12 March 2001
Rating: PG-ish
Pairings: 1x3x2
Type: series, POV, angst, yaoi, dark
Disclaimers apply, don't sue.
Note: Ok, this idea was from reading Firelight and my
own discovering. A lot (not all) of the happenings
herein happened in RL (within the last 3-4 years)....
^_^ Nothing too dark (actually just kinda angsty-ish).
This chapter inspired, in part, by Lionna's ZnY.
Fate is a cruel device of any god ever believed in (not that the Goddess and God are cruel, but it is a device used by them... usually for the means of good). It can tear people apart at the seems, it can destroy whole families. Granted that I don't have a family, per se, but I do have loved ones, which constitute as a family. I said I found something.... well, it's the entire reason for this memoir... Yes, memoir. I am writing this so someone will read my story when I pass.
I am dying, of what they are not sure. So here I sit, on a pristine white bed in a sterile white room in a cleanly and white hospital while my two lovers stand constant vigil at my bed side. I'm not sure I believe in Fate (completely) and Destiny, but if there are such things, I know that they had a hand in having me meet and fall in love with these two wonderful men. Yes, I love them, with all I have to offer them. I hope the Goddess blesses them in their lives and gives them the protection I cannot.
Fate.... hmmm, I once knew a girl who didn't believe that anything was controlled and that she was the controller of her life. She was in for a slap of reality... too bad she couldn't learn from it. She didn't heed a warning sign, or the light wasn't working or something, and ended up being smashed beyond recognition by a bus. Sad fate for one so young. She was just out of high school (granted, my senior, but she was still young in the eyes of the world) and had a whole life ahead of her.
Remember that girl I mentioned who was so fanatical about Christianity that I feared her knowledge of my religion? Well, she was some six months my junior (by the birthdate I set for myself [I am an orphan after all]) and she was really into this guy. Well, I knew they had a thing, some type of connection that ran deep.... maybe even to the point that Destiny was directing them together. I knew this a year in advance to their actual decision and confessions that they liked each other. It was rather comical, actually. Well, they had been together for something like a year and eventually, being teenagers in this day and age (he was 19! and she was 14!), had sex. She made light of it, like it was supposed to be something everyone that age did! Well, I thought about her actions and her religion.... An interesting English class gave me a word for her... Religion Hypocrite. Or Sunday Christian. Which seems to describe most of that religion in recent years. So this Sunday Christian had the nerve to preach her Gospel, but not act on it... and then expected, that since she'd said it and preached it, that I should follow. Fate has funny ways of dealing with these people.... Something happened to her and I lost touch (what with the moving around during the war), so I only have a vague idea of what hand Fate delt her (probably a backache and a child at 15).
Oh yeah.... religion... That reminds me! Heero... he wasn't Atheist as I had suspected... He was actually Wiccan, like me! Which was really odd, but I remembered that one of the guys (the one that gave that lesson about the religion) I met at a school was kinda like him. Solemn and quiet, stoic nearly. This made me laugh, with joy and surprise. Lucky for me he didn't take this as an insult... otherwise I'd've been dead a lot sooner! So, Heero's Wiccan, Trowa's Roman Catholic.... I just wonder how Trowa ended up dealing with our religious differences? Well, he and Heero should be fine after I leave.... even if they hurt, they have each other to lean on and cry with (if either of them cry).
I feel my time coming, so this is the time to say goodbye.
Goodbye, Heero, whom I love very dearly. Trowa, who is also dear to my heart. Quatre and Wufei, who are dear friends. Sally, Catherine, Hilde, and even Relena, who are wonderful women; the world and space should have more like you. All the people I never met and all the people that had an impact (however small) on my life.
I bid you all 'adieu' and wish you a long and happy life. Blessed be.
Duo Maxwell -- AC196
End Part 3: Fate
Owari
Notes:
Ok, a great bit of parts 1 and 3 are from my personal
experience. But a bit is fabricated to make it work
with Duo. I'm not completely sure on everything about
Wicca just yet as I am very new to it, well.... I have
been trying for 3-4 years to learn more, but couldn't
find the resources. But that's no problem now. Um,
about the girl, the one and her bf, well, that's the
girl I was ranting about.... and yes I still know her
and no (I don't know) she is not preggy and all that
rot. I just put that there to make it work, k? This
was my first at a threesome lemon, my first at a POV
lemon, and my first using Wicca references and the
like. Please be gentle. C&C craved. Very very much!
(:./willow/reveal3)
