11 July 2001
Title: Unconditional Gifts Part 2/38 (high angst)
Book 3 of "The Gifts" Arc
Author: Enigma
Written: May-July, 2001
Overall Rating: NC-17
Overall Pairings: (3+5) (1x2/2x1) (?x5)NCS
Category: DARK Angst Yaoi/Shonen ai Friendship
Rape-Memories Sap Lime AU-OOC
Enigma Story Categories: G-Boys High Adventure! & Gundam Nightmares
Archive: GW Addiction, Sweet&Sweet
Warnings: DARK, angst, yaoi/shonen ai, friendship, remembrance of non-consensual sex, sap, lime, language, violence, fear, AU-OOC
Disclaimers: I don't own any of the Gundam Wing Universe. I'm not making any money off this story. It's written out of love, so please don't sue me.
Notes: The hidden gifts that Wufei discovered brought him a sense of joy at the time, but now shadows of a dark and painful past return and his world begins to shatter. Can Trowa find the strength to truly love him unconditionally and somehow keep the Chinese teen from being irrevocably destroyed?
//thoughts//
"Dear god, what have I done?" Trowa asked breathlessly, emerald eyes wide with self-hatred and fear.
The suddenness of Wufei's reaction had stunned Trowa who had fallen backwards onto their bed in shock. This was where he still lay when Heero burst into the room through the open door.
"Barton, where's Chang?" Heero demanded, gun in hand safety in place, but ready at a moment's notice. The naked teen on the bed sat up to stare helplessly at his friend, terror and guilt overwhelming him even as his hands automatically drew a blanket up from the floor and over his lap.
"I don't know," Trowa answered in shock and then seemed to fold in on himself. Shoulders slumping and head bowed, he moaned, "Oh god, Heero, what have I done?"
"I have no idea, Trowa," Heero remarked as he tucked the pistol away in the waistband of his shorts.
Duo came flying into the room demanding, "What the *fuck* happened in here?!?"
Violet eyes narrowed in fury as the American pilot noted the clothing scattered about the room and the fact that Trowa was clearly naked on a bed that was as disturbed as Duo and Heero's was on a regular basis. He automatically assumed that the slender teen had attempted to force himself sexually on Wufei and Duo felt red hot fury race through his veins in response.
Heero turned to him, "That's what I'm trying to find out, Duo, but you'd better find Wufei before this gets even farther out of hand."
"I'm on it," Duo nodded, eyes sparkling with anger and concern, "I'll find him no matter where he's gone and Trowa, this damned well better not be what it looks like or you're a deadman!"
Trowa dropped his head into his hands and trembled as Duo stormed back out of the room.
Heero remained silent at this pronouncement. He felt his lover's angry threat was unnecessary, the boy on the bed was clearly in no condition to put up a fight.
Quatre approached with caution, uncertain of whether or not he should even offer his assistance at this point. "Heero? Trowa? Whatâ?|?" his voice trailed off as he realized that he was asking the same questions they were asking themselves.
The blond teen stepped into the room and made a decision to remain as neutral as possible and simply stood at the end of the bed, watching both of the brunettes as they regarded one another.
Heero had no doubts as to what had been occurring in the bedroom yet felt obligated to ask carefully, "Trowa? Were you and Wufei having sex or what?"
Quatre's eyes widened at this blatant questioning of the other couple's behavior but he remained silent.
"I thought so," Trowa said in a choked voice, "I've never tried to do that with anyone, I must've made a mistake, I must'veâ?|"
The slender teen's shoulders shook with barely controlled emotions as the look of utter fear on Wufei's face came to mind. The smaller boy had regarded him with such terror that Trowa suddenly became convinced that whatever he had done it was unforgivable.
As the idea that he had just driven away the only soul that he had ever loved flowed over him, Trowa began to tremble even harder.
"Take it easy, Trowa, calm down or we aren't going to be able to make sense of this." Heero warned, suddenly confident that Duo's fears were entirely unwarranted.
"Why did Fei scream? Why?" Trowa asked, looking up at Heero in agony. "I, well, I thought he wanted this as much as I did. He was fine and thenâ?|" His breath caught in his throat as his head dropped down again and he sobbed softly, "oh god, what have I done?"
"You weren't trying to force him, were you," Heero finally stated in
gentler voice. "I can tell by the look in your eyes, Trowa, but you've got to calm down or we can't help Wufei and that's what we need to do, isn't it?"
The Japanese teen saw the look of pain slowly being replaced by one of sorrow as Trowa lifted tear-filled eyes to him, nodding his agreement as Trowa no longer trusted his voice.
Heero finally moved forward to sit on the bed beside his friend. Uncertainly, he reached his arms out and drew the trembling teen into his arms.
"oh god, heero," Trowa sobbed under his breath, "what have I done to my poor love? oh god, what have I done?"
"Easy, Trowa, come on, take it easy," Heero soothed. "Duo'll find Wufei and then we can get to the bottom of this, all right?"
Trowa nodded mutely once more and let his head sink down onto Heero's bare shoulder where he cried long and hard.
Feeling totally lost and uncertain how else to help, Quatre quietly left the room. He felt the other two needed the privacy and it occurred to him that if Wufei had actually left the beach house entirely, he might need to help Duo search for their missing friend.
To be continued
Full Author's Notes to Run at Conclusion.
Please be advised: Parts 1 - 3 will be posted together and End Notes for this posting run will be at the end of Part 3.
Enigma
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