October 15, 2002
Title: MDL: Descending into Hell
Author: Christine
E-mail: Devilkitty@speakeasy.net
Pairing:HowardxDuo, ZechsxTreize
Rating: NC-17
Warnings:Torture, NCS, Drug abuse. Weird and semi confusing name usage.
Duo woke up and involuntarily whimpered. He felt awful and his head hurt. The last thing that he remembered was taking a walk through the neighborhood he was in, to clear his head and get out of the kitchen for a little while. He had thrown himself into his 'work' on his home colony. He was a cook in a kitchen for one of the halfway houses that had sprung up after the war. He knew that it wasn't the smartest thing to do, but he liked being around kids and wandering aimlessly wasn't his style. So he decided to work for a couple of months, while he was waiting for T-chan. He liked where he had been staying, in one the series of orphanages that were supported by the KW Foundation. The Foundation had poured money into all the L2 colonies after the war to start to clean up the place by jump starting the economy. The gangs were still there and areas still hadn't seen the light of day yet, but it was a start.
He had done too much running and hiding lately, now he was just here on L2 trying to lay to rest some of the ghosts in his past. The kids had been great to be with and they had brought back a lot of happy memories for him. He had made his peace with his past and planned for a future with T-chan. Duo finally felt that he wasn't a disappointment to either Sister Helen or Father Maxwell. Not because of the things that he had done, but because he hadn't been really at peace with himself and his past until now. Duo didn't care where he and T-chan were or what they were doing, so long as everyone that they loved had been safe. He even had gotten used to the weird dreams that he was having still. Epyon whispering to him didn't seem that awful now that he and T-chan were together again. He still had bad nights when his nightmares woke him up, but the nights weren't filled with the mind numbing depression that he had felt in the past.
Duo groaned at the pain in his head and tried to sit up. He panicked a little when he realized that he was strapped down to a bed, in what seemed to be the back of some room in some place. The light hurt his eyes a little and he wondered what had happened. He had been so careful about not letting anyone see the things that Howard had marked him with. But someone must have found out that he was Howard's 'property', because he was securely trussed and he didn't think that it was just a lark by a bunch of kids. The gangs had been quiet lately and he should have known that it was just the lull before the storm. Now he was out in the middle of a fucking hurricane and he was so screwed. Duo shifted trying to get loose, to get free, do something besides lie there like a side of meat.
"That who you lookin' for?" Duo heard a deep voice ask. "He was kinda hard to miss, little with a long braid. It took a while to find him, but we nabbed him. Aside from a few bruises, we didn't hurt him. Can see why someone wants him, he's pretty."
Duo didn't hear the reply, but he felt someone walk up to him and unbutton his shirt a little, exposing the collar that he was wearing. He tried to open his eyes more so that he could see better, but everything was blurry and the light made his head ache more. A grunted "It's him." was all he heard before he felt the prick of a needle in his arm through his shirt. He felt he tears starting to fall down his face, because he was scared that he was going back to Howard and maybe that nut Mirialdo, and happy that he had no idea where Treize was so that he couldn't tell either of them where he was, no matter what they did to him. The last thing he heard was the sound the door closing to the room that he was in and a couple of soft 'pop's off in the distance, after what seemed like a loud argument. The familiar smell of blood and cordite gradually drifted towards him and he wondered briefly who had won the argument before he passed out again.
Duo woke up on and off, relieved that no one was around, but too tired to get up and run. He felt the needle in his arm again, so he knew that Howard's people had won and was keeping him under so that he would be too out of it to do anything to them, like escape or kill them. During his semi-lucid moments he just waited to see what would happen and hoped that someone would notice that he was gone and go through his stuff and try to contact Une or someone before it was too late. He just wondered what Howard was going to do to him, but he really didn't care. It was like the drugs were divorcing him from everything that mattered.
Maria knocked on Quatre's office door loudly, ignoring the dirty looks that she was getting from the secretary. The woman didn't like the fact that she had walked right past her without even asking if Quatre was busy. She knew that he wasn't and she really didn't want to go through the charade of listening to this woman say that he was. Unless something had come up in the last half hour, he was alone. Maria knew that he wasn't happy when she went to see him at work, but this was more important then breaking into his office to talk to him about adult stuff. Quatre and the rest of them loved her, she knew that and she also knew that Quatre felt uneasy about her, along with Heero. Was it because she had managed to lead their lovers astray during that stupid rebellion? Or was it just guilt that she represented something that got out of control for the both of them during and after the war, Duo's sanity and his relationship with T-chan.
She had seen how angry they had all been when T-chan and Duo decided to go their separate ways and they all had acted like the two of them shouldn't be on their own at all. It wasn't the problems that they had with those bastards that were after T-chan and Duo; it was the fact that deep down inside none of them thought that Duo or T-chan was sane enough to cross the street on their own. She had to talk to Quatre while he was in his office, because there wasn't any privacy in the three ring circus that Quatre called a home and it was also a pain to try and get his attention there. At any one time there could be about fifty people trying to eat dinner, kids and grown ups along with anyone else that wandered in. She wondered how the staff managed to put up with them and swore that it was Quatre's charm alone that kept the place functioning smoothly.
At the faint, "Enter," Maria pushed open the door and walked across the huge expanse of carpet. It was intimidating and she swallowed the butterflies in her stomach, suddenly uneasy at the thought of disturbing Quatre in his office. However, this was serious business and if he didn't like it, tough. That Quatre didn't like dealing with her was something that he was just going to have to get over.
"Quatre, I have a small problem," Maria announced. She knew that traditional Arabic business practices required that she should talk for a few minutes, but she lacked the patience to follow that now. She was too scared to bother with small talk. She also was amazed that butterflies hadn't streamed out of her mouth she was so nervous,
Quatre sighed and pushed his chair back. He wondered what a girl that led a rebellion against the Earth would think of as a small problem. He really didn't want to know. Just like he didn't want to know what she had done to involve Wufei, Heero and Trowa in her schemes for finding out where Mirialdo and Howard had disappeared to on Earth. He slept much better at night not knowing what was going on. All he cared about was that it was semi-legal and no one was going to get hurt. He wanted to find those bastards as much as Maria did, because the short glimpse that he had caught of Duo's body still haunted his dreams.
"I lost contact with T-chan," Maria told him bluntly.
"I know that," Quatre told her, confused why she was telling him this now. "They both disappeared a while ago."
Maria shook her head, "No. He was sending me postcards. Places that he had been, notes to tell me what he was doing, because he was trying to be my friend. Duo was staying in one place, but I knew where that was, so I didn't hear from him, except to check in so I wouldn't worry. Once a week, he'd drop me a note from a public terminal in code, just so that I knew that he was fine. His last note is overdue. I waited a day in case there was a perfectly reasonable explanation, but I also haven't heard from T-chan recently, so I think that there is trouble."
Quatre frowned, "Why didn't you tell any of us that this was going on?"
Maria sighed, "I thought that you knew about where T-chan was. Wufei checked on T-chan once for me. I thought that he told you that. I also thought that you knew that I was getting mail from T-chan and e-mail from Duo."
"He hadn't. He might have mentioned it in passing and I missed it though," Quatre admitted. "No one on my staff told me about mail or your email though."
Maria growled in frustration; didn't any of these people talk to each other? What did they do in that big bed at after they did that adult stuff? Roll over and pass out as a group?
"That is not the problem now. Now the problem is that Duo and T-chan are missing and we never got a trace on Howard and Mirialdo. They have both dropped out of sight as far as anyone can tell. Heero and Trowa may have more information about that, so you can ask them about that tonight."
Quatre nodded, "And what do you want from me?"
"Permission to start searching on Earth for T-chan, using more of your resources then we have been and starting to throw the weight of Winner Industries around. Une's hands are kind of tied because she's supposed to behave herself as the head of the Preventers. Duo was on L2, and it might be harder to trace him. I know that Duo would want us to go after T-chan first, though."
"No." Quatre said firmly.
Maria pouted at him when he said that.
Quatre couldn't call that expression anything else but a pout. Did she learn that here or from Duo? He knew that the Dekim Barton wouldn't have let her get away with doing that to him. It made him almost say yes to what she wanted though. He compromised because if he let her out of his sight, Duo would kill him. "I'll ask Wufei and Heero, since Wufei had been there before. You are not traipsing around the Universe because the other two are lost. You are still vulnerable to anything that those two madmen want to do."
Maria nodded, because she could have guessed that she wasn't going to be let out of his sight too soon. The only reason that she managed to get out of the family compound was that she let Rashid and Abdul come with her, as opposed to getting someone else to drive her down here. Both of them were cooling their heels in the receptionist's area. They agreed with her that she didn't think that someone was going to penetrate all the security that was around Quatre, so she could walk a whole ten feet on her own to the door.
"And I will send someone to look for Duo, maybe Trowa and Rashid. I know that he isn't angry with either one of them." Quatre added.
Maria shrugged and went over to the desk to give Quatre a hug, he needed one if he sounded that tired and bitter about Duo. "Duo isn't mad at you. Or Wufei and Heero, even for that stupid thing that they tried with him."
"I think that he's still very angry with me and I understand why, Maria," Quatre said gently, "And I don't blame him, what I did to him during the war because of his relationship with your father was unforgivable. He may heal in time and forgive me, but then again he may not. I will understand if he never does. I am just glad that he still trusts me with you. You are the most important thing in his life."
"How much do you know about the place where T-chan is?" Quatre asked Wufei later on that night.
"It's a dive, so no one that had ever known the man would think that he was working there," Wufei replied. "I had no idea whatever possessed T-chan even like that place. Then again, that might be why he was working in that bar, because no one would look for him in a place like that."
"Find out as much as you can and then take Heero with you to check the place out. T-chan is no longer in contact with Maria. Neither is Duo and she is worried about them. I recommend that you do not get in touch with either Une or Relena until you have some sort of information, since I do not know if they are being watched." Quatre said, looking at the former pilots.
Wufei nodded and got up pack for the both of them. Heero could get any more information that they needed, he had a feeling that time was of the essence for this operation. Both of them disappearing and Howard's organization being disbanded set up some very big warning bells in his mind. Something was going on and he felt that Duo and T-chan were in trouble.
Heero was finishing packing for the both of them when Wufei walked into their room, "You're worried."
Heero went up and hugged him, wanting to make sure that Wufei was fine. He knew that it was silly, but he couldn't help it.
"They aren't the two sanest people that we know," Heero told him.
"They know that. At least T-chan does. They needed to be on their own for a while though and then they would have gone back to us or to Une and Relena. I asked T-chan about it when I saw him last." Wufei told him.
"How was he?" Heero asked curiously. Wufei hadn't mentioned much about his visit to Treize, besides to say that he seemed fine.
"Charming still," Wufei admitted. "He was so angry about what we had done to Duo, though it got him away from Mirialdo." #He was so honest about things that it hurt. I don't know how much it cost him to admit to me how terrible Mirialdo had been with him. I know that I could have never have found the courage to admit that any of that.# "We talked a lot about Duo and...and how I killed Treize Khushrenada. It was uncomfortable at times, but I'm glad that he was willing to talk to me at least."
"If we had known..." Heero started and then stopped. "We should have known. Duo was so different and it wasn't because we had all changed when we were apart. That he didn't like people touching him was a classic sign that he had been raped. I had known about the scars, but I didn't think..."
Wufei smiled ruefully. "I don't think that any of us would have thought about that, it wasn't something that we had to live with when we were growing up, like he had to."
"I always thought that he was an idiot...well maybe not an idiot, but that something was wrong with him because of the way that he had acted, before. He was so happy and I couldn't understand why." Heero said. #I hope that we can see that again in him. I know he's not the same person that was back then, but I want to see he free of all those things that haunt him.#
"Given the way that he grew up and the way that he had been treated by his controller, I think that Duo was happy with us then. He was able to eat enough and not worry about anyone hurting him." Wufei told him quietly. He couldn't imagine what Duo had been through growing up, that such a simple things having enough food to eat would make someone so joyful about everything else in life.
"Or killing him because they found out that he wasn't exactly what they wanted," Heero whispered.
If Duo's training had been anything like his own...he could understand the immense joy that Duo must have had in the beginning that he survived. He felt like that for the first couple of months. He had been so scared in the beginning that J would have done something to eliminate him because of all the screw ups that happened that first day. It had taken him hours, if not days to realize that J and Barton couldn't get to him and that he was finally safe. He thought guiltily that Duo was the one that had helped him realize that when he told him that he would take care of him and his Gundam after his failed suicide attempt at the hospital.
Wufei couldn't say anything about that, because he had never known that fear that someone would never want him. That he would be gotten rid of because he wasn't up to someone else's standards. He had always been the best and brightest. He just held Heero and hoped that could make up for all the pain that had been in his life before this. Heero wrapped his arms around Wufei and buried his face in his neck, grateful for his silent sympathy.
Howard was thrilled when he was told that Duo had been found on L2 and sent someone to pick him up. Since he thought that he couldn't get off planet without that bitch Une stopping him, he sent someone to pick Duo up. Cosimo was one of the numerous relatives who were part of the Giordano family. He had decided to get out of the business while the getting was good and sold most of his businesses to them, with the provision that he and Mirialdo were under their protection. Mirialdo was overjoyed to take the occasional enforcer contract with them to work out his frustrations and things were looking good all around.
He figured that Duo would
eventually show up back on the colony that he fled from on his ship. It was
about the only other place that he could call home, since he couldn't or wouldn't
go back to the estate in the
He was going to enjoy Duo, not stoned out of his mind and willing to screw anything that walked, but he would be trying to get to know him again before he made him choose what he wanted from Howard and tell him what he was going to do for him, even if he wasn't in the business any more. The Giordano family would take advantage of all of those skills that G had taught him. He knew also enough people that would love to hire out Duo for his hacking abilities as well as the wonderful way that he killed someone. Also he would have his little assassin in his bed for the rest of his life.
Howard finished looking around the room that he had prepared for Duo and himself. There was enough room for him to get the little work that he had to do and he wouldn't be more then ten feet away from Duo at any time. He wasn't going to make the same mistake that he made last time and leave Duo alone ever again until he was sure that Duo was under his control.
Howard heard a car pull up and smiled. Duo was back with him at last, hopefully in a better mental state after his months of freedom. He might not be that scary little doll any more. Howard waited patiently as Duo was half walked, half dragged into his room. When his 'escort' let go of Duo, he sank to the floor, like a puppet whose strings had been cut.
"He's very out of it, sir." Cosimo apologized, "but I was afraid that if the drugs wore off too soon, he would do something that was not good. He was a bit upset when I first saw him. So I was overdosing him a little, just to make sure." #If he was asleep, I didn't have those hurt eyes looking at me and wondering where the hell I was taking him. Or feel guilty that I was dragging an innocent kid into this nuthouse.#
Howard waved off the man and went over to check Duo out. Duo looked at him with dazed eyes and asked in slurred voice, "How long?"
"A couple of days, Angel," Howard said, slowly stroking his back. "And don't worry about a thing ...what I got you on will keep you out of it enough to keep me happy, but aware of what's going on. No lost time, but if you're bad or make me angry...I'm starting you back on what I had you on before."
"Nooo..." Duo mumbled. He didn't want a repeat of days of lost time and fucking Howard like an animal. He just had to hold on until someone noticed that he was gone, hopefully Howard wouldn't start working on him right away.
"Then behave, my Angel. Just don't mess with me and I won't mess with you." Howard promised him.
"Behave..." Duo mumbled, unsure if he was agreeing with Howard or just repeating what he told him, it was so hard to think right now, "but you know what I said before still holds...I'll kill you."
"We'll discuss that later Angel, now I'm going to punish you for running away. That was bad. I know that you did it for a reason, but I still have to show you who's in charge here, my little Angel."
Duo continued to stare at him, blinking his eyes groggily. He wasn't restrained; there was just one guy with Howard, so why wasn't he trying to rip his throat out? What was Howard giving him this time, to control him if he wasn't tripping him out on the junk that he feeding him in England. He must have asked this question aloud because Howard just smiled a little and patted him on the head before explaining things to him. Why the fuck was he calling him Angel?
"Angel...what I have been dosing you with leaves you a little less 'hostile' towards the world. I know that you want to kill me; you just have a hard time getting up the ambition or even the will to do so. Even if you do kill me, if you can't get away, Mirialdo is always with me now. I just want to tell you that and still he isn't happy with you either, because of what you did with his Treize."
"Safe...he's safe...no touch..." Duo mumbled, grinning a little. T-chan wasn't near the psycho; he was hidden someplace and out of reach of these two nuts. He didn't care about himself, so long as T-chan or anyone else that they could threaten him with wasn't near any of these people.
"No...we have him too," Howard told him, not bothering to keep the satisfaction out of his voice. Treize had been a little harder to find, but they had nabbed him in the end. At least he had managed to stop Mirialdo from making his punishment too extreme, physically at least. But still Treize was a bit 'damaged' by his lover's reaction to his running away on him. He wasn't the man that he had been before he was foolish enough to run from Mirialdo. Did Treize really think that he was going to be able to leave a man that so obsessed with him?
He wasn't prepared for Duo's reaction to his announcement however, which was to curl up in little ball, rocking back and forth, whining "Noo...noo...nooo."
"Did you think that you could hide either one of you?" Howard asked calmly, as he went down on his knees beside him, "I own you, that's what this means." Howard tugged lightly at Duo's collar, through his shirt and then leaned down and fondled his genitals,"and that what those mean too."
Duo ignored him, continuing to rock back and forth. T-chan was back in the hands of Mirialdo Peacecraft. They should have remained on L3, hidden in that little apartment. But he had been stupid and wanted T-chan to be free, be his own person and now he was back in the hands of that sicko. He should have been happy with the fucking illusion that was their life there and T-chan would be safe. But he wanted something that was stupid, like to know if they could survive without one another and to know if they really loved one another. Well, T-chan was paying for it now. He hated himself, may be he should just let Howard keep him around as a little stoned toy, since he was stupid enough off the drugs to deserve it.
Howard was annoyed that Duo had reacted like he did at his announcement. Yeah, he had loved the guy and Mirialdo was a psycho who had abused Duo and Treize, but he didn't think that Duo would lose it like he did. He slapped his face lightly and then again, harder when Duo's eyes refused to focus on him, even after he stopped rocking. The second slap seemed to calm Duo down enough to look at him.
"Clothes off Angel," Howard ordered him. "Until you earn them again, you're prancing around here in the buff. That's going to hurt you more then anything else that I can think of. Don't worry about someone taking advantage of you, that's one of the perks to me owning your ass is no one else will touch it, unless I tell them too."
Duo stared at him, not wanting to give in that easily, even though he had made a tiny movement to start undressing. Howard smiled when he saw his reaction. Duo was more then a little susceptible to his orders on this drug, which would make taming him a lot easier. He would just wear Duo down, a little at a time before making him his possession, his lover and his pet. His loyal assassin, if he needed that from him. Howard let his tone get hard and repeated his order. "I said strip, Angel. It's not like I haven't seen it before."
Duo started unbuttoning his shirt slowly. He was very reluctant to give into whatever Howard was going to do to him. He had to fight this, fight the urge to start moaning again and falling to pieces, because he had to be strong to get T-chan out of here, no matter what. Besides, no matter how many times T-chan had told he was beautiful, he never really believed him. He still felt he was ugly, like the duckling in that children's tale. He would turn into a swan eventually, right now he still felt little and odd looking. That was the difference that a couple of months with T-chan had made, he knew that the ugly part would be over eventually, so that it wasn't suffocating him any more. But now, he was going to have to put up with the ugly part again to get to the better part, freedom and a life with T-chan.
Duo kept his eyes on the floor and slowly stripped off his clothes. Not that he minded getting out of his clothes, really, since he had been living in them for a couple of days and they were a bit ripe. They and he needed a bath, but he would rather be running around in those stinky things then be naked in front of anyone. Howard patted his head and stood up, satisfied that he was going to behave for him. Duo stayed down on the floor, hugging his knees and trying not to shiver too much.
"You can take a shower Angel. I forgot that L2 and water wasn't something that went together." Howard told him, wondering how Duo managed to stand the smell of those clothes.
Duo stood up slowly and shuffled to the door that he thought was the bathroom. He barely heard Howard talking to the bastard that had dragged him down here. Duo stared blankly at the bathroom fixtures for a while before turning them on and starting his shower, because he really couldn't remember how to work a shower. God he was so out of it on whatever Howard was dosing him on. Didn't the old goat realize that drugs weren't the answer to every problem that you had? Shit now that he thought of it, that was the first thing that Howard did to him almost when he had caught him on the PeaceMillion all those years ago. He was mechanically washing his hair and wondering what the hell he was going to do next, because it was so hard to think and to plan anything, when he heard Howard get into the shower with him.
"Might as well have some fun in here, before we get to the serious screwing around," he announced, ignoring Duo's little shudder. He didn't think that Duo was up to any fooling around, but laying the down the ground rules would be a good idea. The first rule was that Duo had no choice in anything that was happening around here. He was his pet and whatever else Howard wanted him to be. If Howard wanted to screw with him, he would. The second rule was that Howard did not wrong, no matter what he wanted to do to Duo. Duo was his because he wasn't able to take care of himself anymore.
"What do you want?" Duo asked dully, "Why do you keep calling me Angel?"
Howard looked down and frowned. Angel had gained some weight and had grown a little as far as he could tell, but that voice was the voice of the doll that he hated, from the first time that he had him. He fought back the impulse to let Angel alone, at least for tonight. He had to keep him off balance and guessing until he had tamed him. Letting Angel think would be the worst thing for him right now and he just should learn to accept that Howard was going to take care of him and the price of that care was giving him access to his body. It wasn't like he didn't like it or was a virgin, so he couldn't understand what the problem was for Angel. It was just sex, an activity to be enjoyed between two or more people.
"I do have the urge to say surprise me, but I think that your imagination went out the window with your will. You aren't Duo anymore," Howard explained in a cold voice, "I'm calling you Angel. I own you now and I'm naming you that. If you don't like it, tough."
"I...I'll do what you tell me to." Duo said quietly. He wasn't going to argue about a name. It was just something that other people used to identify you. Changing your name didn't change who you are. He was still the person that had fallen in love with T-chan and there was nothing that Howard could do to change that. He didn't love or even like Howard any more and he was going to escape with T-chan as soon as he could get the two of them out of here safely.
Howard shook his head. He wasn't fooled by the act, because Duo wasn't a pushover to give in that easily to a name change. Shit he was going to have to stop thinking of Duo as Duo. If he couldn't remember it, how was he going to convince Duo his name was Angel. "Giving into me tonight isn't getting your clothes back. No matter what, you are going to be in my bed, doing what I want you to do."
"I know." Duo said, just standing there, getting cleaned up forgotten, since this wasn't a nightmare that he could wake up from, this was his life from now on.
He did know that Howard was going to try and remake him into what he wanted, but he didn't care, since whatever he was being given was isolating him from his emotions and was making him numb to anything that was happening. Or was what was making him numb was the combination of his guilt and shock that he was back with Howard and T-chan was with the sicko. You would never know looking at him, that inside he was screaming and he didn't think that he could or would stop. He was starting to put up the walls again. Trying to hide who he was and fool people again and hope that there was nothing that was going to hurt him. Trying to survive whatever sick games Howard and Mirialdo were playing with the two of them. Why couldn't they have just left them alone?
"Finished getting cleaned up," Howard said. "Because of what I'm giving you now, you don't get any of the other fun drugs that I was giving you. You are going to remember your stay with me and it will show you that you shouldn't fight me, that I can be good for you."
Duo looked up and frowned, wondering why he had said that. What did Howard mean that he had to remember this? He knew no matter what the bastard did to him, he couldn't forget that he left him tied to a bed like a fucking pet. Howard thought he was one, since he collared him like a dog and thought that he was some sort of brainless doll that would bend over for him when he wanted him. Told him that he owned him...shit he couldn't go through this again. And what the fuck did they do to T-chan? If he was unharmed he would have been out of this place so fast. Had he been fitted with a collar like his? Did Mirialdo do something permanent to him so that he couldn't run? He had to find out fast so that he knew what he had to work with to get them out of there and someplace safe. He knew that he couldn't count on either one of their captors leaving them alone again.
Howard shook his head. "How much do you remember of your little stay with me before?"
"Not much." Duo reluctantly admitted after thinking about it for a second. #I'm glad. The bits that I remembered...I was an animal. I can't believe I did half the crap I did with you.#
"You told me that you hated your memories, that you liked it when you were out of it, even though you where fantastic in bed on those drugs. Hell, you could have killed me with exhaustion more then anything."
"I don't remember any of it, really." Duo repeated woodenly. #I don't want to, so I haven't tried to. You spent enough time fucking me over in my dreams these last few months so that I don't want to remember what you did to me.#
"That's okay Angel, I believe you." Howard reassured him.
Duo shrugged and started to soap Howard. Howard looked down at him and smiled. "What are you doing?" #I didn't think that the stuff I you on would make you this cooperative this early in the game.#
"You're wet and I got to have sex with you. I might as well get you clean before it happens." Duo explained to him.
"You make it sound like a lot of fun Angel." Howard complained. #I'm just another body to him. A perverted john that he'll let fuck him, so that he can survive. That's the first thing I am going to train out of him!#
He wanted to keep reminding Duo/Angel that he was his now. A new name was a start. He'd rather his little pet had a more positive attitude about this experience, but one couldn't have everything that one wanted...yet. If Angel didn't perk up on his own there were plenty of things that he could do to him for an attitude readjustment, from drugs to a few sessions with Mirialdo. He had Angel now and he was never letting him go, especially when he was finally his Angel!
"For you..." Duo's voice trailed off, trying to make Howard understand what was going through his mind and that he couldn't be what he wanted, the happy kid that Howard lusted after all these years. "I told you, I'd follow your orders. I didn't say that I'd enjoy it."
"Ang..." Howard looked at Angel, who was starting to gently wash his cock and balls, then the rest of his body. He was angry that Angel was fighting him, could he understand that he could be good for him? He bit back a sigh of pleasure at Duo's soft touches he was making when he was getting everything clean. Howard fought the impulse to make Angel suck on his hardening cock, fucking that wonderful, talented mouth of his. He could wait until Angel was finished cleaning himself for that, even though it looked like Angel was almost through in here.
"I'm sleeping with you?" Duo asked softly, staring at his feet as he rinsed the shampoo out of his hair.
"Yeah...I told you that earlier and I told you that back in England. No matter what...you're in my bed at night." Howard repeated patiently. He was giving Angel enough dope to knock out an elephant, so he should expect a few strange off topic questions.
"I...the drugs..." Duo sighed. "I have nightmares sometimes. Just want to tell you that."
"You didn't before," Howard stated.
He halfway expected it though. He didn't really want to know why Angel had nightmares, because he figured that if he had been wandering around like a zombie the first time that he taken him, life had gotten too much for him to handle. Hell, he vaguely remembered some nights on the PeaceMillion when Angel had wandered around all night; apparently not wanting to go back to sleep and that was before G turned him into his personal little killer because he refused to put out for him. Nightmares were to be expected with Angel, so he didn't mind that. What he had Angel on was making him very tractable and willing to tell him anything. So Angel would tell him everything that he didn't want him to know about Duo, all the strange bits of information that were floating through his head and this should be interesting to see what was in Angel/Duo's mind. Half of him was excited about that and the other half was scared shitless about what his little angel was going to tell him with all the crap that had gone down in his life. He had to know though because that was how he was going to turn Duo into his Angel, by breaking him of all the nasty habits and fears that Duo had. The first one was going to be Duo's negative attitude towards sex.
Duo snorted. "I was so stoned you were lucky that I was breathing, according to you. But ask T-chan..." Duo hiccupped and hugged himself. "Don't ask him...I don't want the sicko to hurt him, because of me. He does it often enough without a reason."
Howard was pleased at the spark of spirit that Angel showed, but he also wasn't going to put up with the passive resistance crap from him about sex. Angel was going to enjoy his time with him, no matter what. He did last time, so he would this time. That was the big difference between Duo and Angel even if they were the same person. Duo wasn't very cooperative and Angel would always follow his wishes, no matter what, but above all anything having to do with sex.
"You through?" he growled.
Duo nodded and shut off the water. He shivered a little, his skin pebbling because he was suddenly cold. He didn't know if he could go through with it, having sex with Howard. He shook himself. It wasn't like he had a choice and he was damn lucky that he wasn't on his knees now. He groped blindly for a towel, hoping the he didn't start screaming. He couldn't fake enjoying sex, not with the crap that was in his system and he should be honest with Howard about that, because it would be easier in the long run, while the guy had him. Duo wondered if he was just giving in or what was happening to him. Was he becoming what Howard wanted him to be, his good little boy, already? Actually Howard wanted him to be a whore in bed and anything else he could squeeze out of him. A minion that he thought he could trust and probably a killer again. God he didn't want to go through that again! He thought that he had escaped and he was putting his life back together, he didn't want this. People touching him, treating him like he was something that they owned, that he didn't have any feelings, because they thought that they had that right because they were bigger and stronger then he was.
"Howard..."Duo started in a small voice, hating that he was pleading with the older man. "Don't make me...enjoy it. Not right away. I..."
"Angel..." Howard started in a hard tone. He wasn't going to put up with any crap. He tried being nice last time and it backfired. All right leaving him tied to the bed wasn't his best idea, but he knew that Angel would bolt if he got a chance, so he didn't want to make it easier on him to escape. He never thought that Treize would be the one that untied him though and run off from the man that he had loved. Duo/Angel was fucking wonderful or wonderfully fucking before depending on how you looked at it, so what was his problem now with getting down and dirty with him?
"I don't remember you, when you had me before, because of the drugs. I remember the last night...but before that...well, it had been a while, since before the Libra. So...I can't, not really. And I don't want to fake it, not that I really can, being a guy." Duo tried to explain.
He had no idea why he was telling any of this to Howard. But he knew that he wasn't going to be able to repeat the sexual performances that so endeared him to the older man. Maybe, hopefully, he would let him have a couple of days before he started working on him, let him get used to the idea of what he was going to have to do with him. It was a futile hope, but he was hanging on to his sanity right now by his fingertips, so hope was about all he had left right now.
"That's not an explanation." Howard said coldly. Angel was going to enjoy being his pet and he was such a hot little sex kitten before, so why was he acting like an uptight, straight virgin now?
Duo looked into Howard's eyes, his own sad and distant, remembering things that he didn't want to. "I don't remember England. I remember being tortured and raped by Mirialdo, including a gang rape that he ordered when he was torturing me. So don't expect me to open my legs, get excited and smile. I'll follow your directions, I'll let you fuck me because I no choice, but please don't make me enjoy it." #Be thankful I'm not curled up in a corner and screaming because I am so scared right now. I just want me and T-chan to be left alone and have something that vaguely resembles a normal life, is that too much to ask God?#
"All that time alone and you and Treize didn't do anything?" Howard asked suspiciously. Weeks alone with each other and they weren't fucking up a storm? Treize would be all over Angel to thank him for helping him get away from Mirialdo, so he didn't believe that nothing happened the time that they were gone.
Duo shook his head. "Not a lot. But...we weren't really ready for anything. Just once..."
Duo fell silent and then smiled at the memory he had of their last weekend together. Howard felt an unexpected stab of jealousy. Angel's eyes were still distant, but happier. Obviously remembering what they did together was making him look more alive then he had seen him in a while. He was almost the little stowaway that he had brought to his bed, as payment for passage off that hellhole of a colony when he had found him. It wasn't a look that he was ever going to get, not for a while, not from Angel the way that he was. Angel looked happier about a memory with Treize, more then he ever did with him, stoned or sober. He knew deep inside, no matter what happened between the two of them, Angel would never be that happy over a memory with him. That pissed him off more then he thought that it would. He would only get that look when he made Duo into his Angel. Now he didn't think that it would be as easy as he thought it was going to be in the beginning.
"You act like you need another dose Angel. Hold out your arm for the shot and then bed." Howard growled angrily at him.
Duo looked at Howard with loathing, even as he was involuntarily holding out his arm to him, to get that shot from him, because he told him to that. He just automatically followed his orders, which was so disgusting to him. As he watched the needle sink into his arm, he couldn't hold back the question, even though it was wrong of him to ask it, Howard could hurt him for being so...nastily blunt. "You happy that the only way you can have me, is when I'm stoned?"
Howard looked up sharply at the question. Angel was fighting the effects of the drugs or building up tolerance faster then he thought that he would. It was good that he had most of G's notes on Angel. Angel had been a find for that pervert and for himself in more ways then one. Angel's body chemistry was almost as screwed up as Yuy's. Between the plagues that had swept L2 and a few natural oddities in his system, Angel was a prize that OZ would have killed for. He wondered if Treize ever realized what he had in bed with him, besides a talented little piece of ass.
"Being drugged makes it easier on both of us and it helps me make you mine easier, you know the routine. G taught you how to control someone when he was training you. He also taught you how someone could be broken with the right combination of drugs and pain." #Even though you're Treize's more than anything now. You still love him, and I guess that you always will, even after you are with me. I just hope that you're not too upset at what Mirialdo's done to him and that you'll realize that he's gone for good even if the body is still moving. Mirialdo took a few hints from me on how to control Treize when he realized that violence or pain wasn't anything that he was afraid of anymore. Not that he ever was, or else Treize wouldn't have taken all the crap that he did from Mirialdo before he booked with you.#
Duo shook his head to clear it. The drug worked really was fast, what Howard was giving him. The glass wall was up again between him and the world. No cares, no ambition, just the numbness again. "Could I brush my hair before we...whatever...we are going to be doing?"
"You can kid, there's a brush for you out there. But I'm going to brush it, because I don't trust you with anything that could be used as a weapon. I'm letting you keep your hair because I like it."
Duo followed Howard out, not caring what happened. Howard motioned him to sit on the bed and started to carefully brush out Duo's hair, He debated braiding it back, but decided against it. Duo looked good with it loose and he could try and strangle him with his braid. Duo frowned when Howard stopped brushing his hair and he started rebraiding his hair, thinking that Howard didn't know how to do it.
"Don't," Howard ordered him.
Duo stopped immediately and looked at him in confusion. "I just wanted to get it out of the way." he explained.
"I like it loose."
"I have to earn the braid too?" Duo asked ruefully. Not that he cared one way or the other right now, he was more worried about keeping Howard 'happy' with what little brains he had left. Just get whatever he had to do with Howard over with as fast as possible without turning into a headcase about it.
"You have to earn it," Howard told him. "Hell I should shave your head because you did kill at least one person that I know of with it, but considering how many different ways you know how to kill people, it doesn't really matter."
Duo sat looking at his hands and asked in a small voice, "What do you want me to do?" He didn't want his head shaved, because his hair was the only thing that had stayed with him from the beginning.
"Show me what you can do...treat me good, Angel. Treat me to a small slice of your heaven." Howard ordered him.
Duo shuddered and then knelt in front of Howard, and took his slowly hardening penis in his mouth, not really doing anything, but gently sucking on it and letting it grow in his mouth. Howard groaned at the sensations that he was feeling, Duo was as good as he remembered. As Howard grew, Duo slowly started to hum deep in his throat, causing Howard to lean heavily on him as he sucked his penis deeper and deeper into his throat. After a few minutes Howard thrust deeply into him. Duo choked a little as he swallowed what seemed to be an endless amount of Howard's seed. He continued licking and swallowing down everything until Howard was clean and then leaned back on his heels, waiting for his next order and trying not to throw up.
Howard looked down at that submissively bowed head and wondered what the hell was going through it. The only sign that Angel was upset or nervous about anything was the way that he had folded his clenched hands on his lap. They were so tight that the knuckles were white.
"I didn't say that you were through Angel," Howard managed to growl before half collapsing on the bed. "You treated me good, but show me what you can do to yourself."
"Howard?" Duo asked in confusion. #I don't want to! I don't like you or this, just do me and let me sleep.#
"Play with yourself, show me what turns you on. Amuse me."
Duo flushed bright red, as he shook his head frantically.
Howard frowned. Angel should be following his orders better then this or was there a problem with the formula. Or was this one thing that Angel was shy about that made him fight the drugs that he had him on? He wouldn't have thought that, not with his being on the streets for a long as he had been; he must have had to do this for a john at least once. "You don't have a choice. Either you perform for me or I'm going to have Cosimo feel you up for my amusement."
Duo slowly touched himself, trying not to shake. He didn't want to 'perform' for Howard, but he didn't want someone else doing this to him. He closed his eyes to block out Howard staring at him and tried to get himself hard, so that whatever Howard wanted would be done and he would be left alone. He lightly tugged at his nipple rings, knowing that it was the fastest way to get it started for him. His nipples hardened instantly and he felt himself get start to get hard. That should please Howard and show him that he was cooperating.
"Don't close your eyes," Howard ordered. "And get used to this...I own you, I own you enjoying yourself with me or with anyone that I tell you to be with."
Duo opened them and slowly started to stoke himself, trying to trick himself into thinking that it was T-chan touching him and not himself. He got out of the habit of doing this, after being in Shinigami all that time alone. There was no place for the semen to go when he came, it'd just have floated around and not wasn't like you can really play with yourself in a suit anyway. After the war, when he got back to Earth, he had been too depressed. There had been occasional flashes of desire in the Sank Kingdom, but nothing really that he acted upon. With T-chan, he had wanted to make love to him, but the rings and scars made him feel ugly, unlovable and so unworthy of anything like that. He let T-chan wear him down and love him, before he ran again. He had enjoyed that gentle, caring seduction of T-chan's, but it scared him also, so he bolted. Now they were both in deep trouble and he was with this pervert again.
He had managed to get himself semi-erect when the nausea hit, he ran to the bathroom and was glad that he made it to the toilet before loosing everything in his stomach, not that there was much besides bile and Howard's semen. After throwing up, he curled up on the floor, trying not to cry and shivering so hard he must have looked like he was made of Jell-o.
"If I hadn't seen it, I wouldn't have believed it," Howard said quietly. He got a glass of water and handed it to Angel. Duo sat up a little and rinsed out his mouth, spiting the water into the toilet before flushing it.
Duo smiled bitterly. "I...it's been a while, like I told you. Even for that. And...I feel ugly." He felt like he was giving a report to someone about something that had happened a long time ago, like he wasn't talking about himself. He closed his eyes, drained from throwing up and the drugs and tried to curl up into a smaller ball. "Please...please just do what you want...I...I can't...don't...please..." he hated begging, but he couldn't or didn't want to deal with enjoying himself with his rapist.
Howard frowned as he watched Angel's eyes flutter shut. Sleepiness was one of the side effects that he had to worry about, if he overdosed him. He had been told that Angel was getting a lot of this the last few days. The second shot probably was overkill, but he wanted to make sure of his control, for the first night. He had to show Angel who was in charge from the beginning. That was the mistake that he made last time with him. He didn't have any control over Angel at all; it had been the drugs that were controlling Angel so he had run before he got the chance to really claim him. It was starting to be like that now, but he was going to start weaning Angel off this stuff in a few days and he was not going to leave him alone again.
He wondered if it was the drug or Angel's reaction to his orders that was causing him to throw up. He didn't really believe that they hadn't done anything while they were alone. Christ, he was surprised to hear that Treize hadn't been all over Angel, just out of gratitude for getting him away from Mirialdo. But why did Angel think that he was ugly? The scars? What he had done to him with those piercings? Hell it had been for his own good, Angel did need a keeper and Une and Relena had failed at that task. Angel was marked as his and would be protected because of those piercings. And he didn't think that Treize was a good choice either, not after what Miri had done to him after he had gotten him back.
"On the bed Angel, but don't think that you're off the hook. I'm just going to up the ante." #You're mine. I want you to know that. I don't care if you don't want to enjoy me, I want to hear you panting, see you writhe underneath me, you were so hot, so sexy in England I could have fucked you forever.#
Duo stood up and walked to the bed. He had an idea what his punishment was going to be and he wasn't looking forward to it. He couldn't fight Howard forever, though. It was too draining on him and he needed all the energy that he had to fight this stupid drug. He had to pick his battles and Duo knew that he was going to lose this one. He had to bend, so that Howard didn't break him.
"Up on all fours...and stretch yourself for me."
"Lube?" Duo asked tonelessly. He wasn't going to fight this, he'd get through it, and it wasn't like he hadn't done weird stuff before for a John. Faster he was done, the faster Howard would leave him alone. He just hated giving in this easily, he wanted to fight this, fight being here, but he couldn't, some part of him wanted to please Howard, follow any order that the man gave him, no matter how distasteful or disgusting he found it and that part was stronger to his tired mind.
"Bedside table," Howard informed him
Duo found it and dripped a little of the oil on his hands, then smeared it on his opening. Howard grinned at the sight of Angel gently stroking his crack and fondling his balls before starting to finger fuck himself. He had worked his way up to two fingers when he felt Howard staring to caress his body. Duo faltered at his touch, freezing up for a second.
"Find it. I want to hear you scream." Howard ordered.
Duo searched and then hit his prostrate, involuntarily moaning when he felt the sparks that it caused across his nerve endings. He couldn't work up a scream yet.
"That's good. I see that got you hard. Play with your cock for me, pet." Howard growled at him.
Duo started running his other hand across the head of his weeping penis, trying to ignore the rings there. He moaned in his throat as he continually jabbed at the spot that was going to drive him over the edge and satisfy Howard. He fought to ignore the feel Howard's hands, caressing him and the running commentary that he was making about his technique. That wasn't helping the situation.
He worked three fingers into himself, just hoping to get it over with when he felt Howard grab his hand and gently work his fingers out of his ass.
"You got me going again with your little show." Howard informed him, before ramming his cock into his ass.
Duo took a deep breath and fought not to scream. Even prepared, it had hurt when Howard thrust into him and he heard Howard grunt with pleasure as he waited for Duo to adjust to him, to relax and unfreeze from the position he was in.
After minute of listening to Angel pant hoarsely, Howard reached around and started running his hand up and down Angel's softened cock, thrusting in time with his hips. He couldn't wait any longer; Angel was going to enjoy this with him if it killed him.
"You will like this." Howard promised him, glad that he just heard a strangled moan/sob from Angel, who just buried his head into the pillow. It sounded like he had hit pay dirt with that stroke and continued to thrust at that spot, glad that Angel had taken the edge off a bit with his blow job earlier. After what seemed like and endless time, Angel whimpered and came, covering his hand in his seed. Angel's tightening around his cock sent him over the edge and he thrust deep once, twice before holding still and emptying himself into Angel. Howard gingerly withdrew from Angel, frowning at the slight traces of blood that he saw on his cock and collapsed on the bed. Angel curled up in a ball, shivering uncontrollably, not caring that he seemed to be lying in the wet spot.
"Damn it Angel! It's not like you haven't done it before." Howard growled. He was worried though. A stoned Angel was preferable to someone that he was going to have to wring any cooperation out of or a hysterical one. He was worried about this reaction, but figured if he left his pet mostly alone for the next couple of days, it might work itself out.
"Under the covers," he ordered Duo, wanting him to get warm.
He didn't want to leave Angel alone for it to fix itself, he wanted to bury himself in that sweet body nightly, listening to him scream in pleasure and since he was in charge that was what he was going to do, Angel was just going to learn to like sex again. He knew that he was getting as bad as Mirialdo with his attitude towards Angel, but it had angered him that the boy had run, rather then stay with him. Now that he had gotten him back, he was going to make sure Angel knew whose property he was. Duo was Howard's little Angel of Death and the sooner that he realized that, the better it would be for both of them. Giving him the name Angel was just the first step to showing him how much he owned him body and soon, soul.
Duo mechanically pulled the covers over his shivering body, after thinking about it for a second. Howard hauled him in closer, surprised that Duo lashed out when he felt someone touch him. He grabbed his flailing arms and held him close, running his hands all over him.
"Not again..." Duo whimpered involuntarily, feeling Howard's still hard cock pressing against him.
"Angel...I'm not that bad, am I?" Howard asked wryly. #Hell, I know that he didn't enjoy that. I hurt him if there was blood. No wonder he doesn't want to be touched. I am as bad as Mirialdo. But he needs to know his place and fucking him into submission is the fastest and most enjoyable way for me. He's just gonna have to learn to like it again, be that hot little sex kitten that he was for me before.#
"You're...good." Duo whispered hoarsely, just wanting Howard to leave him alone. "I just can't...don't make me...I want to be left alone. I wanted..."
"Not in the cards," Howard informed him bluntly. "Just give me a wrist. I'm fastening you to the bed. It's probably not needed because of the other things on you; I just want to make sure that you aren't going to do something stupid. Your little collar has a number of nice electronic gadgets in it. If you had stayed on Earth I could have found you a lot faster. I also installed something that if you wander too far away, you will be shocked. Too far is beyond the backyard or the walkway to the house and the side garden. The further away, the more juice you get, until you pass out or come back. Pain stops when you come back into a safe zone. The transmitters are all over the outside of the house. You wouldn't get far before you dropped from the pain and then you will have to deal with whatever I want to punish you with, once you came to again."
Duo watched numbly as Howard fastened one of his bracelets to a chain that was attached to the bed. Howard stroked his hair for a second, before turning off the lights and going to sleep. Duo spent the rest of the night running his free hand up and down the chain that kept him in bed, before finally falling asleep, exhausted and frightened about what these two madmen had done to his lover.
Duo woke up the next morning when he felt Howard get out of bed. He alert instantly and watched Howard with wary eyes, worried about what was going to happen until the man disappeared into the bathroom. He listened to his jailor take a shower and worried the chain that was fastened to his bracelet some more. He couldn't find a way of prying it out of the bed, not without some sort of tools, since his fingernails were not going to cut it. But it kept him occupied until Howard was ready for him. He wondered what was going to happen next, another session in the sack? A short walk with him on a leash to show the troops, not that he saw anyone else here earlier, what a good pet he was? Food? Hopefully a chance to get out of here, but Duo doubted that. He was expecting another shot of whatever his was being dosed with, just to keep him on line. Duo idly wondered if it was addictive. Or if someday he was going to walk by Maria or anyone else that he loved and not be able to recognize them because his brain had turned into tapioca from the drugs that Howard was using to keep him in line.
Duo sat up when Howard walked out of the bathroom, rubbing what was left of his hair dry before finding something to get to put on.
"Howard...could we skip the shot this morning?" Duo asked quietly. "You got T-chan as a hostage for my good behavior. I won't run away, because of him. I don't think that I can get him and myself out of here if I tried, not with what you told me last night. You do have that other system going too, so even if I ran, you'd find me before I got off planet. And frankly, I hate drugs and I don't want you to turn me into a drooling idiot out of some misguided attempt to 'control' me."
"You gonna behave like you did last night?" Howard asked curiously.
He had thought about this in the shower and didn't have a solution for the problem. Angel wasn't reacting as well as he liked to what he had cooked up for him, what he was doing to turn Duo into Angel. Last night's reaction to sex was...disappointing. He hoped that Angel would have been a little better then that, but he had been dreaming. He had caught a glimpse of what had happened on the Libra between Angel and Mirialdo. He couldn't help it, because as soon as Mirialdo had gotten Treize back, he had tortured him with that recording for days, showing him what a 'whore' Angel was.
Something broke in Treize because of what Mirialdo did to him in that room. Howard didn't know what his breaking point had been, but Treize was a good little boy for Mirialdo now. Or should he say, a good little dog, because Mirialdo had him on a leash, making Treize follow him on all fours wherever he went in the house. When he didn't want him, Treize was either out in the garden that the Master Bedroom opened into or in a kennel/cage that one of the closets in the bedroom had been turned into. Treize acted like a dog now, because that was what Mirialdo wanted from him. If Howard thought that Mirialdo had been abusive before, he had out classed any expectations that he had with what he had done to the former leader of OZ.
Mirialdo had physically abused Treize and had mentally tormented him with scenes of former his lover's torture and gang rape until Treize retreated behind a wall of silence, and became the pet that Mirialdo wanted him to be when he broke him. Howard was concerned about what Angel's reaction to what had been done to Treize was going to be. He'd find that out soon. Mirialdo wanted to Howard to have breakfast with him in the garden this morning.
"I don't know," Duo told him. "I'm not doing too good here." #God Howard, what do you want from me? I don't want to be your little boy toy. I want to go home Howard, build a life with T-chan and Maria. Can't you just let me go? I'm not the kid you want anymore. When are you going to realize that?#
"A half dose Angel," Howard promised him. #This might be the only thing that is going to let you survive the morning. You're going to want this once you see Treize.#
"I hate drugs. They screw me over too much. Could you just leave me alone? Please, I'll behave. Just...just...not again...he...he made me enjoy him, enjoy all of it when he had me that night in England." Duo whispered. He didn't want to beg, but he didn't want to be stoned all the time. He hoped that he could endure being fucked by Howard if he didn't force him to enjoy it.
Howard frowned at the huddled figure chained to his bed. Couldn't he see how sexy he was? So what if he didn't want to like being fucked by him, he didn't have a choice about it. "I want you. I want your brain and your body. Hell, you look good to me, so I don't see why you think that you're ugly. But you got to realize that I am in control here. Not you. I want to fuck you raw, so live with it."
Duo laughed. Howard smiled. It wasn't cynical laugh, but the laugh of someone who had just heard a good joke and enjoyed it. He tried to ignore the slightly hysterical tone that was behind that laugh. "Most of my skin below the neck to about my knees is scar tissue. Not from an accident, but from hours of torture, in a session that included several rapes. And you...with all the odd bits of metal that you put on me...I feel like a thing, not a person. Because that's what I feel like with this fucking collar on, along with the other crap you did to me. Since you are treating me like a thing too, I guess that it isn't too far from the truth, in your mind. And I had to..." Duo stopped, he wasn't going to mention Maria. They actually might not know about her.
Howard shook his head, ignoring Angel falling silent suddenly. "That was a message to you and a whole lot of other people that you were mine. And you hid so well...I wanted to make sure that I could find you again if I lost you. And I did, so it worked." #I just want to take care of you, I didn't the first time around and I should have. I should have told G to go play in an airlock. I want you, I want to take care of you... make you mine. Show you how good I can be for you and make you forget Treize.#
"But Shinigami?" Duo asked. "You had to mark me with my own Gundam. Couldn't you find anything else lying around to make this crap out of?"
"Black is your color...you are a gorgeous little angel of death. That's why I'm calling you Angel. It fits you." Howard replied with a smile, leaning over to kiss him on the top on the head. If he explained a little to Angel what he was doing, he knew that Duo would be a bit more cooperative with him about becoming his Angel. He had learned that much watching that asshole G dealing with a much younger Duo.
Duo sat still for the kiss, barely controlling the flinch that he wanted to make. He wasn't going to be able to get Howard to let his guard down if the man didn't trust him. He had to stop panicking about the sex thing and start thinking about how to get T-chan and himself out of here. That would give him something else to think about and to put what happened last night in the back of his mind.
"Shower Angel and then we're having breakfast with Mirialdo and...Treize," Howard said. He didn't want to tell Angel too soon that his ex-lover was now a bigger head case then he was.
Duo did flinch at that announcement because he couldn't hide his reaction to that. He was still scared shitless of the tall blonde and he was terrified of what he might have done to T-chan. He looked up at Howard, his eyes narrowing in suspicion. He didn't miss the hesitation before saying T-chan's name in Howard's voice. "What's wrong? What did he do to T-chan for running? It has to be bad, because Mirialdo's a loon and more out of it then I am."
"He...well it isn't pretty. But..." Howard looked down at Angel. Why did he keep thinking that he was crazy as well as ugly? He did have a right to know what had happened. He wasn't going to blindside him like he did last time, if he was nicer to Angel, he would start to trust him more. Telling him this wasn't going to cost him anything. "He was vindictive. I know Mirialdo did something to Treize when got him back, something that I don't understand, but he hurt him mentally more then anything. #Hours of watching that video, Hell I almost lost it after a while.# He's still rough, he doesn't let Treize wear clothes either and you can't miss the bruises and other...marks. He's treating Treize like a dog and the man has been broken enough by him to take it. I haven't heard him say anything since Mirialdo brought him out of that room that he had him in to 'punish' him. His eyes...they're dull...accepting anything that Mirialdo does to him. He's got him coming to heel like a well-trained dog. He feeds him table scraps and puts him in a 'kennel' when he doesn't want him. Treize's mind left his body a long time ago and he's just going through the motions right now. Mirialdo does love him still, in some sick and twisted way, so he won't kill him. So don't do anything stupid...I don't want to have to turn you over to Mirialdo for discipline, but I will if you don't behave."
"You got the sick and twisted part down right," Duo said bitterly. "T-chan cared. He had cared about everyone that was fighting for him. He worked hard and was as messed up about things as I was, because of the things that he had to do. But then, no one thought that a Gundam pilot was worth much either. That's why things happened the way that they did."
Howard ignored the jealousy that he felt at that statement and went to unlock Angel. "I'll let you loose to take a shower, so you better behave. If you don't, I'll give you a bath myself, keeping you in line by cuffing you again. Remember that I have done that to you before."
Duo sighed. It was the best offer that he was going to get. "I'll behave, for now. The promise is good for one day only."
Howard unlocked him and shook his head. Angel still thought that he had some power here. He'd disillusion him about that later today or tonight or both when he fucked him again, playing with his body so that he screamed with pleasure for him. Then Angel would know that he couldn't make deals because he was in charge and Angel was there to make him happy. "I'll live with that. But you still don't get clothes. I'm putting you on a leash too."
Duo snorted before he disappeared into the bathroom. "A pair of owners with their 'pets' doing brunch, you really have arrived into the scene, Howard."
"Before you empty the hot water heater, you're getting your shot. I trust you, but I think that you might go a little off when you see Treize this morning." Howard lied to him. He didn't trust Angel not to do something stupid and piss of Mirialdo. "Give me your arm."
Duo held it out without a word, wondering what the hell he was on to obey Howard like that. He didn't want the bastard near him with a needle and here he was holding out his arm like an idiot, because he told him to. "Ya know G would have killed for this, back in the good old days. I drove him nuts by asking questions about everything and questioning everything he told me." Duo told him sourly, closing his eyes. He couldn't watch the needle going into his flesh.
Howard shrugged. "He could have. But he didn't want to screw up what ever else he was doing to you, by mixing up the drugs. The ones he was giving you and the ones that he wanted to give you."
Duo went still, his mind going cold at that comment. G had been doing some odd things to him during training, but he had thought that what G was giving him was to help him pilot his Gundam. "What else he was doing to me?"
Howard shrugged, trying to ignore how scary and cold his Angel had suddenly become even though he hadn't moved a muscle. Shit it was times like this that he could believe that he was dangerous. "He thought that you were the find of the century because of the plague antibodies that are in your system, along with a few other odd things. He just tweaked you a little."
"The bad drug reactions?" Duo asked quietly, trying not to hit something in his anger. #I should have known that they weren't normal, but it wasn't like I had an experience with medication before G. Not like a street rat got health care.#
"You needed that, he didn't want you to spill anything under questioning if they brought out the drugs. It was to protect the Operation more then anything else." Howard explained. He actually didn't know what the nut was doing to Angel before he had managed to get access to G's records on him.
"It was because the guy was a sore loser. I didn't roll over for him and he got back at me any way that he could. None of the other pilots got that done to them, not even Heero." Duo said, before he disappeared into the bathroom.
Howard sighed, since there was some truth in what Angel was saying. G didn't like the fact that Angel had told him no on more then one occasion. That he had stubbornly clung to that refusal as long as he did, and that had annoyed the scientist. Angel had been a whore, what was one more man giving it to him up the ass or down the throat? Because Angel had a choice finally and he didn't want him now that he could say no. That Angel chose killing over sex with him, irked G and when he had found out that Angel was fond of Khushrenada...it had been interesting to watch the temper tantrum that resulted from that discovery. But their love hadn't saved either of them, so what good was love?
Angel better get used to being his property, his pet killer, because that was how it was going to be from now on. Treize wasn't sane enough to get them out of there again. His little collar was fitted with the same restraint system that Angel's had been, he could just take his off, not that he would ever think of that. They had both run or hid from anyone that could protect them, Lady Une or Winner's strange little group. So both of them disappearing wouldn't be noticed for a while and then no one would find either of them, if they even bothered to look when someone finally realized that they were gone. They had taken care of all the loose ends on L2 and at that dive that Treize had worked at on Earth. Howard couldn't believe that Treize had been working at that bar or why was he working there. Had Angel and he fought? Was that why they had separated? It didn't matter now because the two of them would be turned into good little pets, like they were supposed to be. By the time that anyone will have found them again, they wouldn't want to leave here. He would have Angel with him for the rest of his life.
Duo emerged cleaned up a little later, shaking his hair down from the bun that he had fastened on top of his head so that it wouldn't get too wet. Howard admired his pet, faintly flushed from his shower and his hair falling about him in waves. Angel was breathtaking, the scars just adding to his beauty in an odd way. His jewelry glistened in the morning light reflecting all that damp skin and Howard regretted that there wasn't time enough for a quick session with Angel, because he looked so good.
"Come here and let me get the leash on you." Howard said. "I don't expect you to crawl around on all fours after me, but you will come to heel when I tug on that chain. You will behave or else. It can get worse Angel, so just don't make me show you how bad I can be if I think that you need to be punished."
Duo nodded, bending his neck and lifting his hair so that Howard could fasten the leash on his collar. Howard caressed him as he stood still, enjoying the feel of Angel's body underneath his hands, trying to ignore the fact that Angel was shivering and he didn't think that it was from the cold. Angel had filled out in the last couple of months, and that was good. He no longer looked like the haggard wreck that he had been when he had first been captured. Howard silenced the tiny voice in the back of his head that pointed out that Angel looked healthier due to Treize's care of him and his freedom. That wasn't important, what was important was that he had his Angel now and he wasn't going to get away from him again.
"I just hope that if you're into the parade me about naked routine, you at least keep the heat at a decent level, I don't want to freeze my butt off because you're into some weird dominance routine," Duo said lightly.
He had to start with the jokes or else he was going to end up in the corner screaming. Duo didn't like the fact that Howard could say jump and he would just mindless hop up and down for him. That sucked. He wondered how long this crap would be in his system. Howard didn't have to have the electronics in this damned collar, he could yell 'Stop!' and he would just stop and look at him, no questions asked.
Howard smiled and grabbed the end of the leash and led Angel out onto the hallway and down the staircase, through the house to get breakfast from the kitchen. Duo tried not to be embarrassed that he was wandering around naked and kept his eyes on the ground, too numb to check out where he was being taken. He still didn't understand why Howard was getting off with him, since he was ugly and a psycho. There were plenty of kids that he could get, some that would look enough like him enough to keep the old man satisfied. All or most of who would be ecstatic that they had a sugar daddy and none of who would be as fucked in the head as he was and all who were a whole lot prettier with their clothes off. Last night should have showed Howard that Duo deserved to be in a padded room, not in his bed or whatever this arrangement was going to be.
Howard went into the kitchen he wanted to pick up breakfast before meeting Mirialdo in the garden off the Master Bedroom. He was disturbed that Angel hadn't bothered to check out where he was being held while we was being led through the house. He had shot a few glances back at him, noticing that he was blushing a little and he seemed to find the ground fascinating. Angel looked submissive at least. But what was he up to?
"Angel...what are you thinking about?" he asked curiously. Angel would tell him everything that he wanted to know, whether he wanted to or not. He loved chemicals because of that they were good for so many things and because of them he was going to be able to get into his Angel's head so that he could make him his.
"That you could grab a kid off the street that is better looking then I am and not as fucked in the head for this, one that would be happy to play whatever game you're into." Duo answered promptly and involuntarily. Duo flushed when he heard the snigger behind him. He had no idea that they weren't alone, he was slipping. He couldn't afford to make mistakes and he let someone sneak up behind him.
Howard threw back his head and laughed. "Honest still. Sad part is that without the drugs you would have answered me the same." #No one out there matched you. I looked and everyone that I picked up wasn't you. It wasn't the same, because they didn't have what I was looking for.#
"No, I would have phrased it better!" Duo shot back, annoyed that he couldn't keep his mouth shut.
"But would any of these hypothetical children have your spirit?" a man behind him asked. Duo turned around to see who else was here with him. God, it was the guy who had nabbed him from L2, Cosimo. It seemed like he was the only one that was here with Howard and Mirialdo.
"It depends on how much they had seen," Duo answered quietly, trying not to freak out because the guy was practically breathing down his neck. He didn't like the fact that he let someone get that close to him. He had to be more alert then that! Howard tugged him further into the kitchen, letting Duo get some space between himself and Cosimo. Howard didn't think that Cosimo was going be stupid enough to want his Angel, but he didn't like the fact that was interested in him anyway.
"Just give Angel the tray Cosimo and we'll take care of everything else." Howard told him.
Duo took the tray without a word and just wanted Cosimo to get the hell away from him. He hated the way that the guy was staring at him and seeing everything that had been done to him. He flushed redder and was glad when the guy left.
"Angel, bring the tray out into the garden. It's through the back door. Do not do anything stupid!" Howard instructed him.
"Already been stupid, I got caught by you," Duo snapped back. Then he shook his head. What happened to the governor on his mouth? He was telling Howard everything that came into his head today. The sooner he was off that crap the better, wanted to have his thoughts private at least, since everything else was hanging out.
Howard frowned and then decided that he could punish Angel later. But he noticed that Angel was as upset as he was that he seemed to be saying anything that popped into his mouth. He really couldn't have him saying anything that he thought to him, because that would be disastrous in front of other people and he would have to punish him when he didn't want to. Aside from the sex, Angel had a lot going for him and he wanted all the things that he could do, not just sex with him.
Duo walked through the door out into the small walled garden that was out back. He stopped short when he saw Mirialdo sitting at a table, but a small prod from Howard kept him going. After depositing the tray on the table, he was grateful to sink down next to Howard's chair and hopefully would get ignored by Mirialdo. And he was gonna be able to run out of here to freedom also without getting zapped. Hooray for an active fantasy life!
"Ah, Howard...so nice that you managed to recover your little pet," Mirialdo purred, looking down at Angel. He had been told that the little slut had been found, but he didn't think that Howard would be showing him off this early to him, because he thought that Howard would still be pounding him into the bed. But then Howard was older and a lot less active in bed then he was. When he had gotten Treize back, he didn't stop playing with him for days, in between the sessions of showing him what a whore Angel was. He had been surprised that Howard had agreed to meet with him for breakfast, because he thought that he wouldn't be seeing the man for days.
"I told you that we would eventually get them back." Howard chided him, stroking Angel's hair as he knelt beside his chair. He loved playing with that mane for some reason. "Just took a little time, but I got my Angel back. And where is Treize?"
"Still in his kennel...do you think that I should fetch him?" Mirialdo asked. "Or have your pet do it? Spot, I'm sorry Treize, might want to see him. That is if he had enough brains to remember who he is."
Howard looked down at Angel's bowed head. "Why don't we get him together then?" #I hope that you didn't get too weird last night, because Angel is on the edge as it is even with what I just gave him. I don't think that I can control him, if you've hurt Treize recently. Not all the drugs in the universe would stop him from attacking you if that happened.# He gathered Angel's leash and tugged him to his feet, glad that Angel silently rose and followed him and Mirialdo into the house, still willing to be submissive.
Mirialdo went into the bedroom to release Treize from the cage that he kept him in at night, after he was through with him. It had been a largish closet and bathroom area that was supposed to be for the lady of the house, but Mirialdo had it turned into a kennel when he decided to punish Treize for his disloyalty for running with Howard's scared slut. Actually Treize wasn't locked in at all, but a couple of 'training' sessions of shocking him when he left that area without permission, showed him the wisdom of staying in the area until he came to fetch him. He would never leave with either Howard or Duo if they came for him without him. Treize was completely under his control, which was the way that he wanted it.
Mirialdo was smirking when led Duo and Howard into the room. He didn't think the whore would be able to stomach what Treize had turned into. The physical damage had been minimal, but he done something to Treize's spirit when he forced him to watch for hours the recording of Duo being tortured on the PeaceMillion. Something had just broke one day inside the former general and Mirialdo rejoiced that he had at last destroyed the man that he had hated so much for preferring a street rat to himself and loved so hopelessly on one level, since he couldn't have him, because of that same street rat. Well he had broken him now, and he didn't think the street rat would even give him a second glance. So Treize would be all his again!
Duo was standing behind Howard, straining to catch a glimpse of T-chan and dreading finding out what he was like now. He hoped that T-chan could forgive him some day for being stupid and having gotten them recaptured by these two nuts. Duo was shocked to see T-chan crawl out slowly, obviously wary of Howard and Mirialdo looming over him, as if he expected either one of them to do something bad to him. He caught sight of Duo and then stood up and rushed out of the closet. Duo was surprised to see T-chan move that fast. He had forgotten how fast the older man could be when he wanted to. He had time for a startled 'eep' before T-chan grabbed him and then semi-dragged him back into his cell with him. Howard dropped his end of the leash, not wanting to wrestle with Treize over Angel. Angel would be the one that was hurt if he did. Duo was surprised to see that he was deposited gently on what seemed to be T-chan's bed, a huge dog bed, before T-chan put himself between Mirialdo and Duo, growling deep in his throat.
Mirialdo was all set to rush into that closet and drag both 'pets' out by their collars, and beat them for their insolence, before Howard grabbed his arm. "I have no idea what's going on, but I don't think that Treize wants you near Angel and I don't want Angel hurt if he does get violent and fights you, not that I think that it is going to happen, but I don't want to take chances." #Let me see, you spent hours showing Treize that you had tortured Angel and then act surprise that he doesn't want you near him. You are more out of touch with reality then I thought. Someday you're going to slip to the rest of the world how insane you are and then whoever you're working with will get rid of you, because you will have out lived your usefulness then. If your mistake doesn't kill you first.#
"I don't care what he wants, I broke him. I own him. He will obey me!" Mirialdo hissed.
"Those days aren't over Mirialdo." Howard said calmly, wondering how insane he was to overlook how angry Treize had seemed at seeing Angel with the two of them.
An enraged Treize was giving him a pause. He didn't like the look that was in the younger man's eyes. Treize's eyes weren't dull any longer; they now held a cold fury that frightened Howard. Treize wasn't happy that Angel was with the two of them and that anger had been the most emotion that Treize had shown since they recaptured him. "You did something to him, showing him all those hours of Angel being tortured. He just wants to protect Angel from you now. Even if he doesn't understand a whole lot of what you are doing to him, Treize won't knuckle under any more, like he did before. I think that he will protect Angel now, since Angel seems to be an important to him, even if he can't remember why." #Because he loves him, you idiot and won't forget him for some reason! If you can't believe that from what you saw when you were torturing him, you are even more insensitive about their relationship then I am.#
"Get that little slut away from him!" Mirialdo snarled. #I would have sworn that Treize was broken, gone. So why does he want that slut? What does that kurva1 have that I don't, that makes Treize want him...protect him...like him? Still!#
"Why don't we let him calm down, I'll retrieve Angel after we have breakfast." Howard tried to sooth the younger man and tried to make him see reason for once. He wasn't happy that Treize had nabbed Angel either, but he had heard the snarl that Treize had made deep in his throat, in response to what he thought was Mirialdo threatening Angel. It sounded unearthly and he was very worried that Angel might be the only person that could control Treize if he got violent. The reason that Treize had endured what Mirialdo had been doing to him in England was because he didn't care enough to fight back. Treize now had something to care about and Mirialdo would be a bigger fool then he seemed to be, if he didn't notice that. Howard didn't think that Treize was going to react rationally to anything the Mirialdo was interested in doing to Angel, if he was going to hurt him. Treize was something to worry about now, he wasn't the civilized man that ran Oz with an iron hand or the submissive trophy that he had been after the war for Mirialdo. Treize had no morals now and a fixation on his Angel, even after Mirialdo had reduced him to an animal with his torture over Angel. Treize may not have gotten any with Angel when they ran away, but something happened between the two of them. Or did he think that Angel was important because he remembered him from when he was being broken? That Angel had had something to do with why Mirialdo was angry with him?
Howard poked his head into the closet, trying to appear as non-threatening as possible and keeping his tone calm and soothing, since he didn't want Treize to kill him. "Angel...you can have some time with him, but after breakfast, you've got to convince him to let you out of there. You won't be the one hurt if you can't." #Mirialdo is just going to be so happy if this continues, Treize snarling every time that either one of us gets too near Angel.#
"I understand Howard," Duo said quietly, gently rubbing Treize's back, wondering if he could hold him back if he had to, if he went nuts. He wasn't worried that he would hurt either Howard or the psycho, he didn't want T-chan to get hurt or punished by them if they survived the attack. Treize rumbled deep in his chest, apparently content that Duo was touching him, even as he was watching to see how much of a threat Mirialdo and Howard were to his little charge.
Duo for the most part was holding back tears. He thought that he had been prepared for the worst, but this was beyond anything that he could imagine. "T-chan..." he started softly, trying to calm him down. "I'm fine. No one's hurt me." #Howard could have hurt me last night, but he was gentler then I expected. I just freaked because of everything else. But I don't know how much longer I am going to be able to endure that man touching me.#
Treize enveloped him in a bear hug when he heard Howard and Mirialdo leave and then let him go, studying him carefully, to see if he was unhurt like he claimed.
"I saw...this..." he explained in a soft, hoarse voice, gently touching a long scar on Duo's stomach. "And when he did this..." gently stoking his back, touching the cigarette burns there. "I saw it all... everything that you didn't or couldn't tell me about." #I sorry. This was all my fault. I should have sent you from my bed after the first night. But you...you did something that made me want you, with those flowers that you sent me. I guess about that a lot, even if I can't remember it. Something had warmed me deep inside and we fell in love. And all I wanted was to keep you safe, I think but I can't remember that, but I know that's what I want for you now. But I couldn't protect you and you paid for loving me, like you did that night we met again.#
"That was years ago," Duo explained, worried about Treize, how badly was he injured? What had happened to him? Treize knew about the torture from before, not the gory details, but the vague outline of what had happened. "He... Mirialdo...Miri...wanted to hurt me...because of a lot of things." #Oh God, he showed you the recording of my torture on the Libra! Mirialdo still has it! I told you about what had happened, barely...but you had to watch it, more then once, unless Mirialdo is getting soft in his old age. Is that what did this to you, T-chan? Endlessly listening to me screaming, watching what happened, the rapes...all that blood. Blaming yourself for what happened even though you couldn't have known that would happen, when we started our insane relationship, on top of whatever else he was doing to you. I see the new scars and all the bruises, he hurts you because you didn't want him... again.#
"Because of me...I heard...I saw," Treize's eyes were sad. Why couldn't Mirialdo have understood...that's what upset him, about all this Duo was just someone that had gotten caught in the middle of the breakup of their relationship. Miri walked out on him! He didn't have to hurt Duo because he was told to sleep with him. What had happened to Miri that made him the sadist that he was today?
"I survived," Duo whispered to him. "I...got better, a little. Don't you remember?"
"In bed...he was hurting you, because...we love each other..." Treize said softly, moving Duo so that he was cradled on his lap. "You're crying," he observed, tracing a tear that was sliding down Duo's cheek. #Don't worry Duo...it's an act now, but I can't let you know because I don't think that you could hide any more what you are feeling. The masks all went away, because you were getting better. I was getting to know the gentle Duo underneath all the masks who had survived so much.#
"I...I hoped that you were free, but last night Howard told me that they had you." #I'm crying because this is something that I can't deal with, but then you couldn't deal with what had happened to me, so you just let go and went into your mind. I don't blame you for hiding in there. I just want to find you again. Either of you, the confused stranger that cared for me on L3 or the general from before, because I love the both of you, even if I fought against it kicking and screaming.#
"Howard...he was a friend, but..." Treize trailed off, falling back onto his bed, so that he had Duo lying on top of him. He vaguely remembered when Howard talked to him, had been kind to him and offered to help him leave Mirialdo, but it seemed so far away. He had been different then, Miri allowed him to wear clothes and do things. He didn't treat him like an animal, like a pet for his amusement. It was a treatment that he was encouraging because it let Miri's guard down. It confused him to a certain extent, because it had been so easy to let go of his pride and just survive, give in so that Mirialdo would stop hurting him, to have Miri stop torturing him by making him see what had happened to his fey lover, by making him see what had been done to Duo so that he completely fell apart after the war. Seeing the strips of skin that had floated around the room in low gravity, when Miri had tried to peel Duo like an apple and watching the hoard of men around him, raping him. You could barely see Duo then and Treize didn't know still if that was a good thing or a bad thing. Hearing him hoarsely whisper, ''So long as he's around not to want me, I could live with it." That was what touched him the most and terrified him, why couldn't Duo accept that he could be loved? After all that Duo had trusted him enough to let him make love with him.
"He'll protect me from Mirialdo, to a certain extent," Duo told him gently, cuddling with T-chan. #I just need protection from him. He won't be actively cruel, since he just wants to mold me into what he wants even if he doesn't see what is wrong with that. Starting with my name change and anything else that he wants to change on me so that I am what he wants. I should have known that he was crazy when I woke up the first time with all this crap in my body. # "Don't worry about me, we just have to get free. Somehow."
"It hurts," Treize said, touching the collar around his neck and then the one around Duo's. It did hurt that he had to lie to his lover like this. Duo never had lied to him and he had to carry on this elaborate charade that was going to hurt him in the end when he found out that he had lied to him about his condition. "We're pets now."
"No!" Duo replied fiercely. "We aren't! Because a pair of sick people want to play games with us, doesn't make us animals." #I have to hold on to that thought, because to think any other way would be giving into them.#
"Then what?" Treize asked curiously, not wanting let Duo go. He just wanted to hold him, feel his slender body next to his and curl around each other, trying to merge with the other in their sleep. He wanted that so much and he knew that they shouldn't be separated again. They had been separate for too long, by the war. By time. By Mirialdo and Howard. He just wanted to be alone with Duo, since that had been so good for them when they were alone. He wanted it to be good again for them again.
"We wait, because we have people that will look for us, because they love us," Duo promised him. #Mirialdo you bastard! What did you do to him? Why did you do it to him? It was the past...and you later drove him away by getting odd with him!# "Remember meeting everyone after we escaped the first time? Do you remember L3? We were together, after he hurt us the last time?" Duo didn't have to mention his name, T-chan would know who he was talking about, he hoped.
Treize thought for a second, hating to act like this around Duo, but he needed Miri to think that he was mindless and harmless. Convincing Duo of that was the key to his plan, now that he found out that they had him. Miri would overlook the fury that he may have seen today if he went back to being the placid pet that he created. Miri was very good at ignoring things that didn't fit into his world, so he might get away with it this one time. "Sleeping together. We wore clothes...but you still had this on."
He stoked the collar around Duo's neck softly. He then frowned and undid the leash, trying not to shake in his anger. God Howard a leash and naked, why don't you understand that you'll destroy Duo treating him like this, that he'll become someone that will never be fixed? He was too fragile, emotionally, to put up with the games that you want to play on him, to let you control him. If he lets go, he's not going to come back. But you don't see that, you don't see the hurt that he still has buried in him. All you see if that he isn't cooperating with you. You think that his fear is defiance. Did you never learn that coaxing a response was better then forcing one? You want someone that isn't there anymore, I think you figured that out, but why are you forcing him into being something he isn't by changing his name, trying to mold him into someone else that you think you want?
Duo smiled ruefully, noticing what T-chan was looking at. "It's kinda stuck there, the collar, until one of the guys figure out how to get any of this off me, without hurting me. Yours might get off easier when we get out of this mess. But thanks for getting off the leash, I just hope that Howard won't mind."
"I remember eating out. You...you liked that?" Treize asked, dismissing Howard. "But one time, we were with a woman and you ate all the sweets, the two of you." #It was a happy memory for you. I hope that you can hang on because of those memories of the good times that we had together. Those will keep you whole I hope, so that you can endure this, because someone will rescue us.#
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"I don't remember!" Treize cried, pretending to be annoyed. He could almost pinpoint the exact time that it happened, when he gave in to stop the pain. Miri was hurting him and making him watch that damned recording again, the one that Duo was being raped in. He had wondered what was happening with Duo while he was watching that. He had hoped that he was safe and could find him again, when he escaped, until he saw him outside standing with Miri and Howard. Then he felt his heart crack, because of the sorrow and the guilt that he saw in Duo's eyes. That is what drove him to get Duo away from them, because he didn't want to see Duo sad. It wasn't his fault that he had gotten caught by Miri and Howard.
"That was about the only time we went out with another person, her name is Une. She worked with you...before Mirialdo...before a lot of things," Duo explained slowly, "but after some stuff happened, we spent a lot of time alone...it was nice."
"Ah," Treize calmed down and started stroking Duo's hair. He remembered that it relaxed Duo faster then anything else that he could do. He needed to relax Duo. He was glad that he thought their time on L3 was nice. He thought of it as a dream, something that he could hold on to, memories that would get him through whatever was happening to his body when he was being fucked or beaten by Miri.
"I'm so sorry T-chan...I got stupid," Duo whispered into his chest. "I thought that we should have some time alone, away from each other and then they nabbed us, again. I should have made you go someplace safe...but...I was...jealous...scared. I didn't want you to go to Quatre or one of the others... they...they..."
"It doesn't matter," Treize said, starting to rub his back and letting his hand drift lower. #You did what you thought was right for me. You just underestimated the lengths that these two would go to find us. And you thought that I might not come back to you, surrounded by all those beautiful men. Oh Duo...I never wanted your body...it was your soul that I loved.#
Duo made a small noise of contentment. He was so tired all of a sudden, the let down from the continual adrenal surge that had been going through his body since Howard had told him about having breakfast with Mirialdo. He couldn't run, but his glands never got the message and they just went into overdrive. He was so tired now, and he hadn't slept at all last night it seemed. He froze when T-chan gently started to cup his bottom.
"I know...you don't feel good when I do this," Treize explained. "Not going to do anything more, then touching."
"Thank you," Duo whispered, his eyes fluttering shut, suddenly feeling heavier then they should and he fell asleep.
"I made lists...places I wanted to take you..." T-chan started, before stopping when he heard Duo breathing softly, asleep in his arms.
Treize lay there with him in his arms, wondering if he could be strong enough to wait until the time was right for both of them to escape, if he could watch Howard abuse Duo. He had played the fool for Miri again, because the other would eventually let his guard down with that act. He was willing to admit that he might have gone insane when he was being tortured and that he had gradually recovered himself as the days went on and Miri left him alone except for the occasional session of rough sex or a beating to work out his frustrations. Nothing as elaborate as it had been in England, since he was not reacting too much and that took the fun out of it for the younger man. But Duo was here now and that would make things more difficult, because he didn't want to see him hurt, he didn't know if he could still play the fool if he saw Howard raping or hurting Duo. It had been pure instinct that made him act the way that he did, grabbing Duo to get him away from those two. It hadn't been difficult to act the part of a mad dog, since he was furious that Howard had touched Duo again. Duo didn't need the sick games that Howard was playing with him, Duo just needed to be left alone to finish healing himself. He had hoped that Duo hadn't been found, but that had been a vain hope.
Treize looked up when he felt Howard standing at the door to his 'kennel'. He instinctively tightened his grip around Duo, glaring at Howard. Duo stirred and opened his eyes. He smiled sleepily at Treize before glancing up at Howard and freezing. Duo wiggled a bit, to try and get loose from T-chan's crushing embrace, but it didn't work.
"I got to go T-chan...he'll hurt you if I don't," Duo pleaded. He didn't know if it would be Howard or Mirialdo but he didn't want either man touching T-chan.
Treize leaned down and kissed Duo on the forehead before letting him scramble up to join Howard. He caught Howard's frown and fought against opening his mouth to threaten him. He just hoped that Duo wouldn't mention that they had talked. But he didn't think that Howard would care about what Duo said, he never did in the past or he would let have let him go as soon as he realized what he was doing to Duo was harming him more then anything. He didn't want the older man to figure out that he might be a little more alert now that he was willing to let on. He had gone from ally to enemy when he went after Duo.
"Angel...don't think that I'm letting you get away with anything. I will get my pound of flesh out of you, for this incident." Howard promised.
"Just chose a scarred area to start carving," Duo muttered. "I got enough of them that I don't want you to make more."
Howard laughed and swatted him on his ass, enjoying watching him jump. He might borrow some equipment from Mirialdo one night to play with Angel, since it might be an interesting evening for him if he did that. See if Angel liked pain, since he already knew that the kid had a high tolerance for pain, after seeing him being tortured. "Good one. But I got work to do and you get to play attentive pet while I do it. Just got to lie around and look happy."
"Yippee," Duo's tone indicated what he thought of the whole idea. He didn't want to play attentive boy toy. And he was freezing, he wondered if he was coming down with something. He had felt so warm and safe curled up with T-chan, he wanted to be in there forever with him. But now he was cold and frightened. He didn't know if he could get away from Howard and he was worried that he would think about giving in again, becoming what Howard wanted, a mindless little toy for his old age. He told T-chan to hang on, but he didn't know if he could. He was afraid that if or when someone finally found them, they would both be so broken that they didn't want to leave.
"Hey...I know that this scene in here wasn't your idea. But if you want to stay straight, don't make waves."
"And if I make waves?" Duo asked warily.
"I'll think of something," Howard promised him. "Since I always got my stash with me, you might get a rude shock some morning."
Treize bit the inside of his mouth to stop from protesting that threat, but thankfully Howard had eyes only for Duo. He retreated further into his kennel and tried not to torture himself with visions of Duo submitting to whatever Howard had planned for him or letting go and taking the drugs that he offered so that he wouldn't remember what Howard was doing to him. #Damn it Duo, I never wanted you to be a hostage for my actions, but you ended up as one. I hoped that someone would figure out I was gone and get in touch with Une or Wufei, and then they would find you, so that you wouldn't hurt. Now...we both have to behave because they do not trust us at all and we are both hostages for the other's behavior. #
Duo poked at his lunch. He wasn't hungry and the food wasn't tempting his appetite at all. He wasn't even sure what he was eating. He took a couple of bites and then pushed it aside, too depressed to eat more.
"Howard...would...you...mind...if...I...started...cooking?" Duo asked hesitantly, keeping his eyes on his plate and hoped that Howard wouldn't get upset that he was asking him for something too outrageous. That he would think that he was being trouble and put him on that junk again. It had been a couple of days since he had gotten any drugs from Howard and he wanted to keep it that way.
Howard looked up from his meal and frowned. Angel hadn't been eating lately and he didn't blame him. No one here could cook and they all were hopeless in the kitchen. Even if Angel wasn't a good cook, it was something that he had shown interest in, besides Treize. For the last week or so that he had been here, Angel had retreated behind a mask, just doing what Howard told him to and not showing any interest in what was happening to him. The sex hadn't gotten any easier, but Howard learned that if he let Angel alone, not forcing him to enjoy what he was doing with him, then Angel wasn't a huddled, shivering mass afterwards, since he just curled up and pretended to sleep. But he didn't let him do that too often, Angel was his toy and he should enjoy Howard playing with him. He didn't care about the hate and loathing that he saw in Angel's eyes while he was making him moan with pleasure, he just liked the power that he had over his body to make Angel enjoy his sessions between the sheets with him.
The nights were difficult and Angel had yet to sleep through one in his bed because he hadn't lied about the nightmares, not that he could have lied about anything at the time with the stuff that he was on. Between those and the reaction to sex, Howard was wondering if getting Angel stoned out of his gourd again wouldn't be better for the both of them, but he couldn't because Angel had behaved himself, like he promised. He was the perfect pet, submissive, obedient and breathtaking in an odd way. But totally unlike the Angel that he remembered. He was so disappointed about that. But he was living up to his new name, Angel, with his angelic behavior, until he looked into his sad eyes.
The only problem that he had with Angel had been the second day that he was here. Angel had looked at him and smiled, one of his crazy grins from the war and then just booked it. He didn't think that Angel could run that fast. Howard just stood there and watched him, knowing that Angel needed to know that he would get hurt if he left. That he hadn't lied to him about the security measures that had been put in place. He could tell when Angel got the first shock. He kept going and Howard was surprised to see how far he had gone, before he passed out from the pain. But then he had always had a high pain tolerance. Howard had scooped him up and carried him back to the room and sat with him until he woke up. When Angel opened his eyes he just looked at Howard blankly before saying, "I had to know."
"I understand," Howard reassured him. He actually did, he knew that Angel wasn't going to take his word on the electronic fencing and that he would have tested it as soon as he could. "I was expecting it. I don't blame you. I'm not mad at you. I won't punish you or Treize for that. Just don't do it again."
Angel nodded and that was about the last thing that Howard had heard out of his companion while he was awake, until his request this morning.
"I don't mind. To tell you the truth...I was tempted to ask you about that myself," Howard admitted.
"Can...can I wear something, just for cooking and...and tie my hair back?" Duo asked softly, relieved that Howard was open to the idea. He had been afraid that Howard would punish him because he asked for something. That's why he hadn't said much for the last week, he didn't know would set his captor off and he would be his drugged toy again.
"Just for cooking. I know the naked and cooking don't mix." Howard assured him.
"Thank you."
Duo got up and knelt in front of Howard. He leaned up and started to unzip his pants with his teeth, balancing himself so that he never really touched Howard, all he felt was the ghost of his mouth on his pants as he just breathed on his cock, slowly hardening it. Before he moved to take it into his mouth, Howard put a finger under his chin to tilt back his head.
"You don't have to do this," he offered, wondering what the answer would be. This was the first time that he had ever offered Angel a choice about having sex with him.
Angel stared back at him, his face impassive and unreadable by Howard. "I don't mind. Favor for favor in a way." Then he grinned, a little. Howard noticed that it never reached his eyes. He wondered how many of Duo's grins had been that false in the past. But he quickly put that thought aside, because Angel was always cheerful, even after some of the training sessions that he had watched which had turned his stomach. Angel was just a naturally happy person. "Besides, it gonna taste a lot better and be a lot better for me then that slop that Cosimo is trying to poison you with."
Howard chuckled at the joke and spread his legs so that Angel could have easier access to his cock. "Put it that way, how can a man refuse?"
Secretly he was pleased that Angel had taken the initiative with him. He might learn to like sex again with Howard, be a useful person to him, be aggressive and be the boy that he wanted him to be. Then he wouldn't be so tempted to drug him insensible if he started to tease him again. Maybe Angel was at last learning to like the situation that he was in and accept the fact that Howard owned him, that whatever Angel did was going to do whatever he had to please him.
Duo bent down to his task, blanking his mind so that he could do this without throwing up. He had a lot of practice with that, during his life on the streets. Separating his mind from his body was easy, he just didn't know if he should come back the next time. He had seen the looks that Howard had been giving him, gauging him, wondering if it was worth it to keep him around. So he started on the slow, careful construction of a mask for himself, trying to rebuild the happy kid persona that Howard had found so appealing. The older man might let him be, let him get away someday if he thought that he had given in to him. He would also do anything to avoid being on the drugs again, including acting like he was enjoying swallowing Howard's semen, even though it made him want to throw up.
As he automatically swallowed Howard's stuff, he pulled himself together. It was easy in a way, he had gone to Howard, and therefore he was in control. Unlike when they were in bed and he had to remember not to scream, not to give into the panicky feelings that he had, with Howard naked and looming above him in bed. Maybe Howard would think that he was screaming with pleasure instead of fear if he started that? The only problem then would be stopping. Duo thought he would enjoy the screams, because the guy was paying the bare minimum of attention to him, just wanted him to act like he was enjoying getting fucked by him. Which was how he liked it, so long as it didn't hurt too much, he was getting used to Howard. He might actually like it in few months, so long as he didn't think about T-chan's seduction on L3. It had been tender, giving and wonderful, totally unlike the fucking that Howard was doing to him. Howard was a slam-blam type of guy with his partner, when he wasn't expecting that much of a positive response out of him.
Howard smiled and wondered why Angel had given him that blowjob. It wasn't for the reason that he had given. Angel was playing at something, trying to buy protection for Treize? Trying to avoid the drugs? He was good, teasing him and taking his time with him, but Howard sensed that Angel wasn't giving him a blowjob, he was just going through that motions to keep him happy. He could have be any one of number of men that Angel had gone down on in his career on the streets. Howard wandered how far he could push his Angel, to see how much he would take before he broke down. He decided that the rest of the afternoon was enough time to figure out what Angel was playing at and spending the time playing with Angel would be interesting as he tried to figure out his motives.
"I think that it was nice, Angel. Take the dishes down to the kitchen and tell Cosimo that you're cooking dinner tonight and then come back up here."
Duo walked into the kitchen, head bowed and shuffling a little, grateful that he would have a couple if minutes of privacy. He just bit his lip when he saw Cosimo and hoped that he wasn't going to be too friendly with him, because too much attention from him might piss Howard off. As he rinsed off the dishes and loaded the dishwasher, he said softly. "I'm cooking tonight."
"Howard not interested in having you just warming his bed?" Cosimo asked curiously, looking down at Duo.
He was attracted to the kid, even if before he was in this madhouse he thought girls were the way to go. He could see why Howard wanted him. If you could ignore the body, the face was something to die for. Also his beat up body was usually covered with that wonderful hair. Besides, he had gotten used to the contrast, while Angel was wandering around naked. Cosimo however was very careful to note that unlike Mirialdo, Howard wasn't hitting his little play toy too often, if at all. Mirialdo's whatever he was, he didn't even know if he had a real name, because Mirialdo referred to him as 'Spot'. He was usually sporting a few bruises or belt marks depending on the mood that Mirialdo was in. The guy hadn't said anything that anyone had heard, even while he was fixing him up after his 'owner' had gotten too rough with him. He just followed Mirialdo around on his leash, either in the garden or one of the main rooms if the tall blonde was feeling sociable, then sat at his feet, like he was the dog that he had been named and he was scarred too. Cosimo had no idea what these two were into, but he was just here to learn the old man's operation, so that it was absorbed smoothly into his family. He wasn't going to argue about their personal life, so long as he wasn't involved in it.
"Howard wants something decent to eat. He knows that I can cook, so I am." Duo explained quietly.
"How nice, cooking for the man that you love," purred Mirialdo, from the other end of the room.
Duo felt the blood drain from his face and he just froze. Mirialdo came up behind him and gently drew aside his hair, baring his back. "And he lets you near open flame, amazing considering how burned you are."
As he was talking, Duo felt his fingertips trace the burns on his back that he had inflicted on him. #If he grabs my balls, I am screaming like a girl. And not stopping!# Duo stood still and let whatever perverted pleasure Mirialdo was getting out of this, work through the older man's system. If he made waves, T-chan was the one that would get hurt.
"Nothing to say? You weren't so quiet the last time we were together...if I recall correctly, I had you sobbing in my bed, after you argued with me." Mirialdo recalled with glee.
Cosimo looked at Duo's still, white face and the obvious enjoyment that Mirialdo had in tormenting the younger man. He had no idea about what exactly was the relationship between the older man and this muscle man or how they knew each other. All he knew was that Mirialdo was a loon and should be treated with the utmost care and respect, unless one wasn't fond of living. That is was the reason that he hadn't protested or asked about why he was treating a grown man like a dog, besides the fact that the guy didn't seem too there to begin with and was happy to be a dog for Mirialdo.
"Howard wants me back in his room," Duo said softly, breaking the trance that Mirialdo seemed to be in as he just stroked his back, feeling the damage that he had inflected on him. Duo didn't miss the hard lump that was pushing into his back. He wondered if Mirialdo was going to do something to him and wanted to remind the other man whose protection that he was under. It might save him or it might not, but he had to try at least.
"I'll escort you back," Mirialdo offered, grabbing Duo's collar to drag him away. Duo didn't say anything, letting Mirialdo drag him back to his jail. Cosimo just shivered and wondered if it wasn't time for him to get out of here, this was just getting too weird for his tastes. This partnership with the old man wasn't looking so good, not after seeing the horror and hopelessness in Duo's eyes. He wondered what had happened to him to scar him like that, was it an accident or something that got out of hand with Mirialdo. He knew that Duo was scared shitless of the man, like he knew how crazy he could get. He also hadn't missed how turned on the other man had been by Duo's body, when he had been stroking it like it had been a work of art, a work of art that he had created. Did his family really want to get involved with these nuts? The money and the connections were good, but the weirdness was turning his stomach. Mirialdo was a loose, psychotic cannon that Cosimo did not want near him if he could help it. The problem was trying to explain this to his brother, since he didn't feel that words could ever convey the eeriness of these two perverts' personal lives.
Mirialdo knocked and walked in, not waiting for Howard to acknowledge his presence outside his door. "I found him in the kitchen and decided to bring back your wandering toy."
"Angel is allowed to wander about on his own. I know that he won't run...that he can't run." Howard said calmly.
He wasn't surprised when Mirialdo let go of Angel, he made a beeline for him, kneeling next to Howard, as he knew Howard liked, pretending to be eager that Howard was going to take him. He had seen the disturbed look in Angel's eyes when he mentioned that he wanted to spend the afternoon fooling around with him. Howard decided that Angel was more afraid of Mirialdo then he was of being in bed with Howard. Howard didn't know if he was angry or sad that his toy still thought him of as the lesser of two evils, but then he had never spent hours torturing Angel like Mirialdo had.
"Anything in particular you want or were you just returning my property to me?" Howard asked lazily, patting Duo on the head.
"I thought that it might be nice if we got together for supper tonight...you haven't been all that social since you got him back. While Cosimo isn't that much of a bore, I do know that he's a little nervous about me playing with Treize."
Nothing too odd in public around the other man, he just played a few games of fetch and other harmless diversions. He didn't know what his reaction would be if he had Treize going down on him in front the boy, whether he would be interested or appalled by that activity. He was still fascinated about what had happened to his lover, what he had done to him to share him with anyone, yet. But it would be fun to see Cosimo's reaction to Treize servicing him.
"Then you shouldn't have turned Treize's brains into mush when you got him back," Howard said indifferently. "Angel and I will join you tonight. I think that he might be getting a little stir crazy."
"He's been crazy for a while," Mirialdo replied snidely. "That's why he was a Gundam pilot, the kuva2."
"Until tonight Mirialdo," Howard said, shooing the other man out of the room. He turned to Angel and walked up to him. "On the bed. Just lie down."
"Face up or face down?" Duo asked tonelessly.
Howard frowned. Angel really didn't care, it was like he was that doll again, but he wasn't going to argue about it. Angel was apparently still scared from getting that close to Mirialdo, so he could cut him a little slack, because being scared of Mirialdo meant that he behaved himself. "Sideways."
Duo complied with his orders, trying not to shiver. Howard crawled in behind him and drew him closer to him. "Not doing anything for a while. I don't think that you're in the mood after Mirialdo."
Duo stiffened and nodded, unable to relax in Howard's grasp. Howard continued, "I don't think that you have been since you got here, but you have been getting better."
"I don't want the drugs," Duo admitted quietly.
"Besides that," Howard said. "I like the fact that you perked up this afternoon. Cooking will keep you occupied too."
Duo was silent for while, just letting Howard think whatever he wanted. Not wanting to point out him how patronizing that just sounded, like he was a good dog that was going to wag his tail to keep Howard happy. And how close to the truth that was, since he'd do almost anything to avoid Howard giving him drugs. After a while he rolled over and looked up at him. "Want a back rub?"
"Mhhhm...the object of my desire rubbing oil all over me while he's naked and I'm naked, I won't argue about it."
Duo shrugged and grabbed the oil that was by the bed. "Get naked then, but this isn't anything more then a back rub."
Howard looked at him strangely and smiled. "I like the honesty Angel. But I get to decide what we are going to do afterwards...not you."
"I don't lie and lying to you would be stupid, even if I did. I can't run and I'm here to entertain you until you tire of me. Then I get passed to someone else or you let me do odd jobs around where you can keep an eye on me. Or you kill me, which would be your best choice, before I kill you. I can't get out of here fast enough with T-chan before we got caught by Mirialdo is the only thing that is keeping you alive."
"I understand Angel," Howard said. He really did. But that was part of the thrill of keeping him around. He would gradually wear down all that hate into something else. Make Duo his Angel, make him into what he wanted, more then Treize could have. The name change was just the beginning. "But just give me the backrub that you promised me and I'll take things from there."
They were both silent as Duo rubbed Howard's back, easing away tension that the other man didn't even knew had existed. He was limp and thoroughly sated when Angel finished his rubdown. He didn't feel like moving, but knew that he should. Angel had relaxed him into a puddle of little goo. He wondered if that was the main reason that Angel suggested a back rub, he knew that Howard wouldn't want to do anything afterwards.
"That was nice," Howard murmured, noting that Angel went to sit just out of reach of him, on the edge of the bed, looking like he wanted to bolt.
Duo shrugged and just watched him with wary eyes. He was too shaken still from Mirialdo to pretend with Howard, that he was going to enjoy anything that happened later.
"You earned a break. You won't have to do anything with me until tonight."
Duo relaxed fractionally. "Thanks Howard. And its not you...it's me."
"I understand. I don't like it though."
"I'm not crazy about it either," Duo said wryly, wondering why the hell he was telling his captor this information. Was it because he had trusted Howard once? Because maybe it might gradually get through Howard's thick head that he was a mess and this wasn't helping any.
"Were you this bad with Treize?" Howard probed, wondering if Angel's attitude was something that was going to eventually go away. He thought it might, given enough training on his part or on Mirialdo's
"T-chan wasn't interested in pushing me further then I could go, at least not in bed. He nagged the hell out of me to get me to eat right." Duo said wistfully. "I miss that. I miss cooking and being with him." #I miss having a life, can you understand that Howard???#
"Then get your shit together," Howard growled at him, suddenly out of temper. He wondered why he was jealous of a man that was so broken that he allowed himself to be treated like a dog and why Angel still loved the guy. He had seen the way the Angel tried to drift closer to Treize when they were in the same room together. Which was why he didn't let Angel out of his sight most of the time, hiding him in his room and riding the boy hard, so that Angel knew who he should be paying attention to.
Duo just went still and then looked up at Howard with cold, empty eyes. Howard wondered when this happened, what had been done to Angel so that he was able just to be that cold, that dangerous feeling in a blink of an eye. He went from talking with him, opening up to him a little and then Angel just pulled the frost act that he had seen the first day on him. He could believe that he was Shinigami when he was like this.
"You ever been raped? Tortured? If you haven't, don't tell me when I'm supposed to 'heal' and be good fuck for you." Duo's voice was like ice. "You haven't indicated that I'm supposed to be anything else. Or would you like it if I went as mindless as T-chan? You don't seem to look at me as being anything else but a walking fuck doll for you."
"You just lost any rights that you had Angel," Howard said coldly. "You're trippin' for the next few days until you realize that your continuing acquaintance with reality depends on my good graces. And if you fight me about this and I take it out on your T-chan. And he won't understand what's going on besides I'm hurting him."
"Do it Howard...then I won't have to fight the constant urge I have to kill you, because you're fucking me. You think that I am your pet because you collared me? Think that you can tame me or control me?" Duo bared his teeth, in a parody of his grin. "Think about whether you ever want me to come down again, instead."
Howard got up and grabbed his stash, wondering why Angel had to ruin it for himself, by getting all cold on him. He was surprised that Angel just put out his arm indifferently, "I want all the track marks on one arm. Or you gonna to keep me under with pills?"
"You're not going to fight me?"
"Unlike the rest of you people around here, I'm not going to let someone that's an innocent bystander get caught up in our argument. T-chan isn't getting hurt because you have a problem with me. You have a problem with me, because Mirialdo did things to me that hurt me a lot. If you want to yell at someone, go talk to that fucker about this mess."
"I just wish that you can remember what a good fuck you were under this stuff. Hot and willing, I can't believe some of the tricks that you know." Howard taunted him, "Just a perpetual fucking doll. Mirialdo is going to have so much fun playing with you."
Angel looked at him, trying not to give into the urge to kill Howard. He couldn't disable the collar systems, because he didn't know how they worked and get out fast enough to save T-chan from Mirialdo if he went nuts on Howard. So he'd take the little trip that Howard was sending him on, and do whatever it took to keep T-chan safe. He just hoped he never remembered what happened to him while he was tripping out. He just wondered if anyone in the outside world had noticed that he was gone yet. Or if anyone noticed that T-chan hadn't checked in lately with Maria?
End Part Twenty-Nine
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