27-Jul-2001
Hi guys, this is the end of it. I hope you liked my
comeback fic. It was fun to write and to everyone who
replied to me onlist and off, Thanks. You all really
encouraged me to finish.
So here it is part three and the long awaited
(hopefully) fisting scene...
**grin/grimace**
Read on... @_@
"Heero... I need you to do something for me."
Of course he's just watching me with this blank stare but I can feel his arousal, after all I happen to be on top of him.
"Would you... could you please... ummm"
Yeah right... as though this was going to be easy. Frankly, this was getting me nowhere and it was then that I decided to just let things take its natural course. I got us out of our restricting garments, namely, my towel and his spandex. Don't ask how, after all it's a trade secret how fast I can be. Anyway I flipped us over so that I was once again on my back and Heero was on top of me and this time I let my body ask for me. I retrieved my tube of lube, squirted a fairly large amount of it into my open palm and guided Heero's hand to it. After I liberally coated his fingers, I raised my knees and guided his hand towards my entrance. Sure enough he slipped a finger inside of me and stroked. Thankfully, I had the presence of mind to add more lube and following my unspoken request Heero slipped another finger into me. Two fingers were now slowly stroking my interior and when he made as if to take them out, I stopped him:
"No... put all of them... "
"All... of them?"
"Yes... "
By now of course Heero's blank stare had been replaced by a 'Duo is insane' glare but I nodded and pleaded with my eyes since it would have been to much of an effort to use my voice, I had to focus all my energies on the task at hand. Finally Heero blinked and I think he accepted the idea because he took the lube from me and squeezed out enough to coat a third and fourth finger. The key to fisting is a lot of lube and complete relaxation. There are drugs to ensure total relaxation, but I wanted nothing more than Heero. I refused to use any other means save my own self-control, after all this was about trust and drugs would add an unwanted sense of security and I didn't want that.
When Heero finally inserted his third and fourth fingers into me I arched up off of the bed, the sensations are not easily described but it feels as if you are smothered by waves of overwhelming ecstasy. I had to consciously relax and lower my body despite the fact that I now had an insistent erection and could barely catch my breath. More lube and then we were ready for Heero's thumb, he slipped it into me ever so gently as I gazed up at him from under my lidded eyes. By now I was moaning continuously and as I ran my hands up his shoulders, I opened my eyes to look at Heero and was struck silent by the depth of emotion I saw there. I smiled then because I knew that he understood and asking wasn't going to be a problem anymore. I made the conscious decision to take this to the final level:
"Heero..."
"Aa?"
By now of course I could only whisper so that Heero had to lower his head to hear me as I panted out exactly what he needed and what I wanted him to do. His eyes widened so quickly that it would have been comical had he not lurched upwards, placing pressure on my prostate. I screamed then as bolts of electricity seemed to surge through me. I had not prepared for such a motion and it caught me unawares, I barely had enough time to stop Heero from removing his fingers. I had come too far for him to even consider stopping. He froze as I touched him and I could tell that he was swiftly approaching his usual façade of indifference but I wasn't about to lose him like that.
"Heero... please"
"But..."
"Please... just... do... it"
"I'll... hurt you..."
"You... could never..."
"But... "
"No... you... don't... understand... I... trust ... you"
There I said it, I mean yeah I could have said that I loved him but trust comes first and I already loved him. His face did not light up in the proverbial manner after a great secret has been imparted, but his face did change enough to let me know that he had realized what I was doing and now all that remained was for us to finish it.
Tucking his thumb a little further into me, Heero squeezed the tube of lube and... wait I bet you're wondering why it hasn't emptied as yet haven't you? Well I'd retained the presence of mind to subtly place full tubes within reach for every time I believed that the one in use would finish. After all, you know that Heero pays attention to the smallest detail... but since that involved watching me, he hadn't exactly been paying attention to where the lube was and so every-time he reached for one it was a different tube. Take into consideration that the bedclothes hadn't exactly remained in one place and you see how he could have missed the seemingly endless tube of lube. Of course at the end of this experience I would have a lot of half-empty tubes but that seemed a small price to pay for the gift I was going to give Heero.
Anyway we were coming down to the final stage of my gift and his entire lower arm, from two inches above the wrist to the tips of his fingers were covered in lube. With a twist of his wrist he inched his five fingers further into me and... shit it hurt... It burned as my internal muscles fought against penetration, but Heero is nothing if not persistent and I knew what I wanted. I once again sought to relax and breathed deeply, in time I could feel my muscles slowly loosening as my body adjusted. When I thought I was ready I nodded to Heero, this time his wrist and a little more made it into me and I could feel my body clench around him. I panted... I believed that for tonight at least, this was as far as I could go. Heero seemed to reach the same conclusion, even as my body began to display just a hint of tension.
As he stared down at me, I was held spellbound by his eyes. I wasn't embarrassed, after all I had a part of Heero's arm inside of me but that's beside the point. He seemed to be torn between emotions, however that doesn't bother me after all Rome wasn't built in a day and one night isn't enough to make Heero gregarious. However if the throbbing erection was any indication, Heero was just as aroused as I by this new experience. Bracing myself I decided to end our session:
"Heero... fist... move"
I knew I had him there, he was still torn between the need for completion and the desire not to hurt me but I had given a direct order and it demanded immediate attention. As I felt Heero's fingers shape themselves into the unmistakable feel of a fist... and I say this not because I had past experience, but because the visual image of a fist is enough to connect it to the supposed feel of one, it was hard not to fall straight into an orgasm as once again waves of ecstasy rushed through me.
It was time to end this and I was determined to see it through. Both of us were ready and I nodded for Heero to begin as I reached down to grasp my own erection. Heero withdrew his fist until his wrist was once again at my entrance and then gently shoved it back into me as I stroked myself upwards. As sensation threatened to overwhelm me I saw Heero take his own erection into his free hand as he went up on his knees to support himself. I could say nothing as Heero withdrew and shoved his fist into me a second time. The stimulation was so intense that I could feel tears rush to my eyes and I knew that I was close to the edge. I had enough breath to make my final request:
"Finish... it"
There was no hesitation and Heero fairly rammed his fist inside of me, that was the end as I rushed headlong into an orgasm which made me shudder so violently that the bed shook. Through the roar of my own completion I heard Heero's rasp of surprise as I clenched around him. He gasped his completion merely a second after and within a few moments he withdrew his hand after he opened his fingers. I collapsed bonelessly upon the bed... exhausted... my eyes slid shut as I rode out the remnants of my orgasm. I knew when Heero wiped his hands, himself and even when he cleaned my body but I was just too tired to move. I waited for Heero to speak with no small amount of trepidation but he just curled into me and just as I was drifting off into sleep he spoke:
"Why... ?"
"Hmmm... why?... because... I trust you."
~~Heero POV~~
He trusts me... I never realized how powerful a simple statement could be. Of course after a sexual experience like that, one is bound to be exhausted and Duo was. He could only mumble his answer to me but I could tell that he was waiting for something. It was as if my question would mean the difference between either the future or dissolution of our partnership. I had no words to describe what he had given me... I knew that it was a gift, he said nothing but I knew and I was grateful...
From what I have learned in my short life, love can be found in many forms, there is the love of war and carnage, death and pain. However, even this twisted world which we inhabit has its redeeming qualities, there is the love based on respect and mutual agreement but there is none so powerful as the love based on trust. For one to willingly submit to the whims of another there must be some level of trust and what Duo did for me tonight had to be at the highest level. I may just be a soldier, fighting a war which at times, seems to be nothing more than amusement for the higher-ups, however I know one thing, I have a partner who trusts me with his life and well being and nothing will change that.
~~Duo POV~~
After...
Now I could go on about how that was the turning point of our relationship but that wasn't my objective. The simple fact was that I trusted Heero. I trusted him with my life, my body and my heart. My entire plan was garnered to show this to Heero. Suffice it to say we did become more than fuck-buddies and while the war raged on we at least had each other. In the end I believe my point was driven home... It's all about trust.
Owari
(:./romyra/trust3)
