10-Jul-2000/18-Jul-2000
Purity by Krystal
*Unfinished Series*
Artist: Jessica Riddle
Album; Key Of A Minor
Title: Even Angels Fall
Don't own the song. Don't own the boys. But the deranged fic is mine... *grins* possibly yours for the putting up on websites?
Warnings: Semi-dark, I just thought it was sweet. Don't worry I love happy endings too!!!! *winks*
My very first song-fic thingy!!! C and C are always more than welcome!!!! But ya gotta be kind. *grins*
Truthfully? Anything!!!!!! I'd love ta hear from ya. I
don't care if all ya wanna talk about is the weather....or just wine at me. I get bored so easily these day's *I wish*
*grins* I hope you enjoy!
You found hope, you found faith.
Fire had been painted across the sky.
Found how fast she could take it away...
The wisps of cloud taking upon themselves the appearance of violent brushstrokes.
Found true love, but lost your heart.
Deep roses and violets had seemingly consumed the sea. The colors so deep in intensity, bathing the entirety of the tiny bathroom into flames. Devastating to the point that he couldn't help but watch.
Now you don't know who you are
Unbeknownst to him-- they all were. Every single one of the five pilots held captivated, sharing the stolen breath of a midsummer's dusk.
She made it easy, made it free. .
Duo sat in awe as the vibrancy danced about the mountains.
Made you hurt till you couldn't see.
Earth was such a beautiful place. He didn't deserve to see this. To watch something so... so taken for granted... so spectacular within its simplicity.
Sometimes it stops, sometimes it flows.
Duo let out a shallow, shaky breath.
But baby, that is how love goes
Closing his eyes, for it was just too much.
You will fly and you will crawl.
He fought to regain control, or at least some semblance of the emotion but it just wouldn't come to such a weak heart.
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you've lost it all.
// The decency of blood trailing down pale arms.
His only release.
Sanctuary.
Penance. //
God knows even angels fall.
It's a secret, that no one tells.
Duo stifled a groan as the sound of footsteps echoed through the tiny hallway. With his luck one of the guys would be destined to walk in now, and see.
One day it's heaven one day it's hell.
Tightly closing his eyes, and biting down hard upon his lips Duo repositioned the tiny shred of glass.
And it's no fairy tale, take it from me.
A brief reflection of the mountains bathing in color once more before its reflection came to settle upon Duo's wrist. Calmly he swept it across pale, slick flesh. More blood quickly welling.
That's the way it's supposed to be.
The crimson against white-- painting its own portrayal of life.
You will fly and you will crawl.
Its tiny rivulets streaking down his arms.
God knows even angels fall.
But it wasn't enough. He must see more blood, give more.
No such thing as you've lost it all.
It was his fault, if he wouldn't have been so damned stupid! How could he let this happen?! He should have been there to protect them.
God knows even angels fall.
You laugh, you cry, no one knows why,
But where had he been hiding? Far enough away to not even... Duo stopped, tears already bathing his face.
But oh, the thrill of it all
He knew that there was nothing to be done.
You're on the ride,
But why couldn't he stop this? Why the fear? The constant fear? He couldn't kill himself he'd promised to many that he would not take his own life. He'd seen to many others take their lives and the destruction they'd left behind.
You might as well, open your eyes.
Duo didn't want any of that. He didn't want anyone to know he was hurting. That's why he was here in the shower, with the radio turned up so high-- No one could hear Duo's muffled sobs. And with the black robe that Duo favored. . . . No-one would ever have to view the carnage he'd inflicted upon himself.
You will fly and you will crawl.
Eyeing himself in the mirror across the bathroom, Duo still felt sick.
God knows even angels fall.
He'd set the small piece of reflecting glass on the edge of the tub, promising not to use it again.
No such thing as you've lost it all.
As Duo attempted to suck more air into his starving lungs-- the fear, the anguish, the misery it was already winning again.
God knows even angels fall.
He was too weak to stop it. Even with a spider web of angry scarlet slashes marring his body Duo didn't feel any better.
Even angels fall.
With the edge of the broken mirror the blood just came to easily. Duo needed more, something, anything to take this pain away. There was a deep throbbing inside his chest, a pounding so intense it echoed throughout his body leaving him lightheaded.
He couldn't think clearly. He wanted off all the drugs . . .. All the medicines the doctors had proclaimed would do wonders for him. None of it was working, not doing a god damned thing, and it was bullshit. Duo should be able to handle himself but noo.... What does he see himself doing now?
Even angels fall.
Like a little infant he slashes at his wrists again and again small cuts causing such minimal damage that Duo can hardly feel the sting. He doesn't understand. How can they bleed so when he feels nothing?
What was happening to him?! Blood streaming from his palms Duo tried to cry out. Scream out for help... The words lodged themselves in his throat chocking him... till he was forced to turn away in utter disgust.
You will fly and you will crawl.
God knows even angels fall.
No such thing as you've lost it all.
God knows even angels fall.
Even angels fall.
Even angels fall.
End
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Krystal
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