Urk. Last part. Obviously saving the ML from premature death of hating me. Disclaimers and the likes. Zechs got to die here, Wufei is being very nice, and I try to make Relena nice for one (I mean she goes around very bitchy in the fictions that I have read so far and deserves some respect in one matter) Alternate Universe, and the likes. part 3 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Zechs didn't know how long had he been asleep after being a silent sidewatcher of the whole incident. He woke up in the darkness, night had fell and everyone had left. He still couldn't move his body, let alone have a normal breathing. Each intake of breath renewed pain, each exhale made it even worse. He felt something heavy beside him, something warm, something. or. someone. Then the someone stirred. "Milliard, you're awake?" Zechs tried to look to the direction of the voice, but it hurts when he tried to turn. "Treize." A soft warm hand travelled his cheeks. "Milliard, Milliard, look what they have done." his voice carried sadness. "I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to make it for the invasion." "Its all right. I'm happy that you're fine" Zechs gritted his teeth in the dark. He felt like he's going to be burning sarcasm. He didn't understand why, but it sure help him feel better. /Really? You care whether I'm fine, I think not./ "Then? Most of the mechs are under heavy repair, if I am not mistaken there'll only be three quarters as much fleet." "There's Tallgeese. we could use that." /Tallgeese?/ Zechs mused. "but how? I am not well enough to..." His sentence was cut short. "Greian will, he's capable enough to use that." Upon hearing Greian's name, Zechs turned into a deep frown. "Why? Why must it be him. Anyone, please, anyone but him." He could feel Treize hesitating. /Please Treize, could you just save something of mine from him?/ "I know how you feel about him, Zechs, I really do/ his fingers trailed long touches across his face, Zechs felt that soothing, but there's tension building in his heart too. "But we need all we've got, and Tallgeese too." "But why must it be him? Why can't it be you?" Zechs spurted out, "Can't you just save my only piece of sanity left?!" Treize felt anger building inside him. Tension of war, tension of loosing his second in command, tension of loosing his friend. "You are selfish sometimes Zechs!" and Treize marched out from the room. Regretting what he had said as he closed the door and heard the strangled sob. But Treize knew what he had said can never be taken back. He walked away. *** "damn you! isn't this enough?" he asked. not to a particular somebody, just random, maybe questioning himself. The pain of his injuries flow like torrents and burning as flames. Then he heard the door clicked open. A voice came. "Zechs?" /Wufei?/ Then he felt the Chinese pilot's hand on his upturned palm. "Why are you here, Wufei?" "I am worried." "You? Worried? Why do you have to?" his words full of sarcasm, maybe sadness. "I -am- worried. I always admire you, your skill, and how you put up with Treize. If I was in your shoes I wouldn't be able to handle all things, Treize or those bastards. I am worried." Zechs smiled a sad smile. "you don't have a reason to worry about me, I am fine, I'll recover, I've been childish. Go back now. Treize needed you." "How about you?" there's a tinge of concern. "I'll be fine, I have my own friend." Wufei knew that there is no use of him saying anything else, he gave a squeeze of reassurance. Zechs nodded softly. As the door shut close, Zechs felt a trickle left his eyes. /I'll be fine, I have my own friend. I have my Treize in my heart./ Zechs reached out to the nightstand beside him and reached for his service gun, lying cold. *** /I don't have to worry Joy comes in the morning Trouble they don't last always For there's a friend who loves Who will wipe my tears And if my heart is broken Just lift my hands and say/ I'll be fine, really. This is just a nightmare. Something that will go with the rising sun. I will wake up with the morning, and all of this will disappear, like the darkness swept by light. I have my Treize in my heart, I have my friend, my lover. His soothing words, his gentle touch, countless nights that belong only to them, nothing had changed. all these are but a dream /Oh I know that I can make it I know that I can stand No matter what may come my way My life is in your hands/ I know if I opened my eyes, I will see the world bright and cheerful, I know when I'm awake, I'll be able to see Treize smiling back at me. These things that happened to me, are but a dream. When morning comes, I'll be fine... But, this is not a dream, is it? The rejection from Treize. Wufei. Greian. The rape. They are all real aren't they? But there's Treize in my heart, that's what keeping me alive, what has kept me going, through all the pain and suffering. He owns my life, I am too blindly attached to him. Foolish me, if I am not attached to him, I would be half as sad. But I am, I love him. Even though it hurts. /With him I know I can make it With him I know I can stand No matter what may come my way My life is in your hands/ Treize in my heart. Echoes of my childhood. My life's treasure. The things that kept me going. Of Strawberries and roses, of childhood laughters, of sweets and candies, chocolates and teas. The brook, the stream, the sunshine. I am living in the world of dreams. But that kept me alive, kept my sanity, kept me going. Treize, the precious treasure of my heart. /So when the test and trials They seemed to get me down And all my friends and loved ones are nowhere to be found remember there's a friend who loves who will wipe the tears away and if my heart is broken just lift my hands and say/ I could still feel the beastly thrust between my legs, I could feel the blade went through my shoulder, I could feel me crying out for anyone, but none came. Treize? Relena? Noin? Where are all of you? My cries were all bounced back by those white washed walls, I am all alone with no one to answer. But I have Treize in my heart. I have my love in my heart. Memories that kept me going, isn't that what's left for me. But still that is enough. /My life is in your hands My life is in your hands/ But Treize, dearest one, I could feel you drifting apart. Those memories that held me close in one piece are falling apart. This pain is larger and more painful than what I can sustain. You, and now Tallgeese, and then Relena will grow older and forget about me. Life had taken all of you away from me. And all my wonderings, why am I not dead. Am I that sinful that even hell rejected me? But I can't stand the pain now. My body won't move, it hurts. My heart beats but it hurts, my eyes, my shoulder, everything. Wouldn't this time the best time to die? Before I strayed too far into insanity? Treize, my life is yours, you know? When you walked away you took my life with you. I am but an empty shell. Sayonara, Treize. May you be kept well. I sincerely hope of your happiness. Relena, my beautiful little sister. Noin, my friend... Please forgive me, I beg you all. *** Minutes pass... and the bullet gently embraced life. The echoes travelled through the heavy air, reaching to the ends of the building. The air carried the sound of death. A harsh tribute to a fighter, who had lost his battle with Death. Figures scrambled into the room, only to find the souless body, lying there, finally founding bliss. Then the skies starts pouring rain. Midnight rain. One that fascinated Zechs. But he was no more. *end I think thats it. My very first fic. and some loose ends too! I don't even know, until I finished this that I still have some loose ends to tie up. But no one cared anyway. But its fun for me. I thought this will generate noise, but I guess, its to bad to be true. ~VIDLC/JF