08-Aug-2000
Title: Dream's End by Draco
Warnings: Angst. Yaoi. My most confusing fic to date (I think)
Notes: I know I whore myself for feedback everytime, but I *really* would appreciate feedback on this one because it's *so* different from anything else I have ever written. [Still not breaking up Heero and
Duo though, nope nope nope]
Blinding. The light shone with an unmatched malice. Blinding. Even through slitted eyes, Heero could not deflect the piercing white light. Blinding. Yet for all this brightness, the light emitted no heat. Blinding.
**Heero caressed Duo's damp skin; all the calluses in the world could not make his touch ungentle.
"For how long, Duo? For how long do you think we can go on like this?" Heero's hand lingered on Duo's naked flesh.
Duo caught Heero's hand as it wondered to his chest. Slowly, Duo brought the hand up to his face and brushed it with his lips.
"Until we wake up," Duo breathed.**
One, nine, four. There were numbers on the ceiling. There was a number missing. Blocked by the light fixture. The round white light stood between the fourth number and Heero's eyes.
Are you ready to be reprogrammed, Mr. Yuy?
One, nine, four.
He's shut himself down.
Not for long. Open the pathways to his nervous system. He was programmed this way. He can be reprogrammed.
Yes, Mr. O'Brien.
**Heero's hand tingled under Duo's lips. Heero gently collected the American boy into his arms.
"Aishiteru, Duo."
Duo quickly rushed his hand over Heero's mouth, "Don't say that. I don't want you to. Only be with me for this moment."
Before Heero could protest Duo stopped him with a kiss, "Please, Heero. Just give me this moment."**
We have control of most of his nerves, Mr. O'Brien.
Stimulate them.
Screams. Heero heard sounds of screams. It was getting closer and closer like a fright train until finally he collided with them. The crush vibrated through his system as pain washed over him. Drowning, sinking in the pain.
**Heero held his lover tightly in his arms, "What are you afraid of, Duo?"
Duo's breath deepened on Heero's shoulders, as Duo drew away slightly.
"Do you want to hear a story, Heero?" Duo's voice was quiet. A shell of his normal cheerfulness.**
I know you can hear me, Mr. Yuy.
You can not shut yourself down forever, and I have all the patience in the world.
See these rats? They are specially engineered for one purpose. To eat through human flesh in a matter of minutes.
One. Nine. Four. What was the other number?
**"There once was a man who was born in to a world where peace no longer existed. A world where war was good and permanent. And this man was programmed from birth to ignore human suffering and human misery. He was created to accept a world where human lives were worthless. But the man was not satisfied with this life. And he began to break out of his programming..."
As Duo talked, he softly stroked Heero's face.
"It began small at first. Just a forbidden journal..."**
I have read your mission reports, Mr.Yuy. It was unwise of you to keep them on a laptop.
Are you surprised? You underestimate us, Mr. Yuy. You might not know it, but we have always kept a close watch over you.
**"And then it was forbidden sex. Sex with a pretty girl who wanted to rebel against her programming as much as he did. So they used each other and pretended for a while that they were in love. Because love, of all things, was forbidden in this world..."**
We know about your affair with the pilot of Gundam 02 as well, Mr. Yuy.
Do you think you are somehow protecting him by this?
Or are you really foolish enough to believe that he loves you?
Love is an illusion created by the weak, Mr. Yuy.
**"But their little idyllic corner of the world was shattered when they were discovered and they were both arrested. And even though the man swore his undying loyalty to the girl, he betrayed her..."
"Why did he betray her?" Heero whispered into the back of Duo's neck.
"Because he was told she betrayed him first. And he was in so much pain that he wished that she was the one being tortured, instead of him..."
"I am not that weak, Duo," Heero's tongue slide across Duo's skin, eliciting a small moan from his lover.
"I know, Heero..." Duo pulled Heero's hair lightly and drew his lover face to face with him.**
You killed a little girl and her dog, Mr. Yuy.
A sun dress. A fluffy puppy. A dead puppy. It was like flipping through old photographs. Photos that had been stored away in a chest somewhere for safe keeping.
Blood. Blinding. Red everywhere. So much spilled blood.
Do you see it, Mr. Yuy? This is who you are. These images are who you are.
**"Did she betray him?" Heero finally asked.
"Yes. She betrayed him at the first sign of pain," Duo answered. Prussian blue eyes burning into cobalt ones. **
How do you think we were able to capture you, Mr.Yuy?
Who else knows where you were hiding? Think, Mr. Yuy. Think.
**"I don't like that story, Duo," Heero whispered.
"It's a dystopia, Heero. It's supposed to be sad," Duo leaned closer to Heero until their noses were touching.**
One. Nine. Four. What is that last number?
He still isn't talking?
No. He is not useful to us. Terminate him.
But Mr. O'Brien, we terminated the other one. Without either of them how are we supposed to...
I have already told you. He is not useful to us.
**The street was a horde of humanity. Masses of people passed by Heero without noticing him. Everyone was moving so quickly, and they were all moving in one direction. Heero stood still. Like a rock against an oncoming stream, Heero stood there... waiting.
Finally. There, walking towards him with the rest of humanity, Duo. The rest of the world seems to dim, as all the light focused on Duo. A warm light.
Duo to stops walking and stares back at Heero.
People weaved between them, but the two boys held each other's gaze.
"You didn't betray me," Duo said simply.
"Because I knew you didn't betray me," Heero smiled, as he slowly walked against the crowd until he bridges the gap between them.
Carefully, Heero gathered Duo in his arms, as if afraid his precious love would break.
"How did you know?" Duo asked, wrapping Heero around himself.
"Because that's the way this story goes," Heero's lips found its way to Duo's mouth.
"Aishiteru, Heero."
"For how long, Duo?"
"Until dreams end..."**
~Owari
Can you guess what the last number is? [If you can't figure it out, don't worry about it. You probably never read the book]
Duo: If you are as confused as I am about this story, just ask Draco about it. No sleep for two days does things to you.
(:./draco/dream)
