22 Dec 2000
Ok, by request a tissue alert. I think.... I'm really no judge as to that, but it is possible.... This song gave me a tissue alert, but that's the song, not the fic.... please please please tell me what you think!!!!
Type : songfic, eetzie weetzie bit o' shounen ai
Spoilers : none
Warnings : reference to rape
Pairings : 1+2
Rating : PG-13
Disclaimer : I don't own anything. I am poor... want a
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Notes: No lyrics are changed. Suggestion: play this
song while reading the fic to get the TRUE mood....
^_^
[*opening cords*
She came calling
One early morning
She showed her crown of thorns]
Duo leaned against the doorstop of the little safehouse, gazing out at the morning dew gathering on the grass. The dawning sun gleamed off the beads of water sending cascades of glittering prisms shining through the sky. The birds chirped and greeted the day with much more enthusiasm then Duo could muster this morn.
Sighing he looked down at his scared wrists, wishing for all the world that the skin was once again smoothe and solid in tone. Idly he trace one long white scar from the base of his palm to halfway up his forearm with one long, delicate finger.
[She whispered softly
To tell a story
About how she had been wronged]
"Why?" he whispered into the dawn mist. "Why me?"
He frowned at the memories today invoked. It was five years ago today that he'd been raped. Memories asailed him, bringing him to he knees under their hefty weight.
*flashback*[As she lay lifeless
He stole her innocence
And this is how she carried on
This is how she carried on]A boy, about ten years of age, crashed into the wall with a resounding smack. As his head connected with the unyeilding wall his eyes rolled back in their sockets and he crumpled to the floor unconsious.
The older boy, some seventeen years of age, grinned madly and stalked over to the unconsious body. He stripped the boy of his clothing and proceeded to rape him.
*end flashback*
[Well I guess she closed her eyes
And just imagined everything's alright
But she could not hide her tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years]
Duo sat on the doorstep, eyes closed tightly against the pain of those memories. He kept telling himself that it was a long time ago and he'd tracked the bastard down and killed him so it would never happen again, but that didn't make it any easier for him.
Eyes squeezed shut against the threat of tears, Duo remembered his mother's remedy for her pain. He was really little, but he remembered.
*flashback*"Hush my darling," his mother cooed as she rocked him to sleep. A tear slid down her softly rounded cheek and Duo reached his pudgy baby fingers up to wipe at the shining droplet. "It's ok, sweetling. Mommy's just tired. Tired of everything, and the past has come to haunt her, loveling. But not to worry, Mommy'll be here for you. Mommy loves you very much...."
*end flashback*
Not long after, she'd died and Duo'd been left to the streets.
[My anger's violent
But still I'm silent
When tragedy strikes at home]
Heero watched from the kitchen with a sad, seething look on his face. He wanted to go to Duo and tell him to cry and that he was not to blame and anyother comforting words that he could think of, but instead he stood silent, watching his best friend suffer.
He was angry that he couldn't do a damned thing for the friend who'd done so much for him. Angry at himself and angry at the person who'd caused Duo so much pain.
[I know this decadence
Is shared by millions
Remember you're not alone
Remember you're not alone]
Finally, Heero found the strength to go to his friend. Sitting down by the silently shaking figure, he wrapped an arm around the boy's shoulders.
"It's ok, Duo.... shhh, it's ok. You're not alone," Heero cooed quietly.
[But if you'll just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Well if you'll just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years
Maybe we can wash away those years]
"Let it all out, Duo.... let the tears cleanse the pain," he said, pulling the boy into a close embrace.
Duo looked up at him, fear and pain in his glassy violet eyes, then the tears welling there spilled down his pale cheeks and he hid his face, sobbing into Heero's shirt.
"Shhh, it's alright, cry, Duo, cry, let it all out," Heero said, rubbing his hand soothingly up and down Duo's back.
[For we have crossed many oceans
And we labor in between
In life there are many quotients
And I hope I find the mean]
After Duo'd stoped shaking, the eyes dry and sore, Heero just held him. When Duo pulled away slightly, Heero reached up and brushed the reminants of tears from the heart shaped face.
"All done?" Heero asked, smiling quietly as Duo nodded. "Good."
Duo looked down at his wrists again, a deep pain etched in his features.
"You know," Heero said, drawing the boy's attention, "All we've been through and we've still survived it all.... The pain, the battles, everything.... and to come out as strong as we have is amazing."
Duo stared at him, he couldn't believe Heero was making conversation. First lending comfort now conversation, Duo was in shock.
[Well if you'll just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Well if you'll just close your eyes
And just imagined everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Maybe we can wash away those years]
"Just remember, Duo.... it's not worth your life," Heero said, looking at him seriously. "Whenever you think it's hopeless, just close your eyes and make the pain and memories go away.... and if that doesn't help, cry.... let the tears wash away the pain of the years...."
Heero picked himself up off the stair. He looked down at the boy still sitting there. "And remember.... if you need someone.... I'll always be there...."
He leaned down and pressed a chaste kiss to Duo's forehead.
Duo smiled at him and hugged that strong neck. "I will...."
"That's my koi," Heero said affectionately, pulling the boy to his feet.
[I hope that you can wash away those years]
END
That didn't turn out exactly as I wanted it to, but que sera sera! ^_^ Please tell me what you think! C&C GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!!
(:./willow/washaway)
