hello minna~! this is the full version. <peace> the end of boys don't cry.... <sniff> i can't believe i finished this... well... enjoy minna~!
Category: au, sap, yaoi, violence
Rating: PG
Warnings: No lemon, just childish, changes pov often.
Spoilers: Read Episode Zero.
Disclaimer: Characters are about 16. I do not own them and I do not have
permission and I do not make any money out of this. Please send me comment
after you read this. I feed on comments. <even criticism is appreciated>
*this* indicates italicized...
DUO POV
I came back to school that night. I couldn't take it anymore. I wished for a person to care about me and that was the reason why I had to leave America. I wasn't wanted there for many people blamed me for the incident that caused many deaths. I knew it was my fault that Solo, Sister Helene, and Father Maxwell were dead. If only I was quicker... No one wanted an orphan in America, so the nuns told me to stay in Japan for a while. I came to Japan with a hope. I thought my wish was coming true when I met Heero. I shouldn't judge so quickly, for he was only "paying his cookie" back. I could take all those insults and attacks toward me. I really could as long as I had someone that cared about me. I survived because I thought Heero would help me as much as he can. I now know that he can't help me. Worst of all, he doesn't love me. He never loved me. I wept. Moonlight shone through the window on my tiny body as I trembled in tears. It was time.
HEERO POV
I was the first person to be in the classroom. I wanted to be the first person to see Duo in case he ever came back. I wanted to tell him that I cared about him. I wanted to show him how much he meant to me. I wanted to tell him that I love him. I wanted to see Duo first; I wanted to see him smile and yell out my name-"Heero!" With many thoughts popping up in my head, I entered the classroom hoping to see my Duo. I was the first one to see him, all right, but he did not greet me. I stared in horror; I was going to puke. Duo was hanging by his neck. His entire body was covered with blood from prior incident. My knees started buckle as I did something I never did in my life. I screamed.
Classmates stared at the limp body being carried out on a stretcher blankly. It wasn't their fault that Duo was dead. He had committed a suicide. They did not feel bad at all.
I took my seat at my desk when they carried Duo out. I couldn't bare to watch him. He died so painfully; I could see and feel him being tortured to death. He did not die in peace either. I could still hear him screaming in pain when he came out of the garbage can. I didn't have anything of him. It wasn't fair. We could have been happy together... I went through his desk just to see if anything was left there. I wanted something that belonged to my love Duo. As my fingers traveled through the desk, I felt something sharp with chains. I tugged at it and a cross and a little note fell out of the desk. Right after I read the note, I ran out of the classroom. I heard the teacher's cry after me but I ignored her. I felt my classmates' eyes following me. *Screw them. They don't care about Duo*
Dear Heero,I shall die for it is better that way for you. You cannot take care of me for you would lose everything. Even though it was a lie, I believed that you were my friend and that you loved me. That helped me survive, Heero and I want to thank you for that. I hope you would keep my cross. Father Maxwell gave it to me before he died. I want you to keep it. That's what he would have told me to do. I want you to remember me when you wear it. I'll always love you, Heero. Good Bye my koi.
Duo
No one was at the funeral. There were nuns and priests; they had nothing to do with Duo. He came all by himself and left all by himself. No one cared. They all wanted him dead. Now that he's dead, are they satisfied? I clutched at the golden crucifix. The edge tore into my flesh. Blood started to drip down the cross. *I wish I could have told you how much I loved you, too. I'm sorry, Duo. I'm so weak. It's my entire fault that you're dead. I could have stopped you. I could have given you what you wanted; I should have admitted the truth. Why did I back out like that? I'm such a coward. I know nothing about honor. It was all my fault.* I felt something sliding down my cheek. I lifted my hand to my cheek to feel what it was. It was my first tear.
* Boys don't cry, Heero.
Boys don't cry...*
=End of Boys Don't Cry=
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