Songfic-Peccavi

Otay.... I added! Waa in the middle of studyig the ever boring JavaScript (I just wonder why they do it for modules and courses) Anyway, I thought I am going to have a break, type sth out and... Hey its my birthday!!! (i'm seventeeennnnn!!!!)

Second fic... and I changed sth anyway..

Anyway, I don't know whether this is OOC or IC, i've told you the reason before... so no flames on this matter (please?) but on other matter (ummm.. lemme think) and also c&c (waa)

So... the song is Peccavi (latin for: I have sinned), this is actually a religious song... but.. ah can't help it. The performers are a band called 'Fished Out' (with the ICY Orchestra), from their debut album 'Crazy, Sexy Jesus'. The fic is around: what if Treize died and Zechs missed him sooo much, and then Treize is a ghost (I got this inspiration from somewhere.. the one where Ghost Treize borrowed Zechs' body to have loads of beer)... I think that's Whizbang's

And thanks to Whizbang for the help (*muaaah* hugs)

/../ song lyrics

Warning: before you go on, check your ID cards whether you are 18 or over. if you are not, move away!!! and this is Zechs/Treize thingy, a hint of Yaoi... if you are irritated by the above factors, move away, too!

Peccavi
performed by 'Fished Out' (and ICYO)
1999 Pie Jesu Records
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/I would love to hear your voice
I would love to see your smile around me/

Aaa... Do you know how much I missed you? I've never told you before, haven't I? When you think I loved you no more... I do, I still do... We are all playing games, but I don't think I can take it anymore. I am not as good a player as you think.

/I would love to feel your touch
The touch that made my skin crawl and scream/

You know... I'd do anything to be with you again... anything, even if I have to give myself to the devil, even if I have to be damned for eternity... I'd give anything to feel your touch once more, even only once, I'd do anything for that.

/Oh... but... Peccavi, Peccavi, Dei!/

Oh, but I have sinned, I have sinned, My Lord. Letting you go with anguish in your heart, with hatred in your eyes. Haven't even said my last goodbye. You left hating me, you left hurting... but I love you... still... that time, now, and always... I loved you, but I have sinned.

/Peccavi! Peccavi!
I am sorry! please?
Take me back, make me whole again
Dei! Dei!/

Standing here in front of the cold gravestone of yours, in its resplendor and glory, I can't understand. But all the regrets are just words that can't bring you back to life.

I have sinned, My Lord... how can I ever repay that... please, reach out to me, for I am at lost. No... I don't know what to do... I don't know what I should do... Please, reach out to me and show me what to do.. anything, anything to get you back to me...

Forgive me, Love me... I love you

/I would love to feel your warmth
All of your mercy and love that you pour for me/

/Endless stream of tears and blood
Anguish, agony, you shed for me/

I still can hear myself saying those harsh words to you, still could even *hear* your world crumbling down upon you... "I can't be your friend any longer" [1]
Those cursed words that flowed from my lips... It sounded so easy to me and to you... I think that speeds up your death, adding on to those work stress that I could never seem to pry away from you... no matter how much I tried.

Lady Une told me... do you know she pleaded to me to get back to you? to be back beside you... She told me how you got drunk almost everyday, how you got hurt almost every minute... A walking corpse, that's what she said about you...

But I am selfish as well, Treize. Very. I am sorry...

/But I have sinned (echo:Peccavi, Peccavi, Dei)
Peccavi, Peccavi, Dei (echo: but I have sinned)/

I need you badly, don't you know that? You're like a drug, an addiction. I am dead without you... but I just doesn't seem to notice, not until you're no longer here, in this world.

Do you know I always follow your appearance in public, all coverage with you in it, every single sidewards glances where you are around, not to mention a crazy thought of stalking you... I need you, I love you, you know?

Can you come back here to me? Sit here beside me? Stretch your arms for me? I know I am wrong, I've done all those things needed to hurt you and not caring about your feelings...

/I am sorry, I am sorry,
Please take me back, take me back to your heart/

Sometimes though, I could feel you so near that I could even hear you breathing... But when I turned around, you are not there... When I tried to forget you, you seemed to be very near to me... But when I tried to figure things out, you seemed to be far away...

Please Treize, don't torture me this way... I love you... But I believe you have every right for your revenge (if it can be called that way)...

But, do anything to me... torture me, insult me, break me... anything. But stay, even for a minute, even for a heartbeat... Please stay... I love you...

/Please be here, quench my thirst and longing,
I am sorry, please be here/

Like today, Treize... as I traced my fingers on your cold granite head stone, just the way you like me do it onto your body... which every contour and every part of it I knew, I could here you on and off, I could feel you on and off.

I don't want to turn, I don't want to think... I like it this way...
It is painful and sweet... I am sorry...

Then I could see you there... frowning... Hallucination? Treize? here?I rubbed my eyes, but you are there. Your sad eyes staring back at me, those eyes... those deep pools of feelings.

I want the time to stop, I want it to be eternity, here face to face.
I am drinking the sight of you and can never get enough...

But then you disappeared, before I could say those three words 'I am Sorry' and 'I love you'.

/Oh how I need you, how I hunger for you
How I wanted you, but I... Have... Sinned/

So here I am, alone again... Of all things, of my fault. I could see pain written in your eyes... Oh, I know, how much hurt you must have, how much anger you must have.

/Peccavi, Peccavi, Peccavi, Dei
Miserere Nobis/

I am sorry, Please have mercy on me...

~owari!

note:
[1] I dunno the real translation... but... well , anyone mind to tell me?
Oh yes by the way, I have another songfic in mind, I think this one is of Treize... based on the song by the same artist as the above.. the song is called 'Contented Just to Know (We Exist on the Same Earth)'

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