18-Apr-2001
To Okami, for actually answering my challenge. This is the reward I promised you (though I think you got my name wrong, deshou? ^_^;;;; ).
Title: No Reason
Author: Hime D.
Notes:
This was inspired by WK's OVA. Too bad it got different ending. *smirks* The song was also taken from the OVA.
I got a lot of trouble in translating the lyrics since apparently, after I checked the video-ya-san I frequently visit, the lyrics I got from the internet have some mistakes in it. Unfortunately it doesn't affect the translation _that_ much, but still.... -_-;;;; And don't mind if the lyrics sound confusing. I'm no licensed translator.
Ah, a litle advice. I know I usually skip the lyrics when I was reading a songfic, but for this one, I suggest you don't skip it. It won't make any sense, I tell you. At least skipping it will create confusion.
Four hours of typing.... Phew. Not bad. *yawns*
Category: AU
Rating: G
Archive: GW Addiction and HeeroML Archive only.
//...// in the mind
[...] song lyrics
[To the moonlight night that shines in uncertainty]
//Sometimes I wonder if I am still human. Almost everyday I kill, I destroy, and I kill. Is that what a human supposed to do? To wipe the existence of one and another, regardless of anything.//
//It's not that I want this. Never. The last thing I was is to see blood in my hands, again. No, there were never real blood there, almost never, actually. But I know that every time I go with my partner, somebody will die.//
//I will be the one to kill.//
//So tell me, am I still human?//
[Asking,]
Heero looked up from his laptop. "What did you say?"
Without looking back at his friend, Duo repeated his words. "When do you think this mission will be over?"
['Till where it is darkness]
After a long pause, the boy replied. "It's not for us to decide."
"That's why I was asking you!" He sat up from the bed he was laying at. "When do _you_ think this mission, this war will be over? This can't run forever, right? Someday people will get tired of the war and then maybe they'll just settle for peace and we'll be free! Right, Heero?"
['Till when it is now]
Heero did not say anything. Instead he continued typing his report. Duo just stared at his back before he lay back at the bed.
Sensing his friend's sudden distress, Heero stopped typing and turned back at his friend. He was going to tell him to stop thinking about it, but he canceled it when he saw his friend's eyes. He paused in mid air and after a while, he chose to turn back to his laptop and continued typing his report. However, this time, his mind was no longer at his work.
Duo stared at his friend's back for a while before he closed his eyes and settled himself for sleep. He needed the sleep, since he had a mission to do the next day. And to make the stinging sensation in his eyes go away. Tears were the last thing he wanted right now. He would accomplish his mission and everything would be okay.
He hoped so.
//Right? Heero....//
[People who speak to the far passed wind]
"We have to abort the mission. There are children in that damn base!"
"02 is right, Sir. We can't just kill the children. We need to delay this mission until the children are out of the base."
"Objection declined. Proceed with the mission."
"Are you a fucking moron?! There's no way I'm going to blow up those children along with the base!!"
"I warn you, 02, 04. You are to destroy that base right now."
"NO FUCKING WAY!!"
[They don't even know the reason]
Heero read the new message in silence.
When he was done, he slowly rose from his seat and opened a drawer. Picking out a gun, he filled in its bullets. He gave it another check and put it in the holster on his waist. Grabbing his jacket, he went out of his room.
But not before giving the picture of the five of them on Duo's table one last look.
[Words are all dancing high]
"There must be something wrong in this! They would never betray us like that! I refuse to believe this... this... nonsense!!"
"Shut up, Wufei."
[Swallowed by the holy darkness]
"I don't want to believe this either, but this is what happened. Duo and Quatre have abandoned their mission. They know the consequences. We know the consequences."
Wufei looked up at the taller boy in doubt.
"...I don't want to fight a friend."
Trowa stated in a tone colder than usual. "A mission is a mission. We were friends because of the mission. Once they betrayed the mission...."
[Even the stars have their faces paled]
"...They are no longer our friends."
[They stop shining (involuntarily)]
"This is not right! We are friends! We shouldn't fight each other!"
"Save your words to the other world, Winner."
Shen Long's staff stabbed Sandrock's armor.
[Just words given by an old friend]
Sandrock's hand was gnawing at Shen Long's abdomen, clawing at the cockpit, at its pilot. The other hand was holding Heavyarms's hand. The red machine struggles, trying to break free by spilling its ammunitions to the Gundam.
The Deathscythe who could only use its booster dashed toward the three machines, trying to save the pilot in the broken Gundam.
"Quatre!"
"Duo... run..."
The boy's voice was weak over the radio.
"I'm not leaving you behind!"
"You'll have to.... Now run!"
"Quatre!"
With its last strength, Sandrock kicked the black Gundam, sending him toward the Earth, out to a save distance.
And the self-destruct button was pressed.
[Sparks slightly]
"QUATREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
[Turns into space dust]
The bushes were tearing at his clothes. The leaves and trunks were cutting on his skin.
His lungs were burning. His legs were hurting. His head was spinning. He wanted to stop. But he had to run. He was a prey, and his hunter was chasing after him. He couldn't stop or he would die.
Die in the hands of his own bestfriend.
"Check mate."
He halted at his steps as Heero appeared before him. Whether it was a shortcut or the boy simply ran faster than him, Duo did not know. All he knew that his hand instinctively reached for the gun is his pocket.
But Heero already withdrew his own gun and aimed.
The sound of gunshot rang through the forest.
[Every wind from the far other world]
Duo's hands were trembling. The weight of the gun in his hand seemed to be too much for him. His knees were weak, trembling. He sagged to the ground, unable to sustain his own weight. The gun dropped beside him.
He looked up, staring back at those cool blue eyes of his friend's in disbelief.
"Heero...."
The boy stared back at him. Before Duo realized what had really happened, Heero did something that he would never have expected him to do.
He smiled.
A real smile.
And again, before Duo's brain managed to register it, Heero collapsed on the ground.
He did not move again.
[Nobody even knows the reason]
Duo crawled to his friend's side. "Heero?" he tried to call.
There was no answer.
He cradled Heero's head in his lap, desperately trying to wake him up. "Heero? Open your eyes. Come on, Heero. If you're trying to fake death on me, then you're totally a lousy actor."
He cradled the boy's head in his embrace, afraid of letting him go, ignoring the fact that blood was pooling underneath them. Not his blood. Heero's.
"Wake up, Heero. You still have to kill me, remember? You told me that you'd never fail your mission. You haven't killed me yet, so wake up, Heero! Wake up! WAKE UP!!!"
//Don't die on me....//
The smell of blood was stabbing at his nostrils.
[The memory of puzzled love reaches the sky in sadness]
And he recalled everything in the past. To the time they were still together.
Trowa's cool composure and the slight smile that appeared every time they managed to find an excuse to visit his sister at the circus. Wufei's smirk and snide remarks that he knew were meant to cheer him up. Quatre's laughter and encouragement that brightened even the worst situation. Heero's smile that he first and would never again saw.
He would never see them again, because they were dead.
Because he killed them, with his own blood soaked hands.
[The future tears on your chest]
And he screamed.
[Even the smile will shatter... (won't it?)]
"So they are all dead but one."
"Yes."
"Well done, Doctor J."
"Anytime."
"Remind me to do something about the last one later."
"You just can't let anyone disrupt the incoming peace treaty, can you?"
"Of course. Even though it forces me to kill what could have been my only allies."
"It's all for the peace."
"For the peace..."
The End
C&Cs are very welcome. Flames are also welcomed. But please, don't kill me because I wrote another deathfic. *groans*
Hime D.
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