible sex many times, but this was so completely different. He felt the fire spreading through him and knew he was getting close to climax. Apparently, the stranger knew as well, for he increased his attentions until Duo was screaming in ecstasy.
"Yes! Yes! Oh, yeeeessss!" Duo came so hard he thought he'd pass out. Pulse after pulse of warm seed poured from him into the stranger's waiting mouth. Duo could feel him swallow every bit of it, continuing to coax as much of the substance as possible from Duo.
Duo lay trembling. It was the most intense orgasm he'd ever had. He felt the tears fill his eyes and tried to push them away, but before he could, he was pulled into strong arms, wrapping him in warmth and security. It was too much for Duo, and he began weeping. Soothing words fell from those soft lips.
"It's all right. I know. You've never had someone make love to you before. It's okay. Let it out, kirei. Let go of all of the emptiness. You never have to be left unsatisfied ever again. I'll make sure you are loved every time we are together."
The tears finally subsided. Duo snuggled closer, realizing that the arms around him belonged to a lover... not a sexual partner, but a lover. His lover. Duo pulled away slightly, suddenly aware that his lover hadn't found his release yet. As if his lover could read his mind, Duo heard that silken voice respond.
"How would you like for me to reach completion, kirei? It's up to you."
Duo couldn't believe it. He would get to choose? Without a moment's hesitation, he grabbed hold of his lover, rolling over so that he was once more on top of Duo. Even though Duo knew his lover couldn't see his smile, he let the brightest one he'd ever had grace his face.
"I want you inside me, lover," he said seductively, letting the endearment roll off his tongue, and liking how it sounded.
"Then that's exactly what you shall have."
Duo felt his lover shift slightly, parting Duo's thighs as his hand reached to find the longhaired boy's entrance. Duo felt slick fingers trace over the opening, amazed that his lover had managed to lubricate the digits without Duo knowing it. When a finger slipped inside him, Duo lost all train of thought, moaning as his lover moved the long intruder in and out of his body slowly. By the time his lover added a second digit, Duo was groaning loudly and pushing against his lover's hand until one of those fingers prodded that place inside him that felt so good he had to scream.
"There! Yes! Oh, yes, lover. Right there," Duo shouted, his voice raw from use already.
"Are you ready for me, kirei? Do you want me? Tell me what you want."
Duo couldn't believe how his lover's voice was affecting him. "Please... I want you. Please, lover. Fill me. Make the emptiness go away. Please!"
Duo felt his lover shift again. His legs were raised to drape over his lover's shoulders, and gentle hands spread him as his lover's body moved into position. Duo felt his lover's arousal at his entrance, and then he was being filled by that hard length. His lover entered him slowly, not allowing a moment's pain. Duo had never been taken so gently. Even though his lover had only used two fingers, he had stretched Duo well. His lover had told him the truth: he was all about pleasure, no pain.
When his lover was finally sheathed inside him, Duo felt complete for the first time. He didn't understand how he could feel that way when he didn't even know this guy, but then again, that's why this guy was his 'lover' and not just another screw. Duo felt himself adjust to the exquisite intrusion and moved slightly to let his lover know he was ready. When his lover began to move, Duo moaned at the sensation. Soon they were moving together, giving and taking from each other as Duo's lover pulled out of him only to thrust back inside, slowly at first, then at a greater pace, but never roughly. Duo was near climax again, and he marveled at how much control his lover had since he hadn't released during their first encounter. Duo knew his lover was getting close as well though, so he searched for his lover's face, and then finding it, kissed him passionately. His lover understood, for he reached between them and began stroking Duo's erection in time with their thrusts. Duo felt the tightening heat again and succumbed to it willingly. He rasped out words of release as his creamy seed spurted over his chest and his lover's hand. He felt his lover tense, and then the warmth of his lover's essence filled him.
"Kirei! Yes, my love!" came the shout of his lover's voice as the climax claimed him.
Duo held him close as his lover shook from the intensity of their lovemaking. When his lover collapsed onto his chest, Duo sighed happily. His arms enfolded his lover as he let himself drift off to sleep.
They made love all night long, napping between their moments of passion. His lover had unbound his hair during one point, reveling in the silken beauty of it, and Duo had never been so glad to have it, if only to please his lover with. Sleep finally claimed them, and Duo had snuggled in his lover's embrace.
In the morning, Duo awoke to find himself alone. There was a single red rose lying on the pillow next to him with a note. Tears filled his eyes as he read what his lover had written.
Kirei,
By the time you read this, I will be gone. Please do not try to find me. I will be in touch soon.
I want you to know that last night was not a one-time affair. I meant every word I said to you.
Remember, my love, you never have to be empty again. Trust me, and you will not regret it.
Lover
Heero stumbled into the kitchen wearing only a pair of boxers. He hadn't slept well the night before. Whenever Duo didn't come home from the club, Heero always worried about him. It was stupid, but he couldn't help it. Duo was his friend, and they had been sharing an apartment for the past six months since Mariemaia had been defeated. Even though Duo wasn't stupid, Heero couldn't keep from being concerned about the braided baka, seeing how Duo spent his free time. It wasn't that Heero begrudged the other boy pleasure; it was just that Duo didn't have too good judgment sometimes, at least from Heero's point of view. Heero was brought out of his thoughts as he heard the front door open. Sighing in relief that his unpredictable and sometimes irresponsible roommate was finally home, Heero sat down at the table just as Duo entered the kitchen.
"Morning. Where were you all night?"
Duo's face flushed as he silently walked over to the coffee pot to pour himself a cup. "Oh, I stayed at the club last night."
Heero shook his head. "Duo, you really shouldn't do that. I know you're careful about who you sleep with, but still, it's not good to have so many partners."
Duo frowned. "I don't always sleep with someone when I stay at the club, Heero."
Heero raised an eyebrow. "Oh? So did you last night?"
Duo sighed in annoyance. "Well, yes, last night I did, but I hadn't in almost a month."
Heero snorted. "My, my, what restraint."
"Listen, Heero, it wasn't like that last night, okay? It was something special, and I don't want your little sarcastic remarks this morning. Got it?"
Heero looked at the serious expression on Duo's face and nodded. "So who was he?"
"I don't know," Duo replied, still trying to come to terms with that.
"What do mean, 'You don't know'? Didn't he have a name?"
Duo didn't like were this conversation was heading. "He didn't tell me his name," he whispered, knowing Heero was going to have a fit over this. "I never even saw his face."
"What?" Heero almost shouted, his voice carrying through the kitchen.
Duo closed his eyes for a moment. When he had regained his composure enough to keep from killing Heero, he sat down at the table with the other boy. "He came up behind me while we were dancing. He asked me to meet him in one of the rooms and was gone before I could turn around to get a look at him. It was a dark room, so I didn't get to see what he looked like there either. He never told me his name, but it was the most intimate wonderful experience I've ever had, Heero, and I don't want you picking it apart, okay?" Duo's voice was filled with something Heero had never heard before. He knew he had to be careful with his words so as to not upset Duo any further.
"He wasn't with you when you woke up?"
Duo shook his head. "No, but he left me a note."
Heero was curious. "May I see it?" He waited as Duo pulled it from his pocket and handed it to him. Heero had to admit; it was a nice note. He chuckled slightly and gave it back to Duo.
"What's so funny?" the braided boy asked, his tone disapproving.
"He called you beautiful."
Duo smiled suddenly. "Is that what kirei means?"
Heero nodded, amused at Duo's change in demeanor. "Yes. That's what it means. Sounds like this guy was really taken with you."
Duo noticed how Heero relaxed and decided to quit being so defensive. Heero just cared about him, and Duo should be glad that he had the other boy for a friend. He had to admit that what he'd done wasn't the smartest thing; he was lucky that it had turned out so well. If 'Lover' had been someone else, it could have ended very badly. Duo knew Heero was just trying to protect him, and it made him feel good to know that.
"I know that I was stupid to let it happen, Heero, but I'm glad it did." Duo waited for Heero to comment. When he didn't, Duo continued, "He told me that no one had ever made love to me, that they had just used me, and that he wanted to show me what I was truly made for... to be loved."
Heero was speechless. Duo wanted to discuss this with him? It amazed him. Even though they had been friends for the past two and a half years, this was the first time Duo had ever spoken to him about something so personal and serious. He didn't know what to say. Duo took his silence as acceptance.
"I've never felt this way before, Heero. Usually, a quick screw, or even an all-night-long fuck can make me feel pretty damn good, but this... this was different. He made me feel so... cherished. Yeah, that's it. Cherished and loved and, well, special."
Heero watched Duo blush at his own words. It was a rare sight to see Duo Maxwell like this. Heero's heart ached just a little that someone Duo didn't even know had been able to do this for Duo when Heero had been there all along. Heero pushed away those feelings and let himself be happy for his friend.
"It sounds like this guy was really what you needed, Duo. I'm glad," Heero faltered for a moment, then continued, "I'm glad that you found him."
Duo smiled. "Me too. I just hope he doesn't wait too long to get in touch with me. I really want to see him again." Duo stood, deposited his coffee cup in the sink, and then headed for the door. Heero's words stopped him short.
"Just remember, Duo. Sometimes things aren't always what they seem. Be careful."
Duo sighed and turned. Heero could never just let things be. "I will, Heero. Now can I go and get showered? I need to get down to the museum as soon as possible. Don't you need to be working on those case files anyway?"
Heero grunted. "Hn. Finished the ones that were due. Une won't have the new batch to me until tomorrow. I have today off."
"Well, isn't that nice of them," Duo commented lightly. "Yanno, it's a good thing they have you for all of this consulting work, or they'd never get anything done."
Heero shrugged. "If I didn't do it, Wufei would. He'd hate me for making him leave the field, but he'd eventually get over it. Quatre and Trowa would help him adjust."
Duo laughed. "He'd have his katana-bearing ass over here so fast it'd make your head spin if you ever even thought of leaving the Preventers now that you've joined."
"I'm not a Preventer, Duo. I don't do field work."
"I know, I know," Duo waved his hand. "Okay, I'll get out of your hair. Besides, I have paintings to go see and place. The new exhibit opens Monday."
Heero shook his head at his roommate as the longhaired boy disappeared through the door. Sometimes, he just didn't understand Duo Maxwell; sometimes, he understood him all too well.
Duo walked into the museum feeling more alive than he had in a long time. Heero's words kept running through his mind, but he shoved them aside, focusing his thoughts on the memories from last night. His lover's ministrations had revitalized him, and he couldn't help but feel the spark of joy in his heart.
"Good morning, ladies," he greeted the two girls at the information counter.
"Good morning, Mr. Maxwell," replied Julia, smiling widely. "Something came for you today." Both girls giggled, and Duo couldn't help but be curious.
"Oh, really? Well, how 'bout you giving it to me, Jules."
"Ali, go fetch it for him," Jules said as she winked at the other girl.
Duo watched Alicia as she went to the room where they kept deliveries, giggling to herself. Oh, this had to be good to have them acting like this. He was floored when he saw her emerge with a huge bouquet of long-stem red roses. His heart leapt because he was almost certain as to who sent them.
"Seems you have an admirer," Alicia said as she handed the flowers to the startled boy. There were no less than three-dozen of them, complete with baby's breath and greenery.
Duo could only stare at them for a moment before he realized there was a card with them. He quickly pulled it free, opening the little envelope to peer at the words written inside.
Kirei,
Inside the museum is something more precious to me than any work of art, more valuable than any artifact, more mysterious than any scroll or writing.
Inside the museum is someone who is kirei... you. Thank you for sharing that beauty with me last night. I look forward to seeing you again soon.
Lover
A week passed. Duo received something from his lover every day, and apparently, he knew Duo's work schedule, because he didn't send him anything to work on Sunday - he sent it to the apartment instead. Duo had noticed how surprised Heero had been when he'd happily shown him the sterling silver chain with a violet-eyed wood nymph charm on it. Duo had put it on immediately, even wearing it into work.
Monday was chocolates with a passionate poem. Tuesday was a mug-bouquet that had a coffee cup with hummingbirds and butterflies on it and said, "You make my world beautiful". Wednesday was a stuffed bear with little heart boxers that said "Mine" on them. Duo had blushed when the girls had given it to him that morning. Thursday was a love letter telling Duo how much his lover missed him. It was intimate and sexual in nature, which only stoked Duo's desire even more. By the time Friday rolled around, Duo was ready for the invitation to meet his lover at a nearby hotel for the evening.
"Duo, are you sure you want to do this?" Heero asked as he watched Duo finish braiding his hair.
"Heero, I already told you, I am meeting him and that's the end of it."
Heero sighed. "Duo, you don't even know this guy."
Duo turned angrily. "Why are you so against him? Why do you always have to make me feel like shit instead of letting me enjoy this? Are you jealous? Can you not stand the fact that someone is actually showing me that they care for me instead of just screwing me?"
"Duo, I'm just worried that you're falling too quickly for this guy. I know he sent you some pretty nice things this week, but that doesn't mean anything. Anyone can send gifts, but it takes..."
"It takes someone who understands me to send me the kind of gifts he did, Heero. This guy knows me. I don't know how, but he does, and I'm going to do everything I can to get to know him."
"What if he's not what you think he is? What if he's the last thing you expect?"
Duo turned away. "I don't care who or what he is. All I care about is how he is with me."
Heero spun Duo around to face him. "You mean to tell me that it doesn't matter who this guy is, you want him? Can you honestly say that? What if he's an ex-Oz soldier? What if he was one of the soldier's that interrogated you while you were captured? Can you honestly say that wouldn't make a difference?"
Duo pushed Heero's hands off his shoulders. "Yes, I can. Whatever he's done in the past it just that... the past. It doesn't matter who he is or what he's done, I want him."
Heero shook his head. "I can't believe you can say that, Duo."
"Believe it, because it's true." With that, Duo walked out to meet his lover.
The hotel room was huge. Duo smiled as he closed the door behind him. There had been a key at the front desk for him waiting. He looked around the room and spied a piece of paper with something lying next to it on the table. He walked over and picked up the note to read it.
Kirei,
Tonight is going to be different, but something I hope you will enjoy immensely.
Please take off all of your clothes and put on the mask I have left for you. I want you to lie down on the bed and wait for me. Please do as I ask, or you will be disappointed. Wait for me, my love, and remember: I am all about pleasure, no pain. I can't wait to see your beauty again.
Lover
Duo gazed at the black leather mask lying there and wondered what his lover had in mind. It wasn't as if he hadn't been without his sight before during their encounters. Why not do as his lover asked? It actually made him more excited to think of his lover finding him naked in bed waiting for him. Duo smiled as he picked up the mask and headed for the bedroom. After removing his clothes, he removed his hair tie to free his hair since his lover seemed to enjoy feeling it against him. Crawling into the huge bed, Duo placed the mask over his eyes to wait for his lover.
It wasn't long before he heard him enter the hotel room. He felt himself harden in anticipation. It was a few minutes before he heard footfalls make their way to the bed. The bed dipped, and then Duo's lips were taken in a passionate kiss. He moaned into his lover's mouth, savoring the taste of him that he had been without for a week. That scent of cologne lingered again, familiar from before. He could feel his lover's naked body next to his on the bed. When his lover released his mouth, he sighed shakily, wanting more.
"I see you have done as I asked," came the silky voice that haunted his fantasies.
"Yes, lover. I've been waiting for you."
"So you have," his lover replied, taking his arm and pulling it above his head. Duo felt something soft and silky go around his wrist.
"What are you doing?" he asked, a little fear etching his words.
"These are silk scarves, kirei. You can get free of them anytime you wish. They are there just to excite you, nothing more. Will you let me continue?"
Duo nodded. "Yes. I trust you." He felt his other wrist carefully tied within moments. Then Duo felt something cold and metallic slide onto his erection.
"What...?"
"This is a cock ring. It will keep you from coming until I'm ready for you to. You don't want to climax before you're ready to feel the ultimate pleasure, do you?"
Duo felt so vulnerable. He didn't know what his lover had planned, but this wasn't something he'd ever done before. He'd heard about bondage and role-playing before, but had never participated.
"Remember, kirei. I'm all about pleasure, no pain. Now open your mouth and take what I place there."
Those words reassured him, and Duo opened his mouth willingly. He felt something cool brush his lips then a round object filled his mouth. His tongue identified it as a strawberry with whipped cream on it. He chuckled at his previous fear as he bit into fruit, relishing the tartness and sweetness at the same time. He then felt his lover's mouth descend on his to taste him. Duo's tongue sought his lover's, wanting to devour him. It had been a week of torture receiving those gifts yet not being able to touch the giver. He intended to touch his lover tonight. His mind flashed to his bound hands, but he knew that once this scenario was over, his lover would release him. This was just foreplay.
Duo gasped as something cold landed on his nipple. "Hey!" he cried out. His lover just laughed softly.
"I want to feast on you tonight, kirei. You look good enough to eat."
Duo felt a warm tongue lick the whipped cream from his chest. He groaned as another dollop was placed on his stomach. He knew where this was leading, and his erection swelled. By the time his lover reached his arousal, Duo was moaning incoherently. He was barely aware of his legs being spread, knees raised so that his feet were on the bed. His lover only licked his throbbing need in passing as he continued on to his balls, licking and lightly sucking before traveling lower. Duo cried out when his lover's tongue lapped at that place below his sac and above his entrance. Then his lover placed his hands under Duo's cheeks, lifting him up slightly, as that tongue entered him. Duo screamed. It was incredible. He'd never let anyone do this to him, and it was unimaginable the feelings this intimate act evoked in him. He could feel his lover's tongue undulating inside him, feel his lover's breath on his skin, and feel the moans his lover was making as he ravished him. His arousal throbbed almost painfully between his legs.
"Please!" Duo begged, knowing he couldn't come without his lover's help.
Duo felt his lover move his tongue in and out of him, seeming to ignore his pleas until Duo was almost crying with need. Then suddenly, his lover withdrew, and then lubed fingers entered him quickly.
"Yes! Oh, yes! Please! Take me! Anything, please." The last was almost a sob as Duo felt himself stretched to accommodate his lover's arousal. Within a few minutes, Duo felt his lover enter him, and it was the most welcomed feeling he'd ever known. He was filled again.
Their coupling this time was not as gentle as before. Duo yelled encouragement to his lover, begging for him to pound into him harder. When Duo thought he would lose his mind from the pleasure of his lover's length stroking him inside and hitting his sweet spot, he felt his lover reach down to take his erection in his hand and began pumping him.
"Come with me, kirei. Come for me alone, my love."
Duo let out a keening wail as his body tensed, pushing his release past the constraining ring, his warm essence going all over them as his lover filled Duo with his own seed. Duo's climax seemed to last forever, and was so intense, Duo blacked out.
Some time later, Duo awoke to find himself untied from the bed. His mask had been removed, but it was dark in the room, so he still couldn't see his lover. He had been cleaned from their previous foray, and they were both underneath the sheets, wrapped in each other's arms.
"Welcome back," his lover said softly.
Duo sighed. "Is it always that intense when you do stuff like that?"
"Only if you're doing it with someone who knows what you need."
Duo pulled away slightly. "And how do you know what I need? I don't even know your name, or what you look like. Who are you?"
"I am your lover, kirei. That's all you need to know right now. I promise, you'll know who I am soon enough. Will you trust me until then?"
Duo thought for a moment, and then chuckled. "What have I got to lose?"
"Your heart," came the serious reply. "I'm playing for keeps, kirei. I won't share you with anyone else. I want you to be mine completely. Do you think you can give me that?"
Duo suddenly thought of Heero. Why would he think of him? His mind supplied the answer, and Duo didn't like it. Could he have feelings other than friendship for Heero? Duo felt an uneasiness settle in his stomach. What if his lover demanded that he give up Heero even as just a friend?
"I'll have to think about it." Duo answered truthfully.
"Then I shall give you time to do so. Just keep in mind that you deserve to be loved, kirei."
Before Duo could say anything in reply, his lover rolled over on top of him and began kissing him tenderly, burying those gentle fingers in Duo's chestnut mass of hair. It wasn't until the next morning that Duo thought of Heero again. The rose and note lying on the pillow next to him made him realize the decision he had to make.
Kirei,
I'm going to give you some time to consider us. I know this isn't easy for you. I'm not telling you that you can't have other people in your life, my love, just no one else in your bed. If there is anyone else that you have feelings like that for, you need to reconcile them before we meet again.
I'll be in touch. Until then, remember the moments we have shared... I want them to be forever.
Lover
Heero was typing away on his computer when Duo entered the apartment. He didn't want to fight with Duo, so he remained silent as the braided boy went to take a shower. By the time Duo was finished, Heero had completed his task as well. He powered down just as Duo emerged into the living room.
"Heero, I need to talk to you."
It was said calmly, but the undercurrent was obvious. Heero swallowed and followed Duo to the couch. He was almost certain he knew what was next. He had interfered with Duo's love life for the first and last time, and now Duo was going to tell him exactly what he thought about it. Heero wanted to at least apologize before Duo flamed him.
"Duo, I'm sorry that I've been so negative about your... lover. I was afraid for you, but all I really want is for you to be happy."
Duo stared at him for a moment, violet gazing into blue. "Heero, could you ever feel anything for me more than friendship?"
It was a question Heero had not been expecting. "Nani?"
"Could you ever want more than friendship from me? Could you ever want to be my lover?"
Heero bit his lip. This was not something he wanted to talk about. "Duo, I care for you very much, but I could never be your lover."
"Why not?"
"I'm not what you need. Whoever this guy is, he knows what you need and he knows how to give it to you."
Duo slumped back onto the couch. "I'm sorry. I just..."
"What happened?" Heero asked as he placed a hand on his friend's shoulder.
"He asked me for forever, Heero. He also asked for fidelity. It's not that I don't want that, it's just that when he said it, I thought of you, and I don't know why. Maybe I thought he'd make me give up our friendship."
Heero frowned. "Do you think he wouldn't want you to be around me?"
"I don't know." Duo sighed heavily. "But that's only part of my fear."
"What's the other part?"
Duo noticed the catch in Heero's voice and saw the need in his eyes. He knew what he had to say to make Heero understand. "I'm afraid that he won't be half the friend you are, and I'll miss you so much I won't be happy with him alone."
Heero smiled. Duo was shocked. This wasn't a normal Heero smile; this was a real honest-to-goodness joyful smile that lit up Heero's entire face. Duo thought Heero had never been more beautiful... his beautiful friend. Duo didn't want to lose him.
Heero moved closer to Duo. "I don't think you have to worry about that, Duo. If he ever told you that, you wouldn't stay with him, and you know no matter what, you always have a place here with me."
Duo's eyes filled with tears. "Heero, I love you. Maybe not as a lover, but as the closest friend I've ever had. I don't know if I can leave you."
Heero wiped Duo's tears away. "Sometimes we have to let go of what we have to find what we've always wanted. Let go, Duo. He's waiting for you."
Duo knew Heero was right, but it hurt just the same. He didn't want to let go, but he knew he had to. He leaned forward and kissed Heero's cheek. "Thank you."
Heero watched as Duo got up and went to his room. When the door closed behind the braided boy, Heero leaned his head back on the couch, closing his eyes, and whispered softly, "Aishiteru, my Duo. Please be happy."
Duo didn't hear from his lover for a week. It was the longest week of his life. It proved to him that being with Heero wasn't enough to fill the emptiness that was there without his lover. He had spent hours with Heero, trying to convince himself that he didn't need his lover's touch... all to no avail. In the end, he was relieved when the note arrived on Friday, telling him it was time for him to meet his lover face to face at the club. Duo was so nervous he couldn't stand it. By the time he reached the apartment, he was about to fly apart. When he listened to Heero's message on the answering machine that told him Heero wouldn't be home due to some meeting, Duo thought he was going to throw up. He needed Heero there!
"Guess I should get used to it," he muttered to himself as he brushed his hair. He had already showered and was getting ready to get dressed. He was going to wear a pair of faded blue jeans and a black t-shirt tonight. It wasn't his best outfit, but the shirt and jeans fit just right in the right places. His heart was still in turmoil. Heero's words kept repeating in his mind, and Duo clung to them, hoping they would prove true.
"You still manage to give me guidance even when you're not here, don't you, perfect soldier boy?" Duo smiled as he spoke his thought out loud to himself.
One more check in the mirror, and then Duo was off to meet his lover at last.
The club was crowded tonight. Duo was glad that his lover had suggested that he would wear a red rose to let Duo know who he was. Duo scanned the throng, trying to catch a glimpse of the flower that would identify the one who had touch his heart as well as his body. His eyes scanned the room again then came to rest on the doorway; that's when he saw him.
Wearing dark blue jeans and a dark blue t-shirt, his lover walked through the door. Duo felt his eyes fill with tears as he took in every beautiful aspect of the one he was going to give himself to completely. There was no doubt as to whether or not Duo would now that he saw his lover. Duo's eyes swept over the lean hard lines of the body he knew intimately, the sharp planes of his handsome face that was familiar although Duo felt like he was seeing it for the first time, the dark hair that would never be tamed, and those serious deep blue eyes that fell on him as he stopped to stand in front of the table.
"Hello, kirei." The accent was gone, but that silken tone was still there. Duo didn't know how he had missed the similarities. His lover had hidden his identity well, which Duo knew hadn't been an easy task.
"Hello, my lover."
Heero's eyes lit up at the endearment, spoken with the knowledge of who he was for the first time. He searched Duo's face for some sign of anger or sense of betrayal, but only saw awe and love fill those violet depths. He knew Duo had found what he had always wanted, and Heero knew he had as well.
"Why, Heero?" Duo asked even though he somehow knew.
"Because I had to make sure you would let me love you, Duo. I had to know you wanted the lover in me, not just the friend. You had to want more before I could give it to you."
Duo stood. "And now that you know?"
Heero reached out and pulled Duo to him, his arms going around the longhaired boy's waist. "Now I can give you both."
Duo felt his heart finally reconcile with his body. He would have them both. He smiled at his friend and lover as he lowered his head to claim the lips waiting for him. It was a kiss of promise, of longing, and Duo knew they would not make it home tonight. He grinned mischievously at the other boy.
"Why don't we get one of those rooms?"
Heero smiled back at him, that same bright smile that reached his eyes. "As long as there's plenty of light. I want to see your eyes when I make love you to this time."
"So do I, lover," Duo replied as he pulled the blue-eyed boy towards the back rooms. "So do I."
The End
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