February 2000
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Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me...
Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
It's that time of the year again. Valentine's Day; they call it a lover's day. It is like the day the Cowherd reunites with the Weaving girl over the Milky Way. I look up at the sky, at the Milky Way. The gap between us is wider than the Milky Way and there can be no magpies to flock together to form a bridge for us to meet.
I hate to admit it, but I miss you. Trowa has Quatre, even that grouchy Heero has Duo to warm his bed, to keep him sane during this war. But me………I'm alone…..and lonely.
Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me
Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
I remember you were a great warrior. But pride and self-esteem wouldn't let me admit that then. My male chauvinism just wouldn't accept females as warriors. I scoffed at the idea of females fighting a war alongside their male counterparts. I scorned the thought of females on the battlefields. Their rightful places should be in the house, looking after the family. I mocked your conviction of your being the reincarnation of Nataku. You were just a woman.
Both of us were strong-headed. We were fighting all the time. I had never really appreciated you or cherished our marriage until the day you sacrificed yourself to defend the colony. Mortally wounded in battle, you died in my arms. I remembered holding you tightly to me as you slowly slipped away from my life. Men shed blood, not tears. But that day I cried.
There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
The things you never show
You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
Chorus:
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
As I lay the white chrysanthemums under your gravestone, I make a vow. I will win the war for you. I won't let you die in vain. Lonely as I am, you are always in my heart. My wife, my greatest warrior, Long Meiran. I look up at the Milky Way in the sky again. If only….if only I could meet you like the Cowherd and the Weaving girl.
I miss you, Meiran.
~~~The End~~~
Minky