"I have to leave"
"Why?" You never stay long enough, Trowa my love.
"Things that I have to check out." I love you, but I'm torn. Will what we had during the war survive?
"I love you. Tell Catherine that I said 'hi'."
"I'm not going back to the circus." You do not want to know where I'm going. I'm returning to the nightmare that was my life as Nanashi.
"Oh. I'll check on her then. Don't worry about her. No matter what happens, you know she's an honorary Winner sister. Mine all got together and voted on it. She's adopted into the family, forever."
"Thank you. I think. Have you informed her of that?" Quatre, she doesn't need your protection. But you do that with people. You try to protect them.
"She laughed. She was happy that her family is growing. She adopted all of us whenever we went there to stay, even when she was mad at us for taking you away from her."
"Quatre.I'm sorry." You don't know how much I have to leave, to protect you, even though I want to stay. I can't understand why we do this, this odd dance of ours. You let me go, hoping that I will come back to you, not knowing if I'll just walk out on you like I walked into you life.
"About what?" Trowa I love you. I know you need to still figure that out because of all the confusion that was in our relationship from the beginning. And you don't think that I should love you because a group of sadists used you. It wasn't your fault. And I understand if you can't let me get that close, but try to let me in.
"That I can't stay with you." It hurts me. I love you. I trust you. I'm just too frightened to stay with you. You overwhelm me just being there.
"I know. You'll come back. At least that much is true. And do you notice that the time away is shorter now? You are coming back to me, so I will be happy.
End Part 6
Christine
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